The president regretted after the poor little left

Shi Nan sat on the sofa for a long time, and the discomfort in his heart finally subsided. Si Jinhan sat beside him all the time, staring at him without saying a word.

Shi Nan scratched his hair, got up and was about to leave, and said indifferently: "Remember to close the door when you leave."

Si Jinhan grabbed his wrist and stopped him from moving forward. Shi Nan slowly turned his head to look at him and asked, "Is there anything else?"

Si Jinhan lowered his head slowly, stammering a little: "You...can you tell me what happened after that fire?"

"Have you always been in contact with Qin Yuan? Is it..."

Shi Nan broke away from his hand, sat across from him, followed his next words, and said, "Is it because I have been preparing for that fire? I have been waiting for a chance to leave you and get along with Qin Yuan." Fly away? Si Jinhan, is it true that you will truly admit the crime you committed only when I really turn into a charred corpse and die in front of you?"

Shi Nan's words undoubtedly pierced the most shady part of Si Jinhan's heart, he was so powerless even to open his mouth to explain.

Shi Nan said slowly: "During that time, I was tortured by you so badly that I was severely anemic. I guess if I didn't get burned to death, I would die in your hands. When a fire broke out, I crawled out. One arm is broken, so I can only climb with the other hand, but I can't even see the road in front of me. With so many skin injuries, I have long lost strength. An Luo set the fire, and so did I. An Luo saved him, he asked me if I hated you, and I told him without any hesitation at that time, I hate you."

After the words fell, Si Jinhan's fingertips trembled slightly, and his face turned pale.

Shi Nan's expression was calm, and his voice was calm as if he was telling a very ordinary story.

"Actually, no matter how you treated me before, I didn't hate you. Your Si family took me in, gave me a bite to eat, gave me a bed to live in, paid off my family's debts, and bought my parents a cemetery. I think you are The best person in the world, so even if you are about to bully me to death, I don't hate you, I feel that I owe you all, and you take it for granted."

"Later, when you were in a car accident, I had my kidneys dug out without any anesthesia, and my blood was pumped to the point of dying on the operating bed. I never hated you. I was dying, and I asked Qin Yuan for help. I met Butler Lin, and I knew everything about the Shi family. , At that time, I hated Sicheng, I hated the Si family, but I didn't hate you, because I knew that everything was Sicheng's plan, even though you were the one who benefited, it wasn't your crime, Sicheng died , I have nowhere to vent my hatred."

"Until later, you were unwilling to give me a chance to explain. You locked me in that room like a beast, took pleasure in humiliating me, and let me live without dignity and privacy. My heart can't stand that. My body can't bear the fatigue. Every night I feel that I won't survive the next day. I even have the idea of ​​ending up with myself. It was Qin Yuan who encouraged me to live on. Only then did I restrain myself from bumping my head against the bathtub."

"I sit on the bay window every night, looking outside, I want to see the stars, I want to see if I will become a star after I die, if I will see my parents in the sky, and if I can be reunited with them. "

"At that time, I hated you. When I was about to die, I didn't think about pain, but that I could finally escape from you."

Shi Nan smiled inaudibly.

These are the words that he has kept in his heart for several years.

It feels so good to be able to speak, these anguish finally no longer have to be painfully accumulated in the bottom of my heart, and no one knows about it except him.

With a backlog of 14 years, he wanted to say a lot, but when he really said it, it seemed that there was only so much.

He leaned back in his chair, fixed his eyes on the ceiling, and said calmly: "An Luo said, if I remain as unrepentant as before, he won't save me."

"An Luo and Feng Yixiao took me out of the country. At that time, my body was going to be exhausted. I woke up after being in a coma for nearly three months in the hospital. I had been practicing my pronunciation in the hospital. I never had a moment like that at that time. , so eager to speak."

"Later, I was fine. I was discharged from the hospital. An Luo sent me back to the country. Qin Yuan came to pick me up. I offered to enter the entertainment industry. I can endure any hardship. If I don't know it, I can work hard." Desperate to learn."

"When the company was just started, there were few resources, I was not popular, and I had never met anyone. I was played like a fool. I was tricked into the hotel several times with various excuses, and I was about to be abducted. I don’t even know when I go to bed, every time it’s Qin Yuan who rushes over to save me.”

"There was intrigue in the film crew, I never saw it, I was cheated, scolded and beaten every time, it was commonplace, and in winter, I was pushed into cold water at minus [-] degrees, and I jumped from the second floor without any protective measures. When I got down, I was tricked into sleeping with him in the room by the cast members in the middle of the night, but it didn’t work, I called for help and was discovered, but I was slapped in the face, saying that I seduced people, I couldn’t argue with it.”

"I have suffered all kinds of hardships, and I have personally experienced those filthy methods. No one will always fall into a pit. I gradually understand a truth. In this circle, if you don't eat people, you will be killed instead." Eat, if you don’t want to stay low and live as a small person, you can only keep climbing higher, only when you climb higher can you make others bow their heads to you!”

"I know better than anyone that today's achievements are hard-won. I spend every day in the practice room honing my acting skills, singing and dancing. I just want to climb to the highest point. For this, I can endure any hardship. I don't want to be hurt by any People look down on it, and don’t want to be anyone’s dodder flower.”

"I want everyone to remember me, whether it's Shi Nian or Shi Nan, I just want to climb to the top, I can accept all risks, and I can give my life for that so-called risk! Those who have bullied me and looked down on me will consciously back away when they hear my name!"

His voice paused, and he spoke again, becoming heavy.

"But you, Si Jinhan, you want to destroy the achievements I have accumulated over and over again with my life. Because of your words, everything I have done for so long has become useless!"

This was the first time Si Jinhan heard Shi Nan speak out what was in his heart so bluntly, and it was also the first time that he realized what he had done so clearly.

His so-called grief is nothing compared to today's Shi Nan, and he talked about the extremely dark two years in a calm tone.

Shi Nan's past two years have been made step by step with bloody footprints!

He has never been in contact with the outside world, and all the evil he has seen is his own, which is destined to make his path ten times and a hundred times more difficult than others!

Si Jinhan's voice became bitter, and he said with difficulty: "I...I don't know, I thought I was helping you, I don't want to see you in danger..."

"The heart was found two years ago, and it has been kept in the hospital. I hope you can have the operation as soon as possible. As long as you take good care of your body, you can fully recover to the same level as ordinary people. I want to make up for everything I owe you. Here you are, life is the most important thing, Nannan, don't be too utilitarian, I can give you the achievement you want, I can lift you to the highest point, don't work too hard, you..."

Shi Nan stood up and interrupted Si Jinhan's words: "I don't need everything from you, I don't want to use the heart you found, I don't need your so-called compensation, and I don't need you to praise me, I don't want everything about you. Do not care."

"If you really want to make up for me, then don't appear in front of me in the future. This life is something that Shi Nan managed to get back. I want to live for myself, instead of being trampled on like a dog."

"Boss, please go back."

Every sentence hurt people more than one sentence, and a knife with ice slag was stabbed in Si Jinhan's heart, the pain was so painful that he could hardly bear it.

He couldn't say a word, this feeling almost forced him to suffocation, oppressive and uncomfortable.

So is this the pain that Shi Nan endured back then?Can't say a word, can only let those sharp words turn into a knife that kills without blood in the heart.

There was an eerie silence in the living room.

When Shi Nan saw that Si Jinhan hadn't moved for a long time, he was silent for a long time, and finally said, "Are you here today to ask me to do it?"

One sentence made Si Jinhan raise his head in disbelief, his eyes were full of hurt and sadness.

Shi Nan...is that what he thinks of him?

The tears in the corners of his eyes could no longer be controlled, sliding down his face, and his shoulders were trembling at the frequency of crying.

Shi Nan had already taken off his coat and unbuttoned his shirt, revealing his thin and fair upper body. The shallow scars on his body criss-crossed. These were the scars that were forcefully pulled out by those people in the clubhouse back then. The years will always be with Shi Nan, always reminding each other of what he, Si Jinhan, has done.

There was a deep knife scar on the waist and abdomen, and that scar was much clearer than the ones on his body. He also had a scar on his body, but Shi Nan's was much longer than his, enough to Imagine the scribbles of those people back then.

It was the traces of Shi Nan's body being dug open back then, and the kidneys were taken out without any anesthetics. It was empty... the missing kidney was in Si Jinhan's body, and he was enjoying it wantonly Seeing Shi Nan's favor, but at the same time unscrupulously hurting...

Shi Nan threw the clothes aside and said, "I don't have the props you used here. There is a 24-hour unmanned store downstairs. Go and buy it yourself. There is everything there. I will wait for you upstairs."

"Give me back the role in that play when you're done."

Shi Nan's indifferent expression now stimulated Si Jinhan's nerves every word, and he couldn't control it anymore, he roared: "What do you think of your own body?! For the trade of those dead things? !"