revenge in the name of love

Every person and every love is unique. Memories can sometimes be juxtaposed, but not necessarily, there must be severity.Because we are young, we may not know what we want, but there is really no need to give up lightly, no matter what it is for.After all, love requires some self-willedness.

I begged Yu Zhe for many days before he agreed to let me see my father.

"dad."

"Chengxi," Dad's eyes were filled with surprise, "Hurry up and get Dad out!"

"Dad, why are you doing this?" I frowned.

"Chengxi, don't you understand?" He looked surprised.

"Dad, what exactly do you want me to understand?"

"At first I thought you were pretending not to understand, but it turns out that you really don't understand!" Dad asked back, "Chengxi, don't you have desires?"

"I do not have!"

"No desire can only be said to be insensitive. You really don't look like a member of my Xia family!" There was a hint of sarcasm in his eyes, "Let Ling Yuzhe let me out!"

"Dad, do you know how serious your crime is?"

"Don't talk nonsense to me! Let me go!" His tone was calm, but he was very anxious.

"Yu Zhe won't let you out." I resolutely said, "I won't either."

"You rebellious son!" He finally broke out, "Your wings are stiff now! It's fine if you find a man, or the one who was slept! You think I will really admit you! You think I..."

"Dad! What are you talking about!" I looked at him in surprise. His current appearance was no longer the father I knew before.

"What are you talking about? How could I have given birth to a homosexual like you, and now I'm in trouble, but you don't save me! Look at the good son I gave birth to!"

"dad……"

"Enough! I don't want to see you again!" He turned his head annoyed, and followed the prison guard out of my sight.

I walked out of the visiting room alone, and Yu Zhe was waiting for me at the door.

"What's wrong?" He took my hand, "You look so ugly?"

"I'm fine..." I thought about my father's words, and withdrew my hand that was wrapped in warmth.

"Liar! Tell me what's wrong with you?" He tugged at me.

"I'm fine!" I was a little impatient, "Go back."

"it is good……"

When he got home, he was smiling again.

"Whatever you want to eat, I'll go buy it."

"I'm tired, you can eat by yourself." I didn't look at him and walked into the room.

"I……"

I looked at the white ceiling, and the alarm clock kept circling what Dad told me.Maybe it's really not suitable for me and Yu Zhe to be together, there are too many unknowns in the future.Some people say that love is selfish, yes, it is because love is selfish that it can better reflect its selfless side.

I opened the closet, pulled out the suitcase, and started packing for my departure.

"What are you doing?" He heard a noise enter the room.

"tidy up."

"Nonsense!" He snatched the clothes from my hand, "You want to go?"

"kindness."

"Where are you going?" He raised my chin lightly, forced me to look at him, and asked, "Xia Chengxi! Where the hell can you go now!"

"Anywhere is fine." I tried to put on an indifferent look.

"Anywhere? Just not with me?" He asked me sarcastically.

"Yes."

"Why? Did your dad tell you something?"

"No."

"No, then why did you leave!"

"I don't want to go on like this with you anymore! I don't want outsiders to look down on the Xia family anymore! Do you understand!"

To be good friends after breaking up can only be realized when we meet each other without love or hatred, but how meaningful are such good friends?Let it go, forget it.

"What do you mean?" he was annoyed.

"..."

"When I provoked you back then, you were half-push and half-push, and when I fucked you, you were the one who got fucked! Now you fucking think homosexuality is disgusting? When you fell in love with Yixun, you fucked Don't feel disgusted by yourself!"

"Get out! Get out!" I looked at him in disbelief, said a bunch of unreasonable words, and forced those trumped-up charges on my head.

"Get out? That's easy to say! I'm going to let you know right now, how fucking bad you Xia Chengxi is!" He began to roughly take off my pants, and directly unzipped his own.

"No, don't..." I watched his actions in horror, and my whole body trembled.

"No?" His hands wandered over me, "Aren't you very excited? Can you bear it if you don't want it?"

"Ling Yuzhe!" I gritted my teeth and forced out his name.

"Damn you! Hmph!" After finishing speaking, he directly broke into my body and stirred it unscrupulously.

"... Ling... Yu... Zhe..."

"..."

"... Ling... Yu... Zhe..."

He poked a few times, pulled out his desire, and pulled my body.

"Xia Chengxi, I have to admit it!" The corner of his mouth raised evilly, "Homosexuality is disgusting! Especially you!"

After speaking, he slammed the door and left the room.

I slowly pulled up my pants, packed my luggage silently, put away my emotions, and pulled my luggage out of the room.

"I'm leaving, this is... the rent for a while." I took a bank card and handed it to Ling Yuzhe who was sitting on the sofa watching the series.

"What is this? A breakup fee?" He suddenly stood up from the sofa and roared, "Xia Chengxi! Who do you think I am? MB?"

"..." No, I never thought about it that way.

"Ha, so that's what you think of me! I'm so damn mean! Isn't it!"

"..." No, the scumbag...it's me, it's me, Xia Chengxi!

"Xia Chengxi! Listen to me clearly, it's not me who sold it! It's you!"

He also took out a bank card from his wallet and stuffed the two cards into my hand. Before I could react, he pushed me to the gate.

"This is your salary these days! Take the money and get out of here immediately!"

"Yu Zhe..."

"Get out! Get out of here!" He pointed at me and said viciously, "Xia Chengxi, remember! I will never see you again! Forever!"

"Bang!" The door was slammed shut.

I looked at the two cards in my hand, my hands trembling constantly.Squat down slowly, put the card gently on the door, turn and leave.

When the tears flow down, I know that separation is another kind of understanding.

In the evening, I received a call from Kim.

"Hello, Seung Hee? I'm Kim."

"Kim? What's the matter?" I was on the phone while unpacking in my newly rented apartment.

"Yu Zhe and I are in the hospital now, and there is no one in the shop, can you take care of him for me?"

"Hospital?" Hearing his name, I unconsciously stopped what I was doing.

"Well, he came to me in the evening and drank a lot of alcohol. He may have a perforated stomach. He is not going to check now. Can you come and help me?"

"Okay, I'll be there soon!"

I hurriedly took a taxi to the hospital, only to find out that they were in No. 2 emergency room after asking the information desk.

"Kim, it's not fun here, shall we go back?" Yuzhe tugged at Kim's cuff with a drunken and stupid look on his face.

"No!" Kim rejected his proposal with a blank face but resolutely.

"Kim!"

"Seung Hee! Here!" Kim heard my shout and waved to me.

"How is he?" I looked at the man slumped on the chair and asked Kim anxiously.

"I've finished the examination, and I'm waiting for the results! It's probably gastric perforation."

"Yu Zhe! Yu Zhe!" I tentatively called his name.

"Why do you look so like Xia Chengxi?" He opened his eyes and muttered.

"He is your Xia Chengxi!" He patted me on the shoulder, "I'm relieved when you come, I'll go back to the store first."

"Okay." After saying goodbye to Kim, I looked at Yuzhe's still handsome face, and my nose couldn't help but feel sore.

"Liar!" He said with a smirk, "How could my little white rabbit be here! My little white rabbit is obediently waiting for me to go back at home!"

"Yu Zhe! Ling Yuzhe!" I choked up.

"Oh, no! He's gone! Well! He's not at home! I don't know where he is! Do you know? Take me to him, okay?" He was as innocent as a lost child faces.

"...I know, we will go to him when you recover, okay?" I hugged him and coaxed him gently.

"No! I don't want to see him!" He suddenly pushed me away, "I drove him away, I didn't want him! But, it's not my fault! He didn't want me first! He didn't want me first !"

"It's my fault! It's my fault!" I cried and stroked her cheek.

"You know where he is, can you give him these two cards for me? He needs money now! Help me! Please!" He took out two cards from his pocket and stuffed them into my hand.

"Good! Good!"

"Thank you! Hey, if the little white rabbit has money, he can buy a lot of good carrots! He won't be afraid of being hungry!" It was only now that I realized that loneliness is not the most painful thing, but imagination is the most painful.

"What about you?"

"The little white rabbit is fine, so I am fine!" He laughed silly, leaned on my shoulder, and slowly fell asleep.

"..." The pain of disappointment could no longer be uttered.

There should always be a place in front of yourself, and then love.I didn't know who that person was before, I didn't know how to love, and I didn't know how long I could love.now I know!

In the journey of love, I will meet the person I love the most, the person who loves me the most, and the person I choose to spend my whole life with. If the three cannot be together for a while... Some love is to stay together forever and grow old together.Some love is the eternal lovesickness that separates two places.The former is happiness, and the latter is not necessarily misfortune. Love is always love, no matter what color it is... —— Xia Chengxi.