revenge in the name of love

Every night, there will be a very inexplicable sadness creeping up my heart along the veins.It's easy for me to wander in a sentimental world.At this moment, I don't have any words anymore, and I am as silent as death, just leaning against the window naturally, staring blankly at the dark and helpless world outside.

Some people say: "Separation without reunion will never be a good breakup." Then I would rather not have a good breakup between me and that man, never!

"I let you go!"

"Feng Yixun, I'm tired of playing with you! You can safely get out of my life!"

Watching the hostess next door drinking wine and eating small dishes with her husband and children in the courtyard, enjoying the leisure and tranquility of Friday night.But I recalled the conversation with Feng Yuqing in the hospital in the morning again in my mind, and I felt inexplicably anxious and lost.

After drinking the half-poured Lafite on the window sill, the originally mellow wine in my memory turned so bitter in my mouth.

why?

Mingming really wanted to escape from his clutches, and kept praying that he would let me go earlier.Now, everything has become a fact, he is tired of playing with me, I can walk out of the space controlled by him in a fair manner, leave, fly like a kite to the very blue sky.Why am I still unhappy?

The phone on the table rang suddenly, and looked at the caller ID, it was Meng Zhe.

"Hey, Mengzhe, what's the matter?"

"Yixun, I heard you were discharged from the hospital."

"Yeah."

"What's the matter? Feng Yuqing is beside you?"

"No, no. He went to Xia's house for dinner tonight."

"That's right! It's just right, you come to Bart now, it just so happens that everyone is practicing for me."

"Practice?"

"Well, I'm going back to the Paris headquarters next week, come quickly, that's it, we'll be waiting for you!"

"But... hey... hey..." I didn't want to go out at all.

"Beep beep..."

I rubbed my temples, I didn't want to go out... I used to be so greedy for this cage that imprisoned me.

I put on my coat, walked out of the room, and walked downstairs slowly.

"Uncle Zhong, let me go out for a while."

"Young master." Uncle Zhong showed distress, "Eldest young master said that you don't need to report your comings and goings to us in the future."

"..." No need... yes, he said he would give me back my freedom...

"Master, did you quarrel with the young master?"

"No." My nose couldn't help sour, if it was really just a quarrel, "I'm leaving."

"Master!" I was about to leave the house when Uncle Zhong stopped me.

"Master, will you be back?"

I froze for a while, come back?What if I can't come back?He doesn't care about me anymore, he has already told me very clearly that he is tired of playing with me, "Well, I'll be back in a while."

The busy street scene is lively and prosperous, but it still can't reach my heart.Looking at the people walking out of the subway station one after another, I remembered that when I was young, Feng Yuqing once took me on the subway secretly, and it was already late when I got home. I was worried about getting lost, but he confidently held the My cold hands tell me to walk in the direction of the stars and I will find my home.

But now who will be waiting for me at the subway exit?Who will hold my hand again, tell me the direction of the stars, and walk with me for a while.

"Yixun is here!" Yu Zhe saw me as soon as I entered Bart.

"Wow! Do you want your eyes to be so sharp!" I joked to them.

"Occupational diseases Occupational diseases..."

"Come, come! Fine wine!" Qin Feng challenged Ling Yuzhe.

"Forget it, he drank so much today." Haoyue tugged on Qin Feng's sleeve and muttered softly.

"Haha! Haoyue still loves me!" Ling Yuzhe was about to send a big kiss to Haoyue's face as he spoke.

"If you want to come, come with your little white rabbit!" Seeing the situation, Qin Feng pushed Xia Chengxi who was beside him into Ling Yuzhe's embrace, and Yuzhe just kissed Chengxi.

"It seems that it's really the right time for me to come!" Looking at the two people who were lingering, I raised my eyebrows at Mengzhe.

"Come on, Yixun, sit down quickly." Mengzhe patted the empty seat beside her.

"Okay." I walked around the coffee table and sat next to Mengzhe.

"The following song is for my favorite Yue," Qin Feng picked up the microphone, "Ling Yuzhe, backup dancer!"

"okay!"

Qin Feng affectionately performed the elopement to the moon, while Ling Yuzhe danced his best pole dance beside him.

Looking at the happiness shown on each of their faces, I suddenly felt very uncomfortable. It turned out that I was the only one, so lonely, so lonely. It turned out that when Feng Yuqing didn't want me, the whole world didn't want me anymore.

"I'm going to the bathroom." I covered my face, escaped from the happy box, and ran into the bathroom.

He kept washing his face with cold water.

"Yixun...Yixun!" A sudden force pulled me up from the ice water, "Yixun, enough is enough, you will catch a cold!"

"Meng Zhe?" I stared blankly at the person in front of me, "This is the men's toilet!"

"I know!" She picked up the towel next to her and wiped my face carefully, "Where have I never been?"

"I forgot!" I looked at her beautiful face and smiled foolishly, "You are Ling Mengzhe!"

"Did you quarrel with Feng Yuqing?"

"Why does everyone ask me that? Is there some writing on my face?" I was a little annoyed, looking at my pale self in the mirror, wanting to see what happened.

"In this world, he is the only one who can make you look like this!" She turned my body and looked into my eyes, "What's wrong?"

"Mengzhe, he doesn't want me anymore! Woohoo..." I finally couldn't help leaning on her shoulder and crying, "He said he... got tired of playing with me... he told me... to get out of his The world...I have always wanted to leave...leave! But...now I...can't bear that home...can't bear the pain he gave me...can't bear him...Meng Zhe! Meng Zhe! Tell me! Tell me! Am I crazy? Wake me up! Please wake me up!"

"Yixun..." She patted my back lightly, "Do you love him? Do you still... still love Feng Yuqing?"

"..." My eyes flickered, and I nodded vigorously, "But he doesn't love me anymore..."

"You really think so?" She took a deep breath, "If you can't stop loving someone who doesn't love you, it's because you don't know how to love yourself. Yi Xun! Life is short and boring !Follow your heart! Believe it can give you the future you want.”

"Meng Zhe... I know, for his future, I have to leave!"

"But, you left, what do you want him to do?"

"It doesn't matter, he still has his sister-in-law, uncle Zhong, and Haoyue... not bad for me... not bad for me."

"Yixun, follow me to Paris!"

"what?"

"Come with me to Paris to relax! How can I trust you if you're like this?" She had already cried and put on makeup, "Just treat Paris as the new starting point of your life! OK?"

When the memory is really over, when everything is calm.I started watching everything calmly.I know that I shouldn't force my feelings, it's not mine, I let it go.It was another year when fireworks were flying all over the sky. I got on the plane to Paris and accompanied Meng Zhe to report to the headquarters of "ELLE".

Feng Yuqing, I will not hate you.But let me go alone, light and dark, from now on you and I will be strangers forever and ever.How many times I wandered and got lost, how many times I was sad and disappointed, but after so many years, I have always retained the last bit of bravery, and that bit of bravery is just enough for me to find the fearless Feng Yixun before, enough for me to be alone , in a foreign country, facing all the twists and turns. ——Feng Yixun