revenge in the name of love

Do you have some regrets that suddenly appear in your body like flying snow and disappear suddenly.Occasionally, when waking up from a dream, I would cry and lose my mind because of it.Zhenzhen was definitely right, it was rare for him to shed tears again for the person who hurt him, he loved him, so he absolutely refused to forgive and accommodate him.If there are so many easy ways to turn back for love, how can such a cheap person know how to write the word cherish?

What we lose to is not the same kind, not the pedantic and rigorous norms, but the unpredictability of life.

After he left, I gently closed the door and carefully locked the door.Leaning against the door, it slowly slid down.It turns out that acting is so difficult. In front of Feng Yuqing, it was so difficult for me to show that I didn't love him. I braced my body, tried my best to control my voice not to tremble, and kept shouting in my heart to tell him to leave quickly. , I'm afraid, if he stays in front of me for another second, I will collapse, cry, and become dependent.Luckily...he's gone.

I looked at the cake on the ground. The peaches on the cake had left the cake itself and were left alone on the floor.I remember the first time I went to Bart for dinner with him, I asked him what flavor of cheesecake he liked, he thought for a long time, and finally said the word "peach".

I didn't like peaches at first, they were too sweet and greasy.When the cake came, he forked a piece and fed it to me.It was the first time he fed me himself, so in the following days, I would order peach flavored cheesecake, just so that he could feed me himself.I later found out that Xiao Xun'er's favorite food is peach-flavored things. She even likes peach-flavored shampoo, shower gel, and hand cream.

Picking up the cake on the ground and slowly stuffing it into my mouth, it was still the kind of sweetness that I was not used to. It turned out that this was the love between Xiao Xun'er and Feng Yuqing!I'm really... envious of others!

Xia Chengxi once said to me that loving someone should not be so humble, and being loved by someone should not feel like suffering.Feng Yuqing, you can't give it to me, I don't want to force it anymore, all I want is your occasional care for me, Feng Yixun, a moment of tenderness, and occasional ambiguity... Even if it's just for a moment, I will feel that I am not a substitute , a plaything, an instrument of revenge.It's just me, really not the one you want to care about.

In the winter afternoon, the sun is still dazzling, but it lacks the warm charm.

Eating delicious macarons, drinking afternoon tea, sitting in the yard, watching "ELLE" magazine, which introduces various costumes with Christmas elements.Put down the magazine, take a sip of the pure Dahongpao, and look up at the sky.Time flies so fast! The annual Christmas is coming.I remember Christmas three years ago, I was still enjoying the warmth of my family, but in a blink of an eye, everything changed.All the past has turned into flowing water, and the heavy footsteps prove that reunion was originally a beautiful mistake.

"Yixun, I'm so excited!" A lady's voice sounded from behind.

I turned my head and looked her up and down: "My brother hasn't come back yet."

"I know."

I looked at her suspiciously: "What do you mean? Could it be that Miss Xia came to look for me?"

"Yixun, you shouldn't call me Miss Xia in a few months." She sat beside me, "I'm going to marry Yu soon."

"What?" Why don't I know?Why didn't Feng Yuqing mention this matter to me.

"It seems that Yu is not willing to tell you yet." She said sarcastically, as if it had nothing to do with her.

"When did you... decide?"

"I think our decision has nothing to do with you. I just came to inform you, my dear brother-in-law."

I lowered my head and didn't say another word until Xia Chengxuan left.Honey, don't look at me with that worried look, I'm not unhappy, it's just... a little bit of a bad mood... that's all.

It was only when the familiar voice came to my ears that I came back to my senses.

"Why are you still sitting here?"

"When did you hook up with Xia Chengxuan? Is it for business again?" I looked at him provocatively, "You are going to get married in a few months, should you let me go? After all, it has been three years, Isn't it?"

"Xun'er, don't bother me anymore, take care of yourself, don't worry about other people, other things."

"..." Feng Yuqing, do you understand what it means if one day I stop making troubles.It's messed up, it's gone, forget it, everything is over, I'm so stupid about love.

I walked back to the room and looked at the calendar on the coffee table. It will be Xiao Xun'er's death day in a few days.Whenever Xiao Xun'er died, Feng Yuqing would not go home, no matter what happened, he would stay with her in the cemetery all night, and would not come back until the next morning staring at the dark circles under his eyes.

I remember that last year I quietly followed him to Xiao Xun'er's cemetery, and I saw Feng Yuqing take off her suit jacket, put it on the tombstone, kiss every word on the tombstone, and then fell asleep peacefully leaning on the tombstone up.Feng Yuqing, who takes whom seriously, and who feels sorry for whom.

There is nothing wrong with liking someone, it is wrong to like someone who doesn't like you.At that time, I finally understood what he said - after the pain, you will not feel pain, and some will only be an indifferent heart.

It's just...in my heart, there is an indelible scar, but on my face, there is a sad look, but in my eyes, there is a kind of crystal, I know, that is called tears.

Perhaps, those who have never loved are lonely, and those who have loved are lonely. Life is like a play.Life is like a dream, the joys and sorrows in the dream, whether it is right or wrong, it will disappear after waking up.No matter how good things are, we will eventually lose them one day; in deep memories, we will eventually forget them one day; For life, but always inadvertently, the pain of falling all over the ground.