Weekly thoughts

In the middle of the night, the low panting in the room gradually calmed down, and Zhou Zhou Youyou woke up, her beautiful eyes suddenly opened full of disbelief.He actually dreamed that he was hugged by someone!That person's slender and clean fingers, warm staring black eyes...is actually the senior Su Nian!Zhou Zhou stretched out his hand to cover his chest, a little unsure whether the beating heart was caused by excitement or panic.Feeling the wetness and coolness between the legs, he tightly clenched the palm on his chest, how could he have such a dream?How could he be so excited even when he was pressed down by a man?How could it be so shameful to feel joy?

Is that the love between men?Is that throbbing the feeling of love?Does he like seniors?

His mind was chaotically filled with thousands of questions, but Zhou Zhou clearly remembered a sentence he had read—'There is a kind of love that you fall in love with someone before you know it. 'He didn't know if his love was the same. He didn't care much when it came, but he was deeply in love when he found it.He wasn't even sure he understood the sweet and heavy word 'love'.But, after all, I like that person.

If you like it, you will have such fearful and sweet expectations every day; if you like it, you will be willing to let your emotions be controlled by another person;

He likes seniors.

But the senior is a man.

He likes a man.Could it be...he is gay?

Zhou Zhou quickly went to the bathroom to clean up, and then turned on the computer to check information online.Check out all kinds of possibilities of being gay; are you gay; test the possibility of being gay; how to tell that you like that person; like a person's various performances...Zhou Zhou leaned on the chair and took a look Hair straight, he doesn't like to look at other boys and girls, he will only stare at Su Nian alone; he doesn't feel interested in pictures of boys with bare breasts and bare back, but feels shy when he sees pictures of girls who are exposed, he just imagined Su Nianguang's slender and tall naked The body is throbbing and the shame is complicated and difficult to calm down!He will not be excited and happy when he sees other boys and girls, and miss him when he sees them. These reactions are only for Su Nian!

At this moment, I couldn't be more awake.

He likes a person, and that person happens to be a man, a man named Su Nian.

Zhou Zhou looked out of the window, and what came into his eyes were dots of stars, with some inexplicable melancholy.I finally found out that I like you, Su Nian.So what about you, would you like me too?

Zhou's mother looked at Zhou Zhou with dark circles under her eyes, who obviously hadn't slept well, and asked worriedly: "Son, what's wrong with you recently?"

Zhou Zhou yawned, "It's okay."

Mother Zhou looked at him, and asked hesitantly, "Son, are you in a relationship?"

Zhou Zhou froze.

Zhou's mother thought about her son's reaction in the past few days when she came home. She often showed obvious excitement and joy on her face when she was texting with her mobile phone. This morning, the child looked worried and didn't sleep well.Good words to persuade: "Son, you are still young, don't rush to find a girlfriend, you can't learn other people's puppy love or something."

Zhou Zhou: "Mom, I don't have a girl I like."

Only then did Mother Zhou feel relieved, "Okay, come and eat quickly." If the son doesn't like a girl, doesn't it mean that he doesn't like someone.

Zhou Zhou answered vaguely.Xin said that your son is not in a hurry to find a girlfriend, he just wants to find a boyfriend now, his name is Su Nian.It's even more impossible to have a puppy love. He is now at most a crush, and it just started last night.But Zhou Zhou didn't tell Zhou's mother these words. He felt that he shouldn't tell her, so he kept silent.

Lying on the window sill to watch the snowflakes falling outside, from being called up by his parents early in the morning to put up Spring Festival couplets until the Spring Festival Gala is about to start at night, his phone rang dozens of times every week, but every time he picked it up with great anticipation. The mobile phone was disappointed to find that it was not that person.It has been four full days since that night, and he hasn't sent a text message to Su Nian, and that nasty guy hasn't even contacted him!Damn, hate, hate!Bastard bastard bastard!Zhou Zhou jumped onto the bed, patted the pillow hard twice and threw it to the side, looking at the still quiet phone, rolling back and forth irritably, big bastard, if I don't take the initiative to contact you, won't you think of me!

Maybe someone's resentment was too deep, the phone rang, and Su Nian called.Zhou Zhou suddenly turned over from the bed and sat up, biting his lower lip but couldn't control the corner of his grinning mouth, he deliberately waited for a while before answering the phone, "Hello?"

Su Nian smiled softly, "Zhou Zhou? Happy New Year!"

Zhou Zhou clenched the phone tightly and felt his face a little hot. Damn bastard, why is his voice so nice!An awkward grunt; "Happy New Year." May also find himself too awkward, clearing his throat unnaturally, "Well, what about the New Year's gift?"

Su Nian: "What do you want?"

you!Zhou Zhou was still a little sane and didn't say these words out of his mouth. He almost made a hole in the bedsheets under his hand. His head was in a mess and he wanted to say a lot of things but he didn't know what to say.

There was silence on both ends of the phone, Zhou Zhou listened carefully to the almost inaudible light breathing over there, and felt that if it could continue like this, then it would be good to continue like this.He can feel that person, and that person can feel him, and he is happy and content even in silence.Scratching his head, he was discouraged and felt that he was getting less and less pursued, and he could be happy and satisfied by doing so much. He is actually seriously lacking in love, right?Just as he was about to cry in grief and anger, Zhou's mother outside the door told him to get dressed and go out to visit his relatives' house to pay New Year's greetings, and Zhou Zhou hurriedly responded.Looking back at the phone on which he was talking, he found that he had been talking for more than 20 minutes, and there was a black line. The two of them were able to remain silent for so long. Not sure if Su Nian was still on the other end of the phone, he asked tentatively, "Senior?"

"Huh? Think it over?"

Uh, it’s still there, remembering Su Nian’s question about what gift he wanted just now, “Senior can give you whatever you want.” As long as it is given to him by the senior, he will like anything.

Hong Kong, the top floor of a high-end residence.

Su Nian leaned against the floor-to-ceiling window, lowered her head and turned the phone in her hand, slightly curling the corners of her mouth.Oh, the little fish is about to take the bait.Looking at the ominous and bustling New Year's scene with bright lights outside the window, I thought for a while, picked up the car keys on the table, it was boring anyway, why not go out and pick out gifts for his children.

Zhou Zhou followed his parents to visit relatives' houses, returned to his room at home, and threw the stack of thick red envelopes he received on the bed.Began to be in a daze.

Should he also buy a New Year's gift for the senior?I don't know what the senior likes, what!He didn't know many things about the senior at all, so why did he fall in love with him in a daze?In fact, Su Nian probably doesn't hate him either, or he could just confess his love!No, no, what if Su Nian doesn't like men?

But he doesn't like men either, it's just a special case that he only likes this man.By the way, Su Nian likes girls who are soft and beautiful. He used to have a girlfriend when he was a freshman, er, although it was a girlfriend who was used as a sun umbrella.

Ahhh!so annoying!Zhou Zhou covered his head with a pillow in agitation, forget it, just let nature take its course.Don't think about it anymore, go to sleep and sleep.

After the new year, school will start soon, and Zhou's mother got up early in the morning to prepare a bowl of longevity noodles for Zhou Zhou.Today is his birthday but it is also the day he leaves for school.

Zhou's mother couldn't help nagging when she thought that she couldn't give her son a good birthday, "Why do you have to book today's air ticket? Mom still wants to hold a birthday party for you to celebrate, isn't it a few days before school starts? , why did you leave in such a hurry?"

Zhou Zhou bowed his head and ate his noodles without speaking.He didn't know what he was thinking, but when he learned that Su Nian had returned to school, he hurriedly booked a plane ticket and wanted him to spend it with him on his birthday.

He told Su Nian that he was going back to school today before boarding the plane, and the plane was not late this time, and when he got off the plane, he saw Su Nian waiting for him at the exit.Zhou Zhou ran over quickly, but when he was approaching, he suddenly stopped and slowed down. He couldn't tell what was wrong with him, did he run too fast just now, his heart was beating so fast and hard, as if he was about to rush As if his chest was sticking out, he had to slow down, trying to make his heartbeat calm down.

"What are you doing? It's fast and slow for a while." Su Nian laughed at him.

Zhou Zhou's face was red, isn't he timid because of his near-native affection?

"Tsk, eating too much at home during the Chinese New Year, your legs and feet are not flexible?"

Zhou Zhou blew his hair, you bastard near township!What a mess with this bastard!He was definitely out of his mind just now!

Su Nian led Zhou Zhou back to his dormitory, Zhang Yang and the others hadn't returned to school yet.When Zhou Zhou entered the door, he saw a big cake on Su Nian's desk.

weekly:?

Su Nian looked at the time, it was 23:46 now, luckily he did not miss his birthday time.Light the candles and turn off the lights.The faint candlelight reflected the unbelievable surprise on Zhou Zhou's face.

Su Nian urged him: "Hurry up and make a wish."

Zhou Zhou closed his eyes to make a wish, blew out the candles, and then turned on the lights a little excitedly, "How did the senior know that today is my birthday?"

"I've seen your ID card. February 2th happens to be Valentine's Day. It's easy to remember."

Zhou Zhou blushed a little, his birthday was on the same day as Valentine's Day.

Su Nian handed him a large beautifully packaged box, "Zhou Zhou, happy birthday!"

There are too many surprises and joys today, and Zhou Zhou feels a little unreal.Open the big box carefully, and there is a small box in the middle surrounded by all kinds of candies. Inside the box is a stylish and simple white neutral watch.He was so happy today, "Thank you senior, I like it so much!"

"Well, the watch is your birthday present, and the candy should be your New Year's gift." Su Nian never thought of giving anything to others. In fact, he didn't know what kind of gift to buy. He borrows the watch.Knowing that this kid loves snacks, he simply bought some famous candies in Hong Kong.

Zhou Zhou played with the gift happily, oh, he doesn't know when Su Nian's birthday is yet.

Su Nian sat on the stool and kicked Zhou Zhou who was squatting on the ground, "Go, clean up the mess you made all over the floor."

Why are you calling him?Zhou Zhou was not happy, "I'm a birthday star, I won't do it!"

Su Nian tapped the watch on his wrist expressionlessly, reminding him cruelly, "It's not anymore."

weekly:! ! !demon!Ah, I wish him a birthday that will always be February 2th!

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☆、Fan Fei Fan-Daddy Zhou

He would always hear his colleagues and neighbors say to him, "Zhou's mother spoils her son Zhou Zhou too much. This is not good. Enough is enough." 'In this case.Zhou's father opened the door and saw Zhou's mother who was preparing dinner in the kitchen. She was busy and flustered while putting ingredients into the pot while comparing the recipe.Father Zhou hurried over to clean his hands, "I'll help you."

"Huh? Are you back? Take out the red beans for me, get more of our son's favorite food."

"Old Zhou, take a look at the beef bone soup I stewed. Is it too oily? Why is this beef bone so oily? Can our son like it?" Zhou's mother looked at the soup that had been stewed for more than 2 hours. discouraged.

It happened that Zhou Zhou came back from school, "Mom, I'm back." After changing his shoes, he went to the kitchen and leaned next to the beef bone soup pot, "Oh, it smells so good~"

Zhou's father saw Zhou's mother's smiling face immediately, and smiled.If you dote on your son, just dote on him, what's wrong with that.

Zhou's father was framed by someone when he was the director of the bureau, and Zhou's mother was stunned by the thunderbolt on a sunny day. How could she not know what her family's old Zhou was like, but the series of charges against her weighed heavily on her. Well, if this matter is really implemented, their home will really be destroyed.Mother Zhou also ignored her work. There was something wrong with Lao Zhou. It was obvious that someone was deliberately trying to bring him down. She went around hoping that leaders and colleagues could help, but that’s how the officialdom is. Who would want to get involved in such a sensitive moment when the wind changes direction and the ground shakes suddenly?At that moment, Zhou's mother knew what real officialdom was!Brothers who used to claim to be able to stab swords in both sides ambiguously practiced Tai Chi, and some even shunned and closed the door.Desperate?When the man you have been relying on for the sky falls down, and the sky collapses, you realize how small and powerless you are, and you can't do anything, you can't do anything.The moment Zhou's mother fainted on the road, she thought that it was all over.

Fate is always like this, it will suddenly give you a surprise when you are desperate.This surprise is a surprise, a gift, a turning point, and a rebirth for Zhou Mama.The little life in her belly was like a ray of dawn, although it was meager, it was the only ray of light in the dark world during this time. It told her that as long as she believed, there would be hope.

There is a saying that really makes sense: There are no permanent friends and no permanent enemies in the world.Five months after Zhou's mother found out she was pregnant, Zhou's father, who had always been at odds with each other in the political world, unexpectedly reached out to help. He understood that it is not only your friends who appreciate you, but also your opponents, and perhaps your opponents are more likely to cherish each other.It would be much easier for someone to help Dad Zhou. After all, no matter how perfectly fabricated a fake thing is, there will be loopholes.

Zhou Zhou was born when Zhou's father's affairs were about to be perfectly resolved, and Zhou's mother felt distressed when she looked at the small and thin baby in the incubator.Although she forced herself to pay attention to nutrition and rest when she was pregnant, how could she truly raise her baby with peace of mind if there was a choke in her throat because of Zhou's father?Seeing her baby's dry, yellow and emaciated skin due to malnutrition, and the fact that he was born with inflammation and unable to breathe smoothly, the doctor said that the baby might not survive if he had to be mentally prepared.May not survive?Mother Zhou can't accept it anyway, this is her child and her angel!She looked at the little baby and swore silently, if you can get through this calamity safely, my child, my mother will spoil you for the rest of my life and will not let you suffer any grievances. Now my mother will use all the love and affection you have suffered to make up for you !

Mother Zhou did not break the promise she made, she really took care of Zhou Zhou meticulously, even a little too much.After the turmoil, Dad Zhou's style of dealing with people has also changed a lot, and the focus of life is more on the family. He feels sorry for his wife who has never left him, and loves this child who brings him surprises and good luck.He also found that his wife doted on his son Zhou Zhou too much. That time he had a long talk with his wife about his son's growth, and Zhou's mother told him with sobs that Zhou Zhou was her life!Their whole family owes this child, and she can't help but want to spoil him more and more.At that time, she was running around looking for help for Zhou's father's affairs, and Zhou Zhou, who was still a fetus, seemed sensible and quiet in her womb. She didn't have any nausea and dizziness pregnancy reactions that pregnant women would have, and this When the child was born, it was almost impossible to survive. Zhou's mother was really distressed and afraid.Even though her son has grown up healthy and healthy now, she still has lingering fears every time she thinks about that time.Only now that she is constantly busy with her son every day, and all the focus of her life falls on him, she feels lucky and satisfied.Zhou's father put his arms around Zhou's mother's shoulders, how could he not understand Zhou's mother's controlling nature, but facing such a wife, he couldn't say those words of restraint, maybe it would be better in a few years.

But Zhou's father has gradually discovered over the years that Zhou's mother dotes on Zhou Zhou on the surface, but Zhou Zhou is more considerate of his mother.Which of the children nowadays is not clamoring for equality, freedom, and private space. A good-tempered mother like Zhou Zhou endures being around her all day long, and even cooperates to show that she needs her mother's care. It looks like, uh, although Zhou Zhou also wants to be lazy in it, how many good children are there now who are so scruples and considerate of their parents?

People around always say that Zhou's mother is too spoiled with the child, but he doesn't think so. His son is well-behaved and sensible, and his family can get used to it. Try another child from another family. Maybe he will become arrogant and domineering!At first, Zhou's father was quite worried that Zhou Zhou would be doted on by his mother and would know nothing, but then he thought that this child was smart since he was a child, and what he could not learn was nothing more than stealing from his mother's love. Just a little lazy, my son is still young, so take your time.And watching his son grow up day by day, and using his own way to slowly break away from his mother's control, Father Zhou really felt relieved.Zhou's mother's over-reliance on her son has always been his biggest worry. One day, his son will have his own family. Zhou's mother's excessive protection and possession is actually a lack of psychological security, but he doesn't know what to do. Should I take her to see a psychiatrist? Although Zhou's mother has a good temper, her stubborn character may only backfire.Fortunately, his good son has a way of being a big kid. On the one hand, he shows his dependence on his mother and on the other hand, he escapes his mother's control without any trace. The psychological shadow silently told her son's independent growth.

...

"Old Zhou? What are you thinking? Put the soup on the dining table!" Zhou's mother interrupted Zhou's father who was secretly sighing.

"Hey."

At the dining table, Zhou’s mother was busy picking out the lean meat from the braised pork and putting it in Zhou Zhou’s bowl. Zhou’s father randomly picked up a piece and was about to put it in his mouth, “Hey, hey? Put it down, old Zhou!”

Dad Zhou was stunned, put down his chopsticks, looked at Mom Zhou, and looked at the meat, "What's wrong?"

"You have a lot of lean meat, our son loves to eat it, give it to him, you can eat fat!"

Dad Zhou: . . .Reluctantly, he threw the meat into Zhou Zhou's bowl.His family status at home may be deprived even if he eats a piece of lean meat! ! !Looking down at the plate full of fat that was picked out, the corners of his mouth twitched, "Honey, eating only fat is very greasy."

Zhou's mother didn't even look at him, "I would like to eat or not!"

Dad Zhou said aggrievedly: "I!...Eat it!" Alas, what others ate was braised pork belly, but what he ate was braised fatty pork!The gap, the gap.

Mother Zhou gave Zhou Zhou another bowl of beef bone soup, "Son, eat more wolfberries in it."

Zhou Zhou skimmed the goji berries in the bowl with a spoon in disgust: "Mom, I don't like this."

Zhou's mother pretended to be angry, "It must be eaten! This wolfberry nourishes the kidneys and essence, nourishes the liver and improves eyesight, and my mother put it specially."

weekly:!Kidney?Yijing?What the hell! "Mom, this should be given to my dad!"

Mother Zhou: "There are so many nonsense, eat quickly, don't be picky eaters!"

Zhou Zhou had no choice but to eat with a bitter face, and Zhou's mother added some wolfberries to his bowl, satisfied with her son's obedience.

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There is a program on the TV in the living room discussing what you think happiness is.What is happiness?Father Zhou had never thought about this question in a literary way, but looking at his wife and children in front of him, he suddenly felt that he knew what happiness was.Happiness is the little things in life, those things you carelessly, trivial, sweet and sour are all yours, those life scenery and stories that belong to you alone, possession is happiness.His family is like this, the mother dotes on the son, the son dotes on the mother, and he, the father, dotes on the two of them.Maybe outsiders will find it strange that their family spoils them too much, but how can others know the ups and downs you have gone through?It doesn't matter if you understand or don't understand, happiness is yours, and you can't steal it away.

The happiest thing in life is to suddenly realize that you have been living in happiness, how lucky you are.Dad Zhou took a piece of fat braised pork and chewed it carefully. It's not very greasy, it tastes good!

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