person oxidized by love

In the second half of the trip, Ji Xinghui kept looking at his phone. He was not angry, but just ashamed.

Ji Xinghui is very honest about sex and enjoys it most of the time.If he didn't like Zhou Keyun that much, he could say a few words that are commonly used in Fengyue Field to flirt with him now, and it would also add some fun to the relationship.

But the target was Zhou Keyun, Ji Xinghui completely gave up resistance and let him manipulate him.

The car parked in the same parking lot where it was parked last time. Ji Xing got out of the car, and there was a wind blowing in his face, accompanied by water vapor, bringing the coolness of early autumn.

"Let's go." Zhou Keyun walked to Ji Xinghui's side, and the two walked side by side to the business hall.

Everything was ready, the urn was taken, and the person in charge led them to the cemetery.

Ji Xing hugged grandma's urn back, feeling sad.Zhou Keyun put his arms around his shoulders and remained silent.

Follow the number to find the tomb. The tombstone has been confirmed with Ji Xinghui in advance, and it has been erected. Now the only step left is to place the urn.

Ji Xing returned to his heart quietly, the memory of the funeral was a little blurry, and after many years, he made up this last step.

Ji Xinghui put the urn into the tomb, and the narrow room became the final destination of the deceased.

He thought about the burial objects for a long time. He originally wanted the jade around his neck to accompany his grandma, but it was the only thing grandma left him, and Ji Xinghui couldn't bear it anyway.

In the end, he found someone to make a jade hairpin, with plum blossoms carved on it, which happened to be inscribed with grandma's name.

The words "Chen Xiumei" were engraved on the tombstone neatly, and the grandma when she was young was smiling at Ji Xinghui.

At that time, she was very young, so young that she had no marriage or children. She had short and neat haircut, wore fashionable clothes, and smiled freely and beautifully when taking pictures.

Ji Xinghui's tears rolled out, he knelt straight down and kowtowed to grandma.

Grandma is just an ordinary person, her life is full of hardships and unsatisfactory, but she always said "it will be better in the future".Ji Xinghui decided to stand out when he was very young, and he wanted to make grandma's words come true.

On the day when he was diagnosed with lung cancer, Ji Xinghui was hit harder than his grandmother. He thought that his grandmother could wait for him to finish college, graduate school, and find a good job.

He has such a long-term plan for the future that he even thought of decorating the house for his grandma, custom-made clothes for his wedding, and teaching his children to call "Grandma" early.

He thought grandma would always be with him.

Ji Xing heard the sound of the staff adding stone slabs to the tomb, he raised his head, tears streaming down his face.

All the plans were disrupted. In order to treat his grandma, Ji Xinghui gave up his insurance research and went directly to work, but in the end he couldn't let his grandma stay with him for a few more years.

The staff said "sorry" to Ji Xing in a stylized manner, and then left the cemetery together.

Ji Xing wiped away his tears, he wanted to get up, but he couldn't do anything.

Zhou Keyun came over and grabbed his arm.Ji Xinghui used his strength to stand up, but after kneeling for too long, his calf was a little numb, and he couldn't even stand firmly.

Zhou Keyun put his palms around the back of Ji Xinghui's head, gently letting him lean on his shoulders.

"I'm not crying anymore." Ji Xing whispered back.

Zhou Keyun still didn't speak, he patted him on the back gently, patiently enough to give people the illusion of being loved.

When Ji Xinghui's breathing calmed down, Zhou Keyun let him go. He frowned slightly, and said softly, "Do you want to stay alone with grandma for a while?"

Ji Xing nodded back, and he said, "Go to the lobby and have a rest."

"It's okay." Zhou Keyun said, "I happened to go to see Yi Jin, and I'll come back to you later."

When he mentioned Yi Jin's name, his expression and tone were very frank, as if he said he was going to eat.

Ji Xinghui nodded again, and before Zhou Keyun turned around to leave, he suddenly said, "Let me go find you, I want to see him too."

Zhou Keyun looked at him quietly, then said "OK".

When Zhou Keyun had gone far away, Ji Xinghui simply sat down in front of the cemetery. He touched the tombstone. The edge of the stone was cold and rough. He remained silent for a while before talking to his grandma.

"I haven't seen you for a long time, are you a little sad?" Ji Xing turned his face up to look at the photo of grandma on the tombstone, "It's all right now, we, grandparents and grandchildren, finally have a separate place where we can talk properly."

"A lot of things have happened recently, and I haven't had time to tell you. The most important thing is that I got married. You have met that person. He came to our house for tea, and you praised him for being handsome." Ji Xinghui said As he spoke, the corners of his eyes became sore, "I've been crying a lot lately, you must be laughing at me."

Ji Xinghui loved to cry when he was a child, and tears would come out when he touched him. When his grandma hugged him and coaxed him, he would laugh at him as a little crying bag.Later, when I grew up, I endured grievances, but never shed tears again.

"Grandma, I don't know if it's right for me to do this. He brought it up in the restaurant that day. I thought I was in a dream. I still feel the same way now. In fact, I really don't understand why he treats me so well." Ji Xing Hui's expression was a little dazed, after marriage until now, he finally has a place to talk.

"Because I actually only have a little similarity to Yi Jin in appearance, but my personality is very different, so I'm not qualified to be a stand-in."

Ji Xinghui thought for a while: "Either Zhou Keyun has to do everything perfectly, including marriage. Grandma, if you were still here, would you agree with me and him? In fact, I really want to tell him frankly, I liked him a long time ago, and I was willing to marry him not because he was rich, not because he could help me pay off my debts, not because he promised to be good to me."

"Just because he is Zhou Keyun."

"But I can't say it. I'm afraid that if I say it, our inexplicable marriage will end. Grandma, you may not understand a person like him. A rational person like him also needs to evaluate and compare marriages. , I was also lucky, and actually won the bid. Sometimes I really hope that he can really give me a manual, what to do, how to do it, whether you want to be emotional, write it all clearly, and I will try my best to do it. "

Ji Xinghui sighed: "Maybe, I can get along with him longer."

In the afternoon, there were few grave-sweepers, and the cemetery was extremely quiet, except for the rustling of the wind blowing through the leaves.

"Grandma, you taught me that you must be content in life. Am I a bit ignorant now? I have the marriage that others dream of, but I don't feel happy." Ji Xinghui paused and corrected his wording , "No, occasionally very happy. Before I got the certificate, I thought that as long as I could stay with him, it would be good. If Zhou Keyun really needed me, then I could do it. But when I got married, I became very happy again. Greedy, I hold on to what he gave me, and want his love, even a little bit."

Ji Xing stared back at the ring and murmured, "It's only for me."

In the end, I was afraid that my grandma would worry about me, so I said: "But it's not that pitiful, grandma, don't think I'm complaining. I'm living a much better life now. He also helped me pay off my debts and got my house back. , The cemetery was also helped by him. Isn’t this place very beautiful? There are mountains and water, and there will be sweet-scented osmanthus trees blooming soon. The house where I live now also has sweet-scented osmanthus trees. When the time comes, I will pick some and make sweet-scented osmanthus for you to eat. "

Ji Xinghui stood up and smiled softly: "Grandma, don't worry about me, just enjoy yourself below. I have grown up and can solve many things by myself."

"Then I'm leaving, and I'll see you next time." Ji Xinghui said briskly.

Yi Jin's tomb is in another area. Ji Xing walked back and saw Zhou Keyun's tall figure from a distance. There was a woman standing beside him, and the two were talking.

As he got closer, Ji Xing recognized that lady as Yi Jin's mother. At that time, Yi Jin was hospitalized, and Feng Hailan had been accompanying her in bed.

Feng Hailan cut her hair a lot shorter. She has always been a gentle and beautiful woman, but the passing of her son left an indelible mark on her body, making her beauty haggard.

Feng Hailan saw Ji Xinghui first, and she was a little surprised: "Xinghui, I haven't seen you for a long time."

Ji Xinghui smiled politely: "Hello, Auntie, I'll come and see Yi Jin."

So Zhou Keyun also looked sideways at Ji Xinghui, he was always expressionless.

Ji Xinghui noticed that Zhou Keyun was not wearing a ring, so he hid his left hand behind his back and continued talking to Feng Hailan: "I didn't expect such a coincidence."

"Xiaobao is afraid of being lonely, so I come to see him every week and bring him flowers." Feng Hailan smiled, her expression a little gloomy, "Come on, it's just a matter of you chatting with him for a while. You were so good before, Xiaobao must very happy."

"Keyun, let's go outside and talk." Feng Hailan turned to Zhou Keyun with a serious tone.

Zhou Keyun glanced at Ji Xinghui, but Ji Xinghui seemed to be focusing on Yi Jin's tombstone, so he nodded and said in a gentlemanly manner, "I'll listen to your arrangement."

Ji Xinghui guessed that Zhou Keyun wanted to hide their marriage in front of Feng Hailan, so he took the ring off his finger and carefully put it in his shirt pocket.

Yi Jin in the photo was only 17 years old, and he died three years later, failing to celebrate his 20th birthday.

Ji Xinghui brought a can of beer, opened it, and placed it in front of Yi Jin's grave.

"In the past, you always said you wanted to drink, but the doctor didn't allow it. Now I'll supply you." Ji Xing turned his head down and talked to Yi Jin, "Are you a little disappointed in me? You helped me so much back then, and I ran away at the last moment."

"At that time you said, you thought fate was so annoying, we seemed to be floating in a vast ocean, and we didn't know where we would go." Ji Xing took a deep breath, and he saw a white bird flapping its wings in the sky , said sadly, "Yi Jin, I miss you very much."

"In the beginning, I approached you because of jealousy. I thought Zhou Keyun didn't talk to anyone, so why did he treat you so well? But after getting along, I found that you really deserve Zhou Keyun's kindness to you. When I was in high school, many Time is not happy, I am really lucky to have you as my friend."

"I've known for a long time that you don't like Zhou Keyun, but so what, you must say that I am timid. The biggest difference between me and you is that I am not as brave as you. I know that things will fail, and I I can't do it." Ji Xing covered his face back, "It took me so many years to explain to you the useless ticket, I'm really bad."

"You always say that if you like it, you have to fight for it, but that year I was too afraid of making mistakes, and my self-esteem was so strong. Look now, even if I somehow became Zhou Keyun's legal partner, I didn't dare to do more. .”

There is a bouquet of flowers in front of Yi Jin's tomb. The petals are soft and fresh, as beautiful as the person in the photo.

Yi Jin smiled, he always smiled like this, with his lips turned up, showing a little bit of teeth, he looked very cute.

When he was in high school, Ji Xinghui tried to imitate his smile and practiced in front of the mirror for a long time, but he found it ugly.

Perhaps what he should learn most is Yi Jin's temperament. In high school, he stopped Zhou Keyun from confessing openly and then was rejected.In the next ten years, I will not be forever tied to the heartstrings by the feelings at that time.

Maybe it's not too late now, he should be honest with Zhou Keyun today, like a strong man cutting his wrist, and get an answer, either he loves it or he doesn't.

"But what about knowing that he doesn't like me?" Ji Xinghui said to himself.

It's just that Zhou Keyun didn't say clearly that the catalyst for their marriage was not because of liking. He took so many benefits. After confirming that Zhou Keyun didn't love him, would he still propose a divorce?

Ji Xinghui is not that ignorant.

He doesn't know how much marriage has brought to Zhou Keyun, but there are many couples in the world who don't need feelings and can grow old together, maybe that's what Zhou Keyun wants.

No emotion, no trouble, just the one thing he needs to be complete in order to be successful in life.

But Ji Xinghui only needs to maintain the status quo, proper warmth, proper sex, and learn to enjoy the marriage that Zhou Keyun brought him.

"If it were you, you would definitely be able to do better than me." Ji Xing smiled wryly.

He had known for a long time that he treated Zhou Keyun extremely awkwardly. While wanting Zhou Keyun to love him, he reminded himself that he was just a stand-in.Yi Jin seemed to be an excuse for him, because of Yi Jin's old friend, Ji Xinghui could never tell the truth.

Ji Xinghui is a person who observes Schrödinger's box from a distance, at least at this moment, he dare not open it.