Yamakawa

The boy blushed and whispered: "Is this his first time here? Brother, some of my friends want to get to know him. Look over there, can I say hello to him?"

After Xia Youqing and the two took their seats, a group of boys stared at their booths. He Jiachen's real name is the second generation rich, and Xia Youqing's big boss, no matter which one he is, as long as he follows, he will be indispensable.

He Jiachen came here occasionally, and knew several boys in the bar.

But Xia Youqing, although everyone knows that he likes men, he has never been involved in this circle, nor has he ever stepped into this bar. No matter how many boys like him, he can only think about it.

And a few years ago, after an eighteenth-line starlet deliberately failed to climb a bed, he never appeared in the entertainment circle again.

Definitely a warning.

He Jiachen followed the boy's words and looked towards the other side. The booth opposite was filled with a group of beautiful and delicate boys, all of them zero.

He Jiachen: "..."

Shit, why Xia Youqing is more popular than him, he is obviously richer!

He Jiachen didn't have the habit of making decisions for others casually, and he was Xia Youqing's boss?I'm afraid I'm going to die, Xia Youqing hates being restrained the most.

He let go of the hand around the boy's waist, "Xia Youqing, look across."

Xia Youqing turned his head to look at him, followed his words to look at the opposite side, and said in a casual tone, "What?"

He is really not in a good mood. When there is no smile on his face, his facial features are full of aggression, like a sharp knife out of its sheath, but it is also very deceptive, especially when the light falls into his eyes, giving people an illusion, as if He put away all the edge for you.

Who doesn't want unique tenderness, because of this special illusion, it can make all the boys bolder to strike up a conversation.

The corner of He Jiachen's mouth twitched into a smile, "Looking for excitement, look, as long as you sit here, there are a lot of people who are willing to post it, are you interested?"

Xia Youqing looked up at the opposite side, and suddenly smiled.

The boys opposite were visibly excited.

But he didn't care at all, looking at He Jiachen, "Sex with them? Looking for excitement in bed?"

"That's right." He Jiachen said, "I think you've been single and abstinent for too long. Who likes to go deep into the mountains at your age and plans to spend the rest of your life with a camera? Either you find someone to fall in love with, or let go of your desires." |Looking for excitement, love is also a way to inspire."

"No need."

"They want to meet you and say hello to you."

Xia Youqing said, "I don't want to know them."

"What's the point of you sitting like this? It's just to drink in another place to numb yourself. It's not bad to try it. You have to suffer from love, and it might irritate you."

Xia Youqing held a smile of unknown meaning, "Listen to your tone, have you suffered from the pain of love?"

He Jiachen: "..."

He Jiachen used to have a boyfriend, but the boyfriend went abroad for further study, and then the two couldn't persist in the foreign relationship and chose to break up. Everyone in Xia Youqing knew that He Jiachen would come to the gay bar occasionally, but they would always just hug each other She has a small hand on her waist and never has a substantive relationship with anyone.

It seems romantic and affectionate, but in fact, because I can't let go, every time I want to find someone to start again, but it never starts.

Xia Youqing glanced at He Jiachen's hand that was wrapped around the boy's waist, "Aren't you afraid that he will suddenly return to China one day and chop off your hand?"

He Jiachen originally wanted to put his arm around the boy's waist, but he paused for no reason when he heard this, and pretended to be nonchalant to get his wine glass, "He will go back to his country when he returns to his country, so what does it have to do with me, even if I go to have a room with someone else now, he has no right to take care of him."

Xia Youqing didn't speak, and glanced at the boys on the opposite side one by one. Under the changing color lights, young and beautiful, delicate and tender, exquisite and coquettish, with different styles, but none of them made Xia Youqing think.

Didn't even want to put them in his shot.

He Jiachen sent the boy away, lit a cigarette with a flash of fire, squinted his eyes and looked at the boys on the opposite side in the lingering smoke, "Xia Youqing, what do you like?"

"do not know."

"With your picky eyes, what kind of fairy can make you fall in love with?"

Xia Youqing: "..."

He is not interested in angels.

The smell of smoke wafted over, Xia Youqing frowned, "Smoking less."

"I didn't smoke before, you know that."

"Ok, I know."

"...He doesn't care... Forget it," He Jiachen laughed ironically, shaking the cigarette ash with his fingertips, "Sometimes, I'm really curious about what you are insisting on."

Xia Youqing looked at him.

"Everyone thinks you like men, but you have no interest in men at all. Photography, travel, and work occupy half of your life. It seems that love is never necessary in front of you."

"You shoot the world, but the scenery is always someone else. You say to record the world, you say travel is the most ideal way of life, but you are always alone in the photo. Have you recorded yourself? Do you really think now? Is this the life I dreamed of?" He Jiachen puffed out the smoke lightly, and handed him a cigarette.

Ideal life?

It was true before, but now, Xia Youqing doesn't know.

Xia Youqing: "No smoking."

The cigarette was thrown into the trash can, He Jiachen pressed the cigarette butt in the ashtray, and the dark sparks went out, "Look, even smoking is the same, even if you are uninspired and upset, you won't touch this kind of thing."

"Smoking is addictive and I don't like things that get me out of control."

He Jiachen smiled, "Have you ever thought that your lack of inspiration may be reminding you to find other things to nourish your life, such as falling in love. It is impossible for a person to be rational all his life, and he always loses control once."

"Maybe." Xia Youqing took another sip of wine, his sexy Adam's apple moved slightly.

The loud music and the chaotic crowd made him irritable, and he had no interest in being surrounded by people. The bar was really boring.

He went home and wanted to sleep well while taking advantage of the alcohol numbness, but woke up suddenly in the early morning for no reason.

He drove around Beijing late at night, aimlessly, as if he couldn't find his way.

In the end, Xia Youqing drove to the top of the mountain and sat on the roof of the car. The wind howled past him in the middle of the night, and the whole sky was dark and empty.

The wind seemed to blow away his whole soul.

Suddenly, Xia Youqing realized that he seemed to have really lost all the direction, joy and fulfillment he could pursue, as if he had overdrawn all the enthusiasm in his life, living in a kind of emptiness, and his whole soul became barren and empty. empty.

Barren, empty.

The free and easy life that outsiders yearned for and envied suddenly became lifeless.

Later, he left Beijing and saw the nearest flight at the airport, heading for Star City.

Xia Youqing went to participate in extreme sports such as diving, racing, bungee jumping, and rock climbing, looking for various ways to stimulate him, but he seemed to have no sense of reality about the world.

Until that day I met Xie Qiujie.

His heart, like stagnant water, jumped abruptly and uncontrollably, all the sounds went away, and the whole world was extremely silent, but it became indescribably vivid.

The car stopped slowly.

Xie Qiujie patted the person lying on his lap lightly, "Wake up, we're here, it's time to get out of the car."

Xia Youqing quietly rubbed against Xie Qiujie's arms, and slowly opened his eyes.

Get out of the car and take the luggage from the trunk.

Xie Qiujie paid with the driver, and the vehicle drove away. He looked at Xia Youqing who was standing upright in the night, as if a little lonely, "What happened, you seem very tired when you go out this time."

Xia Youqing didn't speak.

Xie Qiujie was silent for a while, and went to push his suitcase, "Go up."

His hand just touched the handle of the suitcase, but he was caught off guard by Xia Youqing's embrace, not the kind of hug between ordinary friends.

Xie Qiujie froze for a moment, "What's wrong with you."

Then want to struggle.

But he was hugged even tighter by Xia Youqing. Xia Youqing buried his head on his shoulder and neck, and wrapped his arms around his whole body, like a possessive posture. Xie Qiujie was forced to look up, feeling the strength of his hug, As if to rub him into his arms.

Xie Qiujie didn't move anymore, he thought, maybe he was tired or in a bad mood, so he let him hug him.

It's just that Xia Youqing kept this posture without moving. Xie Qiujie hesitated for a while, and finally reached out and patted him on the back, "Take a rest when you're tired, you don't have to be on the road all the time."

You are not wandering.

Xia Youqing just hugged him tighter and buried him in Xie Qiujie's shoulder, as if he had finally found his home. After a long time, he tilted his head to speak, and his warm breath fell into Xie Qiujie's ears.

He said, "Xie Qiujie, I like you."

Xia Youqing admitted that he was out of control.

Because of Thanksgiving.

"I liked you the first time I saw you, and I have liked you for a long time."

Xie Qiujie paused and asked, "I can't hear what you said."

He reached out to push Xia Youqing, wanting to see his lips.

But Xia Youqing hugged him tightly and put his hands on his lower back. Xie Qiujie felt itchy but couldn't move.

Xia Youqing said to himself, "Just a hug."

This hug lasted for a long time, so long that Xie Qiujie was in a trance thinking that Xia Youqing wanted him to stand overnight in the dark, but finally Xia Youqing let him go.

Going upstairs and back to the house, Xie Qiujie brought him a cup of warm water, and took the temperature of his forehead with the back of his hand, "No fever."

How strange is the behavior today.

Then he looked at Xia Youqing's eyes, Xie Qiujie couldn't say that feeling, but felt that it was different intuitively, that kind of eyes were too hot.

He didn't dare to look at it, and covered Xia Youqing's eyes in a strange way, and asked in a low voice, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

Xia Youqing smiled softly, with a low voice, "You are beautiful, you are more beautiful than any scenery."

Xie Qiujie attracted him more than anything else.

Xie Qiujie said: "You will definitely be good at coaxing your girlfriend in the future, stop talking coquettishly, drink saliva, wash and sleep, if you are very tired, you will not go to the team building tomorrow."

girlfriend.

Xia Youqing was silent, took Xie Qiujie's hand, and looked into his eyes seriously, "...Don't you think I might like men?"

"You're not saying that's a rumor."

Xia Youqing said: "Just believe what I say. Do you believe me too much, or do you treat me too seriously?"

In Xie Qiujie's eyes, he may not be the complete him. He always said that Xia Youqing was very good, but in fact Xia Youqing knew that he was not that good.

The filter is too serious, when it is broken, Xie Qiujie will be disappointed.How can anyone be gentle all the time, just can't help being nice to a person, just because he likes him.

Xie Qiujie looked at him.

Xia Youqing laughed at himself, "Maybe it's not a rumor."

Xie Qiujie paused, "I don't discriminate."

"I can thank you."