Yamakawa

Xie Qiuri walked over and patted Xie Qiujie's shoulder, unbelievable, "Second brother, what's wrong with you?!"

"Don't touch me." Xie Qiujie pushed him subconsciously.

Now he hates communicating with people, talking, people shaking in front of him, and people touching him.

He doesn't understand why Xie Qiuri is always like this, always getting into trouble and asking others to clean up the mess for him. He doesn't know why Liu Li always favors his younger brother.

He didn't know why the store suddenly said that he was going to fire him. Those people with connections and backgrounds and normal people would always have an advantage over him.

Just because he is disabled, he doesn't deserve everything?

Unprepared, Xie Qiuri was pushed by him and hit the wall directly, with a red and swollen spot on his forehead.

Liu Li immediately became anxious, screamed, and said indiscriminately: "Second brother, what's the matter with you?! It's fine if you help outsiders help homosexuals, why are you pushing your brother? My boss ran over to see You, that’s how you become an older brother?! You still want to live with a homosexual, don’t you know that people in the village will poke your spine and scold you?”

Xie Qiujie: "So? You think I'm gay too, and you think I help men because I like them?"

When Xie Qiujie said this, Liu Li suddenly felt that it made sense. Otherwise, why would Xie Qiujie, who cared about his family, help an outsider and let the outsider call the police.

"You know he is gay, why do you still live with him, can't you be a normal person?! You are already disabled, do you want your brother to be disabled too!"

Yes, because he is disabled.

Liu Li only listened to Xie Qiuri's words, and he accused him indiscriminately when he asked a rhetorical question.

Xia Youqing didn't expect Liu Li to say that, and it was too late to cover Xie Qiujie's eyes.

Xie Qiujie felt that everything was ridiculous. Liu Li wanted to lose him before. He felt that it was his fault that he was annoying. He felt that he was a burden, and he lived carefully for so many years.

He tried his best to become better, so that Liu Li found that he was actually useful, and he was not a burden.

But Liu Li has always been eccentric. When he was a child, he only wanted a little love from his mother, so he tried his best to be nice to Xie Qiuri. He just wanted Liu Li to give him a little bit of her kindness towards Xie Qiuri.

He is not very demanding.

Instead of every time, Liu Li would only hug him and cry. When she was a child, she hugged him and cried when she was a child. When she was deaf, she hugged him and cried. He also cried when he had a high fever. She left him alone in the market. He cried sorry.

But what else is there besides sorry?

long silence.

"Mom, am I really my own?" Xie Qiujie asked.

This is the second time he asked this question. He had wanted to ask it for a long time for so many years, and he really didn't understand.

Why are they all biological, why is she always partial to her younger brother, why she never chooses to believe him, why it hurts to be able to speak out, and pokes at his most painful place.

Liu Li was flustered, her eyes were red, "Qiu Jie... I'm sorry for Qiu Jie, mom didn't mean it, she just talked too much in a hurry... Mom didn't think so, I'm sorry, mom was really angry, after all he is Your brother, if you don't help your brother but also help outsiders, how can you like men, you know what people outside will say about you, mom is just too anxious."

Xie Qiujie asked selfishly: "Just because I'm the second child and I'm disabled, so I don't deserve anything?"

Liu Li said sorry to him again, the same as before.

Blood ties are such a nasty thing.

Xie Qiujie said to himself since he was a child, that was his mother, she was very pitiful, she was not married to a good man, she was always abused at home, she gave birth to him and raised him, and she lived a very hard life.

So he has to work hard in the future, to make money, to be filial, to make Liu Li's life no longer so difficult, to make Liu Li happy, and to repay her after raising him for so many years.

So he chooses to forgive Liu Li every time, even if he hates Liu Li sometimes, he will tell himself that Liu Li is very poor, if even her son hates her.

Then Liu Li is even more pitiful.

But now, Xie Qiujie felt too tired. He didn't want to have any relationship with his family anymore. It was time for him to make up his mind to break free from the shackles mentally.

So he said, "Mom, I never asked for a penny from my family that year."

Even his living expenses in high school depended on scholarships and subsidies from Xie Qiu's military service.

"In 18 years, I will calculate an account, and then double all your expenses for raising me and transfer them to the family account. I will also pay Xie Qiuri's tuition."

He once wanted to die. He stood by the river, but his elder brother told him not to let him jump, so he thought that someone still cared about him, so every time he wanted to die, he would tell himself over and over again that someone still cared about him.

For a period of time in high school, he suffered from insomnia all night long, unable to fall asleep, no one to talk to, and nothing to hear.

He secretly went to the school's psychological counseling room, broke down with the teacher three or four times in ten minutes, and cried so hard that he couldn't speak.

Really tired too tired.

"Mom, I'm so tired, I don't want to be a drag on you anymore, just pretend you've never had me," Xie Qiujie said almost angrily, "Yes, I like men, so I live with him and help him say."

"You don't need a gay family, I was abnormal as a kid and I'm still abnormal when I grow up."

"Let me go."

The room was unprecedentedly quiet, Xie Qiujie didn't want to care what they thought, he went straight to the room.

"Xie Qiujie." Xia Youqing wanted to hold him back, but Xie Qiujie hid calmly.

Swipe past him, enter the room, and lock yourself inside.

Xia Youqing was flustered for a moment. He didn't think Xie Qiujie would be overwhelmed, but Xie Qiujie would hide in the room alone and feel sad.

He couldn't see Xie Qiujie being sad now.

Liu Li and Xie Qiuri were still in a daze, as if they didn't expect Xie Qiujie to say the words of breaking up.

Xia Youqing looked at Xie Qiuri and the two with cold eyes, "Get lost."

Xie Qiuri and Liu Li were kicked out, and Xia Youqing even returned the things Liu Li brought from home to them.

Liu Li was flustered and at a loss, "Qiu Ri... your second brother is talking angry, why would he not want us, your second brother cares about his family the most."

"Mom, who told you to say that, the second brother will definitely not give me pocket money in the future." Xie Qiuri rubbed the bag on his head, feeling a little painful, with disgusted eyes, "And he actually lives with this kind of person Together, I must have been cheated by that man, it's disgusting."

Xie Qiuri often surfs the Internet. Although he doesn't pay much attention to the photography circle, he has a girlfriend who likes Xia Youqing very much and keeps whispering in his ear every day.

Regarding the woman's compliments to Xia Youqing, he responded perfunctorily every time, with disdain in his heart, the only thing he remembered was what she said, it's a pity that Teacher Xia doesn't like girls.

Xia Youqing sat on the floor, leaning against the door of Xie Qiujie's room, and was quiet for a while, tapping on the phone screen.

Xie Qiujie just wanted to be alone and sleep.

Anyway, he doesn't have to go to work, and he doesn't need to make money to support his family in the future. He is free and relaxed now, so he should be happy.

During the few minutes he sat there without thinking, his phone vibrated several times.

Xie Qiujie lowered his eyes and nodded.

[Xia Youqing: There are people who care about you, and many people who need you. 】

[Xia Youqing: You have to believe that you are good, you are so powerful, you can make so many desserts and drinks, no matter what happens, just do what you want. 】

[Xia Youqing: You have never been anyone's burden, you are the most serious person I have ever seen who takes life seriously. 】

[Xia Youqing: Don't feel sorry for those who don't deserve it. 】

[Xia Youqing: Xie Qiujie, I will always be by your side. 】

Xie Qiujie looked down, clearly saying that he didn't feel so uncomfortable when he severed ties with Liu Li, but now his eyes are blurred.

No one has been that kind to him.

He was terrified of tenderness.

Xia Youqing then sent another message.

[Xia Youqing: If you can't accept the rumor that I'm gay, if you don't want to see me, I will leave, I can move away, and stay away from you. 】

Obviously this person told him when he was playing sweet-scented osmanthus that he wanted to live here all the time, and they could share the rent all the time.

No matter how far he travels in the future, as long as he knows that there is still a room for him here, he will definitely go home.

Xia Youqing didn't say that before.

Xia Youqing never said that he would stay away from him.

Xie Qiujie couldn't care about the soreness in his nose anymore, he opened the door of the room, only to see Xia Youqing sitting by the door of his room and looking at his phone.

Seeing the tenderness in his eyes, Xie Qiujie felt very sad for a moment. A child who is discarded will not be so sad. On the contrary, it is even more sad when someone comforts him when he is discarded.

He couldn't help squatting down, curled up, and the tears that he had endured for a long time finally fell out disobediently.

Xia Youqing straightened up, knelt and hugged him, "Cry if you want to."

Xie Qiu told him when he was a child that a man should not shed tears.

However, sometimes he is really uncomfortable, and the tears are actually out of his control, but he can bear it, and he can bear it for many, many years.

Xie Qiujie said with tears in his voice, "I... have become a human being, I am free... I will never be a burden again."

Xia Youqing hugged him and patted him gently.

If the consolation is not sincere enough, then I will kneel down and hug you.

Xie Qiujie didn't feel uncomfortable for a long time, and after crying quietly, he recovered, and they sat on the floor.

Xie Qiujie said: "I finally broke up with my family...but I can't bear my brother."

He had a strong self-esteem since he was a child. After knowing that Liu Li had deliberately left him in the market, he once thought about running away from home. Even if he starved to death outside and wandered on the streets in the future, it would not hurt others.

It's just that Xie Qiu told him, "Xiaojie, you can't leave. If you leave, I will lose a younger brother."

It was a difficult time. He grew up with his elder brother since he was a child. The elder brother was very kind to him, and he couldn't bear Xie Qiu.

So for so many years, he never thought of breaking contact with his family.

But the eldest brother already has a new family, he can be himself as he likes, without putting so many shackles on himself.

Xia Youqing said: "You and your brother are not broken, as long as you want, you will always be his brother."

Xie Qiujie smiled with moist eyes, "Have you seen my brother? What if he is like my brother."

"The person who treats you well must be different from your cheap brother."

Xia Youqing is really a double standard.

Liu Li didn't abuse him, and it wasn't that she didn't love him at all. Xie Qiuri also regarded him as an older brother, but more often she asked Xie Qiujie to clean up the mess for him, using Xie Qiujie as a cash machine.

They just didn't care about him that much.

Xie Qiujie took his mobile phone and opened the photo album for Xia Youqing to see, "My brother."

It was a family portrait taken by my sister-in-law when she first married in, and it was the only photo of herself in Xie Qiujie's phone.

Liu Li sat in the middle, and the three brothers stood in a row behind. A gentle and homely girl next to Xie Qiu held his arm, smiling deeply, and Xie Qiu, who had a cropped head, also looked down at the girl.

Xie Qiuri's hair was disheveled. He seemed a little impatient but he stood up straight in a cooperative manner. He was the closest to Liu Li, with his hands on Liu Li's shoulders.

Only Xie Qiujie didn't seem to know when the filming would start, he was a little stiff but trying to be natural, obviously he was standing in the middle, but he seemed to be alone.

Xie Qiujie pointed at the girl, "My sister-in-law is also very nice and beautiful, and they love each other very much."

Xia Youqing said with a smile: "Your brother has a very upright temperament. It can be seen that he has been in the army."

In fact, if you look carefully, the facial features of Xie Qiujie and elder brother are two to three points similar, but Xie Qiujie is too upright, while Xie Qiujie is unsophisticated and clear.

Xie Qiuri is like a street gangster.

Xie Qiujie nodded, Xia Youqing was really good at seeing people, "Actually, I really want to be a soldier too."

But he was physically handicapped and couldn't get into the army.

Xia Youqing diverted his attention and asked, "What's your brother's name?"

"Thank you Qiu."

"Your family has three autumns, it's very good."

"Because it happens to be from the generation of Qiu Zi." Xie Qiujie asked casually, "What about you?"

Xia Youqing smiled, "It's because my father's surname is Xia, so my surname is also Xia."

"..."

"I heard that my mother wanted to give me a name that sounds very artistic, and then she looked for dictionaries and ancient poems." Xia Youqing thought for a while, "So my name comes from a poem by Li Shangyin - Living Deep Overlooking the city, spring and summer are still clear."

It's really artistic.

A person lives in secluded life, spring is gone, summer is clear and bright.