second crossing

What can change in two years?

If it was placed two years ago, Dongfang Bubai would never have imagined that in just two years, that little girl who aroused his curiosity had already gained his great trust.

In fact, the relationship between people is so strange, Shishi treats it with sincerity, such a person with blood stained hands is always nostalgic for this relationship.

A stone table, on which wine jugs are scattered.

This is the best daughter red sent up by the people below. The wine has a strong fragrance but has a great aftertaste. Dongfang Bubai drank so much that there are already two blushes on his face. He seems to be drunk, otherwise How could Dongfang Bubai, the leader of the Sun Moon God Sect who is so self-reliant, fall down on the lap of a beauty?

Having just been instigated by Dongfang Bubai, Shishi also drank most of the pot. Although she was not drunk, her mind was filled with excitement, and all kinds of messy thoughts were bouncing around.Her thinking is active, but her perception is dull. Shishi caresses her head on her lap, letting her long black hair flow down through her fingers.In normal times, Shishi would not dare to do such a thing.

"Shishi, what kind of person is this seat?" Dongfang Bubai leaned on the woman's lap, the tip of his nose was filled with the woman's natural fragrance, it was faint and natural, not as greasy as those powder smells.Holding the jug left and right, his eyes seemed to be half-open, extremely lazy.

Shishi also knew that she was a little drunk, and it took her a while to understand what Dongfang Bubai was talking about, but she had no choice but to have a lot of thoughts rolling in her head, and when Shishi opened her mouth, she found that she had already said a word. I can't even say it.

Dongfang Bubai doesn't care, such a beautiful moonlight, such a festival, the warm hands on the head that keep waving, and the gentle eyes of the woman above, this kind of atmosphere, warm, let Dongfang Bubai It's rare to relax his defenses.

"If it was in the past, the current life can only be my extravagant imagination..." The atmosphere is so beautiful, Dongfang Bubai even has the desire to confide, throwing away the proud self-proclaimed "Seat", Dongfang Bubai's words It was only slowly and plainly said.

"What did the leader want to do before he entered Heimuya?" This posture made Shishi think of the children she saw when she went to the orphanage in her first life, leaning against her, and talking to herself about the sorrows and sorrows she had encountered. pain and uncertainty about the future.Involuntarily, Shishi uttered such words as if induced.

Dongfang Bubai didn't feel that she was overstepping. After thinking about it, he opened his eyes a little, and his face was calm, as if there was nothing. "It's been too long before, I never thought about it..."

He put the wine jug in his hand to his mouth, took a few sips, threw the empty jug aside, and with a touch, the valuable jade jug broke through a gap, but none of the two people in the courtyard Cast a concerned glance at it.

"My father is a master. He was extremely strict with me when I was a child. He wanted me to take the imperial examination..." The atmosphere between the two had gradually become quieter, but Dongfang Bubai's voice suddenly When it came out, it was very lazy, and it could vaguely make people feel a trace of regret.

Shishi froze for a moment, but just said "oh", without words.

After starting, Dongfang Bubai continued to speak slowly. He spoke very slowly, and sometimes he would stop to think about it before speaking.He talked a lot about his upright, noble and somewhat pedantic father, his gentle mother, his elder sister who had already started discussing marriage, and two younger brothers who were still chasing him with a runny nose and letting him play with them...

Shishi lowered her head to look at the man, even when she was saying these things, Dongfang Bubai's face remained calm, as if she was telling someone else's story.

"What happened later?" Dongfang Bubai's words stopped on the night of the Double Ninth Festival, but did not continue. After waiting for a long time, Shishi couldn't help asking.

"Later..." Dongfang Bubai opened his eyes, and Shishi suffocated for a long time. There was real cold in those eyes, which made people tremble when looking at them, "They're all dead!"

The very reverse ending made Shishi stalked for a while, and immediately, a very uncomfortable feeling surged in his heart. His voice had no emotion, like a stranger, but Shishi thought that this was Dongfang After defeating my own experience, I really couldn't help feeling uncomfortable, such a happy family, why?

"Why?" Alcohol made Shishi's self-control drop a lot, she didn't suppress her own thoughts, and blurted out.

"I offended a force in the rivers and lakes, um, I was wiped out. At that time, I got into trouble and hid outside and dared not go back. When I went back, I had no home..." At the end, Shishi pricked up her ears and reluctantly I can hear you clearly.

no home anymore...

Shishi thought of her own life, this damn life, she never gave herself a bowl of soup to forget about it in three lifetimes, did she ever have a family in these three lifetimes?

In Shishi's eyes, Dongfang Bubai is synonymous with a good friend, an existence like a relative, but he has never been a man.

Some people say, forget it when it’s over, and you can’t always live in the past, and some people say that you can take a step back, but everyone will say this, but how many people can do it?

Shishi couldn't do it. Those things in the first life were like the deepest nightmares, which she never dared to touch, but they often came out to give her deep fear when she dreamed back at midnight.

Shishi's first life is divided into two lines, before the age of ten, and after the age of ten...

Before she was ten years old, she was an ordinary little girl with a younger brother at home. Although her parents were a bit biased, they cared a lot about her. Her popularity, appearance, and grades were average. Her life was peaceful but happy.

After the age of ten, she was a "happy" little girl. When others looked at her strangely, when others pointed behind her, and when her parents looked at her with distant and disgusted eyes At that time, she could only smile lightly.

She did nothing, but stood at the center of public opinion.

When she was ten years old, when she came home from school one day, in a dark alley, her mouth was covered. The rags in her mouth had a disgusting taste, and she was dragged into the darkness by a pair of thick hands... …

Since then, that darkness has been a shadow that Shishi can never touch in her heart.

She did nothing wrong, she was a victim!But in such a closed town, such a thing is a scandal. For a raped girl, people will say a few words of Amitabha in front of her, but behind her back, the pair of colored glasses cannot be taken off.

The girls were told by their mothers not to approach her, the girl was dirty.The boys looked at her with those contemptuous eyes.

When Shishi came out of the hospital, she was already isolated by the whole world...

She is afraid of the approach of all male creatures that can be called.The origin of all her sorrows were those large hands.Those wretched gangsters in the town and the old bachelors often watched her laughing and whistling, and those lewd eyes made Shi Shi's fear of men more and more serious.

She couldn't do anything, even if she said a word to her male classmates, there would be overwhelming rumors about which man she had seduced again.

Eight years later, when she left this small town to go to a wider place to study in university, her fear of men had penetrated deep into her bones, and her temperament had also undergone great changes after so many years of life.

She is submissive, sensitive to words, she is extremely gentle to everyone, but she will never get close to anyone...

It was also the way Dongfang Bubai was both male and female back then that made Shishi accept it. Even after so many years, Shishi has never been able to agree with the fact that Dongfang Bubai is a man.

"Hehe, I don't have a home anymore...but, fortunately, I still have the leader..." This sentence lingered in Shishi's heart for a long time, and Shishi gritted her teeth and said it with a smile.I'm really glad that he exists, such a kind of existence like a relative.

Shishi would never say such provocative words, but under such an atmosphere, whether it was Shishi or Dongfang Bubai, a warm current rose in his heart.

In such a bright moonlight, in the big yard, two people cuddled together. In such an atmosphere, it seemed that no one else could get in. This was their small world...

"Shishi, why...why did you bring me men's clothes that day?" This thought has been lingering in Dongfang Bubai's heart for a long time. No, the last time she took the men's clothing so naturally, it made Dongfang Bubai feel as uncomfortable as a thorn in his heart. Could it be... Could it be that she also secretly despised him in her heart?

Shishi drank a little more wine, and she talked a lot more today, she didn't remember what was going on for a while, she glanced at Dongfang Bubai, and her eyes slowly filled with doubts.

"Aren't you disdainful in your heart..." Dongfang Bubai's voice was much lower, there was no killing intent, only a touch of sadness.

Shishi understood what was going on in a trance, and a surge of anger suddenly surged in her heart, I have worked so hard to take care of you for so long, is this how you look at me?Just looking at the faint disappointment on the face of the man on his lap, his heart still moved, and most of his anger was vented.

Dongfang Bubai closed his eyes, and the emotion in his heart was a tension he hadn't experienced for a long time.Yes, nervous, he himself is very funny, it's just a maid's answer, why is he nervous, and what is there to be nervous about, if her answer doesn't follow his meaning, then, then...

So what to do?Kill, can you do it yourself?

The movement on the head that had stopped for a long time started to move again, Dongfang Bubai opened his eyes and looked at the woman above.Shishi also looked down at him.

There was a slight smile on the woman's face, she was very gentle, and her eyes were full of warmth, "No matter what the leader looks like, be it a man or a woman, it is... my leader, if he is a man Pretend, the leader must be magnificent, and if the daughter is red, then she must also be the most powerful person in the world."

Shishi's words were very firm, she seldom said anything in such a firm tone, but there was an indescribable feeling in Dongfang Bubai's heart, which made him couldn't help wanting to get more and feel more at ease.

"If so, is it male or female?"

The author has something to say: My home network is broken, I coded it on my computer, and then went to my brother’s house to upload it.The Internet cafe is too far away from my home, which is in the suburbs.

ps: Everyone, pay attention to the weather, don’t be like Qingmo, the tonsils were suppurated two days ago, the water has been hanging for two days, and now I have a cold again... _