life is embarrassing

"Xiaoxue... Let's go together after school?" My deskmate and neighbor Yu'er started calling again. She grew up with me and has always cared about me. "Why are you in a daze again... Are you still sick? No good?"

"It's okay... just too tired." That's right, I am Xiaoxue, but it's not Yue Canxue anymore, but Michelle.The name before I traveled to that world...

It's ridiculous...and then came back here after dying there.When I opened my eyes at first, I still couldn't believe that this was my parents. They obviously lost weight several times, and they were haggard...I'm really not filial.

I didn't expect me to be so fatal that I was rescued by the doctor but remained in a coma. I didn't wake up until after Yue Canxue died.

Does that mean I'm done with my dream of being there?Why does my heart ache?

"You go first, I have to go to the hospital today."

"Then be careful yourself."

"kindness."

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"Fantasy, Mu Yu, I'm here to see you..." They were still in the same world before, but what about now?Never to be touched again, never to be seen again?I miss you so much, I miss you all so much...

"Did you miss me there... Are the others okay?" Those memories before death seemed to be replaying in my mind, and tears flowed down without warning... They should be fine, without me, they there will be no danger...

Without me, things will go back to the original track, no innocent people will be hurt, no one will be implicated by me, no one will feel sad because of me, no more...

I don’t know what happened to the parents there, after all, I also gave my feelings, and it’s hard to let go... But everything can’t go back... Everything can’t go back...

I do this every day, come to the hospital to see them, tell them something that happened today, or ask them what happened there, even though I know they won’t answer, even though I know it’s all my own wishful thinking, but I can’t stop Come down, just come down for a month...

"Daughter...I know you are smart, but don't read comic books anymore, okay...it's so childish!" My mother snatched the book from my hand, as if she had been patient for a long time.

"Okay...didn't I skip a grade and go to university?" He took the comic book again, giggling giggly, maybe only his heart knows what I'm clinging to, what I'm waiting for, it's a miracle ?

"Hey... forget it... I can't control you anymore." The mother looked at her daughter helplessly.She has changed a lot after waking up, she has become more sensible and smarter than before, but she seems to have a lot less words, and her eyes are also lonely. Only when she reads those cartoons, her eyes seem to have light.

I don’t know why, I searched hard, looked hard, hoping to find traces of my appearance there from comics, animations and TV, even if it’s just a little bit, I want to find it for no reason, as if to What to prove, but what is it to prove?

but……

Nothing at all, nothing at all, there is Mu Yu, there is vanity, but there is no self, not a single drop, as if I have never existed, because I died, so even the traces of my existence have been obliterated Yet?

I don't know why my heart hurts... I cry every night, I don't know why I cry, I only know that if I don't vent it, I will die, I will die.

No one remembers himself, no one pays attention to himself, no one...no one...the greatest revenge for a person is not hating him or destroying him with his own hands, but letting the person he loves most treat her indifferently.Is this my retribution?Because I bring you danger, must I be punished?

If yes, I would love to.

So far I have not figured out who the woman who killed me is, and there is no trace of her existence.I really don't know why I am dead...

The sky is red again, is another day coming?Wipe off the remaining tears on your face, and try to maintain a good smile today, don't make everyone worry... no, no... really can't...

"Xiaoxue, do you know? Wow... The future chapter of tutoring is really good..." "The skylark is also very handsome..." "Lambo is cuter..." "Where is it... I still like it better Conan, Zhengtai..." "Dabai is king!!"

Seeing everyone chatting excitedly, if it was before, I would probably be like them, but now?Hearing their names, my heart is like being cut deeply by a knife, the blood can't be stopped, but the wounds are still being made...

It's ridiculous to caress the ring on my hand unconsciously... My friends all think that this ring of mine is an imitation of Vongola's ring, and ask me where I forged it. It's very realistic...I can only answer with a wry smile... …

All existences have been erased, but they gave me this [Guardian of the Great Space] ring, reminding me that all this is not a dream, it has really existed and happened, but it is so far away... …

What am I, what is this ring!I thought about throwing it away, but...but I couldn't bear it anyway, holding a little extravagant hope, maybe I could go back in the next second, and be with everyone...

How is everyone?I really miss you all.If there is an afterlife,... I don't want to meet you anymore... I really don't want to try again with the pain of being cut off once I have such things as bondage and emotion.

The most hated thing in the world is this kind of thing that no one is wrong, but step by step, it piles up into the mistakes of the sky, hurts each other, misses each other... (The words in "No. ...)

So let us bid farewell here... Forget about me, let this person Yue Canxue disappear forever, disappear forever... In this way, no one will be hurt...

"Leave Me Before I Regret"

If I hadn't passed by

I don't know how much the heart can hurt

thank you for giving me a good dream

Since it is a dream, how to pursue it

Go with the one you love, forgive me for not sending

young is my only fault

The red light is blinking before the train pulls in

close your eyes and let go of your hands

please leave me before i regret

before i broke down

I don't want to use affection anymore

blackmail your tenderness

How sad it will be I will talk about it tomorrow

to some happy planet

not sure about my smile

how long can you last

If you are merciful, don't look back

How sad it will be until tomorrow