Blade of Wind

In fact, I didn't wake up until before meals. At this time, the wounds all over my body were aching. I couldn't sleep, but I just put my body on my back to put on a show.

Hearing the sound of Ah Ao's footsteps fading away, Caifu sighed again and turned over.

The female officer waiting next to me came over and asked me what I wanted, I just waved my hand and told them all to back out.

Only then did he call softly: "Xiaolan."

No one answered me.

That's natural, I just blamed him that way just now.

Ah Ao is actually right, I am indeed a little angry.

In fact, I can't blame Ah Ao for this matter, let alone Qinglong. The only thing I can blame is that I am too useless.

If I could be more mature and capable, like other kings, I would be able to do impressively and impressively as soon as I took over, presumably this kind of boring thing would never happen.

"Xiaolan," I called softly again, "I'm a useless and annoying guy, right? I'm obviously incapable of protecting Ao, and I can't convince people, but I still have to blame others... I'm sorry..."

Still no one cares about me.

"I'm sorry, Xiaolan, I shouldn't have talked to you like that. I'm... so bad." Whether he was there or not, I continued.

With a soft sigh, the light blue long-haired kami appeared in front of my bed, and said softly, "You don't have to apologize to me. I'm just a shikigami..."

"I should have apologized to you right away, but... I don't want you to misunderstand that it's because Ao asked me to apologize..." I interrupted him, trying to sit up, Qinglong stretched out his hand to help me.I grabbed his hand, "I'm sorry, Xiaolan."

Qinglong pulled his hand back, but I didn't let go, so he didn't move again.

But when I held his hand, I was speechless for a while, and I couldn't help but quiet down.

Qinglong is not a talkative person in the first place. If I don't speak, the room is so quiet that I can hear each other's heartbeats.

All kinds of fragmented images flashed through my mind, the way he was angry with me, the way he carried me flying, the way he protected me, the way he told me my name... It seemed as if there was something stuck in his chest, Tens of thousands of words were circling in my mind, but they were all stuck in my throat. I didn't know which sentence to say, so I just said softly at the end, "I have never only regarded you as a shikigami."

Qinglong didn't reply, just nodded slightly.

"I... I know I owe you all the time. But I don't know how to pay it back... I'm a selfish fool... I always do stupid things to break your heart..." As I said this, I felt so incoherent , simply paused, raised his eyes, and looked into Qinglong's calm and gentle blue eyes, "Xiaolan, please tell me, what can I do for you?"

He frowned, "I don't want any compensation."

"I know..." I lowered my head and sighed softly, "But this... I feel so uncomfortable... I'm so stupid, I don't know how much I weigh. I once wanted to save Admiral Yang, But I can only watch him die; I once wanted to change the fate of Luo Yantar, but in the end I just left powerlessly. When Ao wanted to hand over Fangguo to me, even though I knew I didn’t have the ability, I still felt that, As long as our siblings support each other, we can always go on. But I gave up the chance to go back, gave up the parents and friends over there, and in the end it turned out to be a coup."

I sneered and said, "Even so, I still made up my mind to live here in my own way. But I'm such a willful and stupid idiot, maybe I really annoyed the Emperor of Heaven that day. Until then, let me do something for you."

Qinglong listened quietly to what I said, and kept silent.

I raised my eyes to look at him again, and said softly: "It's not an exchange or compensation. I know that no matter what I do, it can't be worth one ten-thousandth of what you have done for me. I just... want to You do something... anything is fine..."

Qinglong raised his other hand and stroked my face.

The slender fingers, the warm palm, the movements are gentle, stroking my skin bit by bit.

I was a little nervous and twisted my fingers unconsciously.

When I said these words, I have already decided that I will answer no matter what Qinglong asks, even if he wants me... let him...

However, as he approached me, I could really feel his body temperature and the entangled breathing of each other, and I still resisted a little in my heart, even my back was tense.

So far, there is no room for repentance.

I simply closed my eyes, put my face in his palm, and prepared to hand myself over to him.

But Qinglong withdrew his hand, and hugged me tenderly, being very careful not to touch my wound, gently stroking my hair, and pressing my face to his chest.

I obediently leaned into his arms, but a little inexplicably.

Qinglong's voice came from above my head, low and soft, "That's fine. Just let me stay with you."

"But……"

"I'm not as good as you said. I'm just a shikigami, and everything is just the shikigami's duty. When you are in pain, when you are hesitating, I am completely powerless. Your responsibility, your hard work, I I can't share it at all. All I can do for you is to carry out your orders, but I can't even do that. You are right. I am the one who is completely useless."

Qinglong rarely talks so much.

I felt unreal for a moment, and raised my head slightly to look at him.

Qinglong had an expression on his face that I had never seen before, gentle and sad.

"A useless shikigami has no value in existence. But my heart is full of nostalgia. Even if I can't do anything, I still want to be by your side. It's my fault, but I want to find an excuse to fight with you... . . . " he continued, laughing self-deprecatingly, "Look, I'm the worst one."

I couldn't speak, I just reached out and hugged him tightly.

Qinglong let me hold her, gently stroking my hair, his voice was as low as a whisper, "So, you don't have to blame yourself, let alone feel that you owe me. I am your shikigami, and for me, the best The thing is that I can protect you for the rest of my life and die for you..."

I put my hand over his lips.

So he didn't say anything more, just looked at me quietly.

This is probably the most calm and honest communication between me and Qinglong in such a long time.

But I find it funny to say so many things in my heart.

While laughing, tears flowed.

I leaned in Qinglong's arms, laughing and crying while hugging him tightly.

"So Xiaolan, you are also an idiot."

He hugged me lightly and nodded. "Um."