Helpless

"I know, I'm inferior compared to other people." The boy said this, a little unconfident, raised his hand and scratched his head, with a smirk on his face.In all fairness, he is indeed not the most outstanding one of the Songyang sect, no matter from every aspect, he is overwhelmed by others.

Sugiyama Xi coughed lightly: "That's not what I meant." If she really wanted to choose the best person in all aspects, she would really not be able to get married.You must know that the world is so big, there are always countless better ones waiting behind, "and you are not bad."

Sincerely speaking, he is a handsome and powerful man, and the reason why he occasionally feels inferior is probably because he met those monsters under the Songyang sect at an untimely time...so when he was studying, he ranked second in the exam for ten thousand years, and he was under Gui He was the deputy squad leader of Wannian; he was not as decisive as Takasugi, and he was just a small captain of the Ghost Soldier on the battlefield; he couldn't say anything about Sakata Gintoki, whose name Shiroyasha shocked both the enemy and us.Even Nozomi Sugiyama has more ruthlessness to charge forward than him.

"I know where I am, so don't need to comfort me, I don't feel bad about it." He smiled, showing his cute little canine teeth. If he didn't have a background in war, then he was probably just a school grass-level sunny boy or something. "I just want to say, maybe I can't compare to him, but I really like you, Xiaoxi."

She was taken aback, and subconsciously thought of "him". She didn't know how he knew, so she immediately pushed his shoulder with a smirk: "What'him' hahahaha...Aren't you awake, An Yuantong? !"

"Don't be nervous!" An Yuan laughed loudly, "I don't know who that person is, anyway, I can't run away from those guys, right? That's why I said so."

"...Don't scare me!" She shyly pushed him to stagger, "The girl's heart is very shy, I don't want to be guessed by you, I will not be able to explain to my future husband later."

"That..." An Yuan stared at her for a long time, then suddenly knelt on the ground, and gave her a very formal gift, "Xiaoxi, can you marry me? I hope you can marry me!"

It was the first time in her life that someone confessed her love and proposed a marriage proposal. She didn't even have time to feel relieved or slow down. She could only open her eyes wide and stared at him in shock rather than surprise. Can speak.Although An Yuan did take good care of her at ordinary times... But she dared to pat her chest and swear that she never thought about it more than once!Everyone is possible, but An Yuan is the most unlikely? !

Rather than saying that An Yuan is kind to her, it is better to say that she is a nanny at all, and she can take care of everyone properly, especially the few people who walked out of the Songyang Private School together.Gui was attacked once, and he was in a coma for a day. An Yuan stayed by his bedside without moving his nest, with a virtuous and virtuous look on his face. Those who didn’t know him thought he was Gui’s surname (huh); when war supplies were in short supply, The sugar that Yinshi relied on as life energy was also exchanged by Yasuhara from nowhere. Even Takasugi's eyes were sure to never heal at the time, Sugiyama Nozomi didn't cry, and turned his back to see him hiding in the corner An Yuan, who cried more pear blossoms and rain than the girl's family.

At this moment, she suddenly had this idea: In fact, An Yuan loves everyone here, but there is only one woman, Sugi Shanxi, and he, as the only child in the family, must pass on the family line or something... ………………

"Hey, that..." Actually, how do you know that wigs can't grow if you haven't tried it... (beating)

"Actually, I intend to keep this idea buried in my heart, at least not to say it in this kind of time, in this kind of place, in this kind of scene. But Xiaoxi, since the death of the teacher, I have completely felt the current situation. The world is impermanent nowadays. If I don’t say a lot of things, I’m afraid I won’t have a chance in the future. So even if I guess that the person you like is not me, I still want to say it before you get together, or… "I don't know when I will leave this world before.War is the cruelest. Everyone who goes to the battlefield must have the consciousness that if he leaves today, he will never come back.

"..." Her face turned gray instantly.

Teacher Songyang passed away not long ago, and only one head was sent here.Those guys kidnapped the teacher without authorization, imprisoned him, tortured him for many years, and finally decapitated him.So, what are you and them doing?He thought he could take back the teacher by picking up the knife in his hand, but what happened in the end?She couldn't even recall what kind of mood she was in at that moment, standing there from a distance, looking at the head on the ground.

The teacher Songyang who picked up homeless ghosts like her, taught them gently, and took care of them carefully... the teacher Songyang who taught them how to be human, the teacher who loves all students selflessly... …

It is said that he wants to kill heaven and man endlessly, because he was born with hatred in his blood.But was it really like this from the beginning?Sometimes I ask myself, it's not.From the beginning, Sugiyama Nozomi just wanted to blend in with the crowd, be able to be loved by others, and be able to love others openly.After repeated setbacks and failures, she once felt that she should give up, but at this time, she met Teacher Songyang and the guys under him, and was tolerated like that... So in the end, she just thought, if she could continue like this , how good it would be to give up the hatred and the unbearable past.When I was young, I studied hard, found a good job, married the person I liked when I was old, gave birth to a daughter as lovely as myself (...), and supported the teacher with the other party, and a lot of people gathered during the New Year Let's chat together and say something...

Not a single idea was realized.

So there is no way to forgive the world, and there is no way to understand the world at all.This world will only continue to deprive everything!Why do you keep giving faint hope from the beginning, making people think that you can still struggle, but the next second, you tightly choke your own throat, with invisible hands, tightly, tightly, and completely unable to breathe.

"Heaven and man are attacking! Hurry up and assemble!"

On the other side of the rotten wall, everyone's eager cries suddenly sounded, Yasuhara and Sugiyama Ki both froze for a moment, clenched the knives in their hands and were about to rush out.

"Wait!" Sugiyama Xi grabbed him and pushed him aside, "You are a backup! Don't play until the end! This is a surprise attack, and the heavens and humans will not attack for too long, and there should not be many. We will be back soon, Jin Helping them must have a small meeting in the middle, you are in charge of arranging the venue and remember that melon seeds should be creamy..."

"No, I'm going!"

"Shut up! You can't go! You just said that you must die, you idiot!" She roared, "Whether it's TV or novels, people who suddenly confess and propose marriage inexplicably will definitely—— You stay and prepare for the venue , and arrange for medical treatment. After passing the death limit, you will be able to go to the end!" She heard Takasugi's voice from the other side of the wall, and hurriedly jumped onto the rotten wall, "Here I am!" Then she looked back An Yuan, "...I'll leave everything behind you to rest."

After speaking, she jumped to the wall to gather.An Yuan frowned, but he had no choice but to listen to her, because the camp was in chaos at this time, there must be a reliable person to stay behind.

However, she kept him out of the battlefield, but she still couldn't predict God's will.Or maybe the power of the line that says you must die is so powerful that no one can stop what must be decided to come.

When she stuck on the battlefield as always, slashing and killing heaven and humans to her heart's content, Sakata Gintoki turned around and pulled her back as usual: "You are sick! I told you to go back early!"

"It's the leaders going back to the meeting, what's my business?!" She yelled in response.In fact, there were indeed a few teams left to fight against the remaining celestial beings, so she naturally stayed behind not to be outdone.

"An Yuantong is dead, go back and see him for the last time! And shut your crow's mouth!" Yin Shi also roared.

She was stunned, numbly raised her hand and cut off the bull's head on the opposite side, and stared back at him: "Speaking of this, don't you want your dick anymore? If you don't want it, I'll cut it off for you."

Sakata Gintoki didn't bother to talk to her.

When she ran back, An Yuantong was already dead.It is said that he habitually tried the water for Gao Shan, Gui and others first. Gao Shan saw him holding his own cup, and before he frowned and spoke, he fell down.

Sugiyama Nozomi hugged Yasuhara's body, and didn't say a word for a long time, and couldn't even cry.There were too many things in the past few days, which made her feel that her mind was blocked for a moment, she couldn't think of anything, and she was completely blank.She just hugged An Yuan numbly, raised her head, and met Gao Shan's gaze: "You are a villain, do you know that?"

Takasugi didn't speak.In fact, if it is not An Yuan, then the person lying here is himself.Although the traitor who sneaked in has been found out and killed for the time being, nothing can be changed.The companions who grew up with me and fought with me have died in my place.Teacher Songyang is dead, An Yuan is dead... Who will be next?wig?Silver hour?Nozomi Sugiyama?Or is it yourself?But that's all right.

Gui is also very sad, but at this time, he must calmly dissuade: "Xiko, Takasugi also—"

"I'm not talking about him, I'm talking about myself, can I do it?!" She screamed sharply and mournfully, "I'm a villain! I killed him, I let him stay here ! I killed him!"

At this moment, someone opened the curtain and came in, seeing the situation in silence for two seconds, and gave a solemn salute to An Yuan's body - An Yuan's security, gentleness, and cheerfulness made him very popular among the team members.Then he walked over and respectfully said to Gao Shan: "There is a decision from above, retreat."

Several people all looked towards the person who came.

"The shogunate's surrender to heaven and man, and the collusion between heaven and man have long been a trend." The face of the visitor was equally ugly, "the shogunate has long regarded our fighters from all over the world as enemies, and they will not hesitate to further collude with heaven and man, so as to completely kill us .Now there is no room for further struggle, our supplies and troops are greatly insufficient, retreating first is the only way.”

All the people have never surrendered and retreated in the face of death, but what is the shogunate doing?Those people are negotiating peace with the invaders, surrendering, and signing a series of contracts that humiliate the country!Is this politics?Treat people in all countries as their own vassals, accept and use only those who are weak and obedient, and then use all means to kill opposing forces that threaten them.The country is not the most important thing in their hearts. As long as they can maintain their power and status, they will not hesitate to sacrifice the country as a condition.

But is it so?It's not like that at all.The government exists for the sake of the country, and it must not be reversed!

The visitor was so angry that he couldn't help himself while talking, and slammed his fist on the table: "Damn! We are all for this country, but the shogunate actually..."

Gui, who has always had the best temper, also showed an extremely angry expression.They were all forced to such an embarrassing situation. They were obviously fighting for the country, but they were not recognized in the end, and they would be killed by the rulers of the country they were defending. They even gave up the sovereignty of more countries to them. Aggressors—how much irony could it be?Is there anything more ironic than this? !

At this time, they remembered the words that Teacher Songyang had said a long time ago.

"Where are you going?!" In the silence, Takasugi grabbed Sugiyama Nozomi who stood up suddenly and rushed out, and said in a deep voice, "Stay here for me!" Then he said to the man who came in, "Assemble the ghost army immediately ——Nozomi Sugiyama, stop!"

"Shut up!" She yelled back at him, "It's your business to do what you want to do, and I have my own things to solve!"

"Ever since you stayed here, I told you that the battlefield is not a playground, and war is not a game! Since you want to join, you must abide by the rules of war!"

"I don't want to play with you guys anymore, okay? Why don't you let me die? I just like to die." She stared into his eyes, "It's better for a bastard like me, a monster with human blood, to die in Is there a more suitable ending on a dirty battlefield? Shinsuke Takasugi, I’m the one to tell you now, no one can undo the curse on me except my death.” At the end, her expression became more and more serious. The more calm, finally laughed, "This is really a curse, whoever likes me will definitely die. My father is like this, my adoptive mother is like this, Teacher Songyang is like this, Ah Tong is like this... all of them People are like this. I don't want to be liked, and I hate people who like me dying one by one, so let it all end like this."

Takasugi thought it was funny—although he always felt that he was living among a group of people who were so funny that he felt headaches and shame—who did she think she was?It is true that all the messy things happened, but it is not enough to think highly of her, it is all because of her.

"Wait!" The man who came in suddenly said, "I always feel that there is one person missing..."

"You said that..." Gui was also puzzled.

"...Gintoki!" Sugiyama Nozomi suddenly pushed Gao Sugi's hand away, raised the knife and ran out, no one could stop him.

Gao Shan's face was ugly, but he just walked out of the tent, and said in a deep voice: "Call all the staff together immediately, and prepare for a big retreat!"

Although two idiots ran out, it was obviously the moment when the overall situation was the most important thing, and he didn't have any extra choices.The lives of all the ghost soldiers are in his hands. For the time being, he doesn't know what will happen in the future, so he can only do this first to save more lives.On the battlefield, life is the most fragile and the most cherished.He is the leader of the Ghost Squad, all members of the Ghost Squad are willing to obey his will and entrust their lives to him, this is a trust that cannot be lived up to.

Therefore, no one could imagine all the pain in his heart when he found out that he had truly failed them not long after.The shogunate betrayed everyone, reached a series of agreements with Heaven and Man, compromised with the outside world, agreed to a series of excessive conditions and reached many agreements, one of which was impressively: kill all the barbarians.

Gao Shan wore a wide hat, mingled among the crowd, silently watching all the members of the Ghost Soldier Squad who had their heads cut off and exposed to the sun and rain in full view after being strangled—just like Mr. Songyang, they suffered The shame of the first place.Their eyes are wide open, seeming to be full of questions, and cannot be released until death.

This country has thus turned its back on the men and women who fought for it.And he couldn't do anything.Whether it was Matsuyo-sensei, Yasuhara, members of the ghost soldier team... all died in front of Takasugi Shinsuke, and he could only stare into their eyes.

The shadow cast by the wide brim of the hat completely covered his face. He listened to the comments of the people around him, turned and left, and passed by the long-haired man in the same dress who passed by.Both of them paused and spoke in a low voice.

"Chenma has already left the earth. He has always thought about going to heaven. Yinshi also left without saying goodbye after that battle. What are your plans for the future?" Gui didn't mention someone, not because he forgot, but because he had already not necessary.

On that day, Yinshi and she rushed out one after another.Gui and the others could only arrange for all the teams to evacuate to a safe area before turning back to pick up the two who hadn't returned to the team for a long time.

When Gui found Yin, who was still breathing in the pile of corpses, he was lying among the corpses. He was like a lifeless dead man, his whole body was in a mess, his silver hair was also dyed red, like a scarlet dead fish. Staring blankly at the cloudy sky.The stillness of post-war death is everywhere, and vultures are circling in the distance not far away, or flying down to peck at the corpses. Everything looks like a long time ago.

"... Yinshi?! Yinshi!" Gui quickly went to help him up, making sure that he was still breathing, "Where is Xizi Yinshi?!"

Sakata Gintoki was still silently looking at the battlefield stretching into the distance, his eyes were filled with silence.

Everything is very similar to the life before being picked up by Mr. Songyang, sitting alone in the pile of dead people, looking at the dark sky, eating rotten food, and vultures staring at him, I don't know what to live for when.

"...I heard that there is a ghoul here, so I came to have a look. Is that you? That's a really cute ghost."

The person who said this changed his entire life.

Picked up by the teacher back to the private school, met lifelong friends, and watched them die one by one.And he can't do anything.Why wasn't he the one who died?Why are you the one who survived and not others?Sitting among the dead and asking myself this kind of question probably deserves a beating.

"Why are you crying? Please spare me Yinsang... If you cry again, I will throw you here to feed the birds." When I said this, it was only a dozen hours ago.He was still carrying Sugiyama Nozomi and walking through the pile of dead people with difficulty, thinking that the two of them could go back together, and he had already figured it out. This time, let her be scolded to death by Gao Shan. Jidu can only look for a wig (what's wrong with that), "What are you doing here? Without evidence, do you think suspiciously that you can see the mistress if you follow behind your husband?"

She was still crying, crying endlessly, which made his hair stand on end: "Hey Yinsang, I didn't lie to you, I will really throw you down!"

"You leave me behind, I don't want to live anyway!" She shouted, "Sakata Yintoki, why are you carrying me back?! I have already made up my mind that I won't go back! Those bastards... I Gotta kill them!"

"I've killed enough, save two to continue tomorrow."

"I'm going to kill them all!" She gritted her teeth, choked on his back, tears still flowing, "... Curly, don't die in front of me. I don't want to see you again Anyone who dies before me."

"Worry about yourself."

"I don't care anymore. I'm not a second grader. I really don't care. Curly, I feel that every moment of my life scares me. I'm afraid of being ridiculed, excluded, and seeing the person I like die..."

He fell silent, ignored her, and walked slowly with his back behind his back.He was also seriously injured, and he still carried her on his back, and he didn't even have the energy to scold her for being long-winded.

"A Tong told me this morning that he liked me. Curly, do you think I will never get married? He died just after he finished speaking. I don't know what to do. I still want to I talked a lot, how can I tactfully refuse him so as not to hurt my feelings..." Her tears soaked the clothes on his back, "Curly, tell me, our relationship for so many years is not easy, women are easy I'm sticky about things like feelings..."

These were the last words she said to him, and then he fell to the ground with a knife in her hand.In fact, she was probably afraid of killing him directly, so she didn't use much strength. He only woke up after being dizzy for a few minutes.

There were two corpses covering his body in disguise, and he didn't even have the strength to push them away.Probably it has indeed reached its limit. Just now, walking with her on its back was already an automatic function of the body. In fact, I don't have any consciousness, and now I don't even have the energy to move.

Her hearing has always been very sensitive, and she heard the movement of heaven and man one step earlier than him, and took action.

Gui gave him a simple wound treatment, and fed him a few sips of water, which gave him some strength.He was struggling to get up and look for her body, but this was not much better than finding a needle in a haystack, and it was useless.

"I will definitely return to everyone soon..."

"...So until then, Gintoki, please protect your comrades, please protect everyone. 』

"It's a deal. 』

……

No, he didn't fulfill the agreement with the teacher, and in the end, he couldn't protect anything.So the teacher did not return to everyone soon.

……

Facing Gui's inquiry, Gao Shan only said one sentence: "Do what I should do." Then he turned around and left without looking back.

What he should do, and the only thing he can do, is to destroy this disgustingly filthy and hateful world.What else can the existing world do besides letting the people he wants to protect die one by one?

Teacher Songyang is like this, and so are other people.

This world is so corrupt that there is no way to fix it, it can only be destroyed.

From here, the former companions turned their backs on each other and walked away, never returning to the same point.

The author has something to say: Does anyone else remember the pile of notes dug out by Little Gossip?

There is a student who wants to win the exam... that is Yasuhara ==