Helpless

When Sakata Gintoki pushed open the backyard door of Shimura's house with a cold face and strode inside, Kamikaze was sitting on the porch looking up at the cherry blossom trees in the yard.Her body is too thin, obviously a few years older than A Miao, but wearing the latter's bathrobe looks much wider, loosely hung there, being blown by the wind, the original long brown hair is not tied up as usual He got up and draped it casually behind his back.

Gui caught up from behind and said urgently, "Yinshi, don't be impulsive, impulsiveness is the devil!"

Hearing the voice, Kamikaze turned his head and looked at them who were walking towards him, with a longing and satisfied smile on his face: "The cherry tree in Miss Miao's house is growing really well."

Sakata Gintoki had already walked straight in front of her, reached out and grabbed her skirt, almost lifting her up.His scarlet eyes stared fixedly at hers, as if trying to see something from them, but in the end he only saw the tiredness and helplessness in her eyes: "I knew it a long time ago, and one day you will all know it."

"What's that?" His voice was already extremely restrained, one hand grabbed her skirt, and the other hand clenched tightly into a fist, as if he would hit her face fiercely in the next second !This made Gui very worried, so he had to persuade him from the side: "You let go of Yinshi first, Xizi is still injured!"

"It's okay." She smiled at Gui, then turned to meet Yinshi's gaze, "Curly hair, do you still remember the cherry tree in the private school? I will never forget it. Every year, the cherry blossoms are blown down by the wind and drift away To the yard, corridors and classrooms...not just the cherry blossom trees, and I'm not bragging, I really remember what every corner of the private school looked like. It's incredible, I was not so smart when I endorsed it, but now Once I close my eyes, I can recite every text taught by the teacher, and everything that happened, every word the teacher said, seems to have happened yesterday.”

He grabbed her skirt with more force, his fingertips turned white and even trembled slightly: "Stop talking nonsense! Tell me, what is that?"

"The one who can make you show such an expression..." She pursed her lips and smiled, her eyes yearning but confused, looking into his eyes, it seemed as if she saw a farther and farther empty space, and she couldn't even find the landing point. "Probably my dream."

"Don't use this kind of nonsense to perfuse me!" Yinshi's voice was vicious, "Do you think you are still in the second year of middle school! Be careful of Yinsang, my fist will hit you hard in the face!"

"Hey Zhong Er is just a nickname, so it is not restricted by age." She hid her hands under her wide sleeves, her fingertips were cold, she slowly lifted them up and put them on Yinshi's arms, she was silent for a few seconds, He seemed to be thinking about how to answer, "... Curly, I will soon find a way, and the teacher will definitely be able to resurrect—"

It is almost a sound that can be heard with the ear.

Gui froze for a moment, watching Yinshi punch Sugiyama Xi hard in the face at a very fast speed and without hesitation in front of his eyes.The reason why he just tried to dissuade her with words before and didn't go up to pull her away is that he didn't expect that Yinshi would really hit her with so much force at this time—if I really want to talk about it, the most unimaginable thing is actually Gintoki should beat Kiko...Kai thinks so.What's more, when she was so seriously injured.

He thought, Yin Shi was really angry this time.Probably, it was the same feeling as when I faced such Takasugi.Everyone obviously started from one direction before, but they didn't know when they started to go in the opposite direction.The more sincere and profound the relationship, the more unacceptable it is to have such a changed companion.

"Yinshi—" Before he finished speaking, he saw Yinshi take another step forward, bent down and grabbed Sugiyama Nozomi who had been beaten to the ground by him, and then punched her in the face again with his fist past.Now that he couldn't watch anymore, Gui hurried forward and grabbed Yinshi and pulled him back hard, "Yinshi, calm down! If you have something to say, calm down! Xizi's wounds can't be opened again!"

"The only way to make this middle school come back better is to wake her up!" Yinshi pushed Gui, who was dissuading him, and turned around to continue beating her, "Get out of the way with the wig, or I'll beat you too! Children who can spit at their elders when they disagree are the result of being spoiled by their parents!"

She was pulled up by the skirt of his clothes like this, and she simply yelled like a rascal: "Sakata Yinshi, do you want to kill me?! You said you would protect me, and you said that if you were there, I would be there. But now you want to beat me to death with your own hands? Then hit me! Beat me to death! If you beat me to death, I can go to Teacher Songyang! Anyway, none of the things you told me will come true, and it’s not bad. One sentence, you liar!"

Holding the wind, his fist stopped only a piece of paper away from her face, froze in the air.Finally, the hand that was pulling her skirt loosened, and he watched her fall to the ground expressionlessly.

This sentence was said when he was fighting against barbarians. Although the original intention was to let this guy who was scolded by Takasugi stop howling and disturbing the people...but since he said it, he would be responsible as a man.However, he couldn't do it himself.Although he turned back to rescue her alone despite the opposition of most of his comrades in arms at the time, he still couldn't protect her at the last moment.Can't protect Songyang private school, can't protect Songyang teacher, can't protect comrades who died in the battlefield one after another, can't protect a guy who he said he would protect... can't protect anything.

The atmosphere became more and more silent, and no one spoke for a while.She was half lying on the ground, looking down at the bandages and sleeves on her hands, which were soaked red by the re-opened wound, and after a while, she stuck out her tongue and licked the blood on her mouth: "Hey, it hurts, you bastard." As she spoke, she sighed softly, "I'm sorry, it's such a shame to say such things at this time... It's really silly, and you're right. But Yinshi, I just want to say, I and Like you, you all have your own determination that you want to stick to and that you can’t forget. I don’t want to destroy the world, and I want to be like you, like Kotaro, to protect the people and the world that I want to protect, but such people, such people The world has long been destroyed, so what else can I protect?"

Mother, father, adoptive mother, teacher, comrade-in-arms... nothing can be protected because they are all dead.Sugiyama Nozomi's world is not vast in the first place, only those who are willing to accept her sincerely are the only whole world, but such a world has long been destroyed by heaven and man.The rest is a strange and incompatible world, so what else can I do?

Gui frowned: "Xizi..."

"Even in the end, I was left with only you, but you also parted ways, and even pointed at each other with knives, saying that you would hack each other to death. Tell me, what can I do?" She cut off Gui's words, Qing Ling Ling stared straight into Yinshi's eyes, "I can't even speak for one of them, because I can't accept the reality that we will go in such an incompatible direction from the beginning until now! I even If I can't even protect this, what else can I do? I can't do anything except this."

Gui was startled, seemed to have guessed what she was about to say, and hurriedly stopped him: "Xizi, but then—"

"That's not a fantasy, it might be successful! Didn't you see it?" There was a joyful and crazy light in her eyes, and she hurriedly pulled Yin Shi's clothes back, "Did you see it? That's the teacher—"

"Shut up!" Yin Shi once again reached out and grabbed her skirt and shook it vigorously, and shouted sharply, "Stop insulting people with that kind of monster!"

"It's not a monster! It's just a failure at most..." The light in her eyes was very eager, "But Yinshi, if you believe in me, you will succeed. I will succeed soon, and I will succeed! When the time comes, the teacher will be resurrected." , Jinsuke won’t be in so much pain anymore, we can go back to the private school—”

"Xiko, give up, it's impossible to succeed!" This time it was Gui who spoke, his face was very serious and serious, "Xiko, although I don't agree with Gintoki's method, But it’s true that you did something wrong.”

"Xiao Taro! Don't you want the teacher to be resurrected?! Don't you want the teacher?!"

"I miss my teacher all the time. But that doesn't mean I agree with your almost nonsense approach!" Gui's tone was slightly angry, and he acted very tough, "It is true that each of us I love and miss the teacher very much, but this is not a reason for us to allow you to go on this wrong path!" Since the acquaintance, she can't even remember the time before, he would speak to herself in this tone.

"Xizi, give up." Gui Weiwei breathed out, "We have already burned those things, and the heavenly beings and those... monsters you used as test subjects have also been disposed of. You don't want to do this again in the future." If you do this kind of thing, Teacher Songyang will definitely not want you to—"

"What did you say?!" She screamed, "Impossible! How do you know this—Xiao Yi betrayed me?! Do you know what you are doing?! I am about to succeed, teacher Soon to be alive—”

"You're the one who doesn't know what you're doing!" Yinshi pushed her back against the wall, and then put his hand against her shoulder, "Come back to life? Don't be kidding, dead people don't Will come back to life! Guys who can’t even recognize this point are not qualified to talk about dreams with me! Ignoring the existence of reality, what qualifications do you have to talk about dreams! Is that a teacher? You should stop insulting the teacher here, then It's just a monster, and no one will admit that kind of monster!"

The courtyard was silent for a long time, and even the sound of the breeze blowing in the air could be heard.The Shimura siblings heard the movement early and were about to come out to see what was going on, but when they reached the door, Shinpachi was stopped by A Miao.The two stood at the door of a room in the distance, looking at the three people here, without disturbing them.The two of them didn't know what the three of them were talking about, but they could clearly see the atmosphere here.

After a long time, Sugiyama Xi's eyes turned gray again, she stretched out her hand and gently pushed Yinshi's hand away, turned around and just took a step before she sat limply on the ground.Her eyes stared blankly at the cherry blossom petals that had been blown down to the corridor by the wind, and she suddenly remembered the scene when she accompanied Teacher Songyang to read a book in the corridor when she didn't want to take a nap a long time ago.

At that time, Takasugi was also there, and the teacher was also there. The three of them were sitting on the porch, each holding a book and reading it seriously.Occasionally, a breeze blows through the cherry blossom tree in the courtyard, and the pink petals flutter down on the pages of the book.She lost her focus, raised her head and looked along the petals, couldn't help laughing, and was immediately stared at by Gao Shan.

She laughed even harder, pointing at Takasugi and said, "So you like wearing flowers? Why don't you say it earlier hahahahahaha!"

Gao Shan still didn't understand her smile, so he just stared at her.However, there was already a hand brushing past his head on the other side: "The world of mortals is bitter, and the cherry blossoms bloom by themselves." Gao Shan turned his head and followed the sound to look at Mr. Songyang who gently brushed the petals on his hand to the corridor. There was a smile on his face as always, and his eyes were the most gentle, "This year's cherry blossoms seem to be blooming very early."

Shan Shanxi hesitated for a moment, and said: "The early it opens, the early it falls."

Teacher Songyang didn't speak, but turned to look at Gao Shan.Gao Shan frowned, turned his head to look at the cherry blossom trees in the courtyard, remained silent for a few seconds, and said: "...the ones that bloom and fall sooner or later have the same fate."

"Hey, let me tell you, aren't you a sunny person?!" Sugiyama Xi picked on him as usual.

Gao Shan also retorted as usual: "Huh, yours is really sunny!"

"You—" Sugiyama Nozomi couldn't say no to him, so he could only grin his teeth and make faces at him.

Teacher Songyang heard everything, smiled lightly, and reached out to touch the heads of the two.The two of them immediately fell silent, and listened to him obediently: "What you said has your own reasons, so it can be seen that you also have your own ideas in your heart. This is not a bad thing. However, the haiku that the teacher just read I want to tell you another thing." After a pause, he stretched out his hand to pick up the petals on the page of Sugi Shanxi's book, and then continued, "Xiaoxi, Jin Zhu, the world of mortals is troubled and the road ahead is difficult, turbulent and whirling, everyone says Everything in the world is full of misery and strife. But when will the cherry blossoms stop blooming because of this?"

He then slowly said: "Flowers bloom on their own, never caring what others think or how they treat them. It's the same with being a human being. As long as you do what you think is right in your heart, you don't have to be ashamed of your heart, you don't have to be ashamed of the world. Caring about other people or things. Everything in the world has its own end, and it goes its own way. People at the moment can’t see clearly. As long as you know that you are clear and clear, you will stick to it. All merits and demerits will be given by future generations Fair judgment. There is no justice in this world for a while, but darkness cannot occupy the sky forever."

At that time, Sugiyama Nozomi looked up at him slightly, in the afternoon sun, his side face seemed to be translucent, so beautiful that it was unreal.

She lay on the ground, covered her face with her hands and let out a dull and suppressed cry, which seemed particularly abrupt and fragile in the silent yard at this time.She thought, maybe that sentence is right.Doesn't it mean that the person who knows him best is his most hated enemy?That fellow Takasugi was right, the self who lost his teacher was just a stupid beast that had lost all reason and bared its fangs crazily.

The author has something to say: It’s exam month... Let’s encourage each other... I’m almost driven crazy by the paper...

There should be no updates before the holiday... Orz

If the winter vacation goes well, I will update it diligently until the end of this article ↖(^ω^)↗ (Of course, the premise is that both objective and subjective conditions allow... For example, if there is nothing wrong with the computer, there is nothing wrong with the JJ server, there is nothing wrong with the network cable, I Nothing to do, nothing to you, nothing to do with the governor... "I am crazy about my teacher".

Ah, very good. (nod)

As for what curly hair promised Xizi but couldn't do anything... I don't know the specifics. =. = For example, 'I can't get married in the future, do you want me', 'Can I give you a kiss', 'Let's turn my ears into rabbit ears', 'Let's assassinate the meat face' (hey) or something... It wouldn't be these things >_

I was thinking of something a little more high-end.

as follows:

"Curly hair, let's straighten your hair together some other day."

How about it, it is really high-end =_,=

(Pointing) Those who didn’t guess it out consciously went to the corridor to stand for punishment!