Helpless

"Xiaoxi, it really is you..." Amid Kamikaze's screams, the old man's voice gradually calmed down again with excitement, and instead he felt calm after helplessness. He sighed and raised his head slightly, " Mr. Takasugi, as expected, you are not willing to let the old man go easily, this is the old man's sin, so there is no way to escape it, but...it's useless to say these things now...Xiao Xi..."

Kamikaze was still screaming, and her voice and heart seemed to reach the top of her head in an instant. She pressed her temples with both hands, and looked at the corpse still rolling with maggots with wide eyes, screaming uninterruptedly.After a long time, she stopped screaming, and looked at Shinsuke Takasugi standing there silently with a blue face, with a dazed look that had just been woken up from a nightmare.

△ Pay attention to the ventilation of the house every day, the turbid air is easy to make people have nightmares △

——No wonder I often have nightmares Aru! BY Kagura

——It’s useless to look at me, Kagura!I sleep at home at night, and I didn't make the air dirty! BY Shimura Shinpachi

——It’s useless to look at Yinsang, look at the dog behind you... Ah, it’s dark again, as dark as this society, tell it to let go, bastard. BY Sakata Gintoki

——No wonder I have nightmares all the time, Aru, Mr. Hijikata, who pollutes the air, hurry up and do seppuku for the future of mankind, Aru. BY Okita Sougo

——I didn't sleep with you at night, you idiot Sougo! BY Toshiro Hijikata

--I see!I originally thought that you just have a unique taste, but I didn’t expect you to be so perverted... Tsk, the world’s morale is declining, Kagura, Shin Hachi, stay away from this group of dirty and chaotic tax thieves, otherwise He will grow into a degenerate boy who makes his mother cry.Ah, isn't there a saying that says that if all the friends around you are jerks, you will become a jerk yourself, and if the friends around you are natural curlies, you will definitely grow into the prime minister. BY Sakata Gintoki

——Yin Sang, I don’t think there is such a sentence in the common saying of any country. BY Shimura Shinpachi

——You curly-haired bastard, stop joining in the fun!Be careful that I will cut you down together (#‵′) BY Shiro Hijikata

——Rather than that...why did Shinsengumi come to Manshiya again?And Okita-kun, why did you add 'Aru' to the ending...Kagura, Yinsang...you four need to fight outside! BY Shimura Shinpachi

When I left that house, it was already dusk outside.Kamikaze walked mechanically and numbly, tripped over the threshold and fell to the ground. She sat on the ground, unable to recover for a long time, until Takasugi's shadow shrouded her body.As if inspired by this, she slightly raised her eyes to look at him.

"Xiaoxi, to live is also your mother's wish"

These were the last words the man said to her just now.It's funny to say that even though he married her adoptive mother and she never called him father, he actually said such a sentence before he died just like the cowardly and incompetent father in his memory.Everything seemed to go back in time. At that moment, she seemed to have returned to her childhood, watching the man die in front of her eyes. Before she died, there was hope and a smile on the corner of her mouth, saying: Hope, live on.

...I don't even know what's going on with these two men. They obviously can't live anymore, and they still have the guts to ask her to live.

The difference is that at that time, her mother didn't want Sugi Shanxi to live, she even wanted to strangle the evil seed she brought into this world with her own hands.But the adoptive mother... hoped that Nozomi Sugiyama could live on, in a better way.

When she realized that the frighteningly withered old man was Tanaka who had been away for a long time, her first reaction was not why he came back here, nor why he became like this, nor why he and Takasugi It's nothing to do with it, but... is it the adoptive mother who was lying there and was bitten by maggots beyond recognition?

That's not her.According to what Tanaka later said, shortly after the Tanaka family moved away, they were involved in the war against barbarians, and their adoptive mother passed away early due to certain things.Before dying, the adoptive mother was still concerned about Sugiyama Nozomi who was abandoned again due to her own reasons, and asked Tanaka to take good care of her after finding her.Later, Tanaka tried to find her, but at that time, the flames of war had already raged fiercely, and the Songyang private school was also destroyed in a fire. belong to the latter.

After Tanaka finished speaking intermittently, Takasugi glanced at Kamikaze who was standing beside him with his head bowed, and chuckled lightly: "Tanaka, you haven't finished your words yet, are you planning to hide and take you to hell?" Paused , he said, "are you going to go into detail about what happened to your wife?"

Kamikaze reacted, looked up at him numbly, and let out a dry voice from her throat: "...what do you mean?" She tried to find her adoptive mother over the years, but all of them ended without a problem because of the tossing of the war, so Gradually, he also gave up. I always felt in my heart that the adoptive mother's family should be able to escape the flames of war, and maybe they have been living a peaceful life... I have always thought so, and after thinking about it for a long time, I took it seriously.

Tanaka sighed heavily: "This old man knows that time is short, even if he dies, he can't redeem his sins, but Lord Takasugi..."

"Among the people who betrayed Mr. Matsuyo back then, Shinjiro Tanaka who went to report the news was also included." Speaking of this incident, Takasugi still couldn't restrain the trembling anger in his tone, his eyes were as sharp as iron Staring at Tanaka, he said almost word for word, "He is used by the Heavenly Man, and he has contributed a lot in the process of collusion between the Heavenly Man and the Shogunate... Sugiyama Nozomi, your adoptive mother is very married man."

It’s not that he couldn’t hear the strong irony and resentment in his tone, but even Kamikaze himself felt very mocking and resentful—it has never been thought that behind Shinjiro Tanaka’s honesty and reliability, there is such a true face: He has been working for the shogunate all the time, and as a member of the surrender faction, he acts as a secret bridge in the process of collusion between the shogunate and heaven and man.At the beginning, I took my adoptive mother and son to move to my ex-wife's brother's house under the pretext of work. Later, when necessary, I betrayed Yoshida Shoyo, and killed Yoshida Shoyo in the fire.One day after that, his adoptive mother accidentally ran into him meeting with Tianren and senior officials of the shogunate, and learned the truth.

"Then..." Kamikaze swallowed, his voice trembling, "Did she die in depression?"

Takasugi Shinsuke gave a low laugh, but didn't speak.

Shinjiro Tanaka was silent for a long time before he said in a hoarse voice: "...under the signal of the person above, I...killed her by mistake."

In the corner of Takasugi Shinsuke's eyes, there was only a flash of silver light for a moment, and the next second, he saw Kamikaze stabbing Tanaka Shinjiro with a dagger in both hands.She knelt on the ground, pulled out the dagger suddenly, then raised it high, and stabbed it down again—this was repeated several times until Shinjiro Tanaka's slightly weird bluish-red blood splashed all over her face full body.She stared blankly at Shinjiro Tanaka who suddenly smiled, and tears fell down from the corners of her eyes, but she didn't even know why she was crying.

Is it for the adoptive mother, or for Teacher Matsuyo, or for Shinjiro Tanaka, or for himself.

"Although you still let Xiaoxi know about this kind of thing, and made her bear another burden that she couldn't get rid of... But for the old man, this is a kind of relief..." Shinjiro Tanaka felt relieved, "Xiaoxi , remember, to live...this is also your mother's wish..."

***

Takasugi Shinsuke looked at her who was sitting there motionless for a long time like a lost soul: "Nozomi Sugiyama, what's your mood now?"

She twitched the corners of her mouth weakly, and asked instead of answering: "Gao Shan-kun, you kept him on purpose, not to avenge the teacher yourself, but to me to kill... Just to ask me this question?" Saying this, she Stretching her hand on the ground, she stood up unsteadily, "Since you want to know my thoughts so much, then I'll tell you..." She took out a lighter from her pocket, went to the eaves, and lit the light on the shabby house. The thatch it was built on was originally a very dry and flammable thing, and the weather was extremely hot, so it only needed a little spark, and it began to spread at an extremely fast speed.

She had already stood still, looking up at the house that was burning bigger and bigger, and finally bursting into the sky, she suddenly laughed, and laughed louder and louder, while laughing, she slowly turned around and looked at Shinsuke Takasugi .At this time, it was already the junction of dusk and night, and the sky was gloomy, only the firelight behind her was particularly dazzling.

She looked into his eyes, her face was very pale, but her eyes were extraordinarily bright: "I want...to destroy this world that has been betraying and abandoning me."

Gao Shan raised the corners of his mouth, against the extreme background of the deep night behind him and the soaring flames behind her, it actually gave his expression an unreal tender feeling: "Nozomi Sugi, completely give up your Naive thoughts, follow me wholeheartedly."

She laughed suddenly: "Are you an idiot? Who is Nozomi Sugiyama here... My name is Kamikaze."

There is no hope, even if someone was willing to give it, in the end, it will just become an existence that makes people more and more desperate.Obviously, he shouldn't have any expectations from the very beginning... That unknown name has no meaning at all, it just hangs on top of his head, silently laughing at this sad, shameful and ridiculous self all the time.

The author has something to say: Alright, Xizi started bisecting again==(Isn’t it all the time=_,=|||

Originally written this volume should be the chapter of Yue Ji, then it seems to be the chapter of the evil party, and then it is over......

As I always do... I'm... out of the outline.....

So this is the homecoming article== I will insert it horizontally|into the computer article and the photo studio article.

The leading actor is about to go away again... Elope with Nissan to the universe or something, please don't miss them, please bless them ==!Although I, as a member of the Gaogui Party, have the feeling that I want to beat everything up... In this biography, those two guys have been elopening to the universe since the chapter on the Evil Party... Governor, do you still remember the wigs on Earth? ah ah! ! !Is it that difficult to return to Earth! ! !The wig will soon be snatched away by the hairy-legged uncle hiding inside the big penguin! ! ! (beat the ground)