Helpless

The room was very magnificently decorated, and Sugiyama Nozomi, who walked in with the hem of her skirt, curled her lips and said, "I'm really a country woman who can't stand on the stage, but I should bring something to sell when I go back." Anyway, the old man is not short of this money, why don't you subsidize orphans and widowed mothers like me?" He looked up at Shenwei who was sitting on the railing with his back to him.

She walked over: "I just met Afutu, what happened to his hand?"

Without looking back, he sat on the railing with his bare feet shaking his legs, looked at the neon-shattered Yoshiwara streets with his clear eyes, looked like an innocent young man, and said, "It's none of your business. "

"You can't say that." She stood two steps behind him, raised her hand and rubbed her shoulders, "Don't forget the relationship between the two of us using each other, with Afutu here, I feel more at ease Now, you can also throw the mess at him, so he is very important."

╮(╯_╰)╭Don't complain that this world is too realistic, sometimes even mothers prefer the child with high value ╮(╯_╰)╭

——So Mommy likes me the most, Alu! BY Kagura

Kamui turned around, touched the floor with the toes of his bare feet, and looked at her: "Then which side is more important to you?" He looked at Kamikaze's silent look, and asked, "Spring rain or the earth?" His eyes narrowed, and he tilted his head slightly, "Or should I ask... which samurai is more important? Shinsuke Takasugi who joined forces with Haruyu, or the silver-haired samurai? Or... the wig?"

"You don't know him well, don't call me a wig, he will be upset. A nickname is a kind of intimacy when called by a friend, but it has no special meaning when called by an outsider like you, except that it is impolite." She watched him jump lightly onto the floor, took the umbrella and passed her, walked towards the door of the house, looked at him sideways, and lowered her voice, "...Hey Shenwei, the spring rain is still the earth. It doesn't matter to me, but I wouldn't let the three of them touch anyone who—"

Kamui turned around abruptly, raised the tip of his umbrella and stabbed straight at her.She hurriedly retreated, turned outwards, and retreated to the corner. As soon as she looked up, she saw the tip of the umbrella coming with the sound of wind——

She leaned her back against the wall, stabilized her feet, held a kunai tightly in her hand, pressed it against the tip of his umbrella, and laughed: "It seems that it is good to pick up something by hand." Saying so, she raised her hand Looking at him, the blood that slowly flowed from the hair soaked into the eyes, and everything seen through such eyes was red, including him—— he should be a cheerful and innocent boy, and now he is still always The smile is very innocent, but it can't stop the reality that his hands are covered with blood and will continue like this for the time being without turning around.

Sometimes, she would feel that her inexplicable closeness to Shenwei comes from this kind of helplessness—not helplessness to Shenwei, but helplessness to herself. Most people are often prone to self-pity or narcissism. Creatures, and she is no exception.When looking at Shenwei, it is easy to think of myself, and I always think, if it was possible at the beginning, would it be possible to take a different path from the current one?Because time cannot be turned back, I want to see possibilities in others.So, human beings are often such poor creatures.

"Hey, Kamui." She gritted her teeth, "Compared to you night rabbits, especially you, my strength has always been negligible, but I tell you——" She suddenly raised her foot towards his crotch | Kicking him over, seeing him back unscathed, she immediately threw the kunai in her hand towards him, turned her head and took a mouthful of blood, stood up straight, stared at him, and said every word Repeatedly, "Whoever touches them, I will die with that bastard even if I risk my life."

"Oh = 0 =" Shenwei first showed a very surprised and innocent expression, and then laughed again, "Finally showing such a hideous look, it will be bad if he sees it?" He said, with some For a moment, he suppressed his usual smile, narrowed his eyes, and showed the expression of finding the prey, "——that silver-haired samurai."

She sneered: "Little bastard, don't tell my sister that the reason you are not interested in women is because you like men. Your father only has a son like you, and it is your fault that he made it extinct. Don't expect me and your sister to be able to get along with each other." Give birth to a child." She moved her neck left and right, rubbed her wrists, licked her lips, her eyes were covered by the too long bangs, and her voice became more and more sinking, "And... he is not I've never seen it like this."

Once Sugiyama Nozomi on the battlefield picked up the knife and saw the heaven and man, in the words of Sakata Gintoki, he described it as "like a mad dog running away" and "like a wild boar just coming down the mountain" (of course Sugiyama Nozomi once told him The adjective expresses extreme dissatisfaction...).There is no superfluous expression on his face other than bloodthirsty, he only knows how to chop heaven and man like a lunatic, chopping off one counts as one, and chopping off two is still not enough... Just with such a mood, in that She survived this disgusting and almost crazy environment, even a few times, if she hadn't been dragged back by her own people, she would probably have been chasing and rushing into the team of celestial beings.

That's why Takasugi has shown her opposition to her on the battlefield several times, and because of this, although she does not have the prestige of Takasugi, Gintoki and Katsura, and Sakamoto Tatsuma, it really reminds the team members that there is such a one who went to the battlefield A guy who plays his life like crazy, doesn't know how to live or die and doesn't listen to orders.Every time the battle started, this guy was the first to rush out with red eyes, and when the short period ended, he was the last one to be dragged back by the collar.

"Curly, I hate these monsters, and I hate myself as a little monster.Therefore, if I can die in the process of killing them, it is probably the greatest happiness for me.』

When she said this, her whole body, whether it was her clothes or her exposed skin, was covered with disgusting and dirty stains mixed with blood and muddy water. There was a cold hatred in her eyes, and even the corners of her mouth remained Seeing blood, she turned her head indifferently and sucked something onto the ground—this was the ear of the heavenly man that she had bitten off when she just fought hand-to-hand with the heavenly man.Except for those who knew the inside story, no one could have imagined that such a ruthless guy was actually a girl in her teens.

As she said this, she raised her hand to wipe the blood on her face, and looked back at Sakata Gin with the same indifferent eyes as before.He just looked at her with this kind of calm eyes, just like the eyes at any moment in the past-no contempt, no mockery, no disgust-as if everything was normal, as if she was just asking him What's for dinner.Then he held the knife in one hand, pulled her collar with the other and dragged it back, and his lazy voice was the same as before: "Even if you say that - go back to me, bastard! Every time I come out to look for you, the food will be gone after you go back, you Can this bastard look at the situation before causing trouble?! A troublemaker is a troublemaker."

…………………… Hey, the troublesome situation you mentioned is just not being able to eat, right? !She let him drag her back and looked up at the dark sky: "...Hey, Yinshi, when do you think this war will end?"

Without turning his head, he said: "It's best to end tomorrow, I don't know how many days I haven't eaten sweets, Yinsang packed my stomach and left home."

"But I occasionally hope that it will never end." When she said such a sentence, his footsteps stopped.She stood up straighter, turned her head to meet his gaze, with a dazed expression, "... a dangerous idea, right? But sometimes I just think that way, if it never ends, I can keep chopping heaven and man, Cut it down until it was finally hacked to death by those beasts."

His scarlet dead fish eyes looked at her quietly, and the blood-stained headband tied around his head was blown behind his head by the wind.After a while, he raised his hand and slapped her on the head: "Before you say this, bastard, think about Yinsang's stomach when I ran away from home!"

"...Hey, you just want to eat sweets, right? If you continue like this, you will get diabetes one day!"

"Stop cursing me! You just want to kill heaven and man, and one day you will be bitten by your own dog!"

"Get it right, Curly! It's you and that guy Takasugi who are easily chased by dogs since childhood!"

Just like that, she went back to the camping ground with arguing and arguing all the way. She just took off her shoes and was about to throw them towards Yinshi.

"Sugiyama Nozomi—!"

"……………Flesh face, you have grown taller recently!" She turned her head suddenly, and showed Shinsuke Takasugi who was holding a rice ball and frowning tightly, which was described by Gintoki as a "rabbit look" When it comes to the obscene and flattering mountain bear holding a large jar of honey, it completely loses the self-esteem and self-love' smile that a human being should have.

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Finally escaped from the memory of that time, she looked at Kamui: "Hey——"

"If he is not too weak, I will be interested in him." He turned and walked towards the door, raised his hand and waved, "Samurai, I have heard too much from you, so I want to see it with my own eyes Just a moment. If you can't let me enjoy myself, then I'll be in trouble." Saying this, he had already walked to the door, stopped for a while, and looked sideways at Kamikaze, "I want to see, that White Yaksha Sakata Gintoki... ...How strong can it be." After a pause, he suddenly thought of something pleasant and laughed, shaking the dumb hair on his head, raised his index finger at her, and added, "——You My first love." Then she walked out without stopping.

This time, she didn't stop him, and she knew she couldn't stop him at all. She could only stand there, look at his back, and laughed, regardless of whether he could hear him or not, and said to herself, "Hey, who the hell is that?" Let me tell you my first love is him... I am clearly determined to marry Matsuyo-sensei, and then as a teacher's wife, I pissed Takasugi Shinsuke to death."

The author has something to say: I'm full...otherwise I can write a little more... my stomach hurts OJZ|||