After the vase cannon fodder is reborn

"You don't seem happy?"

After coming out of Gu's house, Gu Xihuai looked at Wen Zhuoyu who suddenly became silent, and asked cautiously.

When Wen Zhuoyu came back to his senses, it was hard to say that he felt sorry for Gu Xihuai, so he could only smile casually and perfunctorily say, "Maybe I'm tired."

Upon hearing this, Gu Xihuai subconsciously said: "If you are not used to it, we will come here less often."

Wen Zhuoyu didn't realize the intimacy revealed in Gu Xihuai's words.He sat on the co-pilot and stretched himself, teasingly said: "It's all up to you."

Pausing for a moment, he asked with a smile, "Are you okay?"

The night was getting darker, and the sparse starlight and ambiguous night drifted into the narrow compartment with the evening wind, lingering a faint sense of autumn between the two of them.Gu Xihuai breathed the air in the carriage, and suddenly felt a little cramped.The light "Is it okay" just got into my ears like this, and it was even softer than the evening wind.But when these words flowed into the heart along the pinna and the blood vessels, it seemed that the empty heart echoed under the transmission of the sound, and the heart valve was beating heavily.

At that moment, it seemed that even the ear could hear the sound of drums beating.

Gu Xihuai blinked with some difficulty, trying to identify the dark road ahead.Under the dim street lights, a black car was speeding down the wide street.

Wen Zhuoyu, who was sitting in the co-pilot, suddenly smelled the aroma of barbecue. He turned his head and looked at the brightly lit night market beside the street, and asked Gu Xihuai, "Want to eat supper?"

Gu Xihuai, who had been staring intently at the front, was slightly stunned: "What?"

Wen Zhuoyu patted his stomach: "I always feel that I haven't had enough to eat at night. Shall we go to have a barbecue?"

A few minutes later, a black Maybach parked in front of the barbecue booth. Wen Zhuoyu and Gu Xihuai walked through the crowded crowd at the food stall, and finally found an empty table in the corner.There were still unfinished food and empty wine bottles from the previous table.The capable and bold proprietress cleared the table quickly, put a simple menu sealed in plastic on the table, and shouted loudly: "What do the guests want to eat? Our crayfish and shabu-shabu are from the night market. A must, do you two handsome guys want to try it?"

"Okay!" Wen Zhuoyu smiled with crooked eyebrows, and carefully browsed the menu: "Here is a plate of spicy crayfish, and then a plate of garlic crayfish, and a dish of shabu-shabu...do you still want what to eat?"

The last sentence was for Gu Xihuai.

Except for filming needs, Gu Xihuai seemed to seldom come to such crowded and messy food stalls, and felt a little uncomfortable for a while.Fortunately, the night was getting darker, and the lights here were a bit dim, so no one noticed the looks of Wen Zhuoyu and Gu Xihuai.

Hearing Wen Zhuoyu's question, Gu Xihuai pinched the menu cautiously: "I can eat anything."

Wen Zhuoyu suddenly thought of something, and the thief smiled and said: "Then let's have two strings of kidneys, to nourish the kidneys."

Gu Xihuai: "..."

Less than 10 minutes after returning the menu to the proprietress, the barbecues ordered by Wen Zhuoyu and Gu Xihuai came up one after another.

Wen Zhuoyu was surprised to find that although Gu Xihuai didn't eat food stalls very much, he was good at peeling crayfish.Putting on disposable plastic gloves on his slender fingers, he snapped off the crayfish's head neatly, then peeled off the shrimp's skin nimbly with his fingers, and finally put a fresh and firm shrimp into the small plate in front of Wen Zhuoyu.

Wen Zhuoyu: "...?"

"You eat." Gu Xihuai's ears were inexplicably hot, and he said with a straight face, "I can peel faster than you."

Wen Zhuoyu chuckled, Gu Xihuai was really good at peeling crayfish.Peeling is not only fast but also complete.Unlike Wen Zhuoyu, a crayfish needs to be peeled for 1 minute, and it is eaten while peeling, so there is no way to give it to others.

What made Wen Zhuoyu feel even more helpless was that when Wen Zhuoyu peeled one crayfish, Gu Xihuai had already peeled three, and each shrimp was delivered to Wen Zhuoyu's bowl.

"Eat it yourself!" Wen Zhuoyu persuaded helplessly, "Don't always peel it for me, as if I'm squeezing you."

Gu Xihuai shook his head: "I'm full tonight."

Wen Zhuoyu sighed, and put a crayfish that he managed to peel into Gu Xihuai's bowl: "At least give me some face?"

Gu Xihuai was taken aback when he heard the words, and immediately picked up the shrimp with chopsticks and put it in his mouth: "It's very sweet."

"Is it sweet?" Wen Zhuoyu tasted it carefully, only to feel that there is indeed a little sweet taste in the strong spicy aroma: "It seems that their crayfish are very fresh."

Hear Wen Zhuoyu's evaluation.Gu Xihuai seemed to think of something, and his ears became hotter.

"Come, come, give way, the kidneys are coming—" the proprietress's bold voice passed through the crowded aroma of the food stall, and gradually came to her face.The iron plate covered with plastic film was placed on the table with a bang, followed by roasted sizzling kidneys, meat skewers and squid, and the strong aroma instantly filled this small world.Gu Xihuai suddenly felt that the already crowded space became even more cramped.The overflowing heat even made his face red.

The proprietress casually put the two bottles of iced drinks ordered by Wen Zhuoyu on the table. Wen Zhuoyu unscrewed the cap and handed a bottle to Gu Xihuai, sighing: "It's a pity that the two of us came here by car, otherwise we should order two bottles in this atmosphere." Bottle of cold beer."

Gu Xihuai came back to his senses, and poured the steaming carbonated drink into his mouth.The cold soda slides down the mouth into the internal organs, and the boiling blood cools down instantly, but the powerful air bubbles explode in the body one by one, and the throbbing that cannot be expressed in the mouth is integrated into the bone marrow blood in this explosion, and then It goes through the internal organs again and again.

In a daze, Gu Xihuai seemed to hear the sound of his heart blooming.

"Aren't you happy eating barbecue and drinking ice soda?" Wen Zhuoyu has been paying attention to Gu Xihuai's expression, and found that since returning to Gu's house—more precisely, after seeing Gu's family, there has been a calmness accumulated between Gu Xihuai's eyebrows The indifference was finally diluted by the lively and intense barbecue atmosphere in front of him, and Wen Zhuoyu also became happy.

The precise arc of the corners of the lips slowly rose unconsciously, Wen Zhuoyu himself didn't notice it, and as Gu Xihuai's mood recovered, he himself became more relaxed.The standard smile that has been hanging on his face has also become more intense and publicized, as if affected by the atmosphere at the barbecue stall.

"I really like to eat barbecue." Wen Zhuoyu sat on a simple plastic stool, looking at the people around who were pushing and changing glasses and laughing loudly: "It's not that the barbecue itself is delicious, but that everyone is eating barbecue. Very happy all the time.”

Whether it is a white-collar worker who has been busy for a day, a worker who has been working hard for a day, or a student who has been studying for a day, everyone has different identities and backgrounds, and their growth environments are different, but when everyone sits in front of a barbecue booth and enjoys a smoke When the smoldering bustle, the relaxation and comfort at that moment must be equal and real.

Wen Zhuoyu likes such a strong and plain atmosphere of the market very much, and also enjoys such excitement and noise.In the final analysis, he is just a layman who is busy, chasing fame and fortune, and likes to be lively.

Wen Zhuoyu often thinks that if he hadn’t encountered so many twists and turns in his previous life, maybe his future would be like the other guests at the booth, graduating from university safely and finding a white-collar job from 30 to [-], good luck When I was young, I earned a few million dollars a year, and then I paid a down payment to buy a house and a loan to buy a car. I lived happily until I was in my [-]s, and met a suitable person to stay with me for a lifetime.

Instead of sinking into countless plots and calculations, and finally died tragically in the apartment.No one even knew who the murderer was.

"But I'm very lucky." Wen Zhuoyu said this, and slowly looked at Gu Xihuai: "If I kept my own place and followed the steps in studying, living, and working, I would definitely not meet you."

Gu Xihuai was stunned when he heard Wen Zhuoyu's words.

Wen Zhuoyu didn't want to continue this topic.He finished the last string of mutton left, got up and said, "It's good. Let's go to the night market!"

It was already past twelve o'clock in the evening, and the bustling night market was not as lively as before.Although the lights are still brightly lit and the flow of people is endless, it is no longer crowded like before.

Wen Zhuoyu and Gu Xihuai were even able to walk side by side on the narrow street, looking at the dazzling array of stalls on both sides and the slowly quiet city in the distance, Wen Zhuoyu said with a smile: "Actually, once you grow up, your parents and family The proportion in life seems to be less important."

Gu Xihuai looked at Wen Zhuoyu with some doubts, not understanding what Wen Zhuoyu wanted to say.

Wen Zhuoyu stared at the sparse starlight in the sky, and his tone could not be described as melancholy or calm: "When I was young, I saw that the children around me had parents, but I didn't. Do you know what I was thinking at that time?"

Gu Xihuai frowned, and hesitated to speak, but Wen Zhuoyu continued, "I was thinking, it will be fine when I grow up."

When can a person grow up?

The little Wen Zhuoyu once calculated that after going to university, he can leave his hometown, and after graduating from university at the age of 22, he can stay in a more developed city, and then work and live. Slowly, some people will choose to marry and have children, and establish their own Complete the transformation from a child to an adult completely.

"So at that time, I felt that even if it was still far away to become an adult, I had to get there as soon as possible."

At that time, he will change to a very distant city to study in university, leave his hometown like many classmates, leave his family and parents, so that he can pretend that he is the same as most people.

"In fact, a person can be independent from the beginning."

Gradually get used to not having parents to take care of you, get used to fighting alone, get used to forming a new family with another stranger, and get used to being parents.

"At that time, I simply believed that the missing parts in my life could be replaced by my own efforts."

Until one day, Wen Zhuoyu suddenly realized that he could not fulfill his childhood dream.Because he is destined not to marry and have children in his life, nor to become a parent.

God had destined him to be born without parents and never be able to father another child.He was doomed to be alone all his life.

When realizing this, Wen Zhuoyu panicked and despaired.But even he himself has forgotten when exactly he accepted this fact frankly.Maybe it was because the experience in the previous life was so disappointing and consumed too much of one's energy and time that Wen Zhuoyu had no mood to mourn his doomed lonely life at all.

After rebirth, Wen Zhuoyu saw with his own eyes Gu Xihuai who had been fettered by family and blood for decades.

Wen Zhuoyu suddenly thought of himself.

"Maybe some people are destined to have no parental relationship." Wen Zhuoyu looked up at the increasingly dark night sky, and said lightly: "When you realize this, you should understand that you should not redeem what is irreparable. You can think Find a way to create your own new home, find a new family, and even try to make yourself a qualified father and make up for all the regrets you have encountered in your life. That’s what I thought back then.”

"Then what about you now?" Gu Xihuai, who had been exceptionally silent all night, suddenly said, "Do you still think so?"

Wen Zhuoyu smiled and shook his head: "I don't have such a ridiculous idea anymore. I don't like children who are so troublesome."

Gu Xihuai suddenly smiled, and he stared into Wen Zhuoyu's eyes: "I'm just like you."

Wen Zhuoyu raised his eyebrows: "What?"

"Except for not wanting to be a parent," Gu Xihuai stared into Wen Zhuoyu's eyes, and said seriously: "Find someone you like to form a new family, and let each other become a new family."

"My thoughts are the same as yours."