What kind of bad thoughts can the monitor have?

Dust rose in the air, and after Chu Shulan left, Heizi sat there for a long time.Then he stood up and silently helped up the arcade with a broken screen in front of him.

With some blood on his hands, Ji Zhun bought iodine and bandages from the pharmacy and returned to the store, where he forced him to the bench.

The iodine smeared the wound with white foam, and Ji Zhun buried himself in bandaging Heizi without saying a word.

A drop of water suddenly fell on Ji Zhun's bandaged hand, which was still hot.

He looked up at Heizi in surprise, only to see that the water droplets overflowing from the red eye sockets of the other party were still condensed on the tough chin.

This is the first time Jizhun sees Heizi cry, and it's not as funny as he imagined.

Seeing Ji Zhun looking at him, Heizi rubbed his face with his uninjured arm, and sniffed hard again.

He grinned, trying to force a smile, but it turned out to be much uglier than crying.

"You don't have to force me, bro." Ji Zhun continued to wrap the gauze skillfully, "It's not too late for anyone."

"Hey..." Heizi turned his head in embarrassment, and wiped his face vigorously.

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"Huh."

After bandaging Heizi, Ji Zhun picked up the broom that fell to the ground and cleaned up the broken glass in the shop.

The sound of clatter, clatter was particularly prominent in this silent occasion.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and the original white sunlight became more and more red.

Elongated Heron Alley, and also elongated the shadows of the two.

A hoarse voice gently broke the long silence.

"Su Hao, he..."

Half of Heizi's strong and broad body was sunk in the shadow of afterglow, his eyes flickered.

He lit a cigarette and fell into some distant memory.

"Su Hao has studied well since he was a child. He has been the class monitor all the way. From elementary school to high school, he always sits in the middle of the third row of the classroom."

Ji Zhun silently stopped, lit a cigarette, and leaned against the wall.

Heizi didn't stop him this time.

"I started to look down on him quite a bit. I always felt that the kid was putting on a show and always managed me like a class monitor." Heizi laughed muffledly, "Even the teacher doesn't fucking bother to take care of me, so he wants to take care of me."

"At that time, my parents were divorcing, and there was no one at home to cook for me. Every day at the coffee table, I put down a few dollars, and often even forgot to put down the money. I could only starve."

Heizi's eyes were narrowed by the smoke, he flicked the ash and continued: "That day I was trying to find something to eat, when someone knocked on the door outside the house suddenly. I opened the door and saw that Su Hao was standing at the door with a bag of sheep and scorpions. "

Heizi: "He said his parents were making trouble at home, so he came to borrow the kitchen. Afterwards, we had dinner together, which was made by Su Hao. The lamb scorpion was a bit salty, but I still remember the taste... Later He would often come to my house for dinner, and after eating, he would stare at me doing my homework and not let me run around. I gradually realized that we are actually quite similar in some ways, such as the unlucky father who doesn’t love his mother Egg."

He changed his words: "It's just Su Hao. He is always excellent in both character and learning, and he plays a big role. Except for his parents, almost everyone likes him. As for me, I'm just a bastard who dislikes dogs and cats."

Ji Zhun listened, and for some reason another figure appeared in his mind.

He stood by the window looking at the twilight, holding a cigarette in his hand, tapping on the body of the cigarette lightly, his eyes dark.

"When I was in high school, I skipped class and went to the game hall to have an argument with some vocational high school students. I can't remember the exact reason, but they insisted that I compete with them. If I lost, I would kneel down and lick my shoes." Heizi used The gauze-wrapped hand caressed the damaged game console beside him, and smiled, "The King of Fighters '97."

"Those tricks in the vocational high school saw that I was about to lose. Licking shoes is impossible. I was already planning to fight them to the death if I lost." Heizi paused, "Then Su Hao came and said yes He caught me back to class. Seeing that I was in trouble, he told others calmly that he would come for me in the last game. If we won, let us go. If we lost, he would lick with me."

Having said this, Heizi's voice became hoarse again.

He licked the chapped corners of his mouth, suppressing his emotions: "He was the one who stood on the rostrum and was awarded a certificate by the principal, and he wants to lick the soles of people's shoes with me?"

Ji Zhun: "What happened next?"

"I was so stupid at the time, I yelled at him and told him to get out. But Su Hao pushed me back and sat directly in front of the machine." Heizi pursed his lips, clenched his injured hand tightly, gritted his teeth and said with a smile, "Su Hao, the squad leader, he is the best game player I have ever seen."

Heizi took a deep breath, and continued: "After coming out of the game hall, it was already dark, so I took out a cigarette and smoked a cigarette. But the boy also found a pack of cigarettes from his pocket... We sat on the stone steps, Su Hao asked me what I planned to do in the future. I said I wanted to open a game hall, and he was very happy to say yes, then he would invest his funds into shares, so that Yong could finally have a home to return to, and he could have something without spending money. Game currency."

"Later, Su Hao went to other places to go to university. It was a very good university. After graduating from high school, I went around working for others and doing small businesses, thinking of ways to make money. Finally, there was this game hall."

Heizi snuffed out the cigarette butt, and lit a new one, "That year when Su Hao came back, he brought a large sum of money saying it was an entry fee. I said that even if he didn't pay the money, he would still have his share in the game hall." , but he insisted that one yard belongs to one yard... That summer vacation, Su Hao ran to the store all day long, and when he came, he was busy, much more diligent than me. Su Hao told me that he met in college A senior, handsome and good at playing games, he and the senior competed in "The King of Fighters", and he lost."

"I was still laughing at him at the time. What are you doing with a man? Are there any beautiful seniors in the university? His face was a bit complicated at the time... Not long after that, Su Hao called me while drinking. Said, he was with that senior."

At this point, Heizi's eyes darkened, and he smiled wryly, "I was so fucking dumb at the time, what do you mean being together?! Men and men... how the hell can they be together?"

"Because of this, Su Hao and I had a big fight on the phone. My boss called him a pervert, and he rarely scolded him. But after hanging up the phone, I regretted it, no matter what he likes. Who, he is my best buddy!... So, I bought a train ticket to his city overnight, and ran to his school to find him... Su Hao cried immediately when he saw me, and slapped me hard There were a few punches in the chest. There, I also met Lu Xiulin, who he said was a senior who played games very well."

"Lu Xiulin..." Jizhun narrowed his eyes, and this person finally appeared.

"Although I still don't understand their feelings, I have nothing to say when I see Su Hao happy. I told the surname Lu that if I dare to sorry Su Hao in the future, I will definitely not forgive him."

By this time it was completely dark.

The lights in the game hall were not lit, and Heizi's figure seemed to be covered with a layer of black shadow.

When he spoke again, his tone had obviously cooled down.

"After a few more years like this, it rained heavily one night, and Su Hao came back suddenly. He knocked on the door of the game hall with water all over his body, and hit me with a strong smell of alcohol. His body was hot, like In the next second, the whole person will be on fire. Su Hao said, he seems to have no home again..."

"Then, Su Hao became ill. Gradually, he seemed to be a completely different person. Every day, besides sleeping, he was drinking too much, and he would go to... a room with different men. He said that he had already been expelled from school. When he said this, His expression does not know whether to say it is self-defeating or rare relaxation."

"You didn't stop him?"

"How could it not be stopped." Heizi shook his head, "I even beat him for the first time, calling him a big man so he wouldn't become such a bad man for another man... But it was useless, he was already out of order . Later even I didn’t want to see him.”

"Later, when I went to buy goods, my mother asked someone to tie him up and take him to a mental hospital for a period of time. But after he came out, Su Hao's condition became more serious. During that time, I asked everywhere about Lu As for whereabouts, I only know that he went abroad, and he never came back until Su Hao passed away."

Heizi sneered: "So what face do you think Lu Xiulin has now to come back and talk to me about buying a game hall?"

Ji Zhun couldn't help frowning, his eyes showed obvious disgust, but he was faintly confused.

He would always think of Lu Xiulin's rare out of control look when he was in his own home.

He can't figure it out, if you really love someone, why don't you cherish the other person while they are alive?

Or, Lu Xiulin also has his own unspeakable secrets.

The door of the game hall was suddenly pushed open, and Ji Zhun subconsciously looked outside.

Under the dim street lights, Tan Jingyang stood at the door panting, holding a steel pipe in his hand.

He glanced at the damaged game consoles coldly, and asked Ji Zhun in a deep voice, "Are you all right?"

Ji Zhun was a little surprised: "Why are you here?"

Tan Jingyang walked quickly in front of Ji Zhun, and looked Ji Zhun up and down by the light cast in.

After confirming that he was indeed all right, he breathed a sigh of relief, and the hand holding the steel pipe loosened accordingly.

"You didn't reply to my text messages, and you didn't answer my calls. I asked Land Rover if he knew where you were, and he said that you might have come here."

Ji Zhun glanced at the steel pipe in Tan Jingyang's hand, and pointed his chin: "Come on, come on, what do you bring?"

Tan Jingyang cast a sideways glance at Heizi, and said hesitantly, "I heard people say that there was a fight here just now at the alley, so I..." He paused, and sighed softly, "Anyway, as long as it's okay."

Knowing that Tan Jingyang cares about herself, Ji Zhun's heart warms up.

He couldn't help but soften his tone: "Thank you, Brother Yang, I didn't mean not to answer your call."

Tan Jingyang nodded, and asked Ji Zhun what happened with his eyes.

Before Ji Zhun could answer, Heizi in the dark spoke first.

"Naoer, you guys go back first, don't let your parents worry about you being late again." Heizi finished speaking in a hoarse voice, and signaled to Tan Jingyang, "I'm sorry, brother, it's nothing serious."

"Where are you going?" Jizhun asked Heizi without moving.

Heizi: "I'll stay by myself for a while."

After finishing speaking, he waved his hands and urged Jizhun and Tan Jingyang to leave.

Ji Zhun knew that Heizi wanted to be alone, so he stopped talking.

He turned back to Tan Jingyang and said, "Then let's withdraw first."

"Yes." Tan Jingyang nodded.

The two turned around and left the game hall, and walked slowly towards the entrance of the alley along a row of street lights.

The autumn wind blows, blowing the boy's hair.

For a moment, Heizi seemed to see it again.

One night many years ago, two teenagers sat on the steps, chatting about the future.

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