book of contract

"You always force yourself like this. You always think that everyone is gentle, so you have to fight in order to repay and protect such gentle people. But these are all fake... Kira." Feiyin Standing right in front of Kira, she seemed to be gently stroking his cheek, but her peaceful words made him feel a bone-chilling cold.

"Don't say any more..."

As if she didn't hear the slight tremor in Kira's voice, and didn't seem to care what he said at all, Feiyin continued, "You are a new human, Kira, even if you fight with your life, no one will appreciate you Ah. They don’t believe in your protection at all, don’t they? Even your good friends said the same thing——’As a new human being, it’s impossible to stand in the Earth Army. Will he really protect us? '!"

With no expression, Fei Yin slowly repeated the words she heard in front of the door. The words were spoken by the girl named Fleur who was saved by Kira, and it was like a sharp knife piercing Kira's heart.

"Actually, you have always cared. Even though you tried hard to tell yourself that you don't care, you have always cared...so you have been struggling as a new human being and a natural human being."

"No, I..." seemed to be struggling to refute, but the words were still powerless.

"Up to now, you are still refuting. Are you refuting my words, or are you convincing yourself with refutation? As a new human being, standing among natural people, even if you are accepted by their words, there is still something in your heart that cannot be overcome. Put the wall in there, you know it's not real...

"What drives you to fight? Is it really just to protect natural people and friends, this fragile mood? After hearing that kind of conversation, do you still think it's worth it for them? If you really think your actions are worth it, and don't care about listening At that time, why did you turn around and run away?"

Facing Fei Yin's pressing step by step, Kira couldn't answer.

"As long as others give you an excuse, you try to grasp it. Why are you so naive? Have the illusion that they won't, they are not like this. You forget the beginning of the battle, because of the new human beings Isn't it you that the gun is pointing at?"

Now, do you still have the idea of ​​wanting to protect natural persons?Acknowledge what I've said and quit here...

It is impossible for a person to reduce the pain of others, and he can only make the most correct choice for himself to reduce his own pain.

Even Fei Yin, who wanted to tell Kira this point, was no exception, but as for whether the influence of that choice could save others or destroy others, she had no time to take care of it.

If she can do it, she will try her best to do it, but if she can't, she can only let it go and let it be destroyed.

She didn't want to be influenced by others again, and didn't want to repeat the pain she had experienced in the past, so forcing Kira to wake up was also forcing herself to let go.

"!" Kira's eyes shrank suddenly because of the stimulation of this undisguised words, it seemed that everything in front of him had collapsed all this time, everything he trusted and depended on disappeared.

"You think you are necessary to them, but when the real danger comes, they will choose to abandon you to save themselves. No one cares about your struggle, no one cares about your pain, even if you give everything to protect, and finally get You will still be questioned, and you will not be accepted by natural people from the very beginning." Feiyin spoke coldly and sarcasticly,

"In the end, all your efforts are meaningless, so I say you are poor...Be honest with yourself, no matter how gentle and beautiful their words are, but what is the truth? Kira, on this earth In the army, you, a new human being, are destined to be alone."

Kira's face was pale, and even the pupils of his eyes shrank and trembled. What is this?

Feiyin's words were like a sharp knife that tore apart the illusion mercilessly, leaving the cruel reality in front of Kira.

"So, stop being naive. No matter how much you deny my words now, sooner or later you will be forced to admit by what you see and hear. You are so pitiful that I can't bear to continue deceiving you... Everyone will leave you. I will also...and, I will leave earlier than them..."

"Goodbye, Kira."

Feiyin finally withdrew her hand on Kira's cheek. She knew that her words were hurtful, so she turned around and no longer faced Kira. She was afraid to continue, and she could not help being shaken, and then stretched out her hand The result is the same as in the past.

No matter what Kira's choice is, is to hate the natural person and her as she wishes, and then go to the ZAFT army that is best for him, or continue to force herself as stubbornly as possible, fighting to death, suffering to death .In the end, it has nothing to do with her, because she won't watch it anymore.

"I know..." The low-pitched murmur in the dead silence caused her to stop in place without turning her head.Because Kira grabbed her as she was leaving,

The hot liquid mixed with intense sadness and despair kept falling on Feiyin's grasped hand, and he cried! ?

"I've always known that I'm deceiving myself... I've been pretending not to see those estrangements, and I don't think about what will happen afterwards. As a new human being, I hold on to the friendship of natural people, hoping that it will last forever. Stupid isn't it..."

Feiyin didn't answer, she just felt that the hand holding her was so strong that she couldn't easily get away.

"But these are what I want to get... because of this... I try my best to hide my identity. If I can choose, I don't want to become a new human being, and I don't want to sit and fight with that guy. All I want is Survive in a neutral country with you... I have always worked hard with this hope, if I don't deceive myself, I can't go on at all!"

The long-standing patience turned into tears of grief overflowed from Kira's eyes, and he could no longer avoid it, and he couldn't deceive himself any longer. His body was shaking involuntarily in pain,

The voice of Aslan questioning him why he stood on the side of the Earth Army still echoed in his ears.

He is standing here for his friends, this is not a lie, not an excuse.

At that time, he was forced to expose his identity in order to protect Saiyi and the others, but Feiyin accepted him. When he accidentally destroyed the colony in order to protect them, Feiyin forgave him.That's why he felt that even if there were natural people behind him, he was not alone.

"Because you, Feiyin, stood by my side from the very beginning, you gave me the feeling that there are people behind me waiting for me, and the illusion that there are people behind me who need me. I can pretend that I don't care about their attitude, even if I use it to deceive myself. Whether it’s a lie, it’s the courage to keep me alive as a new human being with you.”

Kira's sad voice betrayed the pain of struggle.He knew that the new human himself was of course a different kind in the natural man earth army.

But there are people to protect among them! No amount of pain can be endured.

Feiyin always stood in front of him in a protective gesture.

Because every time Feiyin is by his side, she can always say something that makes him escape, and she can always say such warm words.

Because Fei Yin was always by his side...

"Why did you say it... If your gentleness is all fake and it's all because you pity me, then why do you say it and continue to deceive me! Feiyin!"

Because of her gentleness and tolerance, she still has the determination to fight desperately when she is involved in the war, so when faced with the hostility of other natural people, she can always comfort herself by deceiving herself, it's no big deal...

That's why he has always believed that he has friends behind him, including Concubine Yin.

But it happened that it was Fei Yin who broke all this with her own mouth, vetoed everything, and told him that everything she saw was fake, and that it was stupid and wrong for him as a new human to protect their natural people.

"... Feiyin is also a natural person. She has been by my side as considerately as before, let me fight for you, and use me gently until death, isn't it good?"

It never occurred to Feiyin that Kira was not roaring with resentment, but crying and crying while holding her, like a child who had lost everything, begging for tenderness.

Did she do something wrong?She just wanted to push Kira to Zaft's side, if Kira couldn't make a choice, she would choose for him.

"I……"

"I have no way out...I've always been scared, Feiyin..." He had to work hard to endure the loneliness among natural people as a new human being.

Facing the alienation of the friends he wants to protect, even fighting is the fear of death alone.

But Feiyin's gentleness gave him a lot of support, because she was always by his side, so he was able to survive.

So, don't leave him alone again.

"Please...keep lying to me, Feiyin...please..."

There was a faint plea in the sad voice.

I couldn't see Kira's expression, but felt the trembling of Kira who was holding her from behind, and the hot tears that kept falling pricked her skin.

"..."

"I'm sorry... Kira." It was such a painful thing to destroy his faith and force him... I never thought that Kira would be forced to this point... After all, it was still a mistake.

Fei Yin accompanied the other party's slowly loosening hand and turned around to look at Kira head-on, looking at the tears and sadness on his face.

In the end, I still couldn’t bear to continue to hurt such a gentle and fragile him, “I just don’t want to watch you suffer anymore... The new human being standing among natural people is very painful, isn’t it, it doesn’t matter if you don’t have to endure anymore, you don’t need to protect It doesn't matter if we die... No one has to be responsible for other people's lives, and no one has to be protected in order to live. Be more selfish and stop struggling with pain..."

Under Kira's unbelievable gaze, Feiyin stretched out her hands to hold her tear-stained face, her expression unable to conceal her sadness, "I apologize to you for the cruel words just now. But, get out of here, Kira... you You shouldn't stay here, don't you want to fight, the red Gundam chasing the Archangel is your friend!"

"Feiyin!" Kira never thought that Feiyin would know this.

"I remember that in that colony, the boy you called Aslan snatched the red body. It was your good friend, so you showed such a sad expression, the previous battle You should leave with him and go to Zaft. That way you don't have to get into a fight again." Feiyin wiped away the remaining tears on Kira's face.

"Feiyin!"

"I'm serious. Even if the soldiers of the Archangel and your friends are sincerely treating you well, they are not all of them. In this Eurasian Federation, they are all unable to protect themselves. Once your new human identity is revealed, It will be like a treasure on the verge of extinction, and any side of the Earth Army wants to fight for it, and wants to squeeze out any place you can use. None of the people on the Archangel that you desperately protect can save you."

"That's why Feiyin tried her best to make me see the reality clearly, and tried her best to force me to go to ZAFT?"

"..." Unexpectedly, Kira understood immediately, and the topic changed so quickly that Feiyin couldn't react immediately. "You hate fighting anyway, don't you?"

"Feiyin, sure enough, she's very gentle." Kira, who wiped away her tears, breathed a sigh of relief, as long as the gentleness doesn't disappear... "To be precise, I hate this kind of war, but ah, Feiyin, what did you say?" That's right, there is no way to end it. From the time I got on the Gundam, even if I was brought back by Aslan, where can I escape from the war? In the end, I will still be forced to join the army. It's just that the position has changed .”

"But you are no longer alone. At that time, your good friend Aslan was by your side to fight with you!"

"So what, I lost you at that time!" Kira interrupted Feiyin quickly and loudly, "By that time, wouldn't it be the same as the current situation of being an enemy of Aslan? Don't you want me to At that time, if you encountered the Archangel, if you saw you, would you raise your sword and attack without hesitation?"

"That's right!"

"I can't do it! Feiyin, I can't do it." Kira couldn't help but pull Feiyin into her arms, not wanting her to see the pain and sadness in her eyes, "Feiyin, I'm a new human The traitors... Do you want me to lose you too? Lose you too, and I'll really... have nothing. I'm not a soldier, nor a great hero who fights to protect natural people. I just hate war and just want To live, to protect those who care about and live together. This is what I really think."

The traitor of the new humanity... What kind of mood did he have to say such words? "Have you really decided? The path you chose is not easy, and it may be more painful than you imagined."

"Ah, I know." Kira let go of her, showing a calm smile, his eyes no longer trembling from enduring pain, and he didn't say words against his will to make Feiyin feel at ease, "It's already decided, As long as Feiyin is always by my side, I will not fight alone, and I will not cry weakly for this reason. So, become my belief in fighting, Feiyin."

"I refuse...you won't mind if I say that." Feiyin glanced at him and sighed, but she still couldn't be cruel to the end...

"I knew it, forget it, do whatever you want. If you insist on making this decision, I'll accompany you for a short walk." Really, all my plans were in vain... I glanced at Kira, then sighed, Let's do that for now.

Just when the atmosphere between two people is harmonious, there are always people who destroy the atmosphere.

A group of people in white military uniforms rushed in with guns in hand, and surrounded them in a circle under Kira's disbelieving gaze.And these people are what they discussed before, from the Eurasian Federation, soldiers...

"What's going on here?" Kira subconsciously stood in front of Fei Yin,

The soldier with the gun just replied, "Don't move, don't ask anything, follow us."

Not only them, but even Maru, Mu, and Bakilulu, who thought they had gotten rid of the ZAFT army and entered the Eurasian Federation at ease, were completely unable to respond to the sudden threat of guns.

Second Lieutenant Bucky Lulu looked at the soldiers of the Eurasian Federation beside him, "Colonel Wiedanfu, I would like you to explain what's going on!"

"Your ship does not have any record of ship registration, nor does it have the identification code of our army. Although you are allowed to enter the port after judging the situation, unfortunately, we have not yet recognized you as a friendly army. We are only checking the ship according to security measures. Control and arms control blockade."

"but!"

"This is a military practice, please understand."

Facing such a tough military approach, Second Lieutenant Bucky Lulu could no longer say anything, she could only obey.And Maru, who knew from the beginning that it was useless to say anything, gritted his teeth angrily, because everyone who heard what the colonel said was just a high-sounding excuse, but it made them unable to resist what he did. They never thought that the friendly forces of the Eurasian Federation would treat them like this. "Then the officers will come with me."

Similarly, other poor people and ordinary soldiers on the Archangel were also threatened to gather in one place.

Everything is not going in the right direction as they thought.