book of contract

Feiyin came to the moving passage alone, suspended in front of the transparent wall, the bright colors of the sunny day outside did not catch her eyes, and her eyes were dark and cold without bottoming out.

All kinds of memories in the past, the backs of different people, were finally stained with blood.Her memories are running out of bright and happy ones, and the last ones left are black and red of despair.

She doesn't have a sense of guilt, nor does she have a sense of morality.

Only want to do, don't want to do.care and don't care.

It's not that there was no kind and gentle person like Kira in her memory, but... she looked up at the false sky, watching the scene of Kira's white attacking body holding a sword and fighting, and the lights of various colors were full of destruction. The shells crisscrossed the sky.

None survived.

Gentle people will eventually die to protect their beliefs.

Countless heroes shed tears of mourning with the belief that they once wielded their swords.

And then all hope is lost,

When a strong belief is destroyed, what comes surging is the sense of guilt that can destroy people because of killing people.

No matter who it is, what is irreversible is the past that has not been stained with blood.

War is originally for destruction, and killing for protection has never existed. The people you guard will always see the scene of you swinging your sword and being stained with blood.

Many of those people in my memory cried and asked at the end... would they be happier if they died in the war from the beginning without resistance?

If you don't see a glimmer of hope, if you don't have any beliefs to protect, it's good to die an ordinary death. Without hope, there will be no disappointment. Without trust, you will not be betrayed.The happiest thing is to die when you know nothing.

When holding the murder weapon, he didn't have the courage to bear it, and he didn't lose all awareness. He just thought that if he continued to fight and kill people, the people behind him would be rescued. This kind of thinking is false.No one will always be behind you to protect, and in the end you are the only one left on the battlefield, fighting, fighting, fighting.Fighting the enemy bravely, unable to turn back, relying on self-deception to repeat day after day.

——"Thank you, Feiyin."

Obviously, she didn't really do anything for Kira, but she was still thanked.

The initial quarrel with Maru was just that she didn't like being coerced. She wanted to die and sleep, and she didn't care whether she dragged the people behind her to be buried with her or not.

Confronted with her who is not really a friendly kind person.

Why save her, wouldn't it be nice to let her be killed by Maru?

——"I also don't want to watch Feiyin die in front of me."

His tenderness and warmth are what made her hesitant and not like herself.It is easy to see through Kira's thoughts and gratitude, which makes her feel unbearable when she wakes up tired.

Obviously she doesn't care about anyone, and no one pays attention to her. She always only does what she wants to do, regardless of the consequences and the opinions of others.

Obviously, for her, she doesn't really like Kira, but just doesn't hate her.

Why do you have such emotions, you want to reach out to stop him.

When watching him walk the wrong path that is not leading to happiness, subconsciously blocked in front of him.Obviously she shouldn't be such a nosy character.

——"I clearly have the power to manipulate the machine body. I knew that you were on the machine body with me at the time, but because of my own selfishness, I wanted to hide it and almost let you face death.... I'm sorry."

Why do you have to apologize, if you want to talk about it, she is the same...

She didn't really think about Kira, she just couldn't get used to it, couldn't get used to threats, couldn't get used to using it, and couldn't get used to war.

In every word she said, she didn't even really help Kira, she just said what she didn't like, and she didn't care whether Kira would encounter a worse situation because of her words.

Being framed by someone, Kira still has to say sorry to someone... how gentle is she?

Feiyin laughed softly in the empty moving passage.Across a transparent wall, there is an untouchable cruel war.

Kira met his best friend Aslan, and faced each other with swords drawn on the battlefield.

Because of the battle, the small satellite could not bear the devastation of the artillery fire and collapsed. The neutral remaining country named Heliopolis was instantly fragmented, and the brightly colored scenery was instantly torn into pieces of tiny wreckage like a broken picture scroll.

The colonial satellites were destroyed in an instant, and what they saw now was no longer the false and peaceful landscape, but the endless dark universe.

[Kira, I really want to tell you that the path you chose does not lead to happiness. The hope you thought might lead to despair.But I didn't say...]

[I originally thought that in return, I would reach out and give you a hand when you were still by my side.But when you pushed me away, I didn't reach out after all. ]

If she wanted, she could stop Kira directly with her abilities. Sure enough, she didn't really care about Kira, but she didn't hate him so much, so she just watched him go down a dead end where countless people have struggled and suffered.

— "Sorry, Feiyin...I have to go."

If he really wanted to stop him, if he really wanted to save him, Kira would never have a chance to get on the Strike Gundam.

She just missed it too much. Kira's tenderness gave her the illusion of caring.

When everyone was unbelievable in the face of the desolation of the universe, when Kira cried out more desperately than crying, Feiyin suspended in the unmanned moving channel and laughed loudly, carrying the desolation that could not be vented in silence, as if at this moment She's already standing at the end, lonely—at the end of the road.

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Kira, who was sitting in Strike Gundam, held the joystick with trembling hands. He despised the war, but he still didn't have enough awareness. When facing his childhood friend, he lived for many years. The Reese country was destroyed in an instant, and the scene of prosperity turned to ashes in an instant.

"Why..." Why did it become like this, is everything his fault?As for those who took refuge, he failed to save any of them, and even destroyed everyone's shelter because of him.

My whole body was tense and unable to move or respond to this huge change.

"XI05, Strike Gundam, X105, Strike Gundam, Kira Yamato, Kira Yamato, are you still alive! Please answer if you hear it, please answer if you hear it." Second Lieutenant Bucky Lulu's nervous shout came from the communicator, There was a tinge of tremor in the voice of forced calm, though death was common in war, and even with that devastating change, the death of a child named Kira was possible.

But I still want to have hope, the boy who fought for them, the boy who was forced to go to the battlefield, I hope he can live.

However, it was this kind of calling that called Kira back from the shock, and he immediately opened the communication, "This is the X105 Strike Gundam, I am Kira." Just such a sentence is enough for the people on the Archangel to know His safety, everyone breathed a sigh of relief.

"It's alright."

"Yes."

"Do you know where it is?"

"Yes."

"Then come back, can you come back?"

"Yes." Facing the desolation, Kira was almost suffocated by the despair of feeling as if everyone was dead, and such a simple concern made him feel relieved.Still able to go back, he let go of the joystick that he was holding with all his strength, because his emotions were always tense, and his hands trembled even if he let go and lifted them.

Visible to the naked eye, trembling.Those who took refuge in Heliopolis, their parents, are they still alive?Is it all right... He didn't dare to speculate, didn't dare to verify, he could only pray with a little bit of prayer.

At this moment, he received a distress call and saw a Heliopolis lifeboat not far away. Because he was captured by his mood, he thought that there might be familiar people, maybe his parents were also in the same place. He asked for help in the lifeboat, and brought the lifeboat, which was much smaller than Gundam, back to the Archangel.

"Wait, who gave you permission to do this!" Of course, it was Mu and Maru who disapproved. "we can not accept."

"Unacceptable? What does this mean, their propellers are broken and they are drifting." Kira never thought that they would refuse to accept this lifeboat. "The people sitting inside are all refugees! How can I throw them away!?"

"A rescue ship is coming, and the Archangel is in battle! People who take refuge cannot be accepted." Second Lieutenant Bucky Lulu reminded Kira of the situation in front of him.Just as she was about to further refuse, Maru agreed as the captain, "Forget it, I agree. Now I don't want to waste time arguing about this kind of thing. Contain as soon as possible."

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When Kira came down from the Strike Gundam, other staff members of the Archangel had already opened the lifeboat, and the girl with bright red hair came out first. Gorgeous like a beautiful flower, delicate and vibrant.

When she came out, seeing Kira's familiar face, the first thing she did was to rush to her nervous heart, put it down, and started crying, telling Kira that she and her friends were separated, and she went to the shelter alone, and she didn't know What happened now, he asked Kira in confusion if this is the territory of the Zaft army, and why he was here, his words were full of panic, and he desperately wanted to vent his fright, but he didn't look at it. To Kira's complicated and sad expression.

Faced with her worries and her words, Kira finally just kept silent and didn't answer anything, and couldn't answer, and comforted her with simple actions, telling her that this is not the ZAFT Army, but the Earth Army.

All the people he knew around him were involved in such a disaster, and he really didn't expect to meet her again, and it was such a coincidence that the lifeboat she was in was rescued by him.

She is Fleur, Sai's girlfriend, and the girl Kira once had a crush on.

"Fleur!" The door of the lounge opened, and Sai stood up in surprise when he saw the red-haired girl.

"Say!" Fleur swooped, fully reflecting the reunion of long-lost lovers.

Kira felt that Heliopolis was destroyed because of himself, and just smiled at his friends a little disappointed.Because there was one more person in the lifeboat, the originally quiet lounge and restaurant became a little more lively, and there were more people.

But among these people, Kira didn't see Fei Yin's figure, as if she hadn't seen her from the beginning.Using the reason of looking for Feiyin, he didn't want to wait too long in front of Sai and Fu Lei before turning around and leaving.Then, in the quiet and deserted passageway, I saw Feiyin who was holding her and floating in front of the transparent wall.

"Feiyin?" Kira slowed down her voice as if afraid of disturbing the other party.

"Kira..." Feiyin's reaction was calm, and even that calm revealed exhaustion.

"What's wrong? Are you uncomfortable? Do you need to lie down in the lounge?" Kira immediately became worried when she saw Feiyin like this.

"I'm fine." Avoiding Kira's hand that wanted to touch the temperature of her forehead, he replied a little indifferently.She didn't look at Kira's expression, but looked up at the endless night sky, "I heard that you saved a lifeboat person, don't you need to be with your friends?"

"...No need." Lost and tired, he turned into Kira.

Feiyin tilted her head and looked at him strangely, "What, you were criticized? You must have encountered a lot of resistance to save the lifeboat."

"Eh!? How does Feiyin know?"

"Oh, you are stupid, Kira, this is not a matter of course. After all, the Archangel will drift for an unknown period of time. They have no supplies, and food and water sources will become the most scarce thing. And one more person is one more burden , This is not a single person, but a whole lifeboat." Feiyin smiled calmly and answered flatly. "However, this should not be the reason for your disappointment."

"..." Kira didn't answer, but looked up at Feiyin, "Then what about Feiyin...why is she so unhappy?" Even looking so tired and sad... soon he lowered his head again, " Because of me?"

Startled by Kira's words, Fei Yin suddenly turned around and looked at him, seeing his cowardly look with lowered eyes and not daring to look directly.He knows it all! ?Fei Yin was surprised.

"I'm sorry, Feiyin." Kira's hands hanging on both sides were clenched suddenly, her powerful fingertips almost buried in the flesh, "Heliopolis was destroyed because of me...because of me...I have no protection Okay..." Letting Feiyin lose her relatives, seeing her home collapsed with her own eyes, she must be very sad, and she must hate him very much.

Seeing Kira's appearance, Feiyin suddenly understood, "You think my home is here, and I'm sad to see my home destroyed, worrying about my parents whose life and death are unknown?"

Kira looked at her, it wasn't the angry, sad look he thought it was, had he guessed wrong?Immediately afterwards, she heard her say, "So you really think so? You really like to take all the mistakes on yourself." The following words were like sighs.

"My home is not here. As for family, I don't have parents at all."

Hearing Fei Yin's words, Kira realized that he had reminded her of bad memories, "Sorry."

"Why is Kira always apologizing for things that weren't her fault?" Fei Yin's words made Kira unable to even utter the reflexive apology. "Although it's not very good to say this, I don't think you need to feel sorry for me at all, because I don't understand what it's like to be a relative, so there's nothing to be sad about without parents."

"..." After a long silence, even though she didn't know her past, Kira didn't think those were good memories, and didn't want Feiyin to mention those unhappy things, so she changed the subject, "Then why didn't Feiyin Happy?"

"I'm not happy? Where did Kira see that?" Feiyin raised her eyes calmly, why did she care so gently for the people around her, why did she observe such subtleties, Kira.

"I always feel that Concubine is not as energetic as before." Kira smiled embarrassedly at herself who was not good at words, "Although we have only known each other for a day, when we get along with Concubine, it is very natural, very... relaxed Seeing such a sharp confrontation with others, Feiyin who is self-willed like a child, is very cute, I am sorry that this seems to be a bit of a misnomer."

"Idiot, it's me who should say sorry. You don't blame others except for taking the blame yourself, Kira. Don't you think that my previous words and deeds have not considered for you at all, and will bring you Are you in trouble!?"

"No, I think it's very good that Feiyin is like this. Feiyin is always thinking of me, very gentle,...and, thank you." At this moment, Kira completely lost the haze of the war just now, and started to comfort the child in front of her instead. "Although I'm still a little scared, I will protect Feiyin."

Feiyin knew that he was forcing herself at this moment, obviously sad and painful, he was forcing herself to smile at her.

Thinking that she was frightened by the war not long ago, he treated her like a real child and comforted her.

He obviously hates fighting the most, but he worked hard, and said to her with a smile, "I will try my best not to let the flames of war spread behind me, so I still hope that Feiyin can be like a child, and smile more casually and don't care about anything." , I don’t need to worry about anything, I will feel very relaxed when I am with such a concubine."

"Really, Kira?" Are you really not in pain?Say it selfishly, why do you need to comfort her.

"Really, we can make an agreement, pull the hook, I will protect you and Feiyin." As if thinking that Feiyin didn't believe it, Kira even stretched out her little finger.

Feiyin looked at him hesitantly, then slowly raised her hand and stretched out her little finger, almost hooking his little finger.

A voice suddenly sounded,

"Oh, is Kira confessing to Feiyin!?" Miria who didn't know when she came to the moving passage suddenly spoke, startling Kira from behind.After hearing Miria's words clearly, Kira's face turned red. "Eh?"

At the same time, Fei Yin quickly put down her hand and retracted it as if she had regained her senses.

"No, this is not a confession." He shouted in a panic, but his ears turned red.

"Okay, okay, we understand, there is no need to explain." Dole's words almost made Kira speechless, as if two people who were not related before had become related.

And Dole and Miria, who had seen Sai and Fleur together and came out to look for Kira out of fear that Kira would be sad, suddenly felt that there was no need to worry about Kira.

"How did it become like this, why did they misunderstand like this." Kira was a little speechless.

"Probably because of me," Feiyin said,

"Eh!?"

"Before Milia asked me if we knew each other, I told them that we knew each other before, so they regarded us as childhood sweethearts."

"what!?"

"If you don't say that, we will be joked if we are too close, and it will cause trouble, right? It's better to obey their wishes. You won't mind anyway, Kira." Feiyin chuckled.

"Although it is like this, but..." I always feel that something is wrong.

Feiyin didn't say anything, just watched the brief peace after the initial war, with Kira's character, if it was really agreed, then he would really fight to the death.She looked at her little finger, raised it, and put it down again.

She doesn't need others to protect her desperately, and she doesn't want to be Kira's belief, so it's okay to make an agreement or something.