Intensive Cultivation Manual

There was already the sound of water in the bathroom, it was so loud that it overwhelmed other sounds, there were no windows and no sunlight in the room, so Ju Yan had to go out to get some air with a cigarette in his mouth.

At this time, the street has been completely plunged into darkness. I was brought here by Kong Yang in the dark, and I don’t even remember the way. Ju Yan is quite familiar with the abandoned area. I don’t know which side Kong Yang lives in, but the remote street lamp nearby None, not a single light in the building was on, and it was so quiet as if he was the only one around.

Ju Yan lowered his head and lit the cigarette. The scarlet light was particularly obvious in the dark night. After exhaling a puff of smoke, he leaned against the cold wall and fell into thinking.

What does he think about Kong Yang now?

He also just realized that it is okay for him to face men.It's just not clear if all men can do it or just Kongyang.He felt that he liked women, but it was also very comfortable when he kissed Kong Yang. When he breathed on his ears, his whole body was surrounded by his breath. It was really seductive, and he felt it immediately.

Fortunately, he reacted in time, otherwise what would happen would be really unpredictable, and he didn't know what to do with the man, but he felt that if he didn't resist, Kong Yang would do it logically.After all, this person was completely irrational after meeting him, and he wanted to get something from him.

Thinking of the kiss just now, Ju Yan became irritable, walked a little sideways along the side of the road, blew the cold wind for a while, sneezed a few times, the body temperature dropped, and the wine was completely sober, shaking With a cigarette in between, he walked back.

Feeling almost to the building where Kongyang is, he lit a lighter and walked to the basement, and saw a gleam of light leaking from the crack of the door in the distance, hesitating to pass.

As soon as he got close to the door, the door was suddenly opened by someone, which made Ju Yan tremble in fright, and dropped the lighter on the ground. Kong Yang threw him into a bear hug and froze on the spot.

Kong Yang's body was very cold. Ju Yan guessed that he had taken a cold shower. The two cold bodies hugged each other, but it was much warmer. Taste, asked in a low voice: "What's wrong?"

"I thought you were gone." Kong Yang's voice was dull.

"Where can I go dressed like this in the middle of the night?" Ju Yan smiled helplessly.But Kong Yang's silent appearance let Ju Yan know that he really thought he was gone, that's why he made such a sad sound, patted him on the back, and comforted him: "I just went out to blow some air."

"En." Kong Yang withdrew his hand, pulled Ju Yan and turned into the room.

The room was narrow and crowded, but it must have been very warm outside. Ju Yan snuffed out the cigarette butt in his hand and lay down on the bed. After Kong Yang turned off the light, he also climbed into the bed in the dark.

After turning off the lights, the room without any light source was pitch black. The two fell asleep with their backs facing each other. The sound of quiet breathing was very clear in the room. The temperature that was gradually transmitted made the consciousness more clear, and it was impossible to fall asleep at all.

"There is still class tomorrow, so I have to get up early." Kong Yang's voice sounded in the room.

"En." Ju Yan responded, but he just couldn't fall asleep, turned over a few times on the spot, stared at the dark ceiling, suddenly remembered the diary under the desk, turned sideways to face Kong Yang's back, He asked softly, "Where's your mother?"

Feeling Kong Yang's body froze, after a brief silence, his deep voice sounded, "I committed suicide a long time ago."

Ju Yan was taken aback for a moment. After seeing that part of the diary, he thought that a family with only two people would be much better than life without a father, but he didn't expect his mother to commit suicide. Realizing that he had uncovered Kong Yang's scar, he stretched out his hand to pat him on the back, not knowing what to say to comfort him, so he had to pat like this, trying to make him not so sad.

"I don't care, it's been a long time anyway." Kong Yangwei lay down on his side, stared at the ceiling, closed his eyes, and opened them again. In the dark room, he couldn't see the other party's face at all. No matter where he looked, his sight All it can touch is darkness.

Ju Yan was silent and didn't know how to comfort him. His family has always been harmonious, because it was something he had never experienced and could not feel.So they didn't even know where to speak, and the two lay stiffly on the bed, each silent, staring at the darkness, listening to the other's breathing.

"Good night." Kong Yang spoke first and closed his eyes.

"Well, good night." Ju Yan also prepared to go to sleep.

In the speechless space, the half-drunk breath made sleepiness gradually come up, Ju Yan squinted his eyes, and slowly fell asleep.After the breathing gradually calmed down, only Kong Yang was awake in the room, he closed his eyes carefully listening to the breathing of the person next to him, and leaned slightly towards him.

In the familiar room, there was suddenly another person on his bed, who made him unable to sleep peacefully, and of course it would be difficult to sleep tonight.Kong Yang turned sideways, took out the lighter on the bedside, lit it in the dark room, looked at Ju Yan's outline outlined by the light, closed his eyes and was so close to Kong Yang's peaceful sleeping face for the first time.

The lighter was hot, the flame went out, and then lit again after a few seconds.In the dark room, the flame of the lighter was lit and extinguished repeatedly, and it continued.

Because Ju Zao was so unguarded towards him, as if telling him that there was still hope, although during the day he expressed this matter euphemistically through alcohol, Ju Zao's answer made him hesitate.

Maybe it’s better to really give up, it’s the best choice for Ju Yan or him, pretending to stay by his side without knowing anything, watching him until graduation, and then taking this feeling as nothing in return Secret love hidden in the bottom of my heart.That's the choice a normal person would make, because that's what's best for both of them.

but.

The flame lit up, outlining the outline of Ju Yan's face, Kong Yang stretched out his hand fascinatedly, trying to touch, the next second, the flame died out, and his vision fell into darkness again.

He didn't know if he could really let go, and simply and decisively regarded himself as a passerby as he imagined, watching him like others and being with other people, even thinking about it now would make Kong Yang's heart restless, I only hope that that day will come later, when he is no longer so easily attracted to this person.

In that case, he might be able to let go.

Reluctantly closing his eyes, Ju Yan's face appeared in the dark vision, the smiling face with a cigarette in his mouth was shrouded in the sun, gentle and dazzling, like poisoning, it took root in Kong Yang's heart and penetrated deep into the bone marrow.