[HP] Magic didn't give up on you

Remus walked alone in the endless darkness.

Smoky scenes flew by his side from time to time, the past that he had experienced and was helpless in his life.Those mistakes that he dared not face because of his cowardice surged in the empty darkness, drowning him layer by layer.

Immerse yourself in your own pain, avoid the guilt and embrace of your parents.Silently locked myself in the room alone, afraid of being alone, but didn't want to face anyone.

I finally made friends at Hogwarts. I was afraid of being abandoned and disgusted by them. I found many reasons to cover up my true self. I cowardly fabricated lies in the face of their concern. I didn’t dare to confess. I frightened and maintained my false happiness in order not to lose Friends don't correct their mistakes, they ignore everything in front of them.

In the dark age when everyone is in danger, they are lucky enough to have a stable life. They try their best to prove their innocence and stay away from all suspicious things.A spy who could break into the world of werewolves would be useful to the Order of the Phoenix, and he's been hesitant to go.He was afraid of facing the face of the murderer who bit him. He always thought that the Order of the Phoenix has a better way, he has other functions, he can not be associated with this identity that he hates, he can do more It's a good thing, instead of staying in an environment that you hate the most to deliver news and live a life that feels like years...

He hates being alone, he hates being out of company, he hates the moon, he hates werewolves.

hate himself.

I hate using lies to lie to myself one after another.At the beginning, I lied to my parents that I was fine, didn't care about everything I experienced, and wasn't afraid of a life of ups and downs.Later, he lied to his friends to agree to all the stupid things they did, even if they squandered their youth immaturely in school, he didn't have the courage and determination to correct them, even if he knew that was what a friend should really do.

He has done many wrong things and left too many regrets.

I didn't pay attention to the emotions of the friend I cared about. When he was in the dark, I looked at him with angry and disappointed eyes like everyone else. I didn't think about how to solve his difficulties as a friend and try to make him feel better. pull back.He was so young at the time, and his future life had infinite possibilities, but he watched him go to the end of his life like a bystander, without doing anything useful.

Didn't treat the girl who showed her heart to him well, a beautiful, cute, young, energetic girl who fell in love with him for some reason... That would be the beginning of her unhappy life, he thought.What could ruin a girl's life more than being with a werewolf and having a child of werewolf blood?He treated her indifferently, evaded her enthusiasm, refused to communicate and communicate, and saw her haggard and sad because of the rejection, and stabbed her repeatedly with his own inferiority complex.

He didn't fully understand the sorrow of helpless people who are also werewolves like himself.He once hated them, hated the whole group, deeply hated his identity as a werewolf, and hated all the injustices that fate brought to him.He heard that they died a lot with Voldemort in the great war more than ten years ago, and he was happy at that time... After the war, he saw that those werewolves who did not participate in Voldemort's army were also expelled as defeated ones, Can't get any job, can't afford wolfbane potion, can only let myself survive as a beast that I hate the most, with no choice, no ability to change.

He always thought about a lot of things, wanted to do a lot of things, but couldn't do them in the end, a life of failure composed of coincidences and disasters. At the last moment, he saw himself aiming his wand at his friend.

He once vowed to cherish forever and not allow himself to hurt any friends.

Why does he still exist now?Remus was deeply confused.If he was already destined to be used by Voldemort, why...why didn't he use his last courage to make a break with this gloomy and miserable life, let himself stop, and use his life to fulfill his promise of eternal loyalty?

Remus felt that he had finally figured out something, and at this moment, he felt genuinely relaxed and happy.A cliff appeared silently in front of him, and below it was a boundless and dark abyss. He said to himself in the dark, jump off, Remus, and show your loyalty, no matter what you become— —You are always passively becoming what you are in this life.You are now free to choose, and you swore not to hurt your friends.

Just jump off.Remus murmured to himself, stepping forward.

In the boundless darkness of silence, a faint shout suddenly came from afar.

"Remus——Remus? Are you there, Remus, where are you? Can you answer me when you hear it? I've been looking for you..."

who is it?familiar voice.

Remus's concentration was in a trance for a moment, then he shook his head to regain his composure.It doesn't matter anymore, no matter who it is, it doesn't matter.He wants to do what he should do, and he wants to prevent himself from making more mistakes...

But suddenly, some changes happened again.A slight halo suddenly lit up in the boundless darkness, which was not dazzling, and gently coated the boundless darkness with a shallow arc of light.

what is itRemus looked around in astonishment, searched for a while, and was horrified to find that it was himself who was glowing.

His body was coated with a light halo, and now his whole body is glowing.This subtle light illuminates the abyss under his feet, and images that flash and disappear faintly appear in it. Every image seems to say to him, come down, come down quickly, we are waiting for you...

Here we go.Remus lowered his head, calmly took a step forward, and stepped into the deep void.

The sound of heavier and heavier footsteps sounded behind him, it didn't matter anymore.He was falling—a strange sound of wind suddenly came from behind him, and something jumped off the cliff behind him, jumping into the abyss with a much more determined posture than him.

It hit him hard on the back and hugged him tightly.

Even in a state of unconsciousness now, Remus still felt inexplicably suffocated by being smashed for a moment.He struggled to turn his head and looked at the person hugging him on his back. When he saw her face clearly, the feeling of suffocation seemed to return to his heart in an instant—he opened his eyes wide in panic, A panic that hadn't occurred to him when he plummeted suddenly surrounded him.

"Tonks..." he said dryly, nearly losing his voice at first, and then his voice grew louder, "Why are you here—you shouldn't be here! Do you know what this place is? Go back! You know How to go back—concentrate your spirits! Go back!"

"I don't!" Tonks answered him loudly, staring at him stubbornly, tightening his arms around him, and looking at each other closely, he said loudly, "I don't know where this is! This I have been looking for a dark ghost place for a long time, but I can't find you. It took a lot of effort to finally find it. Who wants me to let go? Who am I to worry about—how do I know what kind of ghost place this is? But since you Here, then I will not go back! I want to be with you!"

"I'm going to die, I should," said Remus desperately, "but you shouldn't—why did you have to come?"

"You never know why?" Tonks said angrily, staring at him hard for a few seconds, then jerked his head down and bit his lip hard.

"Because I - like you - Remus Lupine, you - idiot!"

No, it shouldn't be like this.Remus wanted to struggle, to push her away, to...

No.

Remus' movements stopped, and while he was running towards death, he looked at the face in front of him that was blurred by being too close, and heard a voice whispering in his heart.

No, he doesn't want to.

...he didn't want to push her away.

I don't want to take her to death.

He wants to... live.

Struggling to live in pain, confronting the world and yourself every day, endless pain, and responsibilities that cannot be let go, these are very heavy.

But he has to face it, he doesn't want to disappoint anyone, his compatriots, his friends, his relatives, the girl he likes, and himself.

A bright light suddenly appeared in the endless abyss under his feet. He slammed into the light and opened his eyes suddenly.

Several faces approached at the same time, and his friends surrounded him nervously and concerned.

"Remus!" Several voices sounded at the same time, asking him questions one after another.

"All right? Can you move? Your limbs were twitching—"

"Can you talk now? Do you know us? I'm Jaime, tell me what these two fingers are—"

"How do you feel now? Does Voldemort still have any influence on you? Just in case we took your wand away, I thought about it while you were unconscious. Even if you were really controlled by Voldemort, we You can also exploit some loopholes. For example, if you agree, make an unbreakable oath with me now, and swear that you will not hurt any of Sirius' friends—then you will find that I have surprisingly many friends..."

"Okay, Remus needs quiet and fresh air." Eli's voice sounded, pushing away the others who were too excited, "Let Remus react for a while, he looks dazed... what happened just now What? Do you remember? Dorothy remembers the dream, but I'm not sure you do, it's not quite the same after all. What do you think, Albus?"

"Me? Of course I don't know anything." The principal's voice came briskly. "We can only see Remus waking up. This is definitely good news."

Remus was silent. Hearing the content of the dream, he subconsciously looked at the girl who was still lying beside his bed. She sat up slowly, stared blankly for a while, and looked at him.

"I don't know..." She said in a daze, "I was dreaming just now? Did that really happen?"

Before Remus could speak, she shook her head violently and said, "Never mind, I'll take it for real."

She approached him suddenly, hooked his neck in front of everyone, and kissed him again.

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Thanks to Xiao Jiang for the grenade that is sleepy every day~