deep desire

Lu Jing kissed deeply impatiently and impatiently, entangled Feng Si's tongue indiscriminately, trying to grab the warmth of his mouth, the background sound of the movie could not cover up the sticky sound of water between lips and tongue.

In the matter of kissing, he learned all his skills from Feng Si.

It's been that way since the first time.

At that time, he met Feng Si in a stranger's way, and his money was stolen. Feng Si drove him to a nearby big city to find a bank to withdraw money. Before they parted ways, this man stopped him and asked him what he was doing in Africa. Plan to go with him or not.

Although Lu Jingshen was vigilant and defensive, he was actually bold, and got back into his car without much hesitation.Then that night, when sleeping in the countryside, Feng Si kissed him without any warning, and he didn't refuse.

It was also at that time that Lu Jing knew that he had desires for men, and he clearly hated them, but he couldn't refuse Feng Si.

It was seven years ago, and it will be even more so after seven years.

Lu Jing's deep breathing gradually became faster, Feng Si pressed the back of his neck, and stepped back a little: "I have taught you so many times, but I still can't do it. Don't be so anxious when you are with your loved ones. Remember to take a breath."

Lu Jingshen: "It's not as experienced as you."

Feng Si laughed lightly: "Are you jealous again?"

"I'll still come."

He kissed Lu Jingshen again, first he held his lips and licked and rubbed them slowly, then pushed in forcefully along the slightly parted lips, sucking every softness in his mouth.

Feng Si's kisses are always aggressive, his breath and taste spread in Lu Jing's deep mouth, reaching deep throat.

This kind of kiss is like a prairie fire, easily igniting Lu Jing deeply.

Lu Jingshen struggled to open her eyes between the kisses, staring at the long, narrow eyes that were close at hand and slightly lowered in front of her, her heart beating like a drum.

For no reason, he recalled their first kiss again, and it was the same. Feng Si took a cigarette and bullied him directly. When he came back to his senses, that person's bitter tobacco smell had already rushed into his mouth and nose.

Strong and domineering, there is absolutely no room for him to refuse.

At that time, he deliberately indulged himself, but now he can't help it.

"Are you distracted?"

Feng Si stopped his movements, backed out, and licked the corner of his lips: "Am I not trying too hard? Kissing can distract you? Which wild man are you thinking about?"

Lu Jing frowned deeply, he didn't like this kind of joke very much.

Except for Feng Si, he is very repulsed to have an affair with other men, so even the friends he has known since childhood, he can mercilessly break up with them.

When dealing with strangers, such as the person who struck up a conversation with him in the club today, he would even disregard his self-cultivation and directly tell the other party to fuck off.

Even if it was a joke, he didn't like Feng Si talking about it.

Reaching out to pull Feng Si closer, Lu Jing kissed him again as if venting deeply.

This time it was a little better than before, the kissing of lips and teeth was mixed with lust, and the heat in the body was also rising.

Feng Si's hand kneaded Lu Jing's deep earlobe, then slid to the back of the ear, and slowly fondled it down his neck.Lu Jing gasped deeply, and moved her hands over Feng Si's chest, and skillfully unbuttoned his shirt with her fingers.

Then there was the sound of metal clashing, the belt was thrown to the ground, and the clothes were peeled off one by one.

Being hugged and sat on Feng Si face to face, Lu Jingshen held his face in both hands, rubbing his fingers gently against the side of his face.

This pose brings each other closer.

On the last night in Africa that year, they used this posture, and it was Lu Jingshen who took the initiative.

That evening, he turned on his mobile phone that had been off for three months, and received a message from Lu Jingqing, asking him when he would go back and whether he wanted to see a doctor.

Only then did he become convinced that a psychiatrist was of no use to him, that he himself was a homosexual through and through, but he didn't want to admit it, and he didn't want to degenerate.

He had to leave that man before he was completely trapped, so he chose to escape silently.

He has been living peacefully for the past seven years, except in the dead of night, he occasionally thinks about those three months and that person.

The shadows and nightmares of the past did not bother him anymore, and even though his younger brother brought a boy back, although he found it difficult to accept, he kept silent.

Other people's affairs have nothing to do with him, as long as he is not himself.

As long as he is not himself.

But that person appeared again, and it was useless to deceive oneself and others after all.

Feng Si pressed on every step of the way, he couldn't hide his ears anymore.

He knew that if he couldn't overcome the psychological barrier, Feng Si would run out of patience one day.

Give him a little more time, just a little...

Lu Jing hugged Feng Si's neck profusely with sweat, and felt the heat of this person even more intensely in his constantly shaking eyes, feeling that he was being hugged and possessed.

It would be nice to be like this all the time.

He was incomparably, eagerly, longing for this man with all his body and mind, but he was still unable to say it frankly, he hated himself, and even more despised such a self.

He is a despicable person, Lu Jingshen has always known that no matter how arrogant and lofty he looks, there is only a despicable soul inside.

"Concentrate."

Feng Si's kiss went all the way up his neck, bit his chin, and then kissed the corner of his lips: "Don't always be distracted at this time, just look at me."

Sweat ran down Lu Jingshen's forehead and fell to the tip of his nose, and was licked away by Feng Si. Lu Jingshen was slightly dazed, staring at the man in front of him intently.

"Would you like to be more gentle or more intense?" Feng Si's voice was a little hoarse, and he had to endure the pain of stopping, "You choose."

Lu Jing rolled her throat with difficulty: "Whatever."

"No, you have to choose yourself." Feng Si tempted him, "Whatever you want, say it yourself."

Lu Jing kissed her back deeply, no longer suppressing her desire: "Be more intense."

It doesn't matter if it hurts, he likes to be treated roughly by Feng Si, the pain can make him more awake, he needs to clearly feel that he is being dominated and possessed by this person, he likes this feeling.

Feng Si grabbed his waist tightly and reminded him in a harsh voice, "Hold me tight."

Lu Jing let out a deep gasp, and pressed against Feng Si, and the other voices that wanted to escape all turned into fragmented moans.

After zero o'clock, the picture on the projection screen had already stopped, and there was a faint noise coming from outside the window.

Feng Si picked up the phone to check the time, picked up Lu Jingshen, who was soaked all over, brushed his sweaty forehead hair, kissed Lu Jingshen's forehead, eyes, and nose tip, and whispered softly, "Happy New Year."

This is their first New Years Eve together.

Lu Jing was taken aback, and subconsciously asked, "Is it midnight?"

Feng Si: "Well, it's midnight."

Touching the light in his eyes, Lu Jingshen also said: "Happy New Year."

Feng Si posted it down and rubbed shoulders with him, without any lust, it's rare to have a bit of warmth.

It's not a bad feeling, it's even good.

Hugging with another person to greet the new year, Lu Jingshen never thought about it before, but today it has become a reality.

And this person is still closed.

After being tender for a moment, Lu Jingshen's calf was still hanging on Feng Si's waist, and rubbed against his waist, his voice was hoarse: "I'm going to take a bath."

"What's the hurry?" Feng Si pressed him down, and his hands became restless again, "It's still early."

Lu Jing's deep breathing was unsteady, and the flush on his face never faded: "It's fine."

It's been three times already, and it's really too much to do again.

Feng Si squeezed his calf and rubbed it a few times, laughed for a while, and finally let him go.

Lu Jing stood up deeply, not in a hurry to go back to the room, picked up her mobile phone and sent Lu Chixie a WeChat message.

Feng Si asked smoothly: "Is your brother's birthday today?"

"Well," Lu Jing nodded deeply, "How do you know?"

"He posted it on Moments."

Feng Si dug out Lu Chixie's circle of friends just posted and showed it to Lu Jing: "Your brother is very interesting, he and his little boyfriend are both big stars, and he dares to show his affection in the circle of friends so blatantly, and he is not afraid of being rumored if it spreads." The paparazzi knew it and helped them come out."

Lu Jingshen: "...he is born with such a personality, free-spirited, and doesn't care about other people's opinions."

Feng Si supported his head and looked at him: "Really? Why are your brothers so different? If only you could let him go halfway."

Lu Jingshen didn't know how to answer, but Feng Si said: "Forget it, you don't have to be like others, it's fine."

Lu Jing was taken aback for a moment, and the sudden light on the phone screen brought him back to his thoughts. It was Lu Chixie who replied: "Brother, you are still awake at this point, have you changed your sex? Mom said you went to the resort last night and ran overnight What are you doing?"

Lu Jingshen didn't really want to call him back, so Feng Si took his cell phone and sent a voice over there: "Your brother didn't do anything, don't meddle in your own business."

Lu Jing's complexion changed slightly, Feng Si had already handed the phone back to him: "I'm making my own decisions again, so scold me if you're not happy."

He had the attitude of a dead pig not afraid of boiling water, and Lu Jingshen had nothing to do with him.

"Not interested, reflect on yourself."

Leaving this sentence behind, Lu Jingshen got up and went back to the room to go to the bathroom, Feng Si followed.

"Alex, do you have any new resolutions for the new year?"

Lu Jingshen was brushing his teeth, glanced at him in the mirror, spat out the toothpaste in his mouth, and said slowly, "Make more money."

Feng Si smiled: "That's it? Mr. Lu's wish is really simple and unpretentious, he is worthy of being a capitalist."

Lu Jingshen: "What about you?"

Feng Si thought for a while: "Let's ask for a wife."

This is not a joke.

He is sincere.

After Lu Jing rinsed her mouth deeply, she turned around and touched his lips, and said earnestly, "I wish your wishes come true."

He turned around and wanted to leave, but was held back by Feng Si: "Alex, you have to work harder, so that my wish will come true."

Feng Si's gaze was rare and sincere, and there was still anticipation hidden in his eyes. Lu Jing felt a little uncomfortable being stared at by him, and made a vague "hmm".

Feng Si felt itchy to see him like this.

Lu Jingshen is always like this, subconsciously say some serious and provocative words, and do some unintentional but provocative actions, the seriousness reveals the fun, which makes him never forget.

Otherwise, he wouldn't have been looking for this person for seven years. It wasn't a simple obsession, but he really liked him, liked him very much.

Pulling him closer, Feng Si tilted his head and kissed him again.

The next day Lu Jingshen got up early in the morning, and he was the only one at home again.

The mess made in the living room last night has been cleaned up, but his laptop is still on the coffee table.

Lu Jing looked around deeply, and after realizing it, Feng Si went out without even saying hello.

He picked up his phone and didn't even leave a WeChat message today.

"Where did you go?"

After the message was sent, Lu Jing frowned deeply, and wanted to withdraw, but the phone call had already come in.

He pressed the answer button, and Feng Si's smiling voice came: "Are you up? It's earlier than I thought. It seems that you weren't too tired last night."

Lu Jing said in a deep voice: "You are also very energetic, and you went out to 'friends gathering' early in the morning."

After he finished speaking, there was a burst of laughter on the other end of the phone: "Boss Lu's words are so sour, don't you say I'm a prodigal today?"

"Aren't you a wave?" Lu Jing asked deeply, seeing snow still drifting outside the window, "Snow can't stop you from going out."

"If you want to go with me, you can just say it straight, you don't have to stab me so hard." Feng Si changed his words after speaking, "Just kidding, I'm just out for a couple of laps, and I'll buy some breakfast to go back, you Where do you want to go?"

Lu Jing paused deeply, slightly embarrassed: "Really?"

"Really, I'm in the street park near the community, and I'll go back soon. It's not snowing very much at the moment, and there are still many people outside." Feng Si said.

Lu Jing hesitated and wanted to hang up the phone, Feng Si then asked him: "What do you want for breakfast? Steamed buns, steamed buns, fried dumplings, fried dough sticks, or noodles, noodles, soup, you choose."

Lu Jingshen: "Whatever, you can decide."

"You can't be casual," Feng Si reminded him, "Don't always tell me to be casual, when I really ask you to do something, you are unwilling, and you choose what to eat."

Lu Jing seemed to deliberately make things difficult for him: "Then you can buy everything."

Feng Si: "Can you eat so much?"

Lu Jingshen: "You asked me to choose, and I chose."

"Okay, the boss has the final say."

Feng Si stopped playing tricks with him, hung up the phone, walked into the breakfast shop, and packed up all the food that could be packed.

When he came out, he saw a flower shop in front of him, which opened early in the morning, and went to buy a red rose casually.

Sending flowers between two men is actually a bit strange. Last time he borrowed flowers to present Buddha and was disgusted by Lu Jing, but Feng Si felt that it was not the act of sending flowers that Lu Jing hated so much.

Probably because the flower was borrowed from someone else last time.

The proprietress laughed at him: "Young man, just buy one flower when you buy flowers? How can you please your girlfriend like this?"

"It's not a girlfriend, it's a wife," Feng Si said with a cigarette in his mouth, "One flower is enough."

Lu Jing went back to the room and took a shower, came out and saw that Feng Si hadn't come back, so she went to get the notebook.

A new email popped up in the e-mail box, which they received after they fell asleep last night.

Lu Jing took a deep sip of coffee and opened it.

The photos were slowly loaded, and they were secretly photographed, the scene of him and Feng Si kissing in the crowd at the gay carnival in France.

With a "snap", the coffee cup in Lu Jingshen's hand fell to the ground, and the brown liquid splashed everywhere with scalding heat, even staining his legs.

Lu Jing was deeply ignorant, staring at the photo, her heart stopped beating.