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Lu Jingshen took the door and walked forward with difficulty, only the sound of his breathing in the quiet space.

Feng Si's eyes were dark and calm, looking at him coldly, almost depressingly silent.

Lu Jing clenched his fists hard.

He was very uncomfortable, so uncomfortable that he wanted to retch.

Whether it was the panic outside just now, or now, being stared at by Feng Si with such indifferent eyes, it made him feel a panic, even fear, that he could not escape from being suffocated.

With difficulty coming out of her throat, Lu Jing asked deeply, "What are you doing?"

Feng Si looked at him, raised his hand to caress his face, the cigarette between his fingers stopped on the side of his face, his expression was dim: "What are you doing again?"

Lu Jing couldn't tell. He wanted to explain, but he didn't know what to explain. In the end, there were only two words: "Sorry."

"Are you telling me you're sorry?" Feng Si sneered, "Are you guilty? In your eyes, I have to hide from the light of day?"

Lu Jingshen: "Just now my mother knocked on the door suddenly,... I don't want her to see it."

"Don't let her see what? Do you not want her to see us having sex, or do you not want her to see me?" After Feng Si asked, he got the answer from Lu Jingshen's expression, even though they didn't do anything just now, Lu Jing's subconscious reaction was also to let him avoid it, not wanting his family to find out about their relationship.

"Why do you keep avoiding this question?"

Feng Si pinched Lu Jing's deep chin with his fingers, forcing him to face himself: "What are you worried about?"

Lu Jing was stunned for a long time before responding, his eyes flickered, he knelt down in front of Feng Si, and slowly leaned forward.

With Feng Si pinching the back of his neck, Lu Jing looked up at him deeply, and said in a hoarse voice, "You don't need to move, I'll do it."

After a moment of stalemate, Feng Si let go of his hand, stared at his face and slowly leaned back against the wall.

Lu Jingshen's eyelashes trembled, and she insisted on sticking them.

The second time he did this kind of thing for Feng Si, his skills are still not good, he is still bumpy, and because of the emotional ups and downs tonight, he deliberately used this method to appease Feng Si and worked extra hard , too impatient to be relevant.

Feng Si frowned impatiently several times, put his palm on the back of his head, and had to try to teach him again.

"It's still not good, you can't even learn this well."

Maybe it was an unintentional sentence, but Lu Jingshen was startled when he heard it.

He stopped his movements and tried to catch his breath, his face was flushed red because of the lack of breathing, all the way to the end of his eyes, physiological tears were forced out, wet the corners of his eyes, he looked really embarrassed.

"Don't be in such a hurry," Feng Si reminded him, "It hurts."

Lu Jing was deeply embarrassed and at a loss, Feng Si's hand pinched the back of his neck again, so he had to bite the bullet and continue.

Frustration arose spontaneously. He hoped that Feng Si would be happy, but he always messed up the atmosphere. Even for this kind of thing, the evaluation he received was nothing more than "not good at learning".

This feeling made him extremely powerless, he could only please the other party instinctively with his eyes closed, even this could not satisfy Feng Si.

From the beginning to the end, Feng Si just looked at him with deep eyes, and it was Lu Jingshen who took the initiative to lighten the cigarette in his hand, dropping ash from time to time.

It's really not a good feeling, but seeing Lu Jing's deep red eye corners, embarrassed expression, and pitiful appearance of being forced to advance or retreat, it aroused the suppressed raging pleasure in his body.

Taking a deep puff of the cigarette, he deliberately didn't back away at the last moment, and did what he wanted to do a long time ago.

Lu Jing fell deeply to the ground, coughing non-stop.

The excessive stimulation made him unable to recover for a long time, his eyes were dazed, his sight could not be focused, and even his eyelashes were stained and crumbling, adding some indescribable beauty to his originally heroic and tough face.

With this appearance, the enthusiasm that had just subsided a little in Feng Si's body revived.

Pulling Lu Jing up, who was like a lost soul, Feng Si turned his head and bit his Adam's apple hard.

Provoking Lu Jing's unbearable groans, he unscrupulously left a clear red mark on the conspicuous position next to his Adam's apple, and then kissed all the way up, sucking Lu Jing's deep lips.

Lu Jing was a little bit resistant, the smell spreading out of his mouth made him particularly displeased, Feng Si's tongue pushed in again, ruthlessly disturbing his mouth, forcing him to swallow his own breath.

But facing Shangfengsi's extremely deep eyes, which seemed to be swallowed up by the emotions hidden in them at any moment, Lu Jing stopped struggling deeply.

After being frozen for a few seconds, he closed his eyes and resigned himself to his fate.

It was eleven o'clock in the evening to leave the resort, which was proposed by Feng Si.

After coming out of the bathroom, he picked up his clothes and put them on, then turned around and said to Lu Jingshen: "Or do you plan to let me hide here secretly, and deal with your parents' uninvited visits at any time?"

Lu Jingshen looked embarrassed, Feng Si said indifferently: "Forget it, it's more comfortable to go back to your house."

After getting in the car, Lu Jingshen sent An Xin a Wechat message, explaining that he had to go back temporarily. After pressing the black phone screen, he turned his gaze to Feng Si, and said again: "I'm sorry."

"Okay, I don't like to hear apologies, so save yourself." Feng Si interrupted him.

Lu Jingshen's lips moved, she didn't know what else to say, so she could only remain silent.

Having nothing to say all the way, back to the city, while waiting for the traffic lights, Lu Jingshen tried to break the silence: "Are you hungry? Let's go have a late-night snack."

Feng Si turned to look at him: "Snack, are you sure?"

Lu Jing nodded deeply: "What do you want to eat?"

It doesn't matter to Feng Si, Lu Jingshen said to eat, so let's eat.

He drove the car to a nearby food stall recommended by a friend, where there was a lot of noise. After parking the car, he pointed to the big red and green signboard of the food stall, which had no style: "If you want to eat, you can eat this. Do you want to go?"

Lu Jingshen didn't object and followed him out of the car.

Five minutes later, they sat in a food stall restaurant with a strong smell of oily smoke.

On the table were greasy disposable tablecloths and cutlery wrapped in plastic film, surrounded by late-night diners who were drinking and eating and bragging loudly. This kind of atmosphere made Lu Jingshen very uncomfortable, but seeing Feng Si unwrapping the cutlery and ordering He squeezed the paper cup tightly in his hand, took a sip of the hot water, and forced himself to blend in.

Feng Si's expression was a little lazy. After ordering the dishes, he asked for hot water to scald the tableware, and then lit another cigarette casually. Anyway, in this kind of place, he was far from the only one who smoked.

Lu Jing looked deeply into his somewhat blurred eyes behind the smoke, and recalled the cold eyes he had looked at her before, and felt uncomfortable for a while.

Feng Si handed him the hot dishes, and when he looked up, he saw that he was restless, and said casually, "You didn't propose to come for supper, so why are you fidgeting?"

"No," Lu Jingshen put down his glass and asked him, "Do you want to drink?"

Feng Si: "Will you drive later?"

"I'll drink with you," Lu Jing said deeply, "I'll call you the driver."

"Okay." Feng Si snapped his fingers, called the waiter, and served them half a dozen beers.

The dishes ordered were also served one after another, Feng Si picked up the chopsticks, and said to Lu Jing deeply: "Try it, the taste of this restaurant is quite good, I have been here once before."

Lu Jing hesitated and asked him, "You were born and raised abroad, and you're used to this kind of roadside food stall?"

"What's the problem?" Feng Si flicked the cigarette ash and stubbed out the cigarette butt, "I think this tastes much better than Western food."

"Have you ever been to China before?" Lu Jing asked deeply, and felt that he was looking for something to say. What he wanted to ask was actually how long this person planned to stay here.

It's been agreed, but he really doesn't have the confidence to ask for the closure.

Feng Si poured a glass of beer for him and himself, and explained calmly: "I have been here many times when I was a child. My parents are from the south. They went to study in the UK in the early years and became naturalized and settled there. When the elders in the family were still there, they would follow them every two years. Parents come back to visit relatives once."

But the last time he came back was ten years ago, when his grandmother passed away and came to attend the funeral.

In the past seven years, he has been looking for people all over the world, and he has traveled all over East Asia and even other countries in Southeast Asia, but he has never been to China.

Just because Lu Jingshen had acted so well in front of him back then, he was convinced that Lu Jingshen knew nothing about Chinese and could not be Chinese.

In the end, it was a coincidence that Lu Jingshen was found.

At the beginning of the year, he went to the Middle East and took a half-year short-term contract with a local rich man. A friend of his employer had been investing in East Asia and doing business, and he had also dealt with rich people in China.That time it was a party on the plane, and that person showed everyone the photo he took when he attended a business reception in China. He went to toast a drink, and happened to catch a glimpse of the photo, so he saw the photo without warning. In the corner, the man who has been missing for more than seven years.

After the momentary excitement at that time, followed by an indescribable bitterness, he was finally convinced that that person had been guarding against him from the very beginning, even refusing to reveal the real origin to him a cent.

But he still wanted an answer, at least to see Lu Jingshen again, so he quit his job in the Middle East and came back here to apply for a job in a business jet company.

After that, Mao Sui recommended himself to help Lu Jingshen fly the plane, and reunited with Lu Jingshen on that bright morning.

It was Lu Jingshen who said he was coming for supper, but his appetite was not that great, he didn't move his chopsticks a few times, but he drank a lot of wine.

Feng Si didn't stop him, and rolled his eyes inadvertently a few times, seeing Lu Jingshen pouring wine into his mouth, the wine slipped in along his moist lips, just like when he was helping himself to swallow.

"you're not feeling OK?"

Feng Si then poured him wine, and picked up a chopstick of food into his bowl.

"Are you in a good mood?" Lu Jing asked deeply, his voice lacking confidence.

"It was pretty good at first," Feng Si smiled, "The resort of your house is really nice, I haven't visited it carefully yet, I thought I would have a good time in these two days, but it turned out to be useless."

Lu Jingshen: "... If you want to, we will go again next time we have a chance."

"Choose a time when your parents are not around?" Feng Si curled his lips after finishing speaking, "Let's forget it, maybe the next time we meet is not your parents, but your sister or your brother, or someone else in your family. Who, we have to come back in the middle of the night again."

His tone was like a joke, with obvious sarcasm in it.

Lu Jing had nothing to say, so she changed her words: "Where do you want to go during the holidays these few days? I'll go with you."

Feng Si thought for a while and said, "Whatever, anyway, you're only willing to go to places with few people or even no one, it's quite boring."

Lu Jingshen: "...I've always been so boring."

Feng Si: "Oh."

Seeing that he was not interested, Lu Jingshen had no choice but to give up. The feeling of heart discomfort became stronger. He picked up the glass and continued to pour wine into his mouth.

After drinking half a dozen beers, I added another half dozen, and everything was bottomed out. After a supper, it was almost one o'clock in the morning.

When walking out of the restaurant, Feng Si looked up at the sky, and suddenly said: "It's one o'clock in the morning here, and I can't see a single star."

Lu Jing knew what he meant, and she didn't know what to say.

The substitute driver drove the car to the side of the road, Feng Si walked over, opened the door first, and got in the car.

This was the first time he got into the car without waiting for Lu Jingshen, Lu Jingshen was slightly stunned, and followed him into the back seat.

The car was speeding through the streets at midnight when the lights were all lonely, Feng Si leaned on the seat and casually sent messages to someone, Lu Jing took a deep look, the screen was all in English.

He had no intention of peeping, and quickly looked away.

After Feng Si sent the last message, he put away his phone, put one hand behind his head, and turned his gaze out of the window.

Lu Jing really wanted to say something, but there were strangers in the car, so he didn't say anything when he got to his lips.

The car drove into the underground parking lot of Mingyue Bay, and the driver collected the money and returned the keys to them and left.

When Feng Si was about to open the car door, the people around him leaned over, and their scorching breath fell on him.

"Are you still angry?"

Lu Jingshen's voice was a little hoarse, she clenched Feng Si tightly, and apologized to him for the third time tonight: "I'm sorry."

Feng Si looked back at him, Lu Jingshen's eyes were not clear, and he acted like this with the help of alcohol.

He tilted his head and stared at the person with great interest for a moment, then wrapped his arms around Lu Jingshen's waist, lifted his hands up, and made him sit on his lap facing each other.

"Was drunk?"

Feng Si leaned on the back of the seat and looked up at him.

Lu Jing closed her eyes deeply, and said slowly, "It's okay."

"If you can't drink it, don't drink so much in one go," Feng Si said jokingly, "Don't act like I bullied you."

Lu Jingshen was a little speechless and just shook her head.

Looking at him like this, Feng Si's throat tightened when he thought of his bewildered and particularly seductive look just now when his face was covered all over.

Well, he did bully people hard tonight.

Although Lu Jingshen asked for it.

Feng Si: "What are you doing now? Apologizing to me or acting like a baby?"

Lu Jing shook his head again, he would not act like a baby: "How can you not be angry?"

"Alex, as I said, I don't need an apology. If you really feel that you have done something wrong, try to correct it."

Feng Si's voice hit Lu Jing's deep eardrum lightly, making his heart tighten continuously. After a long silence, he finally said with difficulty: "...Give me some time."

As if afraid that Feng Si would not agree, he added another sentence: "I will work hard."

"Yes, but my patience is limited," Feng Si reminded him, "I can't wait too long."