deep desire

It was rare for Lu Jingshen to have a good night's sleep, and when she woke up in the morning, her body temperature completely subsided.

Feng Si took his temperature for the last time and felt relieved: "36 degrees five, it seems that my method really works."

Lu Jing didn't want to talk to him, anyway, their vacation plan didn't go to waste because of this episode, and they set off for France the next day.

On the plane, Lin Ling delivered the meal to the cockpit. The old captain was asking about Feng Si's arrangements after he got there, and asked him if he was interested in going on a self-driving tour.

Feng Si took off the headset and said casually, "I'm interested, but I already have an appointment."

When putting down the coffee, Lin Ling also asked him: "Captain Feng, do you have any friends in France?"

Feng Si smiled and blinked: "Yes."

Lin Ling pursed her lips lightly, wished him a pleasant meal, and turned to leave the cockpit.

The old captain asked curiously, "Did you date a girlfriend?"

Feng Si: "Boyfriend."

Seeing the surprise in the old captain's eyes, Feng Si said generously: "Next time I have a chance, I will introduce you to Captain Chen."

The plane landed in Paris at noon, on the way to the hotel, Feng Si asked Lu Jingshen why he came to Paris: "I thought you would say fly directly to South France."

Lu Jing said calmly: "There is an elder in the family who lives here. Before I came, my mother asked me to bring some gifts."

Feng Si: "Shall I go with you?"

Lu Jingshen: "No need."

Feng Si was not surprised by this result, Lu Jingshen was always like this, intentionally keeping him out of the private sphere.

Even though he lived in Lu Jingshen's solitary home openly and aboveboard, he never let him touch Lu Jingshen's private affairs.

If he was a bit tougher and insisted on following, Lu Jingshen would probably turn his back on him.

"Okay then, you pay attention to safety and go back early."

After arriving at the hotel, Lu Jingshen ordered a car to leave alone, and returned in the evening.

Going upstairs to his room, he stopped when he passed the door of Feng Si on the same floor as him.

The door of the room was not closed, and the female flight attendant, Lin Ling, was sitting on the sofa facing the door, with her head lowered as if she was crying. Feng Si leaned against the wall opposite her, passing her a tissue from time to time.

Sensing Lu Jingshen's gaze, Feng Si turned his head to look over, Lu Jingshen withdrew his gaze, and walked straight away.

Ten minutes later, Feng Si knocked on the door, and Lu Jingshen was about to go out for dinner.

Opening the door, Lu Jingshen ignored him and went back inside to change clothes.

Feng Si followed in: "You go to visit your elders, but they won't let you have dinner?"

Lu Jingshen still ignored him.

Feng Si narrowed his eyes lightly, as if thinking of something, and smiled softly: "Mr. Lu, don't get me wrong. Lin Linggang came to ask me out again. Last time, Mr. Lu taught me not to flirt if I don't like it. I made it clear and told her that I like men, she was probably a little bit shocked, and she didn't hold back for a while before crying, but well, it's really my fault for making girls cry."

Lu Jing's deep eyes finally glanced at him: "Are you proud?"

"No," Feng Si put away the joke, and explained seriously, "After all, it's not good to have trouble with colleagues."

After Lu Jingshen changed his clothes, when he walked past him, he said "be careful next time", strode out of the room, Feng Si smiled helplessly, and followed.

After dinner, the sky is getting dark, and the city's nightlife has just begun.

Feng Si took Lu Jingshen to the bar. Lu Jingshen actually didn't want to go, but when he went back to the hotel at this point, he just sat and stared blankly. He followed Feng Si to the door of the bar after hesitating.

Feng Si grabbed his wrist and pulled him inside.

Lu Jingshen soon regretted it.

The loud music, the dim lights, the smell of alcohol and tobacco, and the overheated atmosphere brought by the crowd all made him feel uncomfortable.

On the stage in the middle, a man wearing only a pair of tight briefs was performing a pole dance, and all the spectators in the audience, who were in a state of extreme excitement, were all men.

It is self-evident what kind of bar this is.

Realizing this, Lu Jingshen's face became a little ugly, and he turned to leave, but was pulled back by Feng Si's arm.

"Going for a drink?"

Lu Jing frowned deeply, Feng Si dragged him to the bar.

Feng Si sat on the high stool. When the bartender turned around to see him, he was taken aback for a moment, and then he showed joy and greeted him enthusiastically.

They spoke French, which Lu Jing could understand, but he was not in the mood to listen.

"Feng, long time no see. Are you back to work in Paris?"

"It's just a vacation, I'm leaving tomorrow."

"It's a pity that if you don't come, the business here will not be as good as before."

"I didn't see it, we were so crowded that we couldn't even get in the door."

"Why not? After all, everyone started a bet on who can win you first. Unfortunately, you left before you succeeded. It's really sad."

"I see that you are clearly making money from gambling and are very happy."

"So this next to you is the little sweetheart you've been looking for?"

"Does he look like a sweetheart to you?"

Feng Si joked casually, took the cocktail handed over by the other party, and handed one of them to Lu Jingshen.

Lu Jingshen didn't answer, and glanced around coldly, seeing chaotic, messy and bizarre scenes in front of him.

Everyone is the same drunk, dreamy, unrestrained, kissing this person, and then flirting with that person, without any scruples.

Maybe Feng Si was once one of them, hugging people with indistinct faces one after another here.

Lu Jing felt nauseous for a while.

Feng Si tilted his head, and put the wine glass in front of him: "Would you like to drink?"

Lu Jing looked back at him deeply, the completely cold emotion in his eyes made Feng Si slightly taken aback, and he had already turned around and walked away quickly.

Feng Si put down his wine glass, ignored the call from the bartender behind him, got up and chased after him.

There were too many people in the bar, Lu Jing walked out against the flow of people, brushing shoulders with the people around her, getting pinched from time to time.

Those disgusting smells of alcohol, smoke and perfume eroded his nerves, making him feel more embarrassed and uncomfortable.

After finally getting out of the bar, he breathed fresh air, his stomach acid surged up, he lay down on the railing by the side of the road, and retched for a while.

Feng Si stepped forward and pulled him up forcefully: "Alex!"

Lu Jing raised her eyes deeply, the red tips of her eyes were soaked in the thickness of the night, showing a bit of pitifulness.

Feng Si looked at him complicatedly: "Is it really so hard to accept?"

Lu Jingshen: "Let me go."

Feng Si's eyes gradually sank, he raised his hand, and pressed his fingertips at the end of his eyes.

Bowing his head, he grabbed his lips.

It took Lu Jing two seconds to react, struggling desperately to push the person away, but Feng Si didn't give him a chance.

Pulling Lu Jing deeply into his arms, Feng Si bit his lips forcefully, pushed his tongue in, and fiddled with him fiercely.

The overwhelming smell belonging to Feng Si made Lu Jingshen almost collapse. The more he resisted, the harder Feng Si kissed, without giving him any possibility to escape.

There was a bus passing by behind him, and the headlights swept towards them. Lu Jingshen opened his eyes in a daze. The moment the lights came on, he saw clearly that Feng Si was just like him, staring at him from the beginning to the end, hiding his crazy gaze in his calmness. .

The kiss turned into a tug of war, one couldn't push it away, and the other refused to let it go.

After a long kiss until the joking people at the entrance of the bar changed, Feng Si finally let him go, and withdrew from Lu Jingshen's mouth, his breath was also unsteady: "Do you think this disgusts you?"

Lu Jing's deep voice trembled: "I'm not."

"Not what?" Feng Si asked.

"I'm not." As if to prove something, Lu Jing gritted her teeth and emphasized, "I'm not your kind."

Feng Si: "If you mean sexual orientation, you kissed and slept with me, you did what you should do back then, I didn't force you, it was your voluntary, so you are the same as me, if you say that in the inside The way those people live, I'm not like them."

"Alex, I'm very picky, not just anyone."

Lu Jingshen's mind was in chaos, and he couldn't hear what Feng Si was saying, or maybe he didn't believe it at all.

Feng Si knew that there was no way to force him anymore, so he put one hand on his shoulder, trying to calm him down: "Look at me."

Lu Jingshen's eyes were redder than before, Feng Si sighed.

"Let's go, I don't like this place, let's drink in another place."

Ten minutes later, Feng Si bought a dozen beers and pulled Lu Jingshen to sit down on the steps outside the nearby church.

Opening a can, the foam splashed all over his hand, he flicked it casually, and handed it to Lu Jingshen: "Is this always drinkable?"

Lu Jingshen's mood calmed down a bit, and he became full of indescribable complex feelings. Looking at the wine handed to him, he reached out to take it after a while.

The beer can was held in his hand, but Lu Jingshen didn't drink it. Watching Feng Si pull another can and bring it to his mouth, the wine slowly swallowed along his Adam's apple, the foam sticking to his lips and being licked by him at will go.

Lu Jing's deep gaze paused slightly, and her thoughts went back to the kiss just now.

The previous touch still remained between his lips, and Lu Jingshen couldn't describe his feeling. The scenes in the bar still made him feel like a stick in his throat, but he really couldn't express his disgust at Feng Si's kiss and touch.

After a kiss after seven years, he was not at peace.

Seeing Lu Jing drooping his head as if in a daze, Feng Si stretched out his hand, and the cold beer can touched his face, Lu Jing turned his head to avoid it, and frowned slightly.

"Don't always act like you are bitter and bitter." Feng Si reminded him in a low voice while drinking beer, "You just have too much psychological burden, so you can't let it go."

Lu Jing said coldly, "You don't need to say it."

"Can you change it if you don't say it?"

Feng Si's eyes fell on him: "Are you so afraid of being known as gay? Is homosexuality something shameful? Your brother, your friend, they dare to admit it openly, what do you care about?"

After a moment of silence, Lu Jingshen stood up, and Feng Si stretched out his hand to pull him to sit down: "Don't go, if you don't want to listen to me, just stop talking and have a drink."

Lu Jingshen: "Do you have to drink here?"

"Then where else to drink?" Feng Si leaned closer, looked at him and smiled, and resumed his indecent look, "Go back to the hotel and go to Mr. Lu to drink in your room?"

His eyes fell on Lu Jingshen's lips, Feng Si also remembered the kiss just now, it was a pity that he let him go too early.

It was too close, Lu Jingshen could almost feel Feng Si's breathing, and even the undisguised thoughts in his eyes at the moment could be clearly seen.

Turning his face away, Feng Si's lips brushed against his ear: "What were you thinking when you stared at me just now?"