Beloved

Sheng Jie listened to the gossip downstairs, lying on the bed silently looking at the ceiling in a daze.

He has lived in this room since he was two and a half years old, and has lived in it until now. He has spent his childhood in this room until he was a teenager. It has not given him the feeling of "home" for a moment for more than ten years.

Although, the comfortable environment he enjoys here is much better than that of ordinary people.However, what is regarded as enjoyment in the eyes of others is actually paying off debts in his view.

He was still young when he was two and a half years old. At that time, his father had just picked him up from his grandma’s house. On the first day he entered this house, his stepmother pointed to a cabinet under the TV cabinet and told him, “In this cabinet, eat My sister's food belongs to her. She is still young, so you must not eat these, and ask the nanny for anything you want."

It's just that when he asked the nanny for a candy several times but couldn't get a timely response, and asked his 'mother' for instructions, but 'mother' didn't allow it, he became angry.

He was a rebellious child in his bones. He was really young at that time, and suddenly he had a father and mother. He didn't know that his father was not his alone, and his mother was never his.He still moved the snacks in the cabinet, and was brought up to his stepmother by the nanny's ears. What happened at that time...

Sheng Jie tried hard to recall that vague memory.He remembered that there were many people around his stepmother, and everyone was laughing at him. His stepmother only said: "This child has shallow eyelids and is disobedient. In the future... he will be normal."

He didn't understand that he was labeled as 'shallow eyelids and disobedient' just after eating a snack.Anyway, from that day on, he quickly understood that he was 'different' in this family.

When he was a little older, the nannies and relatives would not shy away from telling him about his life experience.Each of them is reminding him that "he has had great luck in this life and met the merciful Li family, otherwise he will have to pick up vegetables in the old street vegetable market for the rest of his life, let alone eat well and dress well, and he will not be able to go to school." It's all a problem."

"You have to be grateful!" Those people almost pointed at his nose to warn him.

So when he was in primary school, he became taciturn.He believes that 'gratitude' means trying to make yourself obedient.He began to be like a puppet, learning to 'be obedient'.

He tried not to cause trouble to his stepmother's family, and learned to dress and eat by himself very early, and then walked to the station to take the bus to school.When someone came from the family, he sat obediently beside his stepmother and father, listening to their chatting, and then remained silent.

He trembles every day, trying to make himself an inconspicuous and transparent person.He thought that everyone would be happy this way.

Then he heard the group talking about him

"That kid is so gloomy! Is he holding a stomach full of bad water?" The relatives gathered together to talk about his temper, "I once saw him hiding in the kitchen to eat by himself, and the speed of cooking was really fast. It’s like being reincarnated by a starved ghost. I said... You should take care of him. He’s been silent all day, like a ghost, and you don’t feel panicked. Be careful with such a child, who The children adopted by so-and-so's family are also like this, didn't they steal the family's money and stab them..."

That night, he was called over by his father and reprimanded him.

"Do you think we shouldn't take you over to raise you, and show someone a gloomy face all day long! How did your mother treat you badly? You let her be gossiped in front of others. Huh? If you don't If you are satisfied, I will send you back to your grandma!"

He replied, "Okay!"

When he said this, it was not a rebellious mentality, but he really felt good.However, what he got in exchange was a strong slap from his father,

There is also a sentence, "Nie Zi!" '

Those grown-ups all thought that he was trying to anger them on purpose, made himself pitiful on purpose, and then let outsiders poke the stepmother's spine.Where was he so smart back then?

The wise man was never him.

That time he was punished severely, and in the end his sister stepped forward and hugged his father's leg, crying and shouting: "Don't hit brother! Dad—don't send brother away, I want him to play with me!! "

The words of the little princess of the Li family are more useful than adults.So, he failed to make it.If he couldn't leave, he was no longer "obedient". Anyway, in the eyes of everyone, Sheng Jie was just a white-eyed wolf. No matter how hard he tried to make himself obedient, nothing would change.

He became himself again.In this family, he plays his role seriously, neither contending nor grabbing, neither sad nor happy, neither laughing nor angry, he is a person who can be used by them for entertainment at any time, a poor object, a debtor who has received great favor from others '.

Only on the outside can he let his true nature be revealed a little bit.Just as his stepmother and father imagined, he became a eccentric child.

Since then, going to school and leaving home every day is the happiest time of his day.

When the rebellious period really came, he also planned to run away from home.But at that time he recognized his grandma.What his grandma said to him calmed his impetuous heart. His grandma always felt sorry for him and was always worried that he would become like his mother.

"My grandson...don't be like your mother. You have to study, go to college, and be successful...your mother became bad because she didn't study. You can't become bad...you are my grandma's last hope."

At that time, he thought, he had to shoulder the responsibility his mother left behind.