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He learned how to drive a motorcycle because he watched a movie, and he also wanted to be like the protagonist, running away with his lover, galloping in the city late at night, shuttling under neon lights one after another.

It's just that the movie didn't end well, and neither did his later ending.

After marrying Sheng Yingqi, he also went out on a motorcycle in private, circled along the road around the mountain, and waited for the sunrise on the top of the mountain, but he didn't see the sunrise in the end, and he returned home early under the phone bombardment.

When I got older, I found that almost all the motorcycle exchange groups were younger than him. Some of them were not only one or two rounds younger, they were only teenagers, and some children who had never seen him in person called him Lao Qin.

Such chat records were also seen by Sheng Yingqi, and he got a blunt laugh.

"I said that this kind of car is not suitable for you, it's all for young people to play with."

Qin Mingzhu was not convinced, and gave some examples of celebrities at home and abroad. Many of them were still playing motorcycles in their sixties.

Sheng Yingqi snorted, "Those people are just trying to set up people, pretend to be cool, and make their fans think they are so powerful. They still play motorcycles at the age of 60, and they are not afraid that the wind will blow their bones to pieces." After a pause, he softened his voice, "I It's also for your own good, the motorcycle is so dangerous, what should I do if something happens to you? Forget it, stop playing, quit this group too, what old Qin Lao Qin, my brother Qin is so beautiful , a bunch of strangers."

Sometimes Qin Mingzhu feels unfair.

Why do young people seem to be full of vigor in everything they do?

It doesn't matter if you are wrong, young people have a fault tolerance rate, and they are entitled to make mistakes.

For example, if you are ignorant when you are young and do not adapt to the adult world, people will say that this is naive and romantic. When you are older, if you do not adapt, you will become stupid.

The adult world is like an animal world in dresses. Everyone suppresses their nature and puts a stable and mature label on themselves.

But when I think about it carefully, I think it's fair.

Everyone has a time when they are young, but even if they don't want to grow up, they must grow up, and they can no longer stay in the world of young people.

Qin Mingzhu quit the group, put the motorcycle in the back of the garage, and never drove it again.Sheng Yingqi gave him a new car for this, saying that he finally figured it out.

The new car is Sheng Yingqi's favorite style. During the test drive, the gift giver was happier than the recipient. After getting off the car, he put his arms around Qin Mingzhu's waist, "How do you feel? Is it much better than your motorcycle? Five million won, how is my husband treating you?"

Qin Mingzhu smiled back, her lips moved, but her eyes didn't move.

Before tonight, Qin Mingzhu never thought that one day she would take Yan Jiayu for a ride on a motorcycle.Yan Jiayu received his invitation, put on the helmet without saying anything, and asked when getting into the car, "Where are you going?"

"Are you busy with work tomorrow?" Qin Mingzhu who was sitting in front looked back at the person behind her.

Yan Jiayu put on the helmet, revealing only a pair of watery eyes, the eyelashes turned into algae flowers.He hugged Qin Mingzhu's waist with one hand, and pulled down the windshield with the other hand, "You don't have to go to work in the morning."

Hearing this, Qin Mingzhu said "Hold me tight", stepped on the accelerator, and the locomotive sped out from the garage.Avoid the crowded urban areas, and go all the way to the suburbs along the highway. The high-rise buildings on the two roads keep receding, becoming a small distant view.

He thought he had forgotten how to drive a long time ago, but he remembered it as soon as he touched the motorcycle. Yan Jiayu was sitting behind him, and he really had the illusion that he was in a movie. He was running away with his lover, escaping from this world full of rules and regulations. .

Expose your whole body to the wind, the adrenaline will rise and the blood will boil.I have heard that some people love to play extreme sports, just like the feeling of soaring adrenaline, and get the ultimate pleasure at the moment of dying.

Qin Mingzhu traveled through time and space, and returned to the mountain where the sunrise was not seen at the beginning.

The first time he stopped the car, he looked at Yan Jiayu behind him, "Brother Jiayu, are you okay?"

Yan Jiayu raised her hand to take off the helmet, and gazed at the scenery below the mountain. It was a patch of lights, like floating light jumping into gold.He turned to look at Qin Mingzhu, "How did you get here?"

"I want to watch the sunrise with you." Qin Mingzhu also took off the helmet and ran her fingers through her hair, "I've thought about it a long time ago."

The person who heard the words turned over and got out of the car. The pearl cane was left in the garage, and he took a few steps forward unnaturally.In the late autumn, the temperature in Nancheng is polarized. It seems that there is still heat in the daytime, but it is another world at night, and the night wind is cool.

After a while, he half turned around, his face against the light was somewhat blurred, with the ambiguity of the night.

The slender Xue Cang stretched out her hand towards Qin Mingzhu.

Almost without hesitation, Qin Mingzhu held that hand, and then clasped his fingers tightly.He heard Yan Jiayu ask him gently.

"Did you learn to ride a motorcycle in your previous life?"

"Well, is your driving skill okay? I don't think you vomited."

Yan Jiayu rolled her eyes, "It's pretty good." Three seconds later, "Thank you, Mingzhu."

Qin Mingzhu slightly raised her head to look at the people next to her.Yan Jiayu turned sideways and stood under the moonlight, her fair and handsome face shone with light, clear and cold.

He thought for a while, and hugged Yan Jiayu with his free hand, "I didn't even thank you for doing so many things for me. In fact, I have selfish intentions to bring you here tonight."

Watch the sunrise that I have never been able to see in my previous life.

Hearing this, Yan Jiayu hugged Qin Mingzhu back, hugging him in her arms, hugging her with one hand and leading her with the other.The two of them didn't speak for a while, sharing a quiet moment, just staying like this, and they didn't feel embarrassed if they didn't speak.

After an unknown amount of time, Qin Mingzhu opened her eyes, "It shouldn't be my illusion. You are not happy today because of Uncle Yan and Aunt Ye, right? Did something else happen?"

Afraid that people would not tell the truth, I deliberately added, "Don't lie to me."

Yan Jiayu's hand holding Qin Mingzhu seemed to tighten a little, but it didn't seem to.He was silent for a long time, and just when Qin Mingzhu thought he would not speak, he spoke.

"I didn't protect you well, if in my previous life..."

He stopped halfway through the conversation.

These words made Qin Mingzhu raise his head suddenly, and when his eyes met, he seemed to see the pain hidden in Yan Jiayu's eyes, and the water turned into a swamp, trapping people to death.

He flashed his thoughts back from the night of the charity gala to tonight.Previously, he always thought that Yan Jiayu's low mood was due to the arrival of Uncle Yan and Aunt Ye, but he always felt that it was not.

Why is that?

A possibility emerged in Qin Mingzhu's mind.

"Did Sheng Yingqi say something?"

When Qin Mingzhu asked, she stared intently at Yan Jiayu's expression, fearing that she might miss any subtle changes.He should understand that a person like Sheng Yingqi is a poisonous snake that can pretend, and he must have said something to Yan Jiayu.

Yan Jiayu's long eyelashes drooped slightly, half covering her eyes.He didn't answer this, but instead asked the person in his arms, "Mingzhu, do you hate me?"

Qin Mingzhu's expression froze for a moment, he controlled his urge to bite his finger, and whispered: "If you are talking about the past life, I hated it, but not only hated you, I also hated myself. I hate I said very vicious things to you, I hate my dullness, I didn't notice your condition even though you were by my side, and I blamed you for not coming to celebrate my birthday with me..."

Yan Jiayu suddenly interrupted him, "Mingzhu, let's not talk about it anymore, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned such things."

Qin Mingzhu took a deep breath, then shook her head, "Let me finish, maybe I won't have the courage to say this tomorrow. In fact, after I was reborn, I thought about staying away from you. I think if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't sit down." Get on that flight, and you won't die, and you don't even need that surgery.

But I love you, I am too selfish to part with you.Just thinking about being separated from you in this life makes me feel as if I have died again. "

After breaking up in the previous life, he revisited his old place and returned to that lake, at the same sunset time.Sitting on the bench, he could see clearly the faces of everyone passing by, imagining that the next passerby might be Yan Jiayu.

Wait from sunset until late at night.

Yan Jiayu never showed up.

At that time, he really hated Yan Jiayu, but he thought that if Yan Jiayu appeared next second, he would not hate him anymore.He wants to be with Yan Jiayu well and make up for the time he missed.

It turns out that love is hidden under hate.

"If it weren't for you, I would be in more pain now. It was you who gave me the courage to face everything that happened. After my marriage with Sheng Yingqi ended, I didn't even have the courage to stay in China. I went abroad and said it was to relax. , In fact, more than that, I am afraid that people who know me will discuss me and say, you see, I have been divorced, the old Qin Mingzhu has no one to love."

Qin Mingzhu looked into Yan Jiayu's eyes, and said word by word: "I didn't dare to face my real age before. I hated all the signs of aging on my body. I hate wrinkles. I hid my blood pressure medicines for fear that others would find out." ...But now I dare to face it, because I know that even if I grow old and look like an old man overnight, Yan Jiayu who loves me will not change her mind. Isn't this protection?"