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Qin Mingzhu pressed his face tightly against Yan Jiayu's waist, it turned out that what he experienced last night was not a dream, he did not dream of his mother and Yan Jiayu, but actually saw them.

He went back to his youth.

It was as if he was struggling, suffering, and shedding tears in a nightmare. He suddenly opened his eyes and found that everything was just a dream. Afterwards, he was glad that it was just a nightmare, and a feeling of survival after disaster swept over him.

It's not just the rest of my life.

He didn't have a nightmare that would be easily forgotten if he didn't think about it carefully, he really experienced those, even the person he is holding now has not been held in 20 years.

Qin Mingzhu's hands slowly loosened and slid down to his sides, but in the next step his cheeks were gently lifted.

He met Yan Jiayu's eyes.Too close, let the warm breath fall on his face.

"From last night to today, you have been in a bad mood. What happened?"

The slender fingers pinching Qin Mingzhu's face gently wiped the teardrops off her cheeks.Yan Jiayu was still holding the egg in his other hand. He briefly applied the egg to Qin Mingzhu's reddish eyelids, and then let go.

Qin Mingzhu didn't speak, he didn't know what to say, he just couldn't bear to look away from Yan Jiayu, staring at this vivid face that he hadn't seen for more than twenty years.

For a moment, he really wanted to ask Yan Jiayu.

Does it hurt?

Does your leg still hurt after amputation?

Does it hurt when you have a plane crash?

But he couldn't ask, the person in front of him was Yan Jiayu who had never experienced amputation, plane crash, or heard the words he regretted the most.

"Dong dong."

There was a knock at the door.

"Jiayu, Mingzhu, are you there?"

It was Dr. Zeng's voice.

Yan Jiayu had no choice but to wait for Qin Mingzhu's answer. He told Dr. Zeng outside to wait a moment, quickly washed Qin Mingzhu's face with a towel, and took another set of clothes from the closet.

This room is Yan Jiayu's room on the cruise ship, and there are only Yan Jiayu's clothes in the closet.

Yan Jiayu herself was three years older than Qin Mingzhu, and she was also taller, while Qin Mingzhu developed late and was still growing in her junior year.

Qin Mingzhu was still a little stunned when his face was wiped, but when he found out that Yan Jiayu was going to help him get dressed, he felt a little uncomfortable.

If he was at this age in his previous life, even if Yan Jiayu didn't help him, sometimes he would act like a spoiled child on purpose.

But now-

"I'll do it myself." Qin Mingzhu hid himself, he didn't dare to look at Yan Jiayu's face, he took his clothes and went to the bathroom by himself.

Standing in the bathroom, he didn't go out in a hurry, but took off his clothes and looked at himself in the mirror seriously.

This body is completely different from the 47-year-old body. It does not need to be carefully maintained, and even under the tricky light, it is too fresh and tender. There are no neck lines, no eye lines, and no wounds from the toes to the fingers.

Qin Mingzhu raised her arms to her nose, slightly lowered her head to sniff.

Eyes reddened again.

——"You always talk about what you did before? What did you look like before, and what do you look like now?"

—— "Do you know that your body already smells like those old people?"

——"Although everyone is an adult, I am so much younger than Mr. Qin after all. Mr. Qin wouldn't think that..."

Qin Mingzhu cried and laughed in front of the mirror, he couldn't figure out why he was crying or laughing.In the first half of his life, he was drunk with money and money, and Qiu Fanjian donated for more than a year, but now he has returned to his youth.

The news of the air crash came that year, and in the same year, he was admitted to the hospital, and a Bible was kept beside his bed all the year round.Sometimes he goes to church to sit.

The colorful domed church has an entire emerald-like ceiling and arched windows of stained glass on both sides. Qin Mingzhu often stares at the stained glass in a daze, watching the sun come in, as if the holy light is shining on the world. On the statue of Jesus with outstretched hands, the background is a paradise symbolizing heaven.

He had prayed with the pastor too, in that little prayer room.

He asked the pastor, did he do too many mistakes, so God did this to him?

He actually couldn't remember what the pastor said to him, but the general idea was to persuade him to forgive himself.But Qin Mingzhu couldn't get along with him. He once thought that he killed Yan Jiayu and the person he loved the most in his life.

He clearly knew that Yan Jiayu was arrogant in his bones, but he said such exaggerated words, which left a thorn in Yan Jiayu's heart. That's why Yan Jiayu took the risk of surgery and had to amputate in the end.

If Yan Jiayu hadn't amputated his limbs, they wouldn't have broken up. Yan Jiayu wouldn't have changed from a lover to a guardian, visiting him secretly every year, watching him roam around in various grand and frivolous banquets, but she herself died on the flight to his city. plane.

Many late nights in the hospital, Qin Mingzhu would wake up with a start.

The first half of the dream was the last ten seconds when he was holding champagne, laughing and counting down to the last ten seconds of the New Year with his friends, and the second half was a bang explosion.

"boom--"

Every time he woke up, he would bite his little finger, which was stained with blood. When there was no place to bite his finger, he would bite his wrist.He was later discovered by medical staff, who began to monitor him 24 hours a day to prevent him from harming himself.

After Qin Mingzhu changed his clothes, Yan Jiayu's clothes were too long for him, so he had to roll up his trouser legs before going out.

Not only was Dr. Zeng sitting outside, but almost all of Qin's family was present, except for the grandfather who was seasick so he didn't board the boat last night.

From Qin Mingzhu's father to several of Qin Mingzhu's cousins, the room was packed to the brim.They heard that Qin Mingzhu had been unwell from last night to this morning, so they pushed everything away and hurried over.

"Mingzhu, lie down quickly, and let your uncle Zeng take a look at it for you." Mrs. Su spoke first, she was so anxious that she went straight to hold Qin Mingzhu's hand, and then asked her eldest cousin, "A Rong, has the ship returned? Depending on the situation, you should go to the hospital.”

"Don't worry, Auntie, I've already told the captain that we can dock before noon." The eldest cousin replied.

The second cousin answered, "Uncle, aunt, I have already called our hospital, and they have sent a car to the pier."

"Mingzhu, are you hungry? I brought you breakfast. Do you have breakfast after the examination, or what?" This was the third cousin talking.

Before Qin Mingzhu's sad mood completely dissipated, she was pinned down on the bed dizzily.Through the Qin family who were staring at him with concern, he saw Yan Jiayu standing at the back.

"Brother Jiayu!" He suddenly called Yan Jiayu uncontrollably.

Qin's father glanced back, "Jiayu, come and stay with Mingzhu, this kid is still a coward after he grows up, and he is afraid of Uncle Zeng."

Qin Mingzhu's one hand was held by Yan Jiayu who came over, and he held his mother with the other hand.

It's not the first time Dr. Zeng has seen this battle, he has long been used to the Qin family's doting on Yao'er.

After the examination, he looked into Qi Shushu's eyes and said with a groan, "It's nothing, at most he's a little dehydrated, let him drink more water. If you're worried, you can go to the hospital after landing and have a systematic examination." A full-body checkup, but Mingzhu's checkup this year was done last month, and the checkup results are all right, he's healthy, but his blood sugar is a little bit high, so you should give him less sweets and less freshly squeezed juice."

Father Qin went to see Dr. Zeng off, and Mrs. Su sent away several cousins. Yan Jiayu saw that the mother and son wanted to talk about themselves, so she also found a reason to leave.

When only Mrs. Su and Qin Mingzhu were left in the room, Mrs. Su touched her son's forehead with a soft hand, and said softly, "Yaoer, what's wrong with you?"

She called Qin Mingzhu only occasionally when she was a child, "You are like this, which makes parents worry, you know? Your brothers are also worried, did they encounter something sad?"

Qin Mingzhu nodded, then shook his head, his eyes were red, "Mom, I miss you so much."

Mrs. Su smiled when she heard the words, "Then mother is so happy, you told me last year that you have grown up and don't need your mother's company anymore."

One sentence made Qin Mingzhu's tears roll down, and he cried until he couldn't make a sound, just like that year in front of Mrs. Su's tomb.When he was young, he always wanted to run around the world. Even if his parents called to ask when he was free to go home, although he would come back, he couldn't stay at home for long.

Even at home, he still has countless invitations, and he rarely has time to sit with his parents, talk and watch boring TV series.

Parents' time is getting less and less day by day, and he didn't understand at that time.After his parents passed away one after another, he suddenly realized what he had lost.

He no longer has parents.

Qin Mingzhu thought, maybe the new life is for him to make up for, to recover, to make up for the original mistakes, to recover what was lost.

He raised his face and turned from crying to laughing, "I'm hungry, Mom."

However, the new life soon encountered problems.

Qin Mingzhu didn't like his original clothes very much. During the short period of 19 years old, he was infected by the artistic atmosphere of the university, and he liked strange clothes, such as the black one with a big skull on his chest and the ability to cover his buttocks. Long-sleeved cotton silk trousers with hanging crotch.

It's also thanks to Qin Mingzhu's good looks that she can afford these clothes.

Qin Mingzhu turned over the clothes in her hand, turned to Mrs. Su, "Mom, Dad, does he have any new clothes on the boat?"

Mrs. Su: "?"