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"Qiqi?" Qin Mingzhu repeated softly, the name reminded him of Sheng Yingqi, he couldn't help but carefully glanced at the face of the child in front of him, "You..."

Before he finished speaking, the child in front of him began to cry.

When I cried, my facial features were all wrinkled into a ball.

"I miss Mom and Dad." The child sobbed, looking out of breath from crying.

Qin Mingzhu didn't have any experience with children, so when she saw a child crying suddenly, she couldn't help being taken aback.According to common sense, he should try his best to appease the other party, but for some reason, he is somewhat repulsive to this child.

His dream was really strange. He dreamed of his dead mother, and also dreamed of a child who reminded him of Sheng Yingqi.

In other words, this dream is really real.

Thinking of this, Qin Mingzhu stretched out her hand and squeezed the face of the crying child.

He didn't notice that the child froze when he squeezed it, he was only surprised at how real it felt.

After pinching, some tears were stained on her fingertips, Qin Mingzhu frowned, immediately got up and left the sofa, took out a piece of paper on the high round table, and wiped her fingers clean.

It turned out that people said that before death, people would go back to the past. He died in his sleep and had no time to think about anything, but he remembered the past when he became a ghost and fell from the building.

Is it time for him to meet his relatives and friends again in this woven dream?

relatives and friends...

He can see his mother who is still alive, so can he see the living Yan Jiayu?

Qin Mingzhu unconsciously crumpled the paper in her hand, then raised her legs and walked out.He walked hurriedly and quickly, although he heard someone call him "Brother Mingzhu", but the sound was like the wind, and it would disperse as soon as it blew.

After leaving the room, he looked around and chose a direction of the corridor.The corridors of the cruise ship's rooms are covered with thick red carpets, and there is almost no sound when you step on them.

Qin Mingzhu didn't notice that the clothes on her body were hotel bathrobes, nor did she notice the door he closed conveniently, trapping a child inside.

He is looking for someone.

Find someone you haven't seen in nearly 20 years.

Walking up the spiral staircase, Qin Mingzhu looked down at the first floor where the noise came from.From the gap in the stairs, he saw a glitzy corner—a world full of luxury and gold, and a crowd full of jewels.

With just one glance, he withdrew his eyes and went straight to the top of the stairs.

This dream was very similar to the night of his 19th birthday, and he remembered that there was also a staircase like this.The top of the stairs leads to the bow terrace, where he met Yan Jiayu.

But in this dream, he went to the bow terrace and saw no one.

Qin Mingzhu stood alone, with the midsummer wind gently caressing his face, he couldn't help looking at the sea in the distance.The deep blue sea looked like a treacherous mirror under the moonlight, and far away from the mirror was a lighthouse that looked as lonely as him.

It turned out that in the dream, he couldn't see Yan Jiayu either.

In fact, so many people left him, only Yan Jiayu was broken into pieces, no, not even a fan.The bones were all liquefied, everything was gone, and nothing could be found.He searched desperately, but there was blood and mud under his fingernails, but he couldn't find any trace of Yan Jiayu.

Qin Mingzhu covered her face and tried to adjust her breathing.At his age, he still cried in his dreams when he was unhappy.

"Pearl?"

There seems to be an auditory hallucination in the ear.

Does he miss Yan Jiayu too much?He even hallucinated the voice of the other party.

One hand gently held Qin Mingzhu's shoulder from behind, "I just heard Aunt Su say that you are not feeling well, where is the discomfort? Why are you covering your face? Mingzhu, are you crying?"

Qin Mingzhu was stunned.

Maybe only a second, maybe a dozen seconds, he turned around and saw the person behind him.Yan Jiayu was just like in his long memory, wearing a white suit with a rose symbolizing the dinner in his pocket, looking at him with gentle and worried eyes.

Qin Mingzhu opened her mouth, all the words seemed to be blocked in her throat, one word after another was stuck in the traffic, and finally she couldn't say a word.

He stared at the face in front of him, his eye circles getting redder and redder.

Yan Jiayu lowered his head slightly, and he frowned because of Qin Mingzhu's appearance at this time, "You are feeling uncomfortable? Or is someone bullying you? Mingzhu, I'm here, don't be afraid, tell me what's up, okay?"

Qin Mingzhu took a deep breath, and then he turned his back.He felt that this dream was too unreal, how could he meet the young Yan Jiayu?impossible.

When he was nine years old, he met Yan Jiayu for the first time.

At the age of 26, they separated.

Later, Yan Jiayu died on the plane flying to his city.

In the same year, he was admitted to the hospital for two years.

Many times Qin Mingzhu couldn't help thinking, is life like this?

Perhaps the cry of the baby can explain that everyone who comes to this world is suffering, and is experiencing parting, or indifference, or pain, saying goodbye to relatives, lovers, and friends, and in the end, he must be lonely passed away.

When I was young, I wore costumes and ran quickly in the veranda, and watched the guests from the south window. This kind of memory seems to have happened yesterday, but Yan Jiayu has been dead for so many years, and he has also changed from a child to being rejected by others. People who say they look old.

Qin Mingzhu arched her back, her shoulders trembling, and waited to be embraced into that familiar embrace that she hadn't felt for a long time.The emotions of these years seem to be unstoppable at all.

During the two years in the hospital, he wanted to leave with Yan Jiayu many times.

He actually blamed Yan Jiayu, he blamed the other party for taking self-esteem so seriously, but he also blamed himself, if he hadn't said "he is a cripple, you like it too", Yan Jiayu probably wouldn't have taken such a big risk risk of surgery.

He loves Yan Jiayu, so he wants to maintain Yan Jiayu's dignity, so he agrees to break up.

Yan Jiayu also loves him, so she thinks she should give him the best, so all the letters in her will ask him to forget him and find someone who loves her and live a good life.

So, he worked hard to get out of the shadow of Yan Jiayu's death, socialized again, and lived a good life again. Later, he met Sheng Yingqi and married Sheng Yingqi.

At first, he never thought of agreeing to Sheng Yingqi's pursuit. At that time, he was vigorously pursued for more than half a year. Sheng Yingqi didn't know where he learned that he liked Kunqu opera, so he went to learn from a teacher for several months.But Sheng Yingqi himself is a music idiot by birth, and his body is also stiff.

Just like that, Qin Mingzhu and Qin Mingzhu's friends were invited to watch.

Surrounded by the crowd, Qin Mingzhu couldn't help but rushed to the stage and dragged Sheng Yingqi away when she heard the bursts of laughter.

The backstage of the stage was chaotic, avoiding the crowd, and walking through the narrow alleys. Qin Mingzhu was still angry, and under the flower wall, he let go of Sheng Yingqi's hand, "Are you stupid? They are all looking at you as a joke!"

The tall and slender student with makeup on had a white face and peach cheeks, his eyes hung up under his thick eyebrows were full of smiles, "Do you feel wronged for me?"

Qin Mingzhu froze for a moment, he suddenly felt that this place was not a good place to talk, it was too noisy and too quiet.

It was noisy because he seemed to vaguely hear the voices of his friends looking for them, but quiet was only him and Sheng Yingqi.

Sheng Yingqi seemed to be aware of what he was guarding against, and instead of kissing him suddenly like the day he first agreed to meet, he just touched his finger lightly, "Actually, I'm really happy, learning what you have learned will make me I feel one step closer to you, that is, I don’t learn well and make people laugh. But don’t worry, I will continue to study hard. If I can’t learn in a day, I will study for two days. If I can’t learn in a year, I will study for two years. would give up."

Qin Mingzhu understood the real meaning hidden under the words, and he involuntarily took a step back.The whole body was almost leaning against the flower wall, and Gui Fulanxiang wrapped him all over, and even one side of his face could touch Jasmine Jasmine next to him.

He looked at the young man in front of him, who had a different enthusiasm than their age.At his age, the pursuit, confession, and rejection are very tactful, showing maturity and respectability everywhere.

Sheng Yingqi made Qin Mingzhu think of his young self for a moment. At that time, he didn't seem to care about anything, as long as he had Yan Jiayu.He took Yan Jiayu to the sculpture room, and shamelessly rolled up the long skirt on his body.

Yan Jiayu's shadow appeared again.Qin Mingzhu shook his head and drove the shadow away, then he reached out and touched the young man's face actively.

He thought, maybe it's time to talk about the second love in life, just like Yan Jiayu hoped.

"Mingzhu, what happened?"

The young man's voice sounded beside his ears, and Qin Mingzhu found it even more difficult to control his emotions when he heard it.Seeing someone from many years ago in a dream, his brain seems to be filled with a lot of things, but it doesn't seem to be.

He wondered if this moment could last forever?

Just like that, just let Yan Jiayu hold him, let him sink into this dream, and never have to wake up.

"You... let go!"

A sharp child's cry sounded.