Kasamatsu's black silk

The last time I went to Kasamatsu’s house, the season was still summer. After half a year, I still remember that the weather was very good that day, with the scorching sun above my head. I had just recovered from my fever and was still weak, and I felt like I was stepping on cotton when I walked. On the blanket, the soft touch under my feet is still fresh in my memory.

But as expected, what remained in my memory more was when Kasamatsu-san held hands and walked on the road.

The heartbeat was so clear that it seemed to be beating in my ears, and I could only see Kasamatsu-san in my eyes.

However, today, half a year later, the seasons have changed and the environment has changed, but the person who is just holding my hand and walking in front of me has not changed.

——In my world, the existence of Yukio Kasamatsu still occupies almost all of it.

There was no one else in Kasamatsu's house, and it was the same when I came here the first two times, so I didn't think it was too strange. When I entered the door to change slippers, I just asked casually, "Kasamatsu's parents and sister are not Are you home?" I got Kasamatsu-san's answer after two seconds.

"Well... I told them not to stay at home in the afternoon, and they should be back before dinner."

before dinner?

In the past, this sentence probably made me dreamy, but now I can only think of Kasamatsu-san’s plans. Of course, I don’t deny that my thoughts are indeed biased in that direction, but I remembered I immediately vetoed what Kasamatsu-san said during the dorm.

There is no such possibility.

A little relieved, but also a little regretful.

Kasamatsu's home, I feel very nostalgic.

In general, the interior decoration has not changed too much, but some decorations have been added to add a lot of winter feeling. I stood at the stairs and looked around in a daze. Kasamatsu had already gone to the kitchen to pour hot tea. He held the plate in one hand and took the coat that I didn't have time to hang up in the other, and said "Why are you standing here in a daze?" He took the lead to climb the stairs leading to his bedroom.

I feel different from my usual Kasamatsu-san.

Looking at his back and following his footsteps to climb up to the second floor slowly, this idea came to me inexplicably.

It seems that, compared to the expected reaction, it is a little too calm.

Some time ago, in order to prepare for the exam, we didn't have much time to meet or be alone. After the meeting, Kasamatsu-san didn't make me particularly happy or shy because I wasn't used to contact...just very calmly, calmly...all a little uncomfortable It's too much like the reaction he would have when he came into contact with me.

"...Kasamatsu-san?"

"What's wrong."

Even when I spoke out, he didn't look back. The tray in his hand still maintained a delicate balance when he climbed the stairs, and there was no rhetorical tone in his response to me. It was the same feeling he gave me today, calm Surprisingly.After walking two more steps, Kasamatsu-san went to the second floor first. Maybe it was because I kept silent and didn't answer the conversation. He turned around and asked again with a slight frown, "What's wrong?"

"It's just a little bit of concern." I followed him and stopped, and grabbed the sweater behind his back with my right hand, "Could you be here to break up with me today?"

He froze for a moment, then immediately laughed.

"Why should I break up...Why do you ask that?"

"Because Kasamatsu-san is weird today."

The stopped footsteps started again, and when Kasamatsu-san opened the door of his room, he turned to look at me again.

"What's so strange?"

"Where do you want to say..."

Can't tell.

Although I felt it from some subtle differences in Kasamatsu-san’s reactions, at most these evidences make people think that you are thinking too much, or using a simple [intuition], it doesn’t feel very convincing. I fell silent because of this, and immediately saw the meaning of "If you can't say it, you think too much" from Kasamatsu-san's smiling eyes.

...I always feel a little reconciled.

I puffed up my mouth, took another deep breath, stepped forward and raised my head to kiss Kasamatsu-san on the lips.

It was just the lips touching, and I could feel Kasamatsu-san's body trembling from the shock, but that was all.When I distanced myself from him, I took a special look at the tray in his hand. The two cups of tea were placed intact, without any sign of being overturned.

"Look, it's really strange."

"Huh...?" Kasamatsu-san blinked his eyes a few times, as if he didn't understand what happened at all, and kept making monosyllables of doubts in his mouth. It took me a while to see the familiar red color climbing up his crotch Side face, "What, what just now!? Say I'm weird...I said it's too sudden and I can't react at all!"

Although it was a little slow, it was indeed the reaction Kasamatsu-san would have.

Seeing him like this, I suddenly felt a lot more at ease. The joyful mood drove my legs around Mr. Kasamatsu, and slipped through the gap between him and the door frame into the bedroom that I haven’t visited for a long time. He stuck out his tongue at Kasamatsu-san who was still blushing standing at the door.

"It's Kasamatsu-san, who is absent-minded, who gives someone an opportunity, so it's your fault."

Kasamatsu-san was taken aback, and then put on an expression of being helpless against me.

Even though I haven't been here for several months, the decoration of the room is still the same as in memory.

The only difference is that the color of the sheets and curtains has been changed, and the pile of reference books on the table is more exaggerated than the last time I saw it.

"Sorry... I haven't had enough time to deal with the exam."

When my eyes stayed on the desktop, Kasamatsu-san's slightly embarrassed voice came from behind, I shook my head without paying much attention, and said that my own desk was piled up more horribly than his, regardless of the reason Without comforting him well, he walked towards the corner of the room on his own.

There, as I imagined, there is the guitar that I saw in the summer.

"I miss it so much."

Be it the guitar, or Kasamatsu-san who played the guitar and sang a cappella, I feel very nostalgic for all of them.

It's a rare visit, and I really want to hear Kasamatsu-san play the guitar for me. The figure of Kasamatsu-san playing the guitar after a long time makes me feel as if I am being scratched constantly.I bent down and reached out to touch the black sleeve that wrapped the guitar, and there was a dark mark where my fingertip brushed - it seemed that some dust had accumulated on it.

"Will Kasamatsu-san play for me today? The guitar."

"Yes, yes, but because of the Winter Cup and preparing for the entrance exam, I haven't touched it for a while, so it will be relatively unfamiliar."

"I don't mind at all, as long as Kasamatsu-san plays it."

"is it?"

I heard Kasamatsu put the tray on the table, the slight vibration brought the cup to make a crisp sound, followed by the sound of his footsteps walking towards me.

Are you here to pick up the guitar?

Thinking of this, I straightened my waist and turned around, and was caught by the black shadow that quickly attacked from behind without any defense.

During the short interval before I could react to what happened, the close-up of Kasamatsu-san’s face that occupied my entire field of vision continued to zoom in. When I subconsciously closed my eyes, I felt a soft touch on my lips.

kissed.

Realizing this, I put my hand over my mouth when Kasamatsu-san pulled away from me.

"The return gift just now."

With a smile like a child who has succeeded in playing a prank, he reached over to me and picked up the guitar leaning against the wall. As if he had done nothing just now, he skillfully unzipped his jacket and took out the summer jacket from the black sleeve. A guitar I saw once.

And my heart was so disappointing that I couldn't calm down within this time.

"Want to hear what?"

"Kasamatsu-san can play anything."

"Is that enough?"

"It's ok."

I pulled up a chair and sat down. Kasamatsu-san didn't say anything else, and sat down on the edge of the bed with his guitar in his arms. He first tried to tune the strings, then cleared his throat, and finally after taking a look at me, he started Played and sang the first song.

Same as that night in the summer.

Same tune, same voice, same people.

Unlike Yukio Kasamatsu who was sweating while playing basketball, but still a handsome lover who made my heart beat to explode.

...As expected, I really like you.

There was no pause, Mr. Kasamatsu played five pieces, and when he finally stopped, I applauded him vigorously, and he smiled at me from the opposite side, and then retracted all the expressions on his face.

"Natsu."

"exist?"

He put the guitar on the ground against the bed, lowered his head slightly, and then raised his eyes to look at me.

"Slightly, come here for a while."

What are you doing?

I didn't ask, or in other words, I didn't even have the consciousness to ask, my body obeyed his language.

He stood up, walked over, and was hugged by Kasamatsu-san who stretched out his arms.

I heard him say in my ear: "Sure enough, I still want to do this."

"I really want to too..."

I hugged Kasamatsu-san's head leaning against my shoulders, and my face was pressed against his short but not very pungent hair.

It feels very comfortable.

"Remember when I said I called you here because I wanted to talk to you about something?"

"Is it impossible to forget?"

"Well...that's what I said."

Speaking strange words, Kasamatsu-san pushed me away a little, and the hand holding my shoulder went down the arm to hold my hands.

He got up from the bed.

"...close your eyes."

I really want to say that Kasamatsu-san's face turned red again, but if I really do that, I'm not good at watching the atmosphere.I nodded and closed my eyes obediently, wondering what Kasamatsu-san was going to do, but found that he let go of my right hand, and after a while, I felt a cold touch on the ring finger of my left hand.

Before he could say yes, I opened my eyes in shock.

At the same time, I saw Kasamatsu-san's finger that was putting a ring on my finger before she could take it back.

No, maybe my attention is already on the ring on my finger.

It was a silver ring with a very plain and simple design and nothing inlaid on it.

I feel like my mind goes blank.

--What's this?

"It's not very expensive, but it's the best thing I can buy with all my savings right now."

Kasamatsu’s thumb rubbed my left ring finger and the silver ring on it over and over again. To be honest, I was too shocked to hear every word he said, but fortunately the important part I I can still remember it well.

He said that the university will be separated, and he will feel uneasy in the past few years, but he can't tie me to him because of this-it's too selfish to do so.Although I said that I don't mind his behavior, Kasamatsu-san shook his head.

"That does not work."

He answered me like this.

"Although, that... I also thought about whether I should just be naturalized with you, but it's still too early...!" Speaking of that word, Kasamatsu-san's calm tone just now disappeared, and the blush that hadn't subsided It also became more obvious, "I don't have any income yet, so I can't promise you so irresponsibly, so—"

Kasamatsu-san took a deep breath.

The eyes staring at me made me unable to look away, almost being sucked in.

He took my ring-wearing hand and kissed the pad of my ring finger—the spot where the ring was already on.

"Can you reserve this position for me first?"

"Although I can't give you anything better now, there will be a more formal ring to replace this place in the future."

When we graduate from college, find a good job, and have enough ability to support a stable family——

"...by then, will you marry me?"

There is no reason for any rejection at all.

I don't know how long Kasamatsu-san has been preparing for this speech, and how many people have helped him, but the person who stands here now and made a promise to me word by word is Yukio Kasamatsu, who is not wrong.

Is my favorite person in this life.

I was obviously laughing, but the tears couldn't help but fall.

"Well, I would."

Then, four years later—

Kasamatsu-san and I signed our names on two wedding cards face to face on the table in the living room of the house where we will spend our lives together.

Just as he promised four years ago, he found a stable job after graduating from college, the two bought a house together with savings, and the ring on his left hand has been replaced with a diamond-encrusted style—of course The original one, which I cherish very much, is kept in a drawer—then not long ago, Kasamatsu-san and I went to the other party's home to meet the parents, and carefully informed us of our plan to get married.

During the more than four years of dating, we have had many contacts with each other's family members, so we were blessed without encountering any difficulties, and we have just completed the last step of forming a family.

Putting down the pen, Kasamatsu-san held my hand as gently as when she proposed to me four years ago.

"From now on, we're really going to live together... Natsu."

"Really."

I moved my fingers a little so my fingers crossed his.

"Kasamatsu-san..."

"It's not right."

"Eh?"

Yukio Kasamatsu, who is 22 years old, the man who will be my husband from today, pointed to the paper on the table with a helpless smile.

"You started today, too, 'Kasamatsu'-san, right?"

Almost forgot.

From the moment I signed that name, I was no longer Tachibana Natsu, but Kasamatsu Natsu.

"Then change your mouth again?"

Responding to all the happiness this man has given me, I smile and say what I was interrupted just now.

"Yukio-san, please take care of me from today on."

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