Kasamatsu's black silk

Ah... screwed up again.

My head calmed down a bit, and I immediately realized that I had done something beyond my original plan because of my hot head again, or in other words, something I shouldn't have done in that situation.

However, I can't control my emotions anyway.

There are also some, do not want to control.

Before coming here, I don’t want to worry about anything, and I can’t worry about the precautions that my friend told me.Even though the remaining rationality in my mind was shouting "No! Stop it!", I still couldn't let go of the fingers that were holding Kasamatsu-san's coat, and even moved closer to him like an inch.

Kasamatsu-san froze.

In his eyes reflecting the moonlight, I saw my face about to cry.

Kasamatsu-san didn't avoid me.

So I also tried to get closer.

In order to allow my arms to support my forward leaning body, I didn't think much about holding Kasamatsu-san's clothes with one hand, while the other hand moved from the empty bench between us to Kasamatsu-san's lap.

"Wait...! Natsu, you...!"

Kasamatsu-san's body trembled slightly, as did his voice, but I had no reason to let go. I was afraid that once I let go, the courage supported by random impulses would disappear.

"Kasamatsu-san, I..."

What am I trying to say?

do not know.

do not know anything.

Becoming like this is impulsive, there is no way to think at all, and there is no time to think about what you want to say.

I got stuck in the middle of the sentence, unable to continue, only the hand that was holding his clothes trembled disobediently, fully revealing my mood.

(Maybe just bite the bullet like this.)

Fortunately, Kasamatsu-san didn't seem to notice.

Looking at me, Kasamatsu-san's eyes faltered for a moment, and then his face, which was so red that it couldn't be completely concealed by the night, unconsciously leaned towards me.

But only for a moment.

At the distance where I thought he would kiss me in the next second, Kasamatsu-san suddenly stopped, took a deep breath, and immediately distanced himself from me.Even the hand I put on his lap was pulled away by the wrist.

"too close."

There was no wavering voice saying that.

"Ah, um... sorry."

Sure enough, he was avoided.

Of course, Kasamatsu-san also pushed me away a week ago, and now it's like this, I'm not surprised at all——Kasamatsu-san probably doesn't like this, right?It's all because of me doing things he doesn't want with a strong attitude that bothers him.

Wanting more contact, wanting to be closer, was all wishful thinking on my part.

Once you start thinking this way, you will become extremely self-hating.

"I'm sorry, did you find it annoying?" I sat upright on the chair again, turned my head to a direction where I couldn't see Kasamatsu-san, "I will pay attention next time...!"

Inhale, exhale.

I don't want to look like I don't care, I didn't get hurt because of this, I don't want Kasamatsu-san to find out my current mood.

...I don't want him to hate me even more.

I took a deep breath again, trying to hold back the tears that had reached the edge of my eyes.

"I said you misunderstood something alone? I didn't say I hate you once, did I?"

"No, I'm not saying you hate me..." Flicking my hair pretending to be calm, I wish from the bottom of my heart that Kasamatsu-san would stop stabbing me again, "That's what happened just now... Kasamatsu-san doesn't like to treat you Right? Because you pushed me away halfway that night, so... I know what you want to say, that..."

Just say what you hate.

Obviously thinking about this sentence in his mind, he opened his mouth, but couldn't utter a single syllable.

"So I said, I don't hate it."

Kasamatsu-san's voice, mixed with sighs, broke into my ears without warning.Because it was too unexpected, I didn't even understand the real meaning of the words for a while. I wanted to look back, but I didn't dare. In the end, I turned my head carefully and looked at him secretly.

"No...hate?"

"Well, I don't hate it."

"Then why did Kasamatsu-san...?"

"Off, about this issue."

The calmness that had appeared on Kasamatsu-san's face until just now disappeared, and he seemed to have thought of something embarrassing, not only became hesitating and hesitating, but even his eyes wandered around unnaturally.

After hearing with my own ears that he didn't hate me, now I don't feel uneasy at all, only full of curiosity.

——What is the reason why Kasamatsu-san's expression is so funny?

"That is to say... If you get too close to me, I'm afraid it will be more dangerous."

"Huh? Dangerous?"

Where is the danger?

I don't understand Kasamatsu-san at all.

He seemed to be aware of this too, so he tried hard to explain it.

"I mean, that, rationally..." Kasamatsu-san took a deep breath, "I'm afraid I won't be able to control it."

Can't control it?

What?What did I just hear?

It must be that I have been thinking too much during this time, so I have auditory hallucinations, right?Well, it must be like this, otherwise it would be unscientific to hear from Kasamatsu-san that he would be unable to control his rationality.

After all, what is out of control?

I desperately turned my head, which was almost rusted and stuck, to connect the topics before and after us, and finally a word emerged.

——[Sex|Desire].

So that's the way it is, what Kasamatsu-san said is that I can't help it...

Eh?Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ?

"Kasa, Kasamatsu-san, what did you say just now...!?"

"Don't ask! I don't want to say such a shameful line twice!"

"It's okay, Kasamatsu-san! The so-called first-time acquaintance and second-time acquaintance, just say it a few more times!"

"I do not want it!?"

I always feel that all the tension is gone.

Kasamatsu and Kasamatsu yelled back and forth like this, we stared blankly at each other for a while, and laughed out loud at the same time.

What, I feel that I am the only one thinking about embarrassing things, obviously, everyone is the same.

I raised my head, the weather is good tonight, and on the mountain, I can clearly see many stars that are hard to see in the urban area, and the moon is brighter than usual.

"Suddenly I feel very happy."

"Why?" Kasamatsu-san asked.

"Although I'm a little embarrassed to say it... I always thought that I was the only one who wanted to get closer to the other party. Kasamatsu-san would probably be angry if I said this, but to be honest, I always I don’t have the confidence to be liked by Kasamatsu-san, so a little bit of distance makes me feel very scared.”

... So, want to meet, want to talk, want to touch.

Even more, more in-depth contact, interlocking with Kasamatsu-san, hugging with Kasamatsu-san, kissing with Kasamatsu-san, doing more things with Kasamatsu-san.I have been thinking about it all the time, there are so many contents, the frequency is frequent, the scale is so deep...there is no lower limit that I am embarrassed to say, all of them have been delusional.

"But today I know, am I not alone?" I looked back at Kasamatsu and smiled, "So I'm very happy, I feel very happy from the bottom of my heart."

"You're an idiot, what's there to be happy about?"

"It's just a pleasure."

"……Fool."

Kasamatsu-san's big hands covered my head, and the warm temperature penetrated into the skin through the hair. I enjoyed this feeling very much. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, and all I could smell was Kasamatsu-san.

"I probably like you more than you imagined... no, it's what you expected."

The hand stroking the top of my head ran down my hair, and the hand calloused by basketball gently held a small tuft of hair next to my cheek. Although it was a small but amazing speech, I couldn't react , I could only see Kasamatsu-san keeping a certain distance from me, smiling.

"I want to meet, I want to talk to you, I want to be closer than now... to meet you."

Kasamatsu-san's face turned redder than before.

"Like you, I feel uneasy if there is a distance, but it's okay not to keep the distance."

"why?"

Since we don't want to distance ourselves from each other, why not?What is the reason for keeping your distance?Kasamatsu-san's unclear expression made me feel annoyed, for a moment I even wanted to hold his hand and tell him, in that case, let me break the distance! ——But this kind of overly handsome line doesn't seem to suit me...

While thinking this way, Kasamatsu-san continued what she had interrupted.

"You know I have gynophobia, don't you?" I nodded in response, Kasamatsu-san looked away from me embarrassingly, "So, don't talk about contact with girls, even talking Rarely. Ever since I dated you, I have also consulted with a very experienced junior, ahem, but there are still many situations where I am at a loss... like I want to hold your hand when I see you smiling , once there is skin-to-skin contact, I want to do more...even if it’s just like you touched my body just now, and now touching your hair, because I can’t stop imagining in my mind, even the body, that ..."

Kasamatsu-san lowered his head. From my angle, I could only see his reddened ears, and couldn't make out his expression at all. However, because of the relatively close distance, I could barely hear what he said in an extremely low voice.

"...There will be a reaction."

Reaction...means...that reaction?

I blinked, and my gaze moved downward involuntarily, but Kasamatsu-san was obviously aware of my attempt, and he quickly raised his hand to cover my eyes.

"Wow, don't look!"

"Eh? I didn't want to see it, it was just subconsciously... By the way, your reaction is so intense..."

"Stop talking ahhh!"

"I see." Speaking of which, didn't this person keep his head down just now?I was surprised by Kasamatsu-san's reaction speed and tried to pull his hand away, but no matter how I pulled it, it didn't move at all, "Kasamatsu-san...?"

"I like you, so I want to cherish you."

Kasamatsu-san's breath was close to his ear, and his voice was lowered to the limit.

It's indescribable, the feeling of itching crawling across the heart.My heart beat faster and faster, and the rhythm that almost jumped to the mouth of my throat almost took my breath away.

This is probably the most gentle voice I have ever heard, Kasamatsu-san.

I wanted to tell him that if it was him, I would be willing to do anything, but I couldn't say a word.

Can't say it either.

"Until I can give you a lifetime promise, I will never shoot you - that's what I decided from the very beginning."

"……Proposal?"

"No, no!"

"Haha, I know." My hand gently covered the back of the hand covering my eyes, "I like you the most."

The heart is about to break.

Because it carries too much happiness, it is so full that it is about to explode.

Finally, Kasamatsu-san slowly let go of his hand, allowing me to see his flushed face again.

"But, according to what Kasamatsu-san said just now, isn't it even okay to hold hands?"

"Eh... I will be very troubled if it really becomes like this."

He looked at me and stretched out his left hand, palm up, in front of me.

"Come on, give me your hand."

"Ok!"

It's been a week since we held hands.

My hand made contact with Kasamatsu-san's palm, and I watched it be tightly held by that big hand.

The familiar roughness.

Feeling the tactile sensation of the thin calluses rubbing against the skin, I also tightened my five fingers and squeezed Kasamatsu-san's hand.

"...I endured the flash bomb until now, but the two of them just hold hands, can I swear?"

"Wow! Senior Moriyama, your voice is too loud!"

"Kise (your) voice (voice) is also very loud!"

"...Your voices are getting louder than each other..."

A familiar voice came from not far away.

Kasamatsu and I were taken aback for a moment, and then we both looked in the same direction. With the help of the blurred moonlight and the light from the hotel building, I vaguely saw four figures moving slightly behind the bushes. Those voices were recognized, and Kasamatsu-san had already called out their names one by one.

"Moriyama, Kise, Hayakawa, Kobori! What are you doing there!?"

Muttering "Tsk, there's nothing you can do if you're exposed," Moriyama Yutaka patted the leaves above his head and walked out from the bushes. The rest of them didn't hide anymore and showed up one after another.

... After leaving the entrance of the hotel, the starting players of the Haichang basketball team gathered together again.

"Didn't you go back to your room just now!?"

"Yeah~ You see the weather is so nice tonight, so we just went out for a walk~"

Then I happened to take a walk here and endured the flash bombs for a long time. Thank you, Moriyama-kun.

I looked at him helplessly, probably seeing my gaze, and Yutaka Moriyama smiled brightly at me.

(...inexplicably angry.)

"So you want to say it's a coincidence!?"

"It's just a coincidence." Yutaka Moriyama shrugged his shoulders as he said, "Kasamatsu, don't you want to avenge your personal revenge by saying 'I'll double your training tomorrow' just because of this little misunderstanding?"

"Forehead……"

Apparently, Kasamatsu-san had thought about saying it but was blocked by Yutaka Moriyama's words.Especially with the expression on the other side's face of "You are too petty to say that, as a man, you have to be bolder", although Kasamatsu-san was full of resignation, there was no other way.

I looked at Kasamatsu-san, then at Moriyama Yutaka across the way, and then I looked at Kasamatsu-san's right hand that was released by Kasamatsu-san because he discovered the four people who were lying in ambush.

"Kasamatsu-san is the leader of the first team, so you have to set an example, so please forgive them?" I said with a smile.

"Nazin?"

Kasamatsu-san immediately looked at me with puzzled eyes. Of the four people facing me, Kobori Hiroshi and Kise Ryota both made expressions as if they understood something, Hayakawa Mitsuhiro was still confused, and the rest of them, Moriyama Yutaka ——

"As expected of Kasamatsu's girlfriend, what a generosity."

He also gave me a thumbs up.

"Thank you Moriyama-kun for your compliment, but unfortunately I'm not generous at all~" I continued to smile, "Come on, let me ask the four students opposite, who took the lead in proposing to come here for a [walk]?"

A second later, the hands of three people all pointed to Yutaka Moriyama.

So, the next morning—

"My lord, I was wrong, please forgive me."

"What are you talking about, Moriyama-kun, I don't understand at all."

"I was really wrong, you adults don't remember the faults of villains, please let me go."

"Don't be like this. We are all students of the same grade. I can't stand using honorifics."

"If you can let me go, it's just an honorific, it's nothing to worry about!"

"It's disgusting, don't make it sound like someone has done something excessive?"

"How could it be! How could you have done something excessive! There is no such thing at all!"

"I think so too, so Moriyama-kun, hurry up and go elsewhere so that you don't block the people behind the line who still want to get food."

"I was wrong! I was really wrong!! What will you do to let me go!!"

"Eh? What did Moriyama-kun do wrong?"

"I really didn't interrupt you on purpose, last night was just for fun... You think, I was obviously more handsome but Kasamatsu was the first to give me a girlfriend, and I always felt a little bit in my heart..."

"Please go away and go somewhere else, Moriyama-kun."

I pushed the dinner plate belonging to Moriyama Yutaka forward, and signaled him to move away quickly and keep away from the kitchen window.

He looked down at the dinner plate, and finally couldn't help screaming.

"Then you give me back my side dishes—only rice ghosts can eat it!"