Little Dandy, He's a Little Good

That night, as expected, Rong Zhuo woke up several times from the cold.

He wanted to sneak under Yu Jingdu's bed more than once, but he held back in the end.

Later, when he curled up in bed, he thought a lot.

He realized that he had been relying too much on Jing Du all along.

Strictly speaking, this kind of dependence has exceeded the boundaries that should exist between friends.

Probably like a good brother?

Sometimes, Rong Zhuo felt that he was closer to Jing Du than to Duan Zheng.

He was used to this kind of intimacy between the two of them, and never thought that there was any problem with it.

Because when he was with Yu Jingdu, he was very comfortable and relaxed.

Even when he knew the other party's identity, he was momentarily reserved, but that barrier quickly disappeared.

It wasn't until last night that Rong Zhuo suddenly realized something was wrong.

He grew up so big, it was the first time he had such an awkward reaction in front of a person.

Because it was the first time he had encountered it, he was at a loss and at a loss.

More importantly, this doesn't quite match his previous perception of himself...

People have no gender concept when they are young, but at a certain age, after receiving the influence of the surroundings and proper education, they will gradually develop a sense of privacy, and begin to require themselves to bathe and change their own clothes.

After puberty, people will go through a period of awkwardness, and will deliberately keep a distance from the opposite sex.

Different people will have different growth trajectories. Some people can have mature gender awareness in their teens, know their sexual orientation, and even start to have secret feelings for certain people.

Some people will be more dull, even in adulthood.

The latter will have mature gender cognition at the intellectual level, but they are ignorant at the physical level.

Just like Rong Zhuo, he has always firmly believed that he is a straight man and never doubted it.

Because the environment he lived in since he was a child educated him that most men would like women, and he had never had any undue thoughts about the same sex before.Under this premise, he would naturally consider himself a straight man.

But tonight, Rong Zhuo huddled in the cold quilt and recalled the past, and found that he never seemed to have any thoughts about any girls.

This is really a headache for him.

Of course, he didn't think anything because of this accident.

Because what happened last night was too accidental.

Maybe it's because his ears are too sensitive, maybe if another person pinches it, the same result will be the same?

He didn't have any strange impulse towards Jing Du because of this.

It can be seen that a man's body is really strange and not in control.

In order to avoid such an embarrassing situation, he could only temporarily choose to keep a distance from Yu Jingdu.

Otherwise, Yu Jingdu might think that he has some nasty thoughts, and he won't be able to tell with a hundred mouths.

"Are you asleep?" Yu Jingdu's voice suddenly sounded from the other side of the room.

Rong Zhuo was afraid that he would ask something, so he hid under the quilt without making a sound, pretending to be asleep.

Yu Jingdu knew that the boy was pretending to sleep when he heard the slightly faster-paced breathing not far away.

But he didn't expose it, but got off the couch and walked to Rong Zhuo's couch, and reached out his hand to feel under the quilt.

Rong Zhuo was startled, his body froze obviously.

But Yu Jingdu's hand didn't touch him, it seemed that he was just checking the temperature inside.

As expected, Rong Zhuo's bed was very cold.

The young man's anger was not strong enough, not only could he not cover the bed warmly, but he was also choked by the cold bed.

"Hey." Yu Jingdu sighed, then slowly lifted the quilt and lay down next to Rong Zhuo.

Rong Zhuo's body remained stiff all the time, and he didn't dare to breathe out, for fear that the other party would find out that he was pretending to sleep.

However, when the warm breath around him slowly enveloped him, his body still slowly relaxed.

So that when he was drowsy and about to fall asleep, he felt that Yu Jingdu was about to get up, so he blurted out and asked, "Where are you going?"

"I'll go back to my bed." After Yu Jingdu said that, he got up, helped him tuck the quilt up, and then returned to the small bed.

Rong Zhuo was stunned for a long time before he realized that Yu Jingdu had just come to help him warm the bed.

There was a sudden heat in his heart, and he felt the warmth in the quilt, as if it had directly penetrated into his heart.

He moved his body slowly, and lay down on the spot where Yu Jingdu had just been.

The familiar temperature wrapped him in it, giving him the illusion that he was still being hugged by Yu Jingdu.

Rong Zhuo thought to himself, Yu Jingdu is really nice.

So he has to manage himself even more, and don't make the same mistake again.

Otherwise, Yu Jingdu would definitely misunderstand him.

Probably because he thought about it day by day and dreamed at night, or maybe it was because he had some kind of association lying in the warm place of Jing Du, and after Rong Zhuo fell asleep in the middle of the night, he had a dream.

He dreamed that Yu Jingdu was hugging him from behind, whispering something in his ear.But he couldn't hear the other person's words clearly, he could only feel his ears were hot and itchy, and then Yu Jingdu seemed to notice that his ears were itchy, so he stretched out his hands to pinch his ears.

Rong Zhuo's bones were softened by his pinching, and his body had the same reaction that night again.

He was afraid that Yu Jingdu would find out, and tried his best to cover it up, but he was still found out.

Unfortunately, he was woken up because he was too nervous.

So I don't know how Yu Jingdu reacted in the dream.

He only remembered the last moment before waking up from the dream, when Yu Jingdu looked at him with a complicated expression.

The other party's dark eyes were stained with redness, and Rong Zhuo couldn't tell whether it was anger or other emotions...

Because of this dream, Rong Zhuo felt more guilty after waking up in the morning than yesterday.

He felt that he had to be calm and calm, so he proposed not to take the carriage that day, but to ride a horse.

Otherwise, sitting in the same carriage with Yu Jingdu, he couldn't help but think wildly.

"Are you sure you want to ride a horse?" Yu Jingdu asked him.

"I want to take this opportunity to practice riding." Rong Zhuo said.

Yu Jingdu stared at him for a while, and finally said nothing, but went to find a bunch of things.

He first put a brand new fox fur hat on Rong Zhuo's head, then carefully wrapped a scarf around Rong Zhuo's neck, and finally put a pair of deerskin gloves on Rong Zhuo's hands.

Rong Zhuo couldn't help but secretly raised his eyes to look at him, and saw that his face was calm and there was nothing unusual.

"Come back when you're tired." Yu Jingdu said to him.

Rong Zhuo nodded obediently, and then got on the horse.

Yu Jingdu turned back and got into the carriage, he didn't ask to ride with him, nor did he ride with him.

However, the other party was sitting in the carriage, and would raise the curtain to look out from time to time, and would always stare at the boy on the horse for a while before giving up.

"Young master, why don't you ride in the carriage?" A man from the caravan came to talk to Rong Zhuo.

Rong Zhuo turned to look at him, "Come out to get some air."

"We have to walk for four or five hours a day, and we are very tired." The man said: "Young Master's family is delicate and expensive, I'm afraid I can't bear this hardship, don't get tired."

Rong Zhuo could hear a bit of teasing from his tone, but he was not annoyed, and just smiled at him without replying.

Most of the time, he is not a quick-talking person, especially when he knows that the other party has no malicious intentions.

While he was talking, Yu Jingdu raised the curtain to look at it again, and only after confirming that Rong Zhuo had no intention of going back did he put down the curtain a little irritably.

The reason why Yu Jingdu didn't ride horses with Rong Zhuo was because he was sure that Rong Zhuo wouldn't last long.

He estimated that in less than half an hour, the boy would run back in despair, complaining that it was too cold or too tired to ride a horse.

But to his surprise, Rong Zhuo was extremely persistent today, not only did he not back down, even after everyone had finished the rest at noon, the other party did not propose to take the carriage.

When it was dark, everyone arrived at the place where they stayed.

This time they didn't stay in the post house, but found an inn in the county town.

When Rong Zhuo got off the horse, his legs were a little weak, and he almost couldn't stand still.

Yu Jingdu supported him, with an emotion that Rong Zhuo couldn't understand in his eyes.

"Nephew, I didn't expect you to be spoiled and spoiled, and you can endure hardships!" Duan Chengju said with a look of relief: "When I was your age, I couldn't endure such hardships. It was the first time I traveled far away, and I was comfortable riding in a carriage. Unwilling, hahaha."

Rong Zhuo smiled at him, a little forced.

He was embarrassed to say that his legs were numb right now.

He had ridden many times before, but never for so long, and it was winter.Keeping both legs in the same posture and straddling the horse's back, it felt like the blood was about to freeze after a long time, and Rong Zhuo felt that his legs were almost unconscious on the road before the inn.

"I'm not used to it either." Rong Zhuo said.

"I'll take you a few more times in the future, it's like this from the beginning." Duan Chengju said and patted him on the shoulder, "Let's go, go eat something first, then take a hot bath and have a good time. take a break."

Rong Zhuo responded, but he couldn't move his legs.

"You want to go with him?" Yu Jingdu asked.

Rong Zhuo looked at him, "Even if I want to go, I will wait until your work is done."

Yu Jingdu remembered what he said a long time ago that he wanted to go to business in the future, and said in a deep voice, "What if I don't let you go?"

"I don't plan to take the imperial examination in the future, and I won't be able to become an official if I stay in the capital." Rong Zhuo said.

"If you stay by my side, I naturally have enough status to give you." Yu Jingdu said.

Rong Zhuo smiled when he heard the words, His Royal Highness Xindao Banquet is really righteous, it really has nothing to say.

Rong Zhuo thought it was a little sore after riding a horse for a whole day today, but after he took a bath, he found that the inner thighs were all red from the saddle, and it hurts a little after being soaked in water.

"Are you still trying to be brave?" Yu Jingdu asked in a deep voice.

Rong Zhuo pulled the blanket over to cover his legs, with an embarrassed expression on his face.

"Let me see." Yu Jingdu pulled a chair and sat by the couch, holding a small porcelain pot in his hand.

Rong Zhuo shook his head in embarrassment, "It's not broken."

"Let me see." Yu Jingdu said again.

Rong Zhuo lifted the blanket awkwardly, and saw that Yu Jingdu frowned immediately.

The boy's skin was originally fair, so the reddened area was very obvious.

If this kind of minor injury fell on Jing Du, he wouldn't even blink his eyes, but it would be different if it fell on Rong Zhuo.

"Tell me, what's going on?" Yu Jingdu opened the small porcelain jar, dipped some ointment in his hand, and gently applied it to Rong Zhuo's wound.

He moved very lightly, as if he was afraid that the boy would hurt, and he was very careful every time he applied it.

Rong Zhuo originally wanted to stop him, but when he saw him asking about this matter, he couldn't help but feel a little guilty, so he diverted his attention.

"I just want to... practice riding." Rong Zhuo said.

"You know that's not what I'm asking about."

His tone was a little cold and hard, Rong Zhuo was frightened by him, and instantly became honest.

"Don't be angry." Rong Zhuo whispered.

"Then tell the truth." Yu Jingdu lowered his head and carefully helped him apply the medicine.

"I'm just thinking..." Rong Zhuo stammered, "I can't rely on you too much."

"Is there anything wrong with relying on me?" Yu Jingdu asked.

"It's not bad." Rong Zhuo's eyes fell on Jing Du's slender fingers, his consciousness was a little wandering.

With calloused fingertips, Yu Jingdu pushed the ointment and slowly applied it on his skin. The faint pain when the wound was touched and the slight heat brought by the ointment mixed together to form a strange feeling .

Rong Zhuo frowned, and reached out to grab Yu Jingdu's wrist.

Yu Jingdu was taken aback by him, and frowned at him.

He saw the boy's face was flushed red, as if he was about to cry.

"What's wrong?" Yu Jingdu asked.

Rong Zhuo pursed his lips, pulled the blanket with his other hand, and covered himself.

Yu Jingdu was stunned for a long time before he realized what happened.

Rong Zhuo, this is...

Yu Jingdu's heart skipped a beat, and he thought to himself, does Rong Zhuo have that kind of thought for him?

But he quickly calmed down, because he recalled Rong Zhuo's expression just now, and realized that the young man didn't seem to have moved his mind.

And at this time, he didn't care about his distracting thoughts.

Seeing Rong Zhuo's reaction, he was obviously quite distressed about this matter.

"You..." Yu Jingdu opened his mouth to ease the atmosphere, but saw Rong Zhuo pulled the blanket with shame and anger, covering himself completely.Yu Jingdu was afraid that he would be bored, and wanted to help him tear it apart, but he was also afraid of hurting the boy's face.

"Are you planning to just hide under the blanket?" Yu Jingdu asked him.

The boy under the blanket remained silent, as if he had made up his mind to play dead.

"What's so embarrassing?" Yu Jingdu pretended to be relaxed and said, "You forgot that when you first saw me, you hid behind the screen in my room..."

"Don't say it!" Rong Zhuo muffled.

"I won't tell, you come out."

But Rong Zhuo was unmoved, he only wished that there was a hole in the bed that he could get into directly, so that he would never see Jing Du again in this life.

The first time he met Jing Du, he did experience that, but he was drunk at that time.

But this time was different, this time it was in front of Yu Jingdu, or when Yu Jingdu was helping him to apply the medicine.

Rong Zhuo felt aggrieved at the thought of taking medicine.

"I didn't say to take medicine!" Rong Zhuo muffled, "Why do you help me?"

"It's all on me." Yu Jingdu coaxed, "It's my fault, you come out first."

Rong Zhuo remained unmoved.

"If you don't come out, I'll force it." Yu Jingdu said.

Rong Zhuo moved after hearing this, but he still didn't get out of the blanket.

"Are you feeling shy?" Yu Jingdu asked him.

"No."

"Then you feel embarrassed that I saw you?" Yu Jingdu asked again.

"No."

"why?"

"You..." Rong Zhuo lowered his voice and asked him awkwardly, "We are friends, how can I do this in front of you?"

After hearing this, Yu Jingdu understood the reason for his awkwardness, and his heart softened.

He slowly sat down on the side of the couch, stroking the boy's head with one hand through the blanket.

"Actually..." Yu Jingdu swirled the words in his mouth, but finally swallowed them back.

He knew that the young man was now facing a very important juncture in his life. If he coaxed him according to his own will, based on the other party's pure thoughts, it would probably be what he said and what the other party would believe.

But he couldn't bear to do that.

What he wants is to live in Rong Zhuo's heart steadily, not coaxing himself into it.

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