[Gone with the Wind] Parallel Time and Space

Chapter 40 Monologue

Although it was daytime, the light in the room was not good so the kerosene lamp was still lit.This brings light and shadow to this small room.

Scarlett made her confession in such a room, in front of Rhett.Of course, first she managed to put him down on the chair.She brought some food, but was refused. "I have something to eat, Scarlett," he said.

Anyway, Scarlett started.

"I'm sorry, honey. I want to say it wasn't me, it wasn't me, but I know that no matter how many times I say it wasn't me, nothing will change. I hurt you, my jealousy hurt you, I The darkness of your heart has done you. I have put your life at risk. I don't deserve your love, Rhett. Watling was supposed to be in the shop that day. I asked her out. "

"I don't understand, baby, what did you ask her for?"

"She has a child..." Scarlett dared not look at him.

"Why didn't you ask me, Scarlett."

Rhett was silent for a second or two, then he looked up and looked directly at Scarlett, and she saw eyes that seemed to be drowning.

You've broken my heart, Scarlett, and my feelings for you...and it's in your best interest to do it—you've been smart, smart!You just need to ask this question first, throw the question of forgiveness and unforgiveness to me, and everything will be fine.And you apologized frankly in front of me, and you asked for my forgiveness only because you firmly believed in your heart that I would forgive you.But is that really the case?You've always been so confident - that's your strength.I won't die, because if I did, you'd say, ah, it's a sad thing, but it's a good thing I confessed to him in advance.isn't it, dear?

I should be thankful, at least you still care about my life, right? "We shouldn't be discussing this. Now it's Chief Wilson who is going to prosecute you. We have to think of a way! Otherwise, what if you are sentenced to hang?" Scarlett said.

But, my dear, I'm afraid you don't understand.For me now, this is more important than a rope around my head in the future.After all, that's only in the future.And this is really tormenting me now.

Scarlett... Listen to me, listen to me, and don't contradict me.You're really not that pretty, you're not kind, you're not noble, you're morally lacking — you don't meet all the standards that society expects of a woman.You're going to cry, aren't you, baby?Don't cry... don't cry, I feel so bad.So, you're going to be mad, aren't you?Don't worry, I'm telling the truth.

Black mothers may have told you many fairy tales when you were a child, and you have received education from your mother Ellen since you were a child. They, or this society, make you think that women must be beautiful.You will want to say how beautiful Snow White is, that's why she got the favor of the prince.And Sleeping Beauty is also a beauty, so there are princes who are willing to marry her.You dress yourself up beautifully, but no matter how beautiful you are, you can't hide your heart.

For one thing, I have to apologize to you. "I came back halfway and didn't go home, but I wanted to see you, but you were not at home. I found out later that you went to Tara. I'm sorry, dear, I was not with you at that time." Actual In fact, going to England for business is just an excuse, I mainly need to get arms-this is my old business.

"You know I never blame you for this." Scarlett held him, and Rhett's ear was attached to Scarlett's belly, and what he heard was life.

That is my child, the continuation of my life.

But, Scarlett, I have a thought that I can't get rid of—it's evil.I want revenge on you for hurting my feelings - my love.If a woman dies because of love, people will say she is chaste, praise her bravery, and even give her an honorary title.And if a man dies because of love, people will criticize him as cowardly, saying that he is not a great talent and has no promise.I am cowardly, then, because I want revenge on you - revenge on you with my death.

"Write to Locke, baby." If you really want to save me, then I'll tell you how, but I'm not sure.

You are wearing a green skirt today, and the dark green hat on top of your head was bought for you. I remember, it matches you very well, my dear, and it makes your green eyes more vivid.

The moment you walked out the door, I called you. "Scarlett!"

I didn't expect it either, and at the same time you turned around and called me.I hear you call my name, I like it when you call my name. "Rhett!" you say.

"I love you." I said.

Scarlett was supported by Melanie to meet Rhett. When she reached the door, she smiled and said: "It's okay, Melanie, I'll go in alone. Go and see Ashley, he must miss you .”

Scarlett felt uncomfortable when she entered the room. It was a dim room. Fortunately, there was a lamp still burning on the table.Rhett was tied up, and it took Scarlett a lot of effort to recover.She put him down and they chatted.Scarlett wanted to tell Chief Rhett Wilson about the prosecution, but she had to start over.She has to say why his plan didn't work - it's all because of me!

I have to apologize, I have to explain why. "She's got a baby..." But I don't want to go on, because you get the idea.

We've been to New Orleans together, we honeymooned there, but it's so close and you never mentioned the kid - he's in New Orleans!You don't even mention Watling, this woman almost married you back then, didn't she?I don't mind, Rhett, I don't mind it.When I hear people talking about you, it's like listening to a legend—although I'm the only one who thinks so. I don't know what Watling's original name is, and you're not so stupid as to give your life to someone else when her brother challenges you to a duel. "I'm not going to marry a stupid girl." You said that.I'm so proud of you because you fight, you fight, you fight.

how?Did you later violate your principles?

"I came back on the way and didn't go home, but I wanted to see you, but you just weren't home. I found out later that you went to Tara. I'm sorry, dear, I wasn't with you at that time." No , no, I should be in Charleston at that time, where I heard your secret, heard your father's secret.Of the latter I must keep my mouth shut, and of the former, my heart tells me I should question you, but I don't.

Because, your father passed away.I still dare not tell you.

"You know I never blame you for this." Someone dies, and a new life is born, and life continues.

I'm afraid you don't know, but I've known you since the night I admitted to Mrs. Wilson that Bell was here for the appointment.I understand something about you that I never understood before.Why did you join the army at the end of the war, why did you join the Ku Klux Klan... When your sister wrote to say that your father died of illness and had nothing to do with me, I was so glad and happy, I felt God forgive me at that time-I am now We find that we cannot live without God, not because God is really effective, but because of our lack of language.God let me bypass the moral and the condemnation of the heart and go straight to it, and facing Chief Wilson that night, I knew that I could never bypass that issue-morality.

You know, it's not easy.When you hold a knife that can kill—when you hold power in your hand, there is a great temptation in front of you.I hated Watling back then, but morality stopped me.It was also at that time that I understood you.

When I was a girl, all my fantasies about you stopped at marriage.I only thought about getting married and didn't realize that life would still go on, would go on after getting married, and that wasn't the last line in the fairy tale: The prince and princess lived happily ever after.

Even so, I was ready to leave with my real annoyance.I opened the door, but I couldn't move forward. I turned around and called your name without any particular purpose. I just wanted to call you. "Rett!"

However, what a coincidence, you also called my name. "Scarlett!"

So, I knew that I had to say something.

"I love you." I said.

Scarlett waited for Melanie in the carriage, and the first thing she did after returning home was to write a letter to Vox Sparrow.She tried to find the address from Rhett's past letters with him, but found that there were several different ones, so she had to send several more letters to different places.

However, after sending the letter, she began to worry that it was too slow, so the next day, she went to Chief Wilson's office again.

The door of the office was closed, and there was no one at the door. She was about to knock on the door when she heard a voice from inside.

"Why can't I lie? Eh? Can you guarantee that you have never lied since birth? Oh! A noble lie is also a lie!"

Scarlett recognized that it was Watling's voice.She held back her breath.

"If you don't lie, you will get to the bottom of it, and you will not treat other people's privacy as private at all-is that what Lincoln taught you?"

"Please be careful what you say, miss."

"Oh, I'm sorry." Watling said: "You will ask why I went to the appointment. If it was Mrs. Butler, she could naturally say: Ah, I am only for my husband's reputation. And I, do I Do you really have to tell you about me—a whore's feelings?"

"Should I tell you that I have a child, and Mrs. Butler is here to question whether the origin of my child has anything to do with Mr. Butler? Ha! Anyway, I have come here, I have talked here, what's the matter?" What can I hide? Yes, yes, I have a child, but it is not Mr. Butler's, of course not. Of course, Mrs. Butler has reason to doubt me. After all, I was almost married to Mr. Butler when I was young. Yeah--I don't need to tell you how I got to this point when I was a decent girl, and it wouldn't interest you. But that's the saddest thing, you know? Sir, Mr. Butler never Didn't recognize me!"

Watling spoke excitedly, her voice was high, of course, it was true after all.Gotta pay something, right?Oh, Rhett, he did not recognize me, and that was both my relief and my sorrow.It was the most difficult time in New Orleans. Her husband gambled and left her and the child to run away. At that time, she had to go to the red light district to make a living. It was Rhett who saved her.She kept his handkerchief all the time, the one that wiped her tears.

"And since Mr. Butler got married, he hasn't been around very much. How glad I was when I got back from Mrs. Butler's appointment that night and found out he'd been waiting for me! Everyone saw it, and it wasn't fake Yes, he came to see me..."

Scarlett lifted her footsteps and left quietly.

Thank you Bell.