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It takes at least three hours to drive directly from here to the nearest amusement park, just in time for the opening hours. Before driving the car onto the expressway, Lu Chenyun was afraid that Zhao Li would be hungry, so he went to the supermarket to buy a bunch of things and throw them away In the back seat, in addition to the normal breakfast, some snacks, there are also several cans of coffee.

"Why did you buy so much?" Zhao Li couldn't help but rest on his forehead because the back seat was full of food. He couldn't finish eating so much.

"You can eat on the return trip, and some things can be eaten on the next date." Lu Chenyun took it for granted, ignoring Zhao Li's expression of "who wants to have a next time with you", he said: "I never said that the total How many times are you going on a date?"

Zhao Li didn't retort or beat him up in protest like usual, instead he let Lu Chenyun continue to talk nonsense abnormally.

"Li Li is so obedient today, did you fall in love with me so quickly?" Lu Chenyun wanted to stretch his neck to kiss Chao Li while driving, but was slapped back to his original position.

"If you want to die, just kiss me."

"Okay, okay, I'm not messing around."

They were silent for a few seconds, Zhao Li's gaze was attracted by a few CDs that Lu Chenyun randomly threw in the storage compartment, he picked them up and flipped through them, most of them were pop music from all over the world, only one CD didn't have any mark on the surface.

"What is this? Pornography?"

"I don't have porn in my car..." Lu Chenyun glanced at it, "Ah! That's - it's nothing, that one doesn't sound good, you can pick another one."

The more strange Lu Chenyun's reaction was, the more curious Zhao Li became. Regardless of Lu Chenyun's persuasion, he directly put the CD into the stereo, and within a few seconds, smooth music overflowed from the high-end speakers.

Zhao Li was stunned for a moment. It turned out that it was an extremely elegant and melodious piano solo piece. It sounded like a piece created by amateurs, because it was not the work of any master, but it was very difficult. The piano can be played in a few years.

"... Isn't the melody good? Why stop me from playing it so good?"

Lu Chenyun looked directly at the road in front of him where traffic was gradually increasing—it was just working time.He hesitated before explaining, "I was afraid you would care."

"What do you care about?"

"Don't you like the piano very much? But your hands..."

The piano is a very delicate instrument, and it needs a pair of nimble hands to control it. However, Zhao Li was so deeply injured, even if he fully recovered, he would never be able to play difficult pieces again. This is very cruel. Lu Chenyun dared not say anything about it.

Zhao Li didn't reply, but looked at the scars on his hands, Lu Chenyun said with guilt: "I really forgot that there was piano music in the car, I didn't mean to stimulate you──"

Zhao Li smiled lightly, interrupting Lu Chenyun's words, "Why are you so nervous?"

"Can I not be nervous? Li Li, I'm not afraid of anything now, except for hurting your heart."

"I'm not that fragile. Not being able to play the piano is a good thing for me. I couldn't touch the piano a long time ago. It's better to completely lose the ability to play than to want to play but not dare to play."

For Lu Chenyun, who didn't know the inside story, this sentence was of course not easy to understand. He frowned and carefully recalled Zhao Li's flustered appearance when he suddenly stopped playing, and then he had a general idea, "It has something to do with Shaoyue again, isn't it? ? What did he do to you again?"

"It's not directly related to him..." Zhao Li's eyes turned to the window, Lu Chenyun knew that the other party would react like this whenever he was upset, "I taught Shao Yue's piano, after the accident he no longer remembered himself Knowing how to play the piano, but I occasionally have a nightmare.

"I always dreamed that he was sitting in front of the piano, playing with blood on his hands, one song after another, until the piano was full of red. From that day on, as long as I touched the piano, I would have a hand The delusion that his blood is also on the face... This is just the trauma of the suicide scene I witnessed, and it has nothing to do with him."

Zhao Li wondered what was wrong with him, it wasn't just about his childhood, he could tell Lu Chenyun all of these wounds that he never thought of confessing, "I thought it would be fine if it wasn't the same piano, that's why I was beaten that time." You bump into it, but the result is the same, I can't get over the barrier of fear."

"But..." Lu Chenyun clenched the steering wheel slightly, "Didn't you guys talk about it? Shaoyue won't do anything to hurt himself again, are you still afraid?"

"Some pains are hard to heal no matter how long it takes, so why should I torture myself? Besides, even if I overcome the past, my hands won't be able to return to the level they should be. What's there to care about?"

Zhao Li was right, but Lu Chenyun felt regretful, he really wanted to hear Zhao Li's piano sound again...

"Then what if a miracle really happened? What if your hand doesn't have any sequelae?"

Zhao Li thought to himself that he is not the kind of world-renowned musician, it doesn't matter if he can play anymore, he really doesn't know what Lu Chenyun is insisting on.

"You said the probability is not high, but one day..." Zhao Li didn't think he could get rid of that nightmare, but he didn't really want to disappoint Lu Chenyun, "Maybe I will try again."

Zhao Li saw Lu Chenyun's profile with a slight smile, and really couldn't understand why Lu Chenyun cared more about his affairs than himself.But the feeling of someone outside of his family caring about him seemed...not bad.

I don't know if it was because he stayed in the hospital for too long, so Zhao Li was still not used to the normal routine of the outside world, and fell asleep after a while. Lu Chenyun took advantage of the occasional small traffic jam while driving and peeked at him, and couldn't help showing a doting smile .

Just like Zhao Li's priority for sleeping is quietness, and he himself is also silent after he falls asleep. Apart from the usual handsomeness of his relaxed facial features, there is also an extra aura of peace and warmth, which makes Lu Chenyun more and more moved as he watches, I couldn't help kissing him several times secretly, and at the same time I was surprised that the other party wasn't woken up by me at all.

Is it completely used to his existence, or is it just too tired?

Due to a few small traffic jams on the way, it took longer than expected to arrive at the destination. Fortunately, today is not a regular holiday, otherwise Yi Zhaoli's temper must feel that the crowd is noisy and annoying, right?Lu Chenyun parked the car, went around to Chao Li's side to open the door for him and unbuckle his seat belt.

Zhao Li still didn't wake up, and his shirt was slightly messed up by the seat belt, which made the already beautiful collarbone a bit more charming. Lu Chenyun changed his mind the moment he woke him up, and leaned over to kiss him.

He stretched out his tongue to visit Zhao Li's lips, gently groping for a place that was as soft as the man's heart, which of course woke him up.I don't know if Zhao Li was insane because he just woke up, subconsciously grabbed Lu Chenyun's shoulder and started to kiss back, but his eyes still didn't open.

Lu Chenyun groaned in his mouth, Zhao Li's learning ability is too powerful, even if he hasn't touched each other for so long, it can still make his experienced self feel so comfortable that his waist is weak, let alone this person has not yet touched each other. When I woke up, I just relied on instinct to respond.

After deepening this rare kiss, Lu Chenyun reluctantly left Chao Li's lips.

Zhao Li opened his misty eyes, with a bewildered and inexplicable expression, he found that the distance between the two was awkward, and even his hands were still on Lu Chenyun's shoulders, and the latter was smiling at him, a bit like a stealing cat .

"What are you doing?" He pushed Lu Chenyun away from the car, "Are you here?"

Lu Chenyun was secretly reminiscing about the feeling just now, and didn't say much. After Zhao Li got off the car, he locked the door again. It would be stiff and uncomfortable, but it didn't seem to affect Lu Chenyun, and he still had the expression of winning the first prize in the lottery.

Zhao Li leaned against the fence near the entrance and waited for Lu Chenyun to buy the tickets by himself. Not long after he got off the bus, he noticed that many people were paying attention to them. This was why he didn't like places with many people.It might be fine if he's the only one. At most, women would pay more attention to him, but Lu Chenyun's appearance... really suits both men and women, and he doesn't want to be scanned by any man's eyes.

"What are you looking at?" Lu Chenyun handed the two tickets to the ticket collector, and found that Zhao Li was facing a certain direction with a displeased face, and there were a bunch of tourists there.

"I'm looking at the man who is looking at you." After finishing speaking, Zhao Li couldn't help being taken aback. He felt that this kind of statement was too ambiguous, not only because he was concerned, but even in a jealous tone. attention."

Lu Chenyun didn't seem to understand Zhao Li's meaning, and nodded desperately in agreement, "Li Li's face attracts attention everywhere, I think back then, I was seduced by you before I ran to strike up a conversation with you!"

"Oh, your soul was taken away by me for several months before you came to claim it?" Chao Li raised his eyebrows, who didn't know what Lu Chenyun was thinking back then?He is clearly judging whether he has the interesting value of becoming a new plaything.

"Cough, um, yes." Recalling the state of mind at that time, Lu Chenyun knew he was wrong, and tried to change the subject: "I can accompany Li Li to play whatever she wants."

"Shouldn't you ask yourself what you want to play? You're the one who suggested coming here."

"I don't know what to play..."

Although Lu Chenyun looked a little calmer than when he got off the car, Zhao Li understood how excited it was that was shining non-stop under that pretty face.

This made Zhao Li feel helpless immediately, he thought that since the purpose of coming here is to repay Lu Chenyun, he might as well do it to the end, so he said: "As long as we have time, we can go through all the facilities."

Lu Chenyun immediately cheered and agreed like a child, getting excited every time they sat. They had each played a round of thrilling rides before noon, and the reason why Zhao Li decided to play those rides first was purely to avoid the inexperienced Lu Chenyun. Accidentally got nausea, he didn't expect to have to admire the embarrassment of the other party vomiting out his lunch.

Zhao Li himself adapted well to these facilities. He remembered that when he came with Shao Yue in his childhood, his younger brother who was afraid of heights and dizziness was always crying and vomiting while playing. In contrast, Lu Chenyun was really easy to take care of.

While sitting in the restaurant waiting to order lunch, Zhao Li silently stared at Lu Chenyun's earnest appearance concentrating on the menu, thinking that this seems to be the same as having multiple younger brothers, who told them there is such a big difference in age?But he really never thought that after so many years, he would still have the opportunity to come to this kind of place with someone...and on a date.

Zhao Li smiled faintly, and as soon as Lu Chenyun looked up from the menu, he happened to see the other party's wild and seductive smile—the point was aimed at him.

"Li Li, if you laugh like this, it will probably increase the number of my love rivals."

"Then you should change your face too. Don't you know that there are many people who pay attention to you?"

The waiter who was pouring tea for them thought that these two men were totally different, and they had attracted the attention of many guests since they entered the door, but he was even more curious about the relationship between them. The sense of harmony that fits with each other──there is a huge contrast from top to bottom.

"Can I take it as you are jealous?" Lu Chenyun showed joy, and leaned towards Chao Li who was opposite, not noticing that the waiter's fingers were stiff for a second, and some tea was spilled.

Zhao Li noticed it, "I don't need to be jealous."

What he wanted to say was that they had nothing to do with each other. Is there any need to be jealous?But the waiter seemed to have misunderstood that Cheng Chaoli was making a fuss, and now the tea was spilled even more.Zhao Li was very puzzled, how come the waiters can't even pour water well?

During their lunch, they talked about a lot of topics in Lu Chenyun's fancy, and the guests talked a lot, and the waiter secretly preached the truth in the kitchen, and it ended.

Zhao Li's conclusion: "Lu Chenyun, you are really as noisy as a bird." As he said, he still has nothing to do with the other party.

In the afternoon, the itinerary was much easier. They resolved the remaining facilities one by one according to the map in the park. Lu Chenyun even refused to let go of the amusement rides for children. He was dragged away by Zhao Li to avoid embarrassment. Now only Zhao Li is left A bit repulsive Ferris wheel.

If he was in the past, he definitely wouldn't want to sit on something that was clearly misunderstood as a couple—same-sex friends always sit in a group, how could there be only two people?But when he thought of Lu Chenyun's satisfied face, he really didn't want to spoil the other party's interest and atmosphere, so he sat in silently under the curious gaze of the person who opened the door for them.

The amusement park occupies a large area. After deducting the time for walking, eating and queuing, it is just in the evening. From a place like the Ferris wheel, where other facilities cannot match the height, the scenery dyed red by the sunset is really beautiful, and it also makes people feel happy. Zhao Li stayed in the hospital for too long, and his body, which was almost mummified, relaxed a lot.

Lu Chenyun put his hands on the window, his beautiful eyes were wide open, and he stared straight at the orange-red scenery outside. This movement was very similar to Shao Yue's when he was a child. Seeing Zhao Li like this, he didn't know what to say. Sometimes he I would feel that Lu Chenyun like this... really makes people sad.

Shao Yue has been accompanied by him and his father since he was a child, but the person in front of him is always alone, but it is unbelievable that he understands the lonely Lu Chenyun to solve his family problems for him.

"Zhaoli." Lu Chenyun sat opposite him, maintaining the same posture just now, there is still some time before the highest point, he said in a low voice: "Thank you for coming here with me, I am very happy."

"...Just be happy." Zhao Li also smiled slightly, even though the other party was not looking at him.

Zhao Li thought that Lu Chenyun was really a weird man, he could treat Shao Yue so strongly in the past when he hurt him, but now he can frankly express his joy like an innocent child because of the realization of such a small dream.

"Zhao Li, I regret it."

A word came suddenly, Lu Chenyun no longer looked out the window, but faced Zhao Li, staring at the other party very seriously.

"What do you regret?" Zhao Li lazily leaned on the back of the shaking chair, not understanding what Lu Chenyun was talking about.

"I told you, I don't believe in love, and I'll never regret it." He said, his firm eyes shining in the afterglow of dusk falling through the transom, "Now I regret it."

Zhao Li's body froze, and he suddenly wanted to look away, but Lu Chenyun's affectionate tone prevented him from doing so, and he couldn't avoid everything as he used to.

God, damn it, he already knew that sitting on a ferris wheel would be no good. Even Lu Chenyun, who had never been there before, knew how to pick the best time.

"It turns out that I don't understand love because I have never loved anyone before, but I fell in love with you, Zhao Li." Lu Chenyun slowly raised a dazzling and domineering smile, "I want to monopolize you forever and never again That feeling of not letting anyone hurt you, not even myself, is love."

It took him so long to finally understand that he had long fallen in love with this man who was flamboyant yet repressive, extroverted yet restrained, fiery yet considerate, strong yet fragile, contradictory yet unforgiving.

When the Ferris wheel finally reached the highest point, it was high enough to disdain everything, so that Zhao Li almost had the illusion that only the two of them were left in this world. He stared blankly at Lu Chenyun's beautiful lips when he was talking, and his head couldn't stop. Booming and booming, no sound could be heard.

It seemed that all perception was far away from him, yet he understood the words that he thought were silent.

"Zhao Li, I love you."

Zhao Li remembered what it was like when he was confessed to for the first time. The person was his junior high school classmate, who was recognized as the most beautiful girl in the school.Reluctantly, her confession did not stir up any ripples in her heart, so he naturally rejected her in a ruthless tone, and later caused the girl to even ask for a few days off.

He also clearly remembers everyone who confessed to him in the next growth journey, there are women and occasionally men.He only flatly rejected women, but due to the concept at the time, the men who confessed to him usually did not end well.

The most profound thing about Zhao Li is of course the confession from his younger brother, and it even lasted for a full seven years. Even so, it brought only endless panic.This was the first time in his life that he was so afraid, as if the three words were tightly choked to prevent him from breathing, and completely shattered his world.

Then, Lu Chenyun also told him.

It's not liking, it's love, it's true love—a feeling that Zhao Li didn't expect to bear.

Zhao Li didn't know how he should feel normal now, it wasn't like the dead silence brought to him by other people, nor the fear and helplessness Shao Yue gave him, on the contrary he was shocked, and Lu Chenyun's confession also brought him Panicked and awkward, his heart lost its beating rhythm, but his rationality couldn't judge, what did this reaction represent?

He felt suspicious, he felt incomprehensible, he was not only confused but also nervous, why did Lu Chenyun's words bring him different results than others?Does he—does he also care about this man?Does he like the person in front of him?

Then, Zhao Li remembered Shao Zuo's words.

What is he doing?Did he forget?Even if he has a little liking for Lu Chenyun, it's too late...

Zhao Li was silent all the way, and Lu Chenyun also understood and stopped talking, until after another half an hour's drive, they came to the hotel attached to the amusement park not far away.

Lu Chenyun brought him here for no particular purpose, he just said: "It's a little late to drive back now, the poor visibility on the road is too dangerous, let's stay overnight first, and leave tomorrow."

Zhao Li followed behind him with an indifferent face, without expressing any opinion.

Lu Chenyun sighed, and said to the counter staff, "Two rooms, thank you."

As long as it's not the peak tourist season, it's not difficult to get several rooms, but Zhao Li, who was standing at the back, suddenly changed his mind: "One room is fine."

The counter staff was stunned for a moment, not knowing who to listen to, but Zhao Li was tall and handsome, and once his facial features remained indifferent, he would exude an extremely oppressive aura, which made the other party a little nervous and asked again: "Excuse me, is it one room or two rooms?" between?"

Lu Chenyun on the side was also stunned, and Zhao Li deliberately concealed his emotions so that he couldn't guess what he was thinking.

"One room." Chao Li reiterated.

After going through the registration procedures, Zhao Li took the magnetic card and walked into the elevator without looking back. Lu Chenyun had no choice but to catch up with him and asked him: "Li Li, why insist on one room? I will pay for it, you don't have to be so cheap ──」

"Shut up." Apart from that, Zhao Li didn't say a word before pushing open the door of their room.

Lu Chenyun, who was a few steps behind, always felt that Zhao Li's back looked a bit... contradictory?struggle?Tangled?He couldn't think of the proper words.

There is indeed something wrong, is it because his confession scared Zhao Li?Considering that Zhao Li has not really recovered from the pain of the past, he must have put a lot of pressure on the other party by confessing his love casually like this?But at the time he really couldn't help it...

"Zhao Li, I'm very---" Before Lu Chenyun finished apologizing, he was interrupted by Zhao Li's slamming door.

"do it."

"What?" Lu Chenyun couldn't react in time, and his hand was dragged all the way by Chao Li.He didn't dare to resist, for fear of hurting the opponent's wrist, and finally he fell on the oversized bed.

Zhao Li didn't explain anything, and just unbuttoned his shirt like in the past with a calm and calm face. His perfect figure with healthy and firm color and well-trained muscles everywhere gradually opened up under Lu Chenyun's astonished gaze.

Lu Chenyun really didn't understand why the other party's attitude was suddenly so positive?He sat on the bed speechless.

Zhao Li threw the shirt on the ground casually, knelt at the end of the bed and pressed Lu Chenyun under him, breathing hot breath into the other's ear, he said in a sexy nasal tone: "Lu Chenyun, do you want to fuck me or not?"

If you don't know how to act after hearing such words, then you can't be a man, let alone a man named Lu Chenyun.

Lu Chenyun turned back and pressed the man back to the bed, kissed him while regaining the dominance, biting Zhao Li's always stubborn mouth again and again, his movements were more rude and impatient than usual.Zhao Li stretched his arms around the back of Lu Chenyun's neck, making their breaths get closer to each other, narrowing their eyes slightly and kissing back forcefully.

The expression on Zhao Li's face is still unpredictable.

"Can I take it as you are willing to accept my meaning?" Lu Chenyun gasped, distractedly asked him: "Are you willing to be with me?"

Zhao Li kept silent and didn't reply, he tightened Lu Chenyun's neckline which was almost torn off by him, and continued their kiss.

Lu Chenyun slowly stroked Chao Li's various places while kissing, but he was extremely puzzled. First, it was impossible for Zhao Li to agree with his feelings so quickly. Second, even if he was really willing to accept him, he wouldn't be in a hurry to dedicate himself. ?This is not Zhao Li's character, even though they have done it many times, there is no time that Zhao Li is willing.

He was very worried whether his statement, like Shao Yue, had become a weapon to force Chao Li to give an extreme reaction to a certain extent.

When Lu Chenyun was hesitating whether to stretch out his hand to unbutton the other party's trousers, Zhao Li just said lightly: "Do what you want, I want you to do it."

It's really not difficult for Lu Chenyun in the past to do whatever he wants selfishly. At that time, he hadn't fallen in love with Zhao Li, but now he can no longer follow selfishness to hurt this person.

"Lu Chenyun, do it." Zhao Li grasped his hesitant hand, unable to hear his emotions, said: "I want you to fuck me, really, just do it."

Lu Chenyun still didn't move, he looked at Zhao Li's eyes that were dark and shiny even under the light, as if he gradually understood what he should know, he opened his mouth slowly: "What are you thinking, Zhao Li?"

"I was wondering if you fucking want to do it or not." Zhao Li sneered, "Why, you don't want me anymore?"

No, this is not normal, damn it is not right, this Chao Li is too abnormal.

"You think...you owe me? You think—you owe me, don't you?" Hearing these words, Zhao Li's half-naked body visibly trembled, and Lu Chenyun gasped, his tone slightly angry: "What is this? You plan to use your body as a reward for my confession? As the price you think you owe me? Then we write it off?"

Zhao Li wanted to refute that he didn't, he really didn't think so, he didn't intend to use this kind of thing to compensate for anything, Lu Chenyun's feelings for him were not such cheap things, he knew it...but he couldn't open his mouth, He just didn't know how to satisfy Lu Chenyun, and he didn't know how to deal with the disordered emotions in his heart. He couldn't figure out his true feelings, let alone how to express them. At the last moment, he just Can──

He pushed Lu Chenyun away and sat up, his emotions finally returned to his face, Zhao Li yelled at the person pushed to the ground by him: "So what? I don't know what to do!"

"I don't know? Then how can you believe that I will be happy because of this?" Lu Chenyun stood up, grabbed Zhao Li's arms, and found that the muscles surrounding his hands were trembling faintly, "You really don't know how much I wish for you Are you doing this while you also like me?"

"Of course I don't know! Didn't you like messing with me before? Why did I take the initiative to do it but made you unhappy?" Zhao Li wanted to slap him away, but felt powerless, so he could only let Lu Chenyun grab him , "I owe you so much, what's wrong with paying you back?"

"Zhaoli, I'm not Shaoyue!" Lu Chenyun raised Zhaoli's chin, "Recognize clearly, I'm not him! You don't owe me anything, love is not as simple as owed and returned, what I want is not your self-sacrifice, but It is the love that understands me!"

Which link went wrong?Lu Chenyun really doesn't understand, didn't he try his best to let Chao Li get rid of the guilt towards Shao Yue?Why does Zhao Li persist in this compensatory mentality?

"Lu Chenyun, don't you understand? I've never loved anyone, I've always been the one to be loved." Zhao Li's eyes were full of confusion, "I don't know how to love someone better than you. I don't know how to love someone." Responding is the right way."

What is correct?Is there a so-called right and wrong in love?Is love necessary to think so much?This is instinct, it's just a natural reaction, the feelings that can be felt immediately when it happens, just like he has towards Zhao Li.

"Why are you always worried that you won't be able to get something in return? Zhao Li, don't be so gentle, okay? Love is not something you have to worry about that you can't repay." Lu Chenyun smiled wryly, and his tone became gentle: "It's not that you don't know what to do. Lover, but you haven't found out if you've fallen in love with someone yet."

Because, he also realized the fact that he fell in love with Zhao Li in an instant. They were really similar, but he discovered it earlier.

Lu Chenyun was sure that Zhao Li cared about him, otherwise he wouldn't be so stupid, trying to compensate him in this way, and he wouldn't show such a rare uneasy expression, this man just didn't know what to do...or he didn't dare .

Lu Chenyun touched Zhao Li's cheek, and said: "You just need to ask your own heart what to do, it's not difficult, we also have plenty of time to take it slowly──"

"I'm running out of time." Zhao Li interrupted him: "I'm leaving, so you don't mind?"

Is it okay to not get what you deserve until the end?After doing so many things for him, as long as he leaves, it will be nothing. Is it okay to end like this?

"You... you want to go? Where are you going?"

Chao Li Yiyi sighed, "My father wants me to go to England with Shaoyue. There is a therapist I know who is sure to cure him."

Lu Chenyun really wanted to ask him, could the domestic therapists be worse?I also remembered the serious expressions on both sides when Shao Zuo and Chao Li talked earlier, presumably Shao Zuo had already made up his mind, but he just waited for Chao Li's permission, and this man who did what he said nodded his head at that time, and the Shao family made a decision How can outsiders intervene to prevent things?

No wonder, when he mentioned the next date in the car, Zhao Li's reaction would be so quiet, and he didn't care about his word games at all.

"I won't come back again, Lu Chenyun."

It turned out that Zhao Li was so determined to have sex with him because there would be no next chance.

It's a way of saying goodbye, not quite making it up.

"England is not far away, I can find you anytime I want."

"Everything you have is here, your friends, your career, even if you can let go of these for a while, what's the point? Are you going back and forth to maintain a relationship that hasn't even established yet?" Chao Li caught He picked up his shirt and put it on, anyway, he doesn't need to be naked now, "You might as well... find someone who can accompany you for a long time."

As soon as this sentence was said, Zhao Li felt a burst of pain, God, he really cared about Lu Chenyun, and he didn't understand it until he was about to separate, isn't it very sad?

"Is there a need to be so pessimistic?" Lu Chenyun smiled bitterly, "Wouldn't it be nice for you to come back when Shao Yue's condition stabilizes?"

"You've seen him freak out too, and tell me, how long do you think it's going to take for him to start getting better?"

In terms of Lu Chenyun's feelings, he would say that it would take at least two or three years, which is considered a condition for a miracle to occur. A person who has been crazy for many years will not be cured easily.

Understanding the other party's hesitant expression, Zhao Li asked him: "Are you going to spend so long waiting for me? What if I still can't accept you? It's like I'm playing tricks on you and wasting your life."

"I don't think so." He really didn't know how long his feelings for Zhao Li could last, but he definitely wouldn't hold Chao Li responsible for it.

"You won't, I will." Zhao Li slowly buttoned up the buttons, "I can't leave my family behind, if Shao Yue's illness can't be cured, I won't come back, Lu Chenyun, wake up, I'm not suitable for you people."

He cared about Lu Chenyun, but he couldn't drag this person down.

"What if he really gets better?" Another hypothetical question.

"Wait until then..." Zhao Li paused, this time, he could only disappoint the other party, "There must be a better person by your side."

It turns out that a person like him who is used to speaking against his will is still not immune to the lies he told, and his stomach suddenly became tangled, which made him very uncomfortable.

Lu Chenyun remained silent, he wanted to speak up and try to keep the other party, and wanted to tell Zhao Li that he would not give up this relationship so simply.Finally, Zhao Li's existence made him understand what love is, so how could he completely abandon all of this just because the two places are separated?He absolutely didn't want to let it go.

"Zhao Li, I will wait for you, I only want you now."

"Don't wait for me, I may not—"

Lu Chenyun interrupted him with a smile, using the way he was good at comforting, "I know, whether you like me or not, I just want to wait for you, come back to me after Shao has made an appointment, maybe you knew better at that time own true feelings."

He pulled Chao Li to give him an affectionate kiss, but Zhao Li didn't refuse, so he regarded the other party as tacitly agreeing to the agreement.

──Zhao Li, one day you will definitely feel the joy of being deeply loved by someone. I hope that the person who will bring you this feeling will be me.