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Lu Chenyun drove back to Shao's house. Before getting out of the car, he practiced in front of the car mirror, trying to make his expression serious and slightly sad. Fortunately, his ruthless parents made his face suitable for acting.

He closed the door when he came back to burn the photos earlier, but now he opened it again. Could it be that Shao Yue still had the sense to know that he didn't have a key and opened the door for him?As soon as he entered, he saw Shao Yue facing the living room door and sitting on the place where Chao Li had lost blood, his fingers were stroking the blood-stained carpet fibers from time to time, and he was still holding on to his mobile phone.

Lu Chenyun didn't know how long this person had been sitting there, but felt that Shao Yue seemed to have lost weight since the last time we met, and his complexion looked even worse than that of Zhao Li who was lying on the hospital bed.

"Brother didn't come?" Shao Yue didn't raise his head, he just communicated with the carpet face to face, but this question was of course for Lu Chenyun.

Lu Chenyun replied with a hoarse voice that was deliberately disguised: "I don't know who you are asking."

"Of course it's Brother Li, why didn't he come? Is he still mad at me?" Shao Yue blinked his dry eyes that had been left blank for too long, "I hurt him and made him angry, so he doesn't like me What? He doesn't want me anymore?"

"... Shaoyue, Zhao Li is dead." Lu Chenyun said to him with a sad face, "You cut so deeply, he died not long after I sent him to the hospital."

Shao Yue no longer cared about stroking the bloodstains, he stood up slowly with a confused face, walked towards Lu Chenyun unsteadily, and asked timidly: "What are you talking about? Didn't you save him? You saved him , he won’t die, right?”

Lu Chenyun stared at the face that he had spent a lot of time with in the past, but now it felt so strange to him that it was almost unrecognizable, what a sad man.

"I didn't have time, Zhao Li died, and I couldn't save him." Lu Chenyun's expression was so grief-stricken that even he almost mistook what he said was true, "Shaoyue, your brother died, your only brother You have died as you wished."

"You lie!" Shao Yue shouted suddenly, and rushed forward to grab Lu Chenyun's front. The latter instinctively wanted to subdue him to the ground, but stopped temporarily and let the other party go crazy, "You lied to me! He won't die, He said he would stay with me forever! Why did you lie to me!"

These words made Lu Chenyun wave away Shao Yue's hand with an angry face, "You don't want him to die, why did you treat him like this! Do you know that Zhao Li was begging you to forgive him before he died!"

Shao Yue was trembling all over, shaking his head desperately, unable to refute. He didn't know if he was expressing his disbelief, or he was simply terrified, and his sleep-deprived eye sockets became even redder.

Both of them were breathing heavily, Shao Yue said softly but impatiently: "Lu Chenyun, you return him to me, I don't want to make a deal with you, you return my brother to me──"

"He's dead! Don't you understand? Do you think you're pitiful? You're so pitiful that you can't get Zhao Li's love, so you have to use your own death to injure him before you're willing?" Lu Chenyun spoke nonsense. Shao Yue roared angrily: "You forced Zhao Li to let you treat him like this! How much did your fucking self-righteous love hurt him? It made him feel guilty until he died!

"Shao Yue, do you know how much pain and despair Zhao Li died with? Because of your cruelty!"

Lu Chenyun knew that what he said was a bit too serious, no matter how you say it, Shaoyue is just a lunatic now, he may not understand how many things he did wrong in the past, and Zhao Li is indeed not without faults at all, their brothers all choose to be in love Escape from the self, and finally force themselves to go to different paths of desperation.

"I don't understand... I don't understand! He said he can't love me, I'm just tired, I just can't bear it anymore..." Shaoyue muttered, staring at his hands, "No I really can't live with his love, that's why I, I committed suicide... But why is he gone while I'm still here?"

This sounds like the truth. Shaoyue may have planned to die to escape, but he did not expect that he would survive, and even become a hopeless lunatic, not to mention that he would cause Chao Li’s trauma── When Lu Chenyun thought about it, the original resentment against Shao Yue in his heart finally faded a little. Who can really blame a person who just wants to stop hurting and give up his life?

"Zhao Li will let you treat him like this, the main reason is that he feels that you hate him, which makes him very painful, and he can't bear it at all. You should know that he actually loves you, but this love belongs to family, Shao Yue , some feelings cannot be forced.”

"I never hated him..." Shaoyue's tears slowly fell drop by drop, his pale face turned red instantly, "I didn't—I didn't really hate him! Why? Why can't I control myself? ... Lu Chenyun, tell me, I don't want to kill him, but why is he still dead? I... I will trade with him, can I trade with him? I just want him to come back..."

"You don't hate him?"

Shao Yue shook his head desperately, "I don't hate him!"

Lu Chenyun nodded, and asked again in a serious tone: "If you were given another chance, would you still hurt him?"

Shao Yue shook his head even harder, crying like a five-year-old child, Lu Chenyun was also a little soft-hearted, thinking that human beings are really tragic creatures by nature, and only after they are completely lost will they regret and understand what it means to cherish.

Fortunately, there was still time to save this misfortune.

As soon as he changed his previous sad expression, before Shao Yue realized it, he suddenly shot him unconscious, caught the opponent's limp body, and Lu Chenyun took out his mobile phone and turned off the recording.

──Is this always going to help you out of the shadows?Zhao Li, that's all I can do, the rest is up to you to be brave enough to overcome.

Hearing from the doctor that Chao Li's body temperature was still rising and falling, Lu Chenyun was terribly worried, but he himself didn't care. When Lu Chenyun returned to the ward, he hurriedly got up and asked, "Do you have any news about Shao Yue?"

"Hey! Do you still want your hand?" Seeing Zhao Li put his hands on the edge of the bed to exert strength, Lu Chenyun was so frightened that he rushed over to help him, "How can you be such a big man who doesn't know how to take care of yourself! "

These words sound a bit funny, because not long ago he was the one who was more naive and worried about the future. Lu Chenyun knew that it was Zhao Li who appeared in his life and gradually changed himself.

"I'm fine." The wound didn't hurt as much as before, but now it was even more uncomfortable with a fever, "Did you find him?"

"I found it." Lu Chenyun settled Chao Li, and took out a meal that was suitable for patients from the chef he had just walked around to the restaurant. You eat first, and I'll tell you later."

"Tell me first." Chao Li frowned, insisting.

"He's fine and completely fine at the moment, but if you don't eat, you don't want to know the answer." Lu Chenyun shook the spoon, took a bite out of the open take-out box, and approached Zhao Li's lips, "You choose yourself."

Zhao Li glared angrily, and bit on the spoon as if he had a deep hatred with the spoon. He didn't mind being fed in such an embarrassing way. First, it was a fact that his hands were useless and he couldn't take care of himself. Second, Lu Chenyun had already played this trick the night he woke up. Besides, the nurses always treat him like this. In comparison, it would be better to let Lu Chenyun help.

One mouthful after another like this, Lu Chenyun admired that even if the man was sitting on the hospital bed eating, he could still eat as elegantly as he was in the restaurant at that time. I can't put it down, I really want to go on like this forever...

"You were seriously injured and hospitalized this time, why didn't you make a fuss?"

Slowly swallowing a mouthful, Zhao Li asked back: "What kind of trouble do you want to cause?"

"You are Shao Zuo's son, right? There must be some rumors about it──Although I think it's because I concealed it for you, don't the media these days hate it? Even the hospital has reporters stationed there, why don't you have sharp eyes? people recognize you?"

Anyway, the adopted son of a dignified international CEO was seriously injured and hospitalized!Lu Chenyun thought to himself, if it was known that the murderer was Shao Zuo's own son, this inside story alone might be published in a book.

"No one knows that I am his son. Even the only person who knows Shaoyue's identity is my dad's secretary. If you have counted the number of cases where rich people's children were kidnapped and torn apart, you will know why my dad did this. Keep a low profile."

Zhao Li didn't know much about Shao Zuo's previous wealth and background, but he heard that Shao Zuo was also an orphan, so it can be said that he had no relatives, so it was easier to cover up their relationship to the outside world, not to mention which reporter nowadays would chase entrepreneurs instead of Go after an artist who is good at digging gossip?I think should not be.

"No wonder you live in that kind of street with seven turns and eight turns." If he hadn't sent a letter once, it might have been too late to save Chao Li at that time, and he might have gone crazy just looking for the way, so should he thank Shao Yue? ?

"That's not true, we've moved."

"Um?"

"Before I left the orphanage..." Zhao Li hesitated, he didn't know whether he should mention this kind of thing to the other party, "I was abused by the staff inside for a while."

These words obviously haven't finished yet, but Lu Chenyun just stared at him quietly without any reaction, but his eyes were full of tenderness that could tolerate everything.Facing the current Lu Chenyun, Zhao Li felt that it was okay to say it, even though he had never told anyone about his past.

"After they tortured me, they would throw me into a birdcage... well, the kind of large birdcage that keeps pigeons, there are many birds that are there." Zhao Li smiled, "It's a trivial matter , but I was still young at the time, probably because of staying in it for a long time, I left a shadow, I hate the sound of birds, and I also hate those adults who pass by the bird cage but refuse to save them.”

Having said that, Lu Chenyun remembered that Zhao Li also said before that he could not sleep well due to the sound of birds, so it was not because of his nervousness, but because he was forced to be locked up with birds like animals every night in the past.

Even an adult would probably not be able to bear it, let alone Zhao Li who was still young back then?Lu Chenyun's heart twitched, but he didn't interrupt the other party.

"My dad... didn't ask anything, but he found that I had an aversion to birds and strange people, so he took us to move. The place where I live will not have much contact with the neighbors, and there are almost no sparrows and the like Birds. I’ll be fine after a year or two, now I only think birds are noisy, but I don’t really think about those days.”

After Zhao Li finished speaking, he paused for a few seconds and suddenly showed an expression of "I see," "No wonder I hated you at first, Lu Chenyun, you are no different from a bird."

"Ah?" Hearing the word hate, Lu Chenyun's concentrated face immediately collapsed.

"You are very noisy, you always say what you want to say, do what you want to do, self-willed and arrogant." Seeing Lu Chenyun getting more and more sad by what he said, the corners of Zhao Li's mouth rose more obviously, "But, you are free You are free and unburdened, usually childish and cheeky, but when something really happens, you are reliable, you won’t worry too much like me, and end up losing more… This is your strength.”

"Wow! Li Li, this is the first time I've heard you praise me!" Lu Chenyun wanted to rush forward to express his joy, but considering Zhao Li's injury, he reluctantly gave up the idea, "Then I have a curious question, can I ask it? "

"Ask, you already know almost everything about me, what else can't you ask?"

"I want to ask about the rumors about your murder. It should be related to Shaoyue, right?"

Zhao Li didn't deny it, and didn't show any displeasure. He just explained lightly: "Isn't the definition of 'rumor' exactly like this? Many people can come to such conclusions by spreading rumors based on a pool of blood and an ambulance, but According to Shaoyo's later situation, this rumor can be considered a coincidence and accurate."

Lu Chenyun naturally disagreed with the latter part of the sentence, it was not Chao Li's responsibility, "You don't mind? Guan Yan said that you had many supporters in the past, isn't it sad to be rumored like this?"

"I've always only cared about my family's thoughts. They are free to spread rumors however they want."

The scenery back then was nothing, but only a temporary place for Zhao Li to vent and escape. It is true that he would occasionally want to play fighting again, but the bad memories there gave him were too deep.

Lu Chenyun nodded, and when he got the answer, he was very quiet for a few seconds. He passed the spoon again, and at the same time said slowly: "Shaoyue is in the ward next to yours." Of course, he asked the hospital to arrange it.

ah?Zhao Li was so surprised that he subconsciously clenched the spoon in his mouth. Lu Chenyun couldn't pull it out for a while, so he hurriedly said: "Hey, why are you biting so hard? Don't hurt your teeth!"

"What - what did you say? Why is he in the hospital? Didn't you say he's fine?"

Lu Chenyun pressed Zhao Li's shoulder, "He has been waiting for you at home, maybe he hasn't eaten since you were hospitalized, it's just some malnutrition, don't be too nervous."

"Then let me go see him first." Zhao Li said while trying to get out of bed.

"Zhaoli." Lu Chenyun pressed the man back on the bed, feeling jealous in his heart, but he knew that there were more important things to do first, "Before you go, there is something I must let you hear."

Regardless of Zhao Li's impatient face, Lu Chenyun took out his mobile phone, first connected the earphones, then put them in the other party's ears, and directly released the previously recorded conversation.

Every time Zhao Li heard a sentence, his face turned pale. He was reluctant to let go of his younger brother's mental state, and he was also angry that Lu Chenyun made a claim to deceive Shao Yue without his consent. However, his emotions were more excited, willful and unscrupulous. ──It was completely Lu Chenyun's approach, but it helped him hear his brother's true voice.

"Do you understand? Shaoyue doesn't hate you, you don't need to be heartbroken anymore." Lu Chenyun rubbed Zhao Li's head, acting as if he was comforting a child, "You can still blame yourself and feel guilty, but now Shaoyo needs your support more to help him heal.”

These things started more than three years ago. As long as Zhao Li really wanted to do it, he would definitely be able to do it. He just avoided Shao Yue, who was used to him. What happened was a counterproductive way of sacrifice in disguise. In the end, both of them fell into the abyss of unbearable pain. In the final analysis, connivance is a kind of injury.

Zhao Li never thought that Lu Chenyun could do better than him, let alone from the standpoint of an outsider.

Covering his eyes──God knows how difficult this action alone is, Zhao Li sighed and said: "Lu Chenyun, you really like to mess around, what can I say?"

"You can say thank you."

Lu Chenyun gently pulled Zhao Li's hand away, and unexpectedly saw a pair of dark pupils that were a little wet, soaked in moisture and shining like stars in the dark night, he couldn't help kissing him.

Zhao Li didn't refuse the kiss, he responded shallowly, not trying to express his gratitude, but... He thought this feeling was good, although he didn't understand why.

Lu Chenyun didn't go into Shaoyue's ward with Chao Li, the brothers should spend time alone and confide to each other the feelings they haven't said for many years.

When Shao Yue was crying and Zhao Li comforted his younger brother with an extremely gentle attitude, Lu Chenyun stood outside with only a door panel. This kind of embarrassment, which was almost like eavesdropping, forced him to walk slowly to the talking area and call Guan Yan, he briefly mentioned the experience of the past few days to Guan Yan, and asked Guan Yan to be responsible for picking him up at the airport after Shao Zuo came back.

Lu Chenyun was still worried about Chaoli and Shaoyue, he didn't dare to leave the hospital at will.

He knows that it is not enough to just solve the problem of brothers. Shao Zuo has the right to understand what a father should know. The Shao family is the foundation of Chao Li's growth and the foundation of Chao Li's personality. Concealment from any party will only gradually wear away The heart of this man.

When helping Zhao Li take a bath before going to bed, Lu Chenyun finally breathed a sigh of relief, noticing that the other person's insanely high body temperature had finally dropped. He didn't express any opinion on Lu Chenyun's rough hands and feet.

A few days later, Guan Yan brought Shao Zuo to meet them as agreed, but he himself only asked Lu Chenyun to say hello to Chao Li on his behalf, and left in a hurry because his credit agency had a very troublesome visit recently. man.Lu Chenyun saw that his complexion was really bad, and he kept looking at the parking place frequently, not knowing what he was worried about, so he didn't ask him to stay.

Knowing what Shao Yue thought about Chao Li, and what he was forced to do in the end, Shao Zuo didn't open his mouth to scold his youngest son--the result has been done, and the blame is meaningless, but he is suffering from It was too late for him to realize that, he hugged Zhao Li, and he blamed himself so much that he almost broke down in tears. Such a simple movement clearly expressed the true feelings of a father.

They are his beloved children, and he has always given equal weight to the two sons.

Shao Zuo was also very grateful to Lu Chenyun, "Thanks to your help, the Shao family will always owe you this favor, thank you."

"Uncle Shao, you don't have to be polite, I just do my best." Lu Chenyun replied politely, but what he thought was that he really wanted to thank him, so he might as well ask Zhao Li to agree with him.

Of course, he didn't dare to say such inappropriate words in person.

Shao Zuo knew that compared to Chao Li, Shao Yue's psychological problems were the real main cause, so after he calmed down, he went back to the next ward with Shao Yue, probably because he wanted to have a good chat.

As soon as they left, Lu Chenyun shamelessly occupied half of Chao Li's hospital bed, "I'm so surprised, your father seems to be an extremely traditional person, and he doesn't care about his son's sexuality."

"I always thought that such an abnormal thing would definitely disappoint him." Maybe it's because the love for his son transcends moral norms?

Zhao Li's tone was flat and did not contain any meaning of criticism, but it still made Lu Chenyun frowned quietly, and asked with a look of mind: "Do you think homosexuality is abnormal?"

"That's right. No matter what I think, it's really against the views of most people, isn't it? If this incident happened in other families, I'm afraid it won't have such a peaceful ending."

"Then what do you think?" Of course Lu Chenyun agreed with what Zhao Li said, but the key still lies in this man.

"It is abnormal, but being abnormal is not necessarily bad. It is a good thing to have the courage to live out yourself."

Lu Chenyun was quite satisfied with the answer, "As far as you were a normal person in the past, your thinking has improved a lot."

"Am I not a normal person now?" Zhao Li asked with a question mark on his face.

"Your body has been developed by me. It's not assimilation, at least it's evolution. Of course, it's not a normal person."

From normal to abnormal?Glancing at Li Bai, I really don't understand why this person always speaks wrong things?

"You'd better not be naive, I can teach you a lesson even if I don't use my hands, Lu Chenyun." Facing such a thick-skinned guy, Zhao Li couldn't help but give him a hard time.

"I just need to restrain myself." Lu Chenyun raised his hands in surrender, and said with a smile: "Zhao Li, you are very lucky."

"Um?"

"Shaoyue's problem is indeed not small, but it's really good that you have such a sensible father..."

"Your parents..." Hearing that Lu Chenyun brought up family issues again, Zhao Li's heart softened again, "They rarely spend time with you?"

"Would you believe me if I said that I haven't seen each other for many years?" Lu Chenyun smiled, with a calm attitude, "If it weren't for the occasional remittances to prove that they are still there, I really wonder if I am an orphan."

"So you lived alone for a long time?"

"Yeah, I never expected them to use money to open bars and galleries as adults, and now they can live freely." These words vaguely revealed that the romantic past was just his way to resolve loneliness.

Zhao Li regretted that he had never met his parents, but he couldn't imagine how Lu Chenyun spent his childhood in loneliness, which made him feel sad. Lu Chenyun's words were right, he was so happy to have a father like Shao Zuo .

Not wanting Lu Chenyun to get entangled in this topic, Zhao Li changed the direction a little and said, "Opening a bar is really suitable for you, and it is convenient for you to hunt for sex." He ignored Lu Chenyun's rebuttal at this time, "But the gallery? It's really exciting It’s unimaginable that this has nothing to do with how you make people feel.”

"My gallery is near the previous restaurant, come with me next time? I will prove that I am very talented in art." After Lu Chenyun said, he took the opportunity to kiss Zhao Li's ear.

Zhao Li forbade Lu Chenyun to touch his ears most of the time, so he instinctively hit the opponent's abdomen with an elbow.

"With this kind of attack power, the day of discharge from the hospital is definitely not far away." Lu Chenyun's handsome face was almost contorted in pain, "Don't forget our agreement, you will go on a date with me as soon as you are discharged from the hospital."

"The so-called date should go with someone who suits you, right? For example, a petite and sweet woman..." I don't know why, imagining the scene of Lu Chenyun dating a certain woman, he was a little disgusted, "Oh, I forgot that you like If it’s a man, then you should pick someone who is more obedient, I really don’t know why you insist on me accompanying you.” Man?Something is still wrong.

"Li Li, what are you talking about? Of course dating is about finding someone you like. I like you, so of course I want to date you, don't you?"

Hearing the word liking in Lu Chenyun's mouth again, Zhao Li's reaction was much calmer than before, and he seemed to be able to get used to it gradually...

"I can't tell you, if you want to go, let's go."

Time passed quickly, Zhao Li was discharged from the hospital about a month later, but Shao Zuo still chose to let Shao Yue stay in the hospital temporarily, because during this time he still had seizures and normal.

On the other hand, Lu Chenyun is in a particularly good mood today, and the reason is naturally his date with Zhao Li.

Zhao Li's wounds are recovering well, but he still can't mention anything too serious. His attending physician first congratulated him on his discharge, but his eyes were fixed on Lu Chenyun.

"Mr. Lu, welcome to come often when you are free."

Lu Chenyun lowered his beautiful facial features, thinking that whoever would come to the hospital without incident, "Thank you, but there's no need."

He originally thought that this middle-aged man was interested in Chao Li's ass, otherwise why would he just go to the ward when he is free?But then he was so frightened by Chao Li's faint words, "The person he is interested in is you, you are dull", that he almost wanted to transfer Chao Li to another hospital.

In the past, Lu Chenyun would not have such a strong rejection reaction, after all, there are always many people who like him, but now he does not want to be misunderstood by Zhao Li for any unnecessary things-even though the other party doesn't seem to care much.

Apparently Zhao Li is very sensitive to emotions other than his own. Maybe this is the saying that a bystander can tell, right?

Of course Zhao Li would not confess to Shao Zuo where he wanted to go with Lu Chenyun, he only mentioned that he planned to help Lu Chenyun with a little matter, but Lu Chenyun, who was packing for Zhao Li and was about to ask him to get in the car, found that their father and son were still talking, He wouldn't be rude enough to eavesdrop, and the distance was too far, from his angle he could only see the silhouettes of the two of them.

He happened to notice that Shao Zuo had a serious face, while Zhao Li...was a little serious at first, but after a while he nodded calmly, as if agreeing to something.

Hey, I hope it won't be troublesome again, Lu Chenyun couldn't help frowning because of the uneasiness that emerged.

"Let's go." Zhao Li walked towards him with the same expression as usual.

Seeing Zhao Li's expression on making a decision, Lu Chenyun asked: "What happened to you and your father?"

At first, he relied on intuition to understand Zhao Li, but after a full month of getting along, he can be said to be very familiar with Zhao Li's subtle emotional changes, unless the other party deliberately conceals it, such as now.

"It's nothing, have you decided where you want to go? When you're done, let's go." Zhao Li didn't want to waste time, took the passenger seat by himself, and threw Lu Chenyun out of the car who hadn't answered yet.

Zhao Li was rarely a passenger, which made him a little uncomfortable. Although he wanted to let him control the car, but with his hands that have not fully recovered, it would be bad if he drove the car over.

"You can go wherever you really want?" Lu Chenyun took the initiative to fasten Chao Li's seat belt—he tried to avoid Chao Li from using his wrist force, with pure joy on his face, "Is there any place you don't want to go?"

"I can do it, I haven't dated anyone before." Zhao Li's eyes stopped on Lu Chenyun's happy face, thinking that he is really like a child, innocent and simple, "Don't tell me that you want to go to any amusement park and just good."

It is true that he has no dating experience, but he still has a lot of experience in movies. When couples meet in an amusement park, they will definitely ride a Ferris wheel, and then they will confess their love at the highest point, kiss, and maybe even propose marriage. He will watch this kind of drama a lot Tired.

Lu Chenyun didn't answer, but when he fastened his seat belt, his fair skin turned red.

"...Do you really want to go?" Zhao Li was taken aback, and immediately didn't know what to comment.

He also understands that the "date" that Lu Chenyun often does is to sleep with someone, and he probably doesn't have much idea about the places to go, but the amusement park?no?

"I, I didn't say I wanted to go." Xiaoxiao retorted in a low voice, and her usual cheekiness disappeared at this moment.

Zhao Li sighed, and asked softly, "Why do you want to go there?"

Lu Chenyun's reaction was too different from usual, which made him want to find out the reason.

"I've never been there." Lu Chenyun smiled awkwardly, "You also know that the relationship between my family members is not good, there is no such opportunity."

Perhaps this is the price the rich must sacrifice?It is obviously a place where ordinary families would go together, but he could only secretly dream about it in his childhood, and had no chance to realize it.

Lu Chenyun's forced smile made Chao Li a little unhappy, and a feeling of anxiety lingered, he didn't like the person who always played a scoundrel suddenly turned into the appearance in front of him──Lonely?Yes, that is the loneliness that sometimes comes over this man.

"Li Li, you can choose a place." Lu Chenyun started the car and resumed his smiling attitude, as long as he is with Zhao Li, it doesn't matter where he goes.

"let's go."

"Where are you going?"

"Go to the amusement park. I haven't been there anyway." This is a lie. When he was a child, Shao Zuo would take advantage of non-holidays when there were few people. Home.

Of course Lu Chenyun saw through Zhao Li's lies, his eyes sparkled and he said with a smile: "Li Li, you are so gentle."

"...Shut up and drive your car."