forced to sink

The attending physician who was in charge of rescuing Chao Li asked Lu Chenyun if he should ask the police to investigate this matter.

"The wound is so deep that it is almost intended to break a bone. No matter how determined a person is, he will not be able to cut this kind of wound." The middle-aged doctor pushed the glasses on his face and said, "This involves homicide. I think it is necessary. report."

Lu Chenyun didn't know if anyone regarded him as a suspect, but if he confessed and reported Shao Yue's name, Zhao Li would probably be mad at him when he woke up.All of this was voluntary by Zhao Li, how to deal with it will be discussed after someone wakes up, so he tried his best to suppress it.

Although, the doctor's words made him very angry, he really wanted to find Shao Yue himself and kill him, this was the first time in his life that he felt such excitement.

In the single ward, only doctors and nurses came and went. Zhao Li, who had finally stabilized, had been lying on the bed for two days and hadn't woken up yet. Lu Chenyun stayed here to take care of him from morning till night.

The only time he left during the period was after he was sure that Zhao Li was fine, he returned to Shao's house and burned all those photos in one fell swoop to avoid future troubles. At that time, Shao Yue's whereabouts were still unknown.

After finishing the chores, Lu Chenyun didn't go anywhere, and he didn't plan to find someone to inform Shao Zuo, he didn't have the extra strength to make decisions without authorization, as long as Zhao Li can wake up safely, many things can be discussed later.

He stretched out his hand to touch Zhao Li's cheek, and after the blood transfusion, his face almost returned to its usual rosy level, but it was still a little weak. Lu Chenyun recalled the handsome face that was no different from the white sheet during the first aid, which really made him terrified.

Fortunately, the warmth he felt in his hands now allowed him to relax the stiffness caused by sleeping on the sofa that was too small for him next to the hospital bed for days.

"Wake up quickly, I have something to tell you, Zhao Li." Muttering, Lu Chenyun kissed the unconscious man, he thought, this is the benefit of the single room, right?Let him do whatever he wants.

Maybe Zhao Li's physical fitness is really good. The person who was rescued just before he died was able to wake up in the early morning of the third day. Lu Chenyun originally thought that according to the blood loss of the other party, he should be in a coma for a few more days.

When Zhao Li woke up, before he had time to speak, Lu Chenyun, who was flipping through magazines to pass the time, threw himself in front of him with a surprised and joyful expression.

"Are you okay? Is there anything wrong?"

Zhao Li stared at Lu Chenyun without blinking, his eyes were full of confusion, his memory was still before coma, which made him unable to understand the current situation for a while, when he was about to ask, he found his throat was dry and sore, so he had to go first Try swallowing the meager amount of saliva.

Noticing Zhao Li's reaction, Lu Chenyun raised the hospital bed, poured a cup of warm water from the coffee table and handed it to him. Zhao Li instinctively wanted to reach out to take it, but the severe pain from his wrist made him unable to raise his hand even a little bit. , he didn't say anything, just looked at his hands with a flat face.

The wound was wrapped in layers of thick bandages, and there was nothing but white, only the surrounding muscles were trembling with pain.

Lu Chenyun first cursed himself as a slow idiot, how could he not have thought that Zhao Li couldn't use his hands at all?He held the other person's shoulder and said, "Come on, let me help you."

He thought to himself, if a gender twisted Chao Li dared to reject him at this time, he would definitely get angry.

But Zhao Li didn't express his opinion in particular, he just slowly drank Lu Chenyun's kindness from the cup, and finally felt his throat feel better before asking him: "I didn't call you, why did you...?"

When Lu Chenyun heard this, his expression changed immediately, "How dare you say that? You told me why you didn't call? If I hadn't happened to come over to look for you, you would be dead!" The tone was extremely bad, and he Put down the glass heavily.

"Since you want to die, why call you?"

Here it is again, this expression of pretending to be okay, the man's answer that is obviously not true makes Lu Chenyun even more angry, "Zhao Li, don't always lie to me, you know that lying in front of me is useless."

Zhao Li was taken aback for a moment, but this time he didn't make any excuses, but sighed lightly: "I've thought about it."

He really wanted to call Lu Chenyun at that time, but under the threat of death, the first person he thought of was this guy, no matter what he would not tell the other party, it was too inexplicable.

"Then why did you change your mind later?"

"I don't know, maybe it's because Shao Yue also committed suicide by cutting his wrists a few years ago. I...it's scary, there's blood all over the place, I often have this nightmare." It sounded a bit out of place, Zhao Li added more Explain: "I don't want anyone to have the same experience as me, it will make people never forget the situation."

Therefore, even if he really thought about calling the other party, he would never dial.

Put aside the question of why Shao Yue committed suicide first, Lu Chenyun can understand Zhao Li's pain at that time, Shao Yue is Chao Li's closest family member, so it is certain that he will leave a shadow, but he doesn't understand why he should worry about him Kind of people?He is the one who intimidates Zhao Li, so it should be reasonable to make him have more nightmares, right?

"Even for me, you think so?" If so, Zhao Li is really fucking gentle in nature.

"Is there an exception for you?" Zhao Li really replied: "Suicide is my choice, there is no need to drag people into trouble."

"Do you still dare to call it suicide?" Lu Chenyun's face darkened instantly, he was very angry, "I don't understand, why did you let Shao Yue treat you like this? Bar?"

Seeing that Zhao Li didn't respond, Lu Chenyun breathed out angrily, and said, "Also, Guan Yan has checked, and Shao Yue doesn't have any other brothers at all. You'd better explain it to me this time, and don't think about sending me away again." .”

Zhao Li smiled wryly, Lu Chenyun had already saved his life, how could he not say it?

"Shaoyue...he used to like me for seven years but was cruelly rejected by me again and again. Then he became a little abnormal. He insisted on having an older brother, and I killed that person..."

Lu Chenyun quickly figured it out, "So, you just said that he committed suicide because—"

Zhao Li showed a painful expression, Lu Chenyun stopped emphasizing those two words, and asked instead: "So, he gave the pain of those seven years to an illusory person, so that he can live? Isn't it your responsibility?"

In any case, it was too much for Shaoyue to attempt suicide first and then kill him for this reason.

"Of course it's my responsibility." Zhao Li retorted softly: "I made him sad and desperate for seven years, and he finally survived but became like that again. His life was completely destroyed by me. It's all my fault. "

"Zhao Li, can you be more sober? How much do you want to indulge Shaoyue?" Lu Chenyun shook his head, he couldn't believe that Zhao Li was so smart on the outside, but so stupid on the inside, "Think about what you were like before, What is it like now?"

"I don't know what you're talking about." Zhao Li turned his head away from looking at Lu Chenyun, "I'm still me, nothing has changed."

"I don't need to see you in the past, I know you have changed, Zhao Li." The heartache that came after him made Lu Chenyun speak seriously: "The one who was destroyed was not him, but you! The one who was forced to change his way of life It's not him, it's you!"

Everyone has the right to love and be loved, and the freedom to reject unwanted love. If life and death are personal choices as Zhao Li said, why should he carry the consequences of Shao Yue's decision? On yourself, even at the expense of destroying your own life?

"Lu Chenyun." Zhao Li's expression was almost broken, and the mask he had kept for a long time was finally broken, "If you have a younger brother who committed suicide because of you, you still have to get along with him every day and keep witnessing that unsightly If you think you are your own, tell me! Will you blame yourself? Will you feel guilty? You won’t, it’s because you never had a brother!”

"Then what can your death solve? What can you make up for? The tragedy that happened a long time ago, it's not that you disappeared alone in the world!" Lu Chenyun angrily reprimanded with increased volume and tone: "Your way of atonement is simply a ridiculous escape!"

"I just want to protect him! He's better off without me!"

"Zhao Li, are you crazy? Are you crazy too?" Lu Chenyun grabbed his shoulder, although his tone was angry, but his eyes were full of reluctance, "Do you understand? Now you are so weak that you can't even If you can’t even protect yourself, who the hell do you want to protect!”

Zhao Li was stunned by Lu Chenyun's words.

He is vulnerable?Yes, of course he is fragile. Lu Chenyun was right. After that accident, he didn't even have the courage to confess the truth to his father, because he didn't want his father to know that he made his younger brother abnormal, and he didn't dare to let his father I know that my brother has become a madman because of him.

He always relies on his disguised personality to pretend that he is brave, but in fact he is really weak at all.

In the past, he chose to escape from Shaoyue, and now he still chooses to escape from Shaoyue again with death. He can't control himself, as if all this should end in blood to make his conscience feel better. In fact, it is just that he failed to take responsibility and could not take responsibility. Evil and cowardly, he is always just trying to be brave instead of being strong.

He has always known the true self hidden deep in his heart, but no one has ever known, and no one understands him. Why would Lu Chenyun know?Why... the person in front of me who only likes to act according to his own will will find him who no one has noticed?

Zhao Li felt sore in his heart, which made him speechless for a while, and he could only look at Lu Chenyun foolishly.

And Lu Chenyun thought it was his words that hurt the other party. He didn't want to treat Zhao Li who had just escaped from danger so harshly, but he was more afraid that if he didn't take the opportunity to say something clearly, the next time would still happen based on Zhao Li's character. tragedy.

"Haven't you ever thought that if one day Shaoyue regains his senses and finds out that the self-sacrifice you have made will make him seek death again? And what about your father? If he knows that you have become like this, and even almost died What would he think?"

"... Shaoyue won't commit suicide anymore. Do you know how happy he was when he cut my hand? He smiled as innocently as before." While talking, Zhao Li tried his best to raise a smile, " He promised not to let my dad know, nothing will happen to them again, and they will go back to the happy days before they adopted me."

Lu Chenyun's fingers on Chao Li's shoulders were even tighter, he didn't understand how this man could be so stupid, did he always think that he was superfluous in Shao's house?How much does he care about his family?Care to let the wounds of the past torture his personality until there is nothing left, and would rather believe in a lunatic's promise to get relief?

"What about me? Zhao Li, think about me, how sad do you think I will be? Seeing you being hurt by Shao Yue like this, how sad will I be? How painful?"

Zhao Li's expression showed a little uneasiness, he didn't understand why Lu Chenyun would say such words, such a gentle and caring tone... Could it be to a plaything?He stepped back a little uncomfortably, and asked hesitantly, "You mean you will be sad because of me?"

"Of course I will, Zhao Li, I may not know what love is, but now I am sure that I like you, and I care about everything about you."

"I──" Zhao Li's whole body was stiff, and he felt a little difficult to breathe. The trauma caused by the rejection of Shao Yue's love was too great, and he couldn't help being nervous when he heard the love in Lu Chenyun's mouth. He was not disgusted, but flustered, "I can't-" ─”

He didn't think about what exactly Lu Chenyun liked about him, he just wanted to tell the other party that he couldn't accept a man having a crush on him, but he couldn't say it - facing Lu Chenyun's so sincere eyes.

"It's okay, Li Li." He calmed Zhao Li's heart with a smile, he understood what Zhao Li was thinking, "I don't want you to like me too, I just want to tell you how I feel, I won't ask for your love Waiting for the reward, let alone doing something that hurts yourself just because you can’t get it.”

Now Lu Chenyun already knows that Zhao Li is a man with a great contrast between his appearance and his inner being. He is too kind and too mindful of what he owes and repays, which makes him immediately shrink back when facing any feelings, but the so-called liking is just a A pure emotion, not everyone will turn love into a weapon to hurt others.

"Lu Chenyun, I..." Zhao Li really didn't know what words to reply at this moment.

Not wanting to stimulate Chao Li too much, Lu Chenyun let the topic stop here, he changed his usual expression, and warned Zhao Li with dissatisfaction: "Speaking of which, I lost a lot of blood in your body to you, your life is It belongs to me, if you dare to mess around again, I will not spare you."

Is this considered...to be considerate of him?Zhao Li thought to himself, feeling a little helpless at the same time, "I see, thank you for your blood, I just hope that I won't become as thick-skinned as you."

"What's wrong with being thick-skinned?" Lu Chenyun smiled briskly, "Hey, we are integrated into one, right? Do you feel good?"

The obscene temper flared up again, completely ignoring the fact that the other party meant that he was shameless.

"It's not all your blood, there are other people donating it, right?"

"No matter, my blood is special."

What's special?Special color?He glanced at Li Bai and didn't want to talk to him.

He was distracted by the continuous conversation just now, and now that he relaxes, he feels more pain in his hands. Zhao Li touched the bandaged place, and his complexion was not very good.

Lu Chenyun took the initiative to press the emergency bell for him, intending to call the doctor and give him more painkillers, "Your injury is a bit serious, the nerves and muscles are slightly damaged, and there may be some sequelae in the future."

Zhao Li was silent for a few seconds, then said indifferently again: "It doesn't matter, as long as you can still use your hands."

Lu Chenyun wanted to ask, what about the piano?Would it be okay if I could never touch the piano again?But he also knew the reason for Zhao Li's silence, he would not be cruel enough to ask irrevocable questions at this time.

"By the way, where is Shaoyue? You—you didn't tell my dad about this, did you?"

"You can't worry about yourself?" Lu Chenyun curled his lips in displeasure. He has a pretty face, and even his disdainful expression doesn't affect his charm at all. "I don't know where your brother fled in fear of crime. As for your father, Don't worry, isn't he on a business trip? It will take a while for him to come back."

Upon hearing this, Zhao Li couldn't help asking curiously, "How do you know that my dad is on a business trip?"

"Uh..."──I deleted your dad's text message secretly, "I went to your company to ask."

At this moment, the doctor came in and interrupted the conversation. He gave Chao Li another injection of painkillers, and gave a lot of precautions, declaring that he would not be allowed to go through the discharge procedures until the wound healed, and then left.

"Okay, since I'm going to be hospitalized for a while, you go home for me." Zhao Li moved his shoulders and broke away from Lu Chenyun who jumped over again, "Go and help me get some change of clothes, and..."

"Tsk, who do you think I am? I have already asked the store I know to send several sets over." Young master Lu is never polite when spending money, and he is also very familiar with Zhao Li's body size, "Your family also handles those photos. It's clean."

"Oh, speaking of this, shouldn't you give me an explanation?" Squinting his eyes, Zhao Li sneered again with his trademark murderous look.

Wow!Sure enough, Chao Li is still so charming!Wiping his saliva, Lu Chenyun smiled awkwardly and said, "This...do you really want to say it? I'm afraid you'll get emotional and it's not good for the wound."

"Say."

A simple word made Lu Chenyun succumb, "That's evidence."

"What evidence?"

"The evidence of successfully intimidating you and having sex with you was given to me by Shaoyue at the beginning." Lu Chenyun knew that he would have to say it sooner or later, so why not make it clear in one breath, but he still carefully observed Zhao Li's words after listening. reaction.

Not much changed, Zhao Li just said indifferently: "It's really his idea."

"You guessed it a long time ago?" Lu Chenyun couldn't believe it. How could Zhao Li, the younger brother, take the initiative to suspect his younger brother?

"It's not too early, I thought about it before I was about to die." Zhao Li still had the same expression, "He wants me to die, what else can't he do?" Although this consequence is his own will, it still makes people feel a little sad .

"Since the transaction between us shouldn't have existed, why aren't you angry?" Lu Chenyun was afraid of losing his life afterwards, so he deliberately omitted the words "I got fucked".

It’s okay if you don’t get angry, what’s really strange to Zhao Li is that compared to Shaoyue’s idea, he’s more thankful that Lu Chenyun didn’t really want to hurt him... He doesn’t know why he has such a thought, but he understands Really relieved after the fact.

"Anyway, you saved my life, so let's count as even." Zhao Li thought for a while, and then added: "At most, don't bother me after you leave the hospital."

"How can there be such a good thing? Look, I not only saved you, but also gave you a blood transfusion, stayed in the hospital to take care of you, and even planned to help you take a bath──"

Damn, you still have the face to bargain after having fucked him so many times?Zhao Li lowered his face and asked, "Then what exactly do you want?"

"Go on a date with me when you recover. If you really can't like me a little bit, I'll leave." Lu Chenyun raised his hand again and swore: "I promise, I will never disturb you again."

"...I'm not in the mood to go on a date with you."

This is not completely a refusal, Lu Chenyun stood up excitedly, "We'll wait until you are discharged from the hospital, come on, let's take a shower first."

"I can do it myself." God knows what this shameless wolf wants to do?

"Please, you can't even move your hands and you expect to do it yourself? It's not like I haven't washed it for you." Lu Chenyun looked proud, "I said I wouldn't mess with patients, don't be nervous. "

Anyway, it's not the first time that Lu Chenyun's soft domineering and invincible thick-skinned appeared, Zhao Li didn't bother to spend any more effort arguing with him, so he just went with the other party's wishes.

Lu Chenyun kept his promise—cleaned up all the details for him too carefully, kept making perverted laughter, and had a serious tendency towards erotic massage-style stroking.If these are not counted, in short, the other party really didn't touch Zhao Li.

The next day, Zhao Li developed a high fever due to inflammation of the wound. He seldom got sick. He used to practice boxing so he was always healthy and invulnerable to all poisons.

The fluctuating temperature couldn't be suppressed no matter what, his sanity was burnt to a mess, he could only lie on the bed with half-closed eyes, even his breathing was extremely hot, Lu Chenyun who was forced to watch was really afraid that he would burn his head like this .

"Does the ceiling look as good as me?" Lu Chenyun touched Zhao Li's ridiculously hot forehead, the medicine prescribed by the doctor seemed to have no effect at all, "Hurry up and go to bed, how will the fever go down if you don't rest?"

Zhao Li panted heavily, "Find out where Shaoyue is for me." This is not a request, it sounds closer to a request.

"You're so burned that you still have the energy to control him?" He really wanted to slap Chao Li on the face, so as to wake up the man, but unfortunately he couldn't bear it, "Take care of yourself before you talk."

Zhao Li closed his eyes and opened them again to stay awake, "He must know now that I didn't die, I don't know if he will..."

"How? Failure to achieve the goal will drive him crazy?" Lu Chenyun sneered, "You forgot everything I said yesterday? I don't think you can make him return to normal after you die."

"He would have given me a chance to ask for help──" This sentence made Lu Chenyun disagree and his face sank, Zhao Li had no choice but to change his words: "Well, not really, but he will definitely want to know where I am, If he can't find me, it's dangerous outside with his mental state."

"So what?"

"Lu Chenyun, he is my younger brother, please help me."

Zhao Li is Chao Li, even if he begs for help, he is so arrogant, if only he has this kind of courage towards Shao Yue, Lu Chenyun sighed and said: "No matter how long he is outside, he will not be more attractive than you lying here. come in danger."

"What danger can I be in?" Zhao Li was puzzled.

"Do you have any idea of ​​what you look like? Didn't you notice how excited the nurse who took your temperature was? Don't you think your attending physician—"

Zhao Li interrupted Lu Chenyun's nagging: "Is this all your delusional thinking? No one is interested in patients."

In his opinion, Lu Chenyun's handsome appearance is more eye-catching.

"The line is so long, you are too unconscious." Lu Chenyun thought he was the first in the line, "You look so delicious with a fever, and you are so damn incapable of resisting, I don't know how many times I have fantasized about it It's a complete process."

"You sound like you're jealous." Zhao Li unconsciously evoked a small smile, "Don't worry, you are the only one who dares to mess with me."

Zhao Li's innocent smile shocked Lu Chenyun, his mind was in a trance for a while, and he forgot to answer the conversation for a while.

Originally, Zhao Li was an incomparably handsome man, no matter what expression he had, he could only describe it as pleasing to the eye, whether it was cold, angry, or even contemptuous of him, he liked it very much, especially the taller and more arrogant smile made him want to push him down, Good to satisfy the desire to conquer.

But Zhao Li, who laughed purely to tease him like now, made Lu Chenyun feel an unspeakable joy. Since the beginning of the transaction, he has never seen the beautiful arc of Zhao Li laughing because he really wanted to laugh. A breath of innocence.

"...Okay, I'll find Shao Yue for you now." Lu Chenyun suspected that he also had a fever, probably because of Zhao Li's smile, but it was true that his mood suddenly improved.

"Thank you." Zhao Li exhaled hot air, and when the other party turned around, he called again: "Lu Chenyun."

"Um?"

"Wipe off the nosebleed before leaving." Are you angry?Nosebleeds just standing there talking to him.

Surprised, Lu Chenyun wiped the middle part of the person, and found that it was really covered with blood. Could it be that he is still a pure boy?Zhao Li defeated him with a casual smile?It was obviously not like this before...

While cleaning up suspiciously, he walked to the area where mobile phones were allowed in the courtyard. Lu Chenyun planned to ask Guan Yan to find someone with him. After all, this was one of the other's specialties. Send a text message.

"Give him back to me." Shao Yue's number, the date of sending the text message was the first day of Zhao Li's hospitalization.

Lu Chenyun almost never left the hospital, so naturally he didn't have a chance to turn on his mobile phone. Shaoyue probably couldn't get in and had to send a message.

A few seconds later, the second and third letters came in respectively, the dates were the second and third day respectively, one letter a day.

"I know you saved him, so give him back to me." Lu Chenyun only felt that Shao Yue was sick—no, there was indeed such a person, since he didn't want someone to rescue Chao Li, why leave him alone?

The third letter can be said to have no constructive content. The whole screen is filled with the words "Give it back to me". People who don't know may think that Lu Chenyun's phone is haunted, maybe Shaoyue collapsed?

"A lunatic who is contradictory, let him live and let him die, he knows better than me how to toss people like toys..."

"Where are you?" Lu Chenyun silently pressed the keyboard to reply, he didn't want to hear Shao Yue's voice, if he didn't hear back, he could just tell Zhao Li that he couldn't find anyone.

"The place we made an appointment with." Lu Chenyun didn't wait long, and really wondered if Shaoyue had clutched his phone desperately to wait for him to return from the first text message?

Maybe Shaoyue felt that the content would be incomprehensible, so he reposted a few seconds later: "At home, I'm at home, can you bring him here? I miss him."

miss him?Do you want Chao Li to die?How can people be discharged from the hospital immediately after making people like this?Lu Chenyun decided to ignore this request, he had other plans.