forced to sink

Just to get a document, Zhao Li naturally resolutely rejected Lu Chenyun's proposal to accompany him, went to the company to pick up the car first, and then went back to Shao's house alone.

Probably no one is here at this time... He pushed open the door while thinking, and the few white papers that fell on the entrance were blown by the airflow and slid a few inches away. , all the way to the living room was sprinkled with the same thing.

He picked up the most recent one, and as soon as his fingers touched the inexplicably familiar texture, he felt that something was wrong. Zhao Li turned the page, and was shocked to find that his obscene appearance was engraved in the picture, which made his face turn pale.

This is very similar to the photo he has seen from Lu Chenyun, the only difference is that the protagonist has changed, from Shaoyue to their terrible "group photo".

The random way of throwing photos seems to attract him to the direction of the living room, Zhao Li's footsteps are heavy.

Shaoyue sat on the carpet, his slightly hunched back was a bit lonely, like a lonely child, and there were also several photos around him that made Chao Li feel sick just because of the white back, and Shaoyue also took a photo in his hand .

Chao Li didn't know how to react, what should he say to start the scene with a younger brother who was admiring his nude photos?

"Zhaoli." Shao Yue knew that the man was standing behind him, and he could hear the sound of the car from a distance, "Lu Chenyun sent it to me. It took a great picture of you, right?"

Without Shaoyue's reminder, Zhao Li is sure who took the photo, but he doesn't understand, what is Lu Chenyun's intention in doing this?Just want to show off?Intent to stimulate Shao Yue?Or... hurt him?

"Why... did he send it to you?" There seemed to be ringing in his head, which made Zhao Li unable to recognize his own voice.

"Because he asked me to show this to Dad." Shaoyue turned his face and smiled, "Do you think Dad will like this gift?"

"Where's you—Dad? Where is he?"

Zhao Li clenched the deformed photo in his hand, and his breath was short of breath. He didn't know whether he should care about Lu Chenyun doing such a thing, or Shao Yue's ruthless words, his heart ached slightly.

He really didn't want to believe that a person who held his face and questioned his past pain and sincerely asked him not to lie would treat him in such a cruel way. Lu Chenyun clearly knew how much he cared about his family... What's more, someone Is this necessary?No matter what Lu Chenyun wanted from him, wouldn't it be enough to threaten Shao Yue?

And why Shaoyue can accept their sex so naturally now?Wasn't he still angry because he talked to Lu Chenyun before?

"He went on a business trip to Europe, and I didn't make it in time to give him these parting souvenirs." Thinking of him waking up early in the morning to find that Shao Zuo hadn't returned all night, he originally wanted to show it to his father in person, but he couldn't help but hide his disappointment, but then he thought about it , Shao Yue's tone became excited again: "It's okay, I will give it to him when he comes back, you can look forward to it!"

He let out a tired breath. After thinking about it seriously, Zhao Li really didn't think that Lu Chenyun was such a reckless person, and he wouldn't use this kind of method to seriously hurt him again. He asked lightly: "It's true that Lu Chenyun sent it to you, but This matter has nothing to do with him, does it?"

Although he didn't understand what Lu Chenyun's purpose was, it was definitely not what Shao Yue said, because it was unreasonable.

"...You don't believe me? You don't believe me, but trust an outsider instead?" Shao Yue stood up and faced him, his face was instantly icy cold, as if Zhao Li's questioning made him unbearable, he questioned as if he remembered something The other party: "You like him? Do you like him?"

"Shaoyo, don't deviate from my question."

"Is this answer important to you?" Shao Yue shook his head slowly, with an expression of disbelief, "You doubt me because of him? You have a crush on Lu Chenyun? Don't you?"

"It's not like that." Zhao Li sighed, what did he think of Lu Chenyun or what did he think about it, what did it have to do with this matter?He felt so tired, why did Shao Yue always have to twist everything?

"Do you dare to say otherwise?" Shaoyue's emotions were tumbling, almost hysterical, "You said that you rejected my brother because you would never fall in love with any man, but now you treat Lu Chenyun differently? He is very powerful, isn't he? It can satisfy your lustful body, right? Zhao Li, have you ever regretted my brother's death? When you were with him, did you ever think that someone died under your cruelty──"

"Shut up! Don't say any more!" Zhao Li trembled when his brother's words poked him, "You know it's not true, why do you still say such things to force me to admit it? After so long, you still refuse to let me go ? What do you want me to do to be satisfied?"

"You want me to let you go?" Shao Yue's facial features twisted into hatred, "You have a life in your hand, how dare you ask me to let you go?"

"Even if you don't let me go, you should let yourself go, right?" Zhao Li was heartbroken and desperate, and his way of making amends often only made things get more and more out of control. Looking at the innocent and energetic face of that person in the past, he said softly, "Xiao Yue, don't be like this, you should wake up."

He should have been numb long ago, but his heart was still in pain. Shaoyue was not the only one who was caught in a nightmare, and he no longer wanted to cooperate with his younger brother's madness to survive...

"There is no such thing as "brother" in your mouth. You are the one who committed suicide. I killed the you who should have a bright future. From the beginning to the end, there is only one you who refused to face the past."

……

It felt like it was a long time ago, so long that Zhao Li didn't want to recall it at all.

"Brother Li, do you like me too?" Shao Yue confessed for the first time on his 16th birthday, "Let's be together."

What a domineering and calm attitude, it seems that he never thought that he might be rejected.

"No, we can only be brothers."

Chao Li recovered from the shock very quickly, and he avoided seeing each other even faster and fled away. From then on, he changed the brotherhood that he loved Shao Yue, and he rarely even stayed at home.

At the suggestion of his coach who taught him self-defense, Chao Li started to play boxing, and he turned all his attention to it.

Zhao Li didn't understand why his younger brother had such strange thoughts about him?He always thought that Shaoyue was still young, so he must be unable to distinguish between family affection and love. As long as he remained indifferent, his younger brother would gradually forget about it when he grew up.

However, Shao Yue insisted on confessing his love to him on his birthday every year. Although Zhao Li's answer remained the same, it couldn't stop his younger brother's growing feelings.

"Just consider it a birthday present for me, how about it? Say you love me too." Shao Yue smiled without showing any discouragement.

"You give up, it's impossible between us."

Year after year, Zhao Li was really scared, what if Shao Yue never gave up?It is impossible for him to accept this love, his younger brother should find a good girl instead of him, if Shao Yue can't turn back to a normal person, his father will definitely be disappointed with his younger brother, this fear almost drives Zhao Li crazy.

Shao Yue has a good background, good looks, good personality, and extremely smart mind. He must have a bright future. How can he be defeated by love?How could he drag his younger brother down because of his own existence?

Shaoyue's love itself is not wrong, but choosing to love him is not the right thing. Zhao Li's concept is destined to be like this, so the way of rejection in the last year is more rigorous.

Shao Yue's birthday that year coincided with Chao Li's seventh year championship.

After the game, Zhao Li still stayed in the waiting room. After dealing with minor injuries, he planned to find a few friends to celebrate later. However, Shao Yue, who always watched him win the championship at the venue every year, did not go home first, but came in to find friends. he.

"Brother Li, this is the last time." Shaoyue still smiled gently, making people unable to guess his thoughts, "You really don't want me? Can we really not be together?"

"Impossible." Zhao Li's tone was firm, especially when he heard the keyword "last", he thought he could finally be relieved, and even breathed a sigh of relief, "I will not change my mind about you, never will."

"Even if I'm about to die, you still don't agree?"

Over the years of pressure, Chao Li couldn't care too much. He wanted to end it all, "It doesn't matter whether you live or die. We are brothers in this life. No matter what, it will not change. Don't think that we will have other things." Relationship." He just chose to tell the truth, and then turned around and left without any regrets.

When he picked up the phone and wanted to turn back, he had already killed his brother.

Why didn't he notice something was wrong?He didn't find that his younger brother had depression, nor did he find that his younger brother had a tendency to self-harm, nor did he find that his younger brother lived by relying on his love for his elder brother.If he didn't treat Shaoyue so indifferently because of fear, and pay more attention to Shaoyue, maybe everything could be avoided.

Shao Yue's personality changed drastically after he became sober after committing suicide. He no longer recognized his elder brother, insisted that his real elder brother was someone else, and believed that the so-called elder brother had already died in love with Chao Li.

Zhao Li didn't understand why Shao Yue could maintain normality in front of his father, but cruelly abused and took revenge on him in private?Is it because Shaoyue who would smile and act like a baby to him...was killed by himself?That's right, it must be like this, the younger brother will hate him more than anyone else...

It turned out that refusing the love given by a person would make a huge mistake. He messed up everything, hurt his brother, and failed his father's expectations of him.He can only give his all to fill this broken pothole, but no matter what he does, the hole is getting deeper and deeper, just like the soul inside him shrinks more and more, never bottoming out.

……

"Xiao Yue, you can blame me, you have the qualifications." Chao Ligai grasped Shao Yue's shoulders tightly, "But Dad is innocent, what I care about is that he will disappoint you, not me, don't torture me any more You made him sad, okay? Sober up, please..."

He really didn't want Shao Yue's life to go to the point of no return again and again. He did make mistakes in the past. He never thought that his self-conceived correct concept would push Shao Yue to another hell.

Shao Yue raised his head and asked in a daze, "No brother?"

"Never, Xiao Yue, that's you──" Before he finished speaking, Chao Li was pushed away by Shao Yue.

"You're talking nonsense! I have a brother, he's always been there!" Shaoyo's tone was that of an angry five-year-old trying to prove to his parents that he had a playmate who didn't exist.

"Then tell me!" Zhao Li also raised his voice to overwhelm him, "Tell me, what is his name? What does he look like? If he exists, why has no one ever mentioned him to you before!"

He believed that Shao Yue also knew this in the depths of his brain, otherwise he would not deliberately avoid the flaws, and would not mention it to anyone, except to him repeatedly. Shao Yue clearly knew the truth, but he was unwilling to admit it.

His brother would rather be crazy.

"He's here! He's still here!" Shaoyue suddenly shed a few tears, "You killed him! You made him not get your love! You made him cut his wrist and commit suicide!"

Zhao Li's eyes were red, he grabbed Shao Yue's wrist with all his strength, and roughly tore off the wristwatch and wristband that were originally worn on his left and right hands, and said viciously: "Look at your hands! Give me a fucking look carefully!"

Two scars were deeply engraved on Shao Yue's wrist, and only one of them showed his determination to die back then.

"Tell me! Tell me what this is!" Zhao Li no longer cared if this would cause a negative effect, perhaps, he had already gone crazy.

These two old wounds made Shao Yue's face full of bewilderment, as helpless as he could no longer find himself.

"Why are you the only one?" This is Guan Yan's credit agency, he took out red wine and glasses from the wine cabinet and asked, "I thought you couldn't bear to leave Chao Li for a moment."

Sitting on the consultation chair, Lu Chenyun, who was spinning the bottom roller boredly, looked displeased, "It's not that he wants to go home, but he doesn't allow me to follow."

──But that guy Shaoyue should be in the company at this time. I heard that he commutes to and from get off work on time recently, so it won't bring any danger to Zhao Li, right?

"You look like a boudoir, don't tell me you're serious this time?" Guan Yan said jokingly.

Lu Chenyun remained silent, for the first time he did not immediately deny it like before.

"Dude, I'm still waiting for that classic line of yours—"It's impossible, it's just for fun." Guan Yan thought this was interesting, did he have a premonition experience?

"It's not for fun, I think." Lu Chenyun looked serious, "But I'm not sure what it feels like yet."

He didn't want to talk too hard until he figured it out.

When Guan Yan heard this, he couldn't help laughing. Sure enough, King Li was King Li, and even the prodigal son who was known as a thousand people beheaded couldn't resist his charm.

"If you laugh again, I'll beat you up." Lu Chenyun frowned to express his anger, but his fair ears were tinged with suspicious red.

"I'm sorry, I just never thought that people who are promiscuous have innocence." Guan Yan filled the wine glass with red liquid, and the mellow aroma wafted away instantly, "However, if you are together, Chao Li's family will definitely Will it be very objectionable? Then it will be troublesome.”

"As long as Chao Li is still mine, it's not their turn to object." Lu Chenyun took the wine glass, "But his brother will indeed be a problem. I can get Chao Li because of the plan he provided."

"Ah?" Guan Yan asked in surprise, "Your brother taught you your dirty tricks? Why is he doing this?"

"Because of hatred, I heard from his brother that Chao Li killed his brother—the one who is related by blood." After Lu Chenyun finished speaking, he found that Guan Yan's face was confused, and asked again: "What's wrong?"

"I didn't know that the Shao family had three sons." Guan Yan said blankly, "According to my investigation, Shao Zuo only has one son, and the next one is Zhao Li, the adopted son."

Lu Chenyun's expression changed slightly, "Are you sure?"

"Please, have you forgotten my proud profession? Do you think I might be mistaken?"

The information about the Shao family is clearly written in black and white, and Guan Yan may even know how many hairs Zhao Li has.

Lu Chenyun recalled that Zhao Li did not mention that there were other brothers. He said that he killed a person and ruined Shaoyue, but he didn't really name them. But isn't that because it was too painful and he didn't want to talk about the tragedy again?

If Guan Yan's investigation is correct, who exactly is Shao Yue trying to avenge?What is his intention towards Chao Li?

Zhao Li has always been less vigilant when facing Shao Yue. When Shao Yue stretched out his hand to push him, he fell back unprepared. According to the original strength and angle, he should have been pushed out of the living room door, but he was caught by the carpet and died. fell to the ground.

"Zhao Li, are you planning to force me to think of everything?" Shao Yue sneered, his voice full of eerie aura, completely ignoring the previous confusion, "You think you will spare your life if you remind me that I loved you?"

"The you in the past disappeared because of me, and I really owe you my life." Zhao Li still sat up and didn't get up, his face was a little complicated, in addition to bitterness, there was more exhaustion, "You can choose not to forgive me, you want mine Just take your life."

He was at his wit's end a long time ago, he just wanted to give Shao Yue back the future he should have, even if it had to be exchanged with his death, he didn't care about anything...

"Oh, you're finally willing to admit that you're a murderer?"

Zhao Li never thought that there would be a day when he would be completely immune to this sentence, "You can say whatever you want, whatever you want to do to me, but please don't let Dad know."

"Don't let him know?" Shao Yue asked knowingly, and even looked enthusiastic.

"If you really want to kill me to vent your hatred, don't let him know that I'm dead, and don't let him know that you did it."

As long as the son says, he will believe it. This is their father. Shao Yue only needs to think of an excuse for their brother, such as making his adopted son an unfilial son who ran away from home and never came back... He believes Shaoyo has the ability to ensure that his father will not be sad while taking revenge.

"I don't understand why you don't care at all?" Shao Yue asked condescendingly, "It doesn't matter how guilty you are, are you really not afraid of death?"

Death would not be more painful than being resented by his beloved family members, so what was he afraid of?

Thinking of this, Zhao Li smiled frankly and said: "As long as you get rid of the hatred for me, don't embarrass yourself, and start your life again, then I don't care, my life was given by your father, now I will Back to you."

"Is this your truth?"

"Yes, you can torture me to your heart's content and then kill me, and then forget me forever."

For Zhao Li, this is not only a way to free Shaoyue, but also the only chance for him to free himself. He cannot bear the guilt of ruining a person or a family. Then simply erase his life as an outsider, Shaoyue should not have him in the past, let alone in the future.

Hearing what Zhao Li said, Shao Yue couldn't help his eyes sparkle. He showed a small smile and ran happily to the kitchen to get back a fruit knife.

Zhao Li didn't resist, and let Shao Yue push him down on the carpet with a blank expression.

"I think about where to start cutting." Shaoyue sat on Zhao Li's abdomen, holding a knife to draw several cutting angles on his body, "Here? Or there?"

It's like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered... In the past few years, it was the first time that Zhao Li was so calm when facing Shao Yue. He suddenly felt like laughing. It turned out that this was the only consensus and what they wanted together──He death.

He lay there, silently waiting for his younger brother to make a move, but he heard Shao Yue start to roar.

"Don't bother me! Shut up!" Shaoyue stuck the knife into the carpet beside him, and hugged his head with his hands, his expression twisted in pain, "Shut up! It's none of your business! It's obviously his will!"

Zhao Li, who had already been relaxed, became tense. Shao Yue's self-talk was obviously caused by being forced to recall the past, which caused a mental disorder in his brain, which was unable to admit the facts for a while. The past and present he existed in the same head at the same time. It's not surprising that there are ego disputes.

"Why is it up to you to decide? This is my head!"

Seeing Shao Yue get up from him and start to communicate with himself irritably, Chao Li felt a pain in his heart. He didn't want to force his younger brother to this step, and he was more worried that Shao Yue would still not be able to get relief and return after his death What about the old days?

Shao Zuo only knew that he attempted suicide because of depression, and he didn't know Shao Yue's real illness at all. What if their father found out that Shao Yue was actually a lunatic?Father will be very sad...

Almost dying, Zhao Li's mind is still worrying about these messy things.

"Zhao Li, we came up with a good idea." Finally reached a consensus, Shao Yue picked up the knife, "I want to kill you, but my brother refuses, so let's make a compromise."

"I'm all ears."

"I will cut both of your wrists. If you can find someone to save you before the blood runs out, you will not die." Shaoyue reached out and took the mobile phone from Chao Li's pocket, and said, "But the mobile phone and the car keys are mine. will be taken away, and the phone line will be cut.”

It sounds nice to say a compromise, but it is clearly a dead-end solution. Shaoyue knows that Chao Li's personality will not go outside to ask for help, and he will die when he walks to the hospital by himself. This is just a self-comforting statement.

No matter which Shaoyue it is, do they really want to kill him?Zhao Li smiled wryly again, "Okay, remember to dispose of my body, don't let Dad find out."

"What do you need to say?"

Zhao Li nodded, Shaoyue's guarantee made him feel more at ease, "If you are still unhappy, then you can find a hospital for treatment, okay?"

Even though Zhao Li never believed that the lunatics could be treated well in the mental hospital, it was the place where people were really crazy.

"Well, I promise you." The emotions alternated repeatedly, and Shaoyue who answered this sentence showed an innocent smile on his face again.

Shao Yue grabbed Chao Li's wrist, and the blade cut open his left hand first, as if the bones were also cut open, which was unbearable. Even though Zhao Li endured the pain first-rate, he still frowned and groaned weakly, but at the same time he Feeling comfortable, the pressure accumulated in the past and the present flowed out of the body together with the blood...

His right wrist was also cut open.

Shaoyue's overall technique is smooth. It's really not bad for someone who committed suicide in the same way, and his movements are not sloppy at all.

Think about it, if a person wants to cut off the other wrist alone, how much obsession is needed to paralyze the consciousness as he wishes?Zhao Li really wanted to know, what was Shao Yue thinking when he committed suicide that year?How much do you hate him?

He heard Shao Yue's answer: "As much blood as I have shed, you should pay me back."

Blood gushed out of the wound quickly, staining the carpet underneath. The blood flowed too fast to be completely absorbed by the fibers, and the color spread outwards into a terrifying pattern.

It didn't take long for Zhao Li to lose consciousness, but he was still laughing.

"Xiao Yue, I really want you to be happy, I never thought of making you unhappy." Knowing that the person who was busy cutting the phone line would not listen, Zhao Li still said to himself, anyway, it was the last, " I'm sorry for rejecting your love."

Shaoyue's hand stopped for a few seconds, but in the end he still didn't say anything, and took what he needed to take and slowly left the living room.

Until the sound of the car being driven away, Zhao Li's only thought was to wait for the blood to flow away, but he suddenly remembered something, and with almost powerless hands, he took out something from the back pocket of his trousers with difficulty .

The mobile phone that Lu Chenyun gave him...was too thin and he stuffed it in his trouser pocket, but he never thought about turning it on, he thought he had no chance to use it.

"If I die, you will probably be a little upset."

Putting his finger on the key, Zhao Li actually had the urge to call the other party. He didn't ask for help, but he wanted to hear the other party's cheeky tone when he was alone. Maybe it was because he was about to die. At this time, he Only then did he realize that he didn't hate Lu Chenyun as much as he had imagined.

He somewhat missed that person's soothing tone, some of that person's childlike way of acting like a baby, and some even... the warmth that that person gave him.

"Lu Chenyun..."

In the end, he still couldn't press it.

The more Lu Chenyun thought about it, the more wrong he was. He drove from Guanyan's credit agency to Shao's house. Although the traffic jam was not easy at this time, the long distance made him extremely irritable. He dialed Zhaoli's new number while stopping at a red light.

I only heard the voice prompt to turn off the power, "Damn it, I did as I told him to carry it with me, but what's the use of not turning it on?"

The light turned green and the steering wheel turned left. This time, Lu Chenyun ignored the traffic rules and dialed another number, but he got connected after a while. He hurriedly said, "Hello, Zhao Li?"

The other end was silent for a few seconds, and then a voice that Lu Chenyun still remembered, "Do you have something to do with him?"

"Shaoyue, let him listen to the phone." Why is the phone in his hand?What did he do to Chao Li?

"This may be difficult, huh..." Others may say that Shao Yue's laughter at this time is very pleasant, but it only feels cold to Lu Chenyun's ears.

"I warn you, if you dare—"

"I have nothing to dare." Lu Chenyun's words were interrupted by Shao Yue at will, "That's it, goodbye."

"Shao──" Upon hearing that the connection had been disconnected, Lu Chenyun did not give up and tried to redial again, but only the sound of shutting down the phone remained, "Damn it!"

Oops, something must have happened!Thinking of this, he speeded up the car even more, and arrived at the destination in a short time. Of course, he is no stranger to this place. He stuffed the letter into the mailbox himself. He noticed that Zhao Li's car was not here, but In any case, he had to go in first to confirm.

Lu Chenyun approached the open door, he pushed the door straight in but was taken aback by the photos that fell all over the floor, he didn't even need to pick it up to know that it must be the evidence he sent to Shao Yue, but he didn't know how to copy so many What is the staggering amount for?

He walked along the road to the living room, "Zhao Li?"

Unexpectedly, the person he called was lying down near the sofa, and had obviously lost consciousness a long time ago, and the blood flowing all over the ground continued to emerge from the wound. The scene in front of him almost gave Lu Chenyun the illusion that the carpet was originally dark red.

His face turned pale, but he also knew that he had no time to waste.

"Damn it!" Lu Chenyun rushed over and tore off the shirt that someone threw on the armrest of the sofa, and squatted down to help Zhao Li press the bleeding wound, "What the hell are you going crazy for!"

Of course, Lu Chenyun knew that this was not done by Chao Li himself. Even if Zhao Li occasionally fell into a big emotional gap, he was definitely not a man who would commit suicide, but the current situation is obviously that he agreed to others to hurt him, and besides Shao Yue, that man also Who will it be?Who else can get Zhao Li's permission?

"Chaoli!" Lu Chenyun tried to wake up the man, he thought Shao Yue was crazy and perverted, how could anyone cut off both wrists like this?He tore the shirt in half and tied each to the wound.

Obviously not enough, so he took off his coat to strengthen the treatment.

Zhao Li's face was covered in cold sweat, his face was extremely pale, his breathing was more out of breath than out of breath, obviously he was in hemorrhagic shock, if it wasn't for the movement in his chest, Lu Chenyun would have thought he was dead when he entered the door.

He was really scared, not because he was afraid of the pile of blood, but because the person who fell into the blood was Zhao Li, a stupid man who would give his life away if Lu Chenyun was not careful, this made him feel resentful from the bottom of his heart Shaoyue, no matter how much pain you suffered in the past, is it really necessary to kill someone?He even took his mobile phone away, expressing his sincerity that he wanted Chao Li to die here.

With the current situation, it was too late to call an ambulance. Lu Chenyun made up his mind to drive Zhaoli to the doctor, but he found something that he didn't pay attention to because the situation was urgent just now.

The mobile phone he sent to Chao Li was not taken away by Shao Yue, and it fell near the man's weak fingers.

For a moment, Lu Chenyun felt complicated, "Why didn't you call me?"

As soon as he asked, he found that even his voice was choked up, "Do you hate me so much? Would you rather die than let me help?"

He didn't know if Zhao Li really wanted to die, but he hoped not, but he dared not admit the fact that Zhao Li abandoned him and died for Shao Yue.

Lu Chenyun kissed Chao Li fiercely on the lips, and drove towards the nearby hospital at his fastest speed.

For Zhao Li, maybe there is only intimidation and transactions between them, there is no affection, let alone love, but for Lu Chenyun, it is not, and he knows it will never be again, because he will not abandon him for a plaything, and is about to die And heartache, even heartbreak.