forced to sink

On the day Zhaoli left, Lu Chenyun didn't go to the airport to see him off. He believed that the day when Zhaoli came back to give him the answer was the day when he had agreed to meet again, so there was no need to set restrictions on a man who valued promises so much.

He started to run the business of bars and galleries more seriously than before, and lived in silence day by day. He occasionally acted as a bartender to listen to customers' complaints, most of which were troubles about love. After chatting like this, Lu Chenyun gradually He understood that his feelings for Zhao Li had germinated earlier, but he never noticed it.

I don't know if Zhao Li is the same?Sometimes, it is difficult for people to understand in the present moment.

It is impossible to say that you are not lonely, especially Guan Yan, who is usually the best friend with him, does not know what happened. He only mentioned to him that he is going to travel overseas for a while, and then left with a man who seemed very dangerous. Since then They never had a chance to meet again, let alone drink and chat together, but the person they loved was far away in the UK, and the grievance inside cannot be described in a few words.

There are still many customers who strike up a conversation with Lu Chenyun every day, but he rejects all of them. He can't imagine how much he will insult this hard-won love if he casually sleeps with someone as usual if his heart is full of being occupied by Chao Li. , if he really did this, he didn't deserve to continue waiting for Zhao Li.

But he would occasionally think, since the heavens destined them to separate, why did he bother to let him realize the fact that he fell in love with Zhao Li?Of course, his rationality knows that this kind of uncontrollable and unpredictable emotion is called love, but this love is so lonely, as if returning to the days when he was young.

He didn't know how Zhao Li lived after he went to England, the man seemed to have disappeared from the world, and he had no contact with him at all.It wasn't that Lu Chenyun wanted to be mediocre, but he was really worried that someone like Zhao Li's handsome face, who must be popular in foreign countries, would have been abducted long ago, right?

Thinking about it, Lu Chenyun laughed again, a man who can't even turn him around, is he afraid of foreigners?If he could really fall in love with someone at will, that person wouldn't be called Zhao Li.

Hey, but Zhao Li is too ruthless, even if he doesn't love him anymore, at least they have gone through a lot of things together, at least they can call to say they are safe, right?Would it be too much torture to just let him wait like this?

"Li Li, I miss you so much..." After wiping the wine glass, Lu Chenyun lay down on the bar counter where all the customers were gone, and didn't bother to move any more, "I will definitely get sick if this continues."

He can finally understand how Shao Yue waited for Zhao Li in the beginning, and he must pay a price for liking a man like Zhao Li, and this price can easily drive people crazy.

But Shao Yue was determined to wait for seven years before going crazy. He just estimated that he would be separated for a few years, so what was it?

Lu Chenyun couldn't help sighing, he had to be more patient, otherwise he would definitely be treated like a child when Zhao Li came back.

At this time, the bartender came over and patted him on the shoulder to express his encouragement.

...well, at least he wasn't alone.

Three months after Zhao Li left, Lu Chenyun received several unsigned postcards. The fronts were all famous tourist attractions in the UK. One of them was the majestic Westminster Abbey. Only this one had two beautiful characters written on the back: Chao Li Li.

Lu Chenyun couldn't help smiling, he could imagine what Zhao Li meant: I'm doing well.

After visiting Shaoyue in the hospital, Chao Li took a bag of fresh ingredients just bought from a supermarket, and walked slowly all the way home.

The British climate is not difficult for him to adapt to, and the language is not a problem. Generally speaking, life is considered leisurely.The only regret is probably that Shao Zuo still has to work and often travels around the world, so taking care of his younger brother has become the responsibility of Chao Li alone. This is probably one of the reasons why Shao Zuo insisted on coming to England with him.

Only when Shao Zuo was in England, Chao Li would take the initiative to buy these materials. The father and son would cook together and chat about the current situation.

"Is everything okay, Xiao Yue?" Soon after getting off the plane, Shao Zuo didn't have time to visit his younger son.

"That's right, Duan Hai said that his condition has improved a lot compared to when he was first hospitalized, and the progress of the treatment schedule is much faster than other patients." Zhao Li said while putting the fruit that he couldn't eat temporarily into the refrigerator.

Duan Hai is the therapist that Shao Zuo mentioned. At first, Zhao Li thought he should be about the same age as his father, but he is an oriental man of his age, which also made them get to know each other very quickly.

"Dad, why do you insist that Duan Hai can cure Xiao Yue?"

"His lover also suffered from a disease similar to your brother's, and he took care of it himself." Shao Zuo rolled up his sleeves and began to help prepare dinner.

Zhao Li kept silent, admiring Duan Hai very much in his heart, the heartache of his lover suffering from this disease must not be less than that of his elder brother, but he has to treat the other person himself, seeing his lover keep losing control day by day, that kind of The pain of powerlessness and the courage to persevere are not something ordinary people can have.But he himself didn't even have the guts to tell the truth back then, he was really weak, if it wasn't for Lu Chenyun──

"Xiao Li, did you call that child from the Lu family?"

Chao Li was taken aback by Shao Zuo's sudden question, and slowly asked back, "Why did you call him?"

"Don't you like him?"

The half-washed fruit slipped from his hands, Zhao Li slowly picked it up with a blank expression, and then pretended to be calm and asked, "Dad, what are you talking about?"

"I know about you guys being together. Xiao Yue told me about it a few days ago."

"What?" When were they together?Zhao Li didn't know what Shao Yue told his father, which made his fingers so stiff that he trembled.

"I'm not against you, don't worry." Shao Zuo misunderstood the reason for Chao Li's nervous reaction, "Even if Xiao Yue didn't say anything, I can see that you two are really close. It will make me feel more at ease.”

It's a pity that he always thought that the two children were just friends. If he had known the elder son's thoughts earlier, he would not have forced Chao Li to come to England together, but had to think of another way.

"Anxin?" Zhao Li couldn't believe it, what was his father talking about?If you don't mind your son's sexual orientation, it won't directly lead to his son's same-sex relationship, right?

"When he took care of you in the hospital, you slept soundly. I've never seen you sleep so well, let alone with other people in the room."

Zhao Li lowered his face, saying this in front of his father made him very uncomfortable, he explained nonchalantly: "That's because he is always by my side all day, I have to get used to it."

"Even Xiao Yue used to sleep with you, it can cause you insomnia." Shao Zuo's words broke Zhao Li's excuse.

"Dad, do we have to talk about this?"

"Talk, because you don't know what you want." Shao Zuo emphasized his tone slightly, but still sounded very gentle: "You haven't smiled since you came to England, don't you know? Of course, you are in front of us You have always been calm, but I have seen you and him in the hospital, and you were very energetic at that time."

Chao Li doesn't talk. In fact, he also liked to laugh when he was a child, but as he grew older, he understood the attitude that a brother should have. He became more and more quiet until the pressure gradually appeared. Help him let go of his emotions.

He was born to be a flamboyant person, not a steady brother. He just had to change himself to play a role suitable for the Shao family, but Lu Chenyun's character and temper... easily aroused his instinct of confrontation, his real personality.

"You don't need to force yourself all the time, you are very natural in front of him, you can have any expression you want."

In front of Lu Chenyun, Zhao Li is his true self. He can laugh whenever he wants, get angry when he wants to get angry, and play temper when he wants to lose his temper. He is no longer the eldest son Shao Zuo should be prudent, nor Then there is Shao Yue's brother who should be strong---he is Lu Chenyun's Chao Li, and belongs to Chao Li himself.

This fact, Shao Zuo found out, Lu Chenyun found out, even Shao Yue found out, Shao Zuo didn't believe that this always smart eldest son would not be aware of his own changes, Zhao Li just didn't dare to admit it.

Chao Li scrubbed the unsoiled peel vigorously, and heard a conclusion from his father: "Xiao Li, go after what you want."

In the sixth month, Lu Chenyun received an original book. The author was the same person as the "Dream and Countdown Life" he bought online, but this book did not have a title. However, as soon as he opened the content, I knew it was a sequel, but how did Zhao Li get it?There is no relevant information on the Internet at all, which is really bizarre.

The point is, it turned out that Zhao Li had been listening to him carefully all the time, and even remembered what books he had read.

He thought the open ending of the first episode was the ending, but he didn't expect the sequel to be a truly happy ending. After reading it, Lu Chenyun put the book and the postcard together and put them under his pillow, so that he wanted to go to When you are in Li, you can pick it up and see things and think about people.

Lu Chenyun gradually got used to this kind of ordinary days but he could only miss one person. The only thing he could do was to look forward to what he would receive in three months.

"Brother, you should go back." Shao Yue said to the man sitting next to him while eating the snacks that Duan Hai allowed him to eat, "If this continues, I don't even know who is the real patient."

The brothers were sitting on the lawn in the courtyard, and the sparrows were making a lot of noise, so Zhao Li was in a bad mood.

"Where are you going? Dad isn't home this week."

"Go back to Lu Chenyun, are you pretending to be stupid?" Shao Yue gnawed the biscuit loudly.

"I don't understand, what's wrong with you and Dad?" Zhao Li helplessly covered his forehead, "Everyone is urging me to do strange things."

"What's so strange?" Shao Yue said in a startling way: "After you knew the truth about Lu Chenyun's love for you, you didn't teach him a lesson. That's strange."

Zhao Li really wants to say that the person to be blamed for this matter is not right next to him?At this time, I heard Shao Yue say slowly: "If Lu Chenyun was replaced by Duan Hai today, I'm afraid Duan Hai would have been beaten beyond recognition by you." Unfortunately, the doctor who was used as an example is actually really nice, Shao Yue Jo liked him too.

I understand that what Shaoyue said is the truth, everything is an excuse for self-rationalization, Zhao Li has always treated Lu Chenyun with special treatment, now thinking about it, even Zhao Li himself is very surprised.

"Yes, I was nicer to him, so what?"

"Just answer me, do you miss him?"

Zhao Li didn't want to admit this kind of awkward question, in fact, he would think of Lu Chenyun every day, before they separated, he didn't even know that he would become like this.

He really missed Lu Chenyun's noisy voice, his most cheeky tone in the world, Lu Chenyun's tolerant eyes and charming smile, he even missed Lu Chenyun's kiss.

However, what he missed the most was the warmth Lu Chenyun gave him, which gave him a sense of security. This was something he had always lacked, and it could only be found in Lu Chenyun.

"...Just concentrate on recuperating, and you don't have to worry about my affairs." But it's useless to think about it any more. After all, his younger brother's condition has improved, and Zhao Li doesn't want to cause trouble.

"I think Lu Chenyun is pretty good." Shao Yue patted off the biscuit crumbs on his body, and reached out to touch a small flower that sprang out from the grass, "He is the first person who really understands your heart."

His feelings for Chao Li for seven years are true, but he has tried and loved, now is the time to let his brother be happy, he can allow Lu Chenyun and Chao Li to be together, because that man guarded Chao Li's life .

Unlike him who deprived Chao Li of everything, what Lu Chenyun did was to keep Chao Li alive. That man was destined to be his brother's only one.

"Brother Li, do what you want." Shao Yue showed a familiar smile to Zhao Li, "Don't miss the happiness you should have, okay?"

As the ninth month approached, Lu Chenyun received something that shocked him.

It was a piano piece, the same one they listened to in the car on the day of their date, but the moment Lu Chenyun heard the first note, he knew it was played by Zhao Li himself.

The only difference is that the lyrical melody is interpreted by Zhao Li, and each note has a wild and flamboyant charm, which directly hits Lu Chenyun's heart.

Miracles do exist.

It's really his Li Li who can play a piece he only listens to once so smoothly...

At the end of the 10-minute solo piece, Lu Chenyun sat still and was about to wait for the audio to play again automatically, when he heard Zhao Li's voice.

"I always feel that I play better than you, Lu Chenyun."

A laughing voice came out, and he didn't finally regain his senses until the same melody sounded again.

Lu Chenyun really didn't know how Zhao Li knew it was his own creation?However, after nine months, Zhao Li's magnetic voice is more captivating than any other moment in the past. Damn it, I knew it would be bad to let him go out alone.

Anyone with this kind of voice who is interested in him would rather die than throw himself down!Why don't you call him when you have time to record? ?

Lying on the bed, Lu Chenyun was sleepless all night.

No. For 12 months, Lu Chenyun didn't receive anything, which made him very worried, because Zhao Li always sent things to him on time at the beginning of the month.

Could it be sick?Could it be an accident?Or... Shao Yue went crazy and gave him to him again──The more he thought about it, the more frightened he became, Lu Chenyun shook his head vigorously to get rid of the uneasy thoughts.

The worst conclusion is that Zhao Li no longer sends him anything, which means that the man may never come back.

He finished his work at the bar and left early, usually staying there was just to pass the time, tonight he was not in such a mood.

Lu Chenyun drove to his gallery, intending to go in and inspect the carefully collected artworks, maybe it would be able to stabilize his impetuous mood for a whole day.

He always felt that going to the gallery was the right decision, gut feeling.

Before the car stopped, Lu Chenyun saw the person who wanted to forget but could not forget from a distance.

Zhao Li was leaning on the side of the car parked in front of the gallery, very similar to Lu Chenyun's appearance when he went to strike up a conversation for the first time, only this time there was an extra dim orange light from the front porch, which made Zhao Li feel like a whole Much softer, but he was still so handsome after not seeing him for a whole year, nothing changed.

And what about Lu Chenyun?After a year of growing up in solitude, he has grown a little more stable, but his mood is not stable now, he hurriedly got out of the car and ran towards the man, but stopped before the last few steps.

Lu Chenyun was very afraid that the scene in front of him was not reality.

"Oh, I'm still thinking that if you don't come after twelve o'clock, I will leave." Zhao Li's manner was still so neat and elegant, he slowly approached the speechless Lu Chenyun, and said lightly: "Didn't you say that Want me to browse your gallery? Why are you standing there stupidly?"

"What are you---" Lu Chenyun stretched out his hand to grab Chao Li's wrist, as if he wanted to confirm whether the man was real, or it was still just a dream, "I have prepared for a long-term war of resistance, and I thought you would be at least three years old Will come back later."

Lu Chenyun heaved a sigh of relief when his fingers touched the deep scars, the current Chao Li is real.

"Okay, then I'll go back, and we'll see you in three years." Zhao Li looked flat, as if he didn't care at all, and turned to leave.

"Zhaoli!" Lu Chenyun was startled, and quickly grabbed the opponent's arm.

After being pulled so hard by someone, he had to turn his face again, only then did Lu Chenyun realize that Zhao Li was smiling, a smile that was pure and free of impurities, and the beautiful arc made people's heart tremble.

Zhao Li knows that his love is placed in a very deep place, and only by realizing and admitting it can he understand whether it is love or not. He has to face it, so he came back.He thought that when they met again after being separated for so long, there would be an answer.

He took that step.

When he saw Lu Chenyun, his heart finally started beating again. After so many years of suspension, it finally beat for himself for the first time. He didn't have any burdens anymore. He was willing to explore the vague outline of love with Lu Chenyun.

"Let's try together, Lu Chenyun."

Lu Chenyun hugged him, and exchanged a deep kiss for the answer he had been waiting for for a year.

They don't know how long love can last, and they don't know if there will be any changes.

If you know, this is not called love. There are too many things in life that need to be stumbled and faced bravely. Love is just one of them. They will never know how long they can hold hands with each other.

A man who understands love but is unwilling to understand, a man who has love but dare not love, let them try, how far this love can go after experiencing growth.

And they don't know that their attempt is called eternal life.

──End of the full text

Extra

On Zhao Li's 35th birthday, Lu Chenyun finally couldn't bear it anymore. He put the high-end foreign wine that Guan Yan sent them on the table, and asked the other party very dissatisfied: "We have been together for so long, and you still refuse to be with me?" The reason why I said why you can't drink?"

He never imagined that he and Zhao Li would be able to go hand in hand so smoothly to the present. Although there were a lot of small disputes these years, most of the time they lived happily. Lu Chenyun even planned to propose to Chao Li after a while .

Zhao Li put down his chopsticks, with a helpless expression on his face, "What do you need to know? Didn't I say that my physique is not suitable?"

"Your dad said you knew how to drink before."

Upon hearing this, Zhao Li couldn't help but roll his eyes at him and said, "That's because I'm still young and ignorant."

"You were still drinking when you were 27 years old! Shao Yue said it!" He slapped the table violently, Lu Chenyun was dissatisfied that there was a secret between them that he didn't know.

Since Shaoyue recovered from his illness, he would occasionally come to chat with them, and would tell Lu Chenyun some interesting stories about Zhao Li's childhood from time to time, which made Lu Chenyun happy and jealous.

"Then I'm too old to drink now."

This is not convincing at all.

The sky, which has always been unfair, only made Zhao Li more and more handsome and charming. Every time he went out, Lu Chenyun was very vigilant, deeply afraid that anyone would be interested in his precious Zhao Li.

"Why can't you drink it?" Lu Chenyun continued to ask.

Zhao Li picked up the bowl and took a sip of the soup slowly, ignoring him.

"It's fine if you don't talk about it. Hey, let's have a drink, shall we?" Changing the method, Lu Chenyun looked flattering.

"I advise you not to, you will regret it."

Regardless of his warning, Lu Chenyun ran to get a pair of glasses and poured wine into them.

Zhao Li was silent for a few seconds and then sneered, "I really don't know what to do when I'm drunk, so don't regret it."

The next day, Lu Chenyun was lying on the bed with a prostrated face, and Zhao Li was sleeping beside him very soundly. The bare skin of the two of them can be said to be scarred and brilliant. I really hope that someone can award them medals.

It was true that Lu Chenyun's position as the main attacker was still firmly maintained in last night's battle, but the other person was abnormal. Zhao Li was like a wild horse that had run wild since he was drunk, and rode on Lu Chenyun all night—God knows, before Li Ke hated this gesture very much—after he was drained, he quarreled desperately and talked about it again. Lu Chenyun had no choice but to sacrifice his life to accompany the gentleman to completely satisfy the other party.

He really didn't expect that Zhao Li would get drunk so easily, and he looked like this when he was drunk—hungry and wild.

Fortunately, Zhao Li had no sexual experience before meeting him, and he was so strong that no one dared to mess around, otherwise, that sexy and alluring posture would have been eaten up by others without realizing it.

The powerless Lu Chenyun sighed, at this moment, Zhao Li, who was sleeping soundly, quietly wrapped his arms around his waist, and whispered in his ear:

"I love you."

Lu Chenyun smiled, stretched out his arms to hug Chao Li, and said in a satisfied tone: "I love you too, Li."

Hey, now he really doesn't mind letting Chao Li get drunk a few more times, even if he has the risk of exhaustion and death, he is willing to do so.

──End of episode