forgotten island

I don't know if it was because of the circuit, but the light bulb above his head suddenly dimmed. After Nan Qing finished asking, Zhang Chengyi pursed his lips until his lips turned white, and he didn't answer.Nan Qing just looked at him like this, waiting for his answer, but Zhang Chengyi didn't open his mouth to say a word until the light bulb returned to normal. He looked at Nan Qing in fear, and saw Nan Qing's always expressionless face. After such a slight ups and downs, at least those eyes were slightly red.

After a few seconds, Zhang Chengyi heard Nan Qing exhale slowly, which seemed to be a sigh, but also seemed to be disappointed, and then heard Nan Qing say: "Forget it... Zhang Chengyi... I forgive you, don't be here I wasted time here, I accept your apology, and please let me live a peaceful life."

In the end, he was driven out by Nan Qing, and the door closed without hesitation, almost hitting Zhang Chengyi's nose.The moonlight was cold and cold, shining on the silver-white door, it was inexplicably bleak, Nan Qing's words were still in his ears, and his reddish eyes seemed to be imprinted in front of his eyes, Zhang Chengyi stood in front of the door for a long time, his tall and lonely body was reflected on the door , After a long time, he moved his feet, but instead of walking, he sat down slowly along the door, like an abandoned puppy, leaning against the door with his knees bent.

The winter night was bitterly cold, Zhang Chengyi pulled the zipper of his clothes to the top, put his hands into the sleeves, put his ears against the cold door, listening to the movement inside, Zhang Chengyi was still worried, worried about the sick Nan Ching will have an accident at home alone.

There was not much movement in the house, it was difficult for Zhang Chengyi to hear clearly, but he still leaned on stubbornly, letting the cold front make his ears turn red from the cold. Fortunately, after a while, there was a sound of closing the door, Nan Qing should Back to the bedroom, Zhang Chengyi straightened up in relief.

He looked outside, and the moon had been covered by dark clouds, not a single bit of light came through.Zhang Chengyi's nose was a little sore. When he thought of Nan Qing's words of forgiveness, he felt extremely uncomfortable. He really wanted Nan Qing's forgiveness, but it wasn't like this. The forgiveness he wanted was Nan Qing's love. he.

But it was obvious that Nan Qing's forgiveness was just to cut off the last thread that entwine the two of them, and to obliterate their last connection.If Nan Qing eliminated all his disgust and hatred, it meant that he would no longer have himself in his heart, and he really had nothing else to ask for, and it was also irrelevant.

This forgiveness frightened him.

Zhang Chengyi's throat was extremely dry, and his Adam's apple rolled up and down with great difficulty, but the soreness did not subside, but became clearer. In the end, he could only cough a few times, but he was afraid that Nan Qing would hear him outside the door, so he had no choice but to He covered his mouth with extreme restraint to relieve the discomfort in his throat.

He softly called Nan Qing's name to the door, and the hot air he exhaled formed a circle of mist on the door. He blinked his eyes and put his ear on the door again. Nan Qing was separated from him. The two doors, and a certain distance, is a distance where Nan Qing's movement cannot be heard no matter what.

But Zhang Chengyi seemed to be stunned, as if he heard Nan Qing's heartbeat, one after another, he counted patiently, when the wind outside suddenly became stronger, the thick clouds that blocked the moon were blown away, exposing the corners, Zhang Chengyi's face was exposed to the light, his eyelashes were wet, the moonlight seemed to startle him, he raised his face blankly, he raised his hand to touch his chest, and suddenly realized that the heartbeat just now was his own .

Zhang Chengyi attributed all these illusions to sleepiness.

He hid his own heartbeat in exchange for the sound of his lover pacing.He didn't wake up from hysteria until the moonlight fell. He had no lover.

The moonlight is cool, casting a shadow by the door, a group of figures huddled in the corner, eyes closed, the distance between two doors is a luxury distance for Zhang Chengyi, so when sleepiness swept over him, he fantasized that he was lying on the bed. By Nanqing's side, all the unhappiness was wiped away.Fall asleep.

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Since the water was disconnected yesterday, Nan Qing felt much more comfortable when he got up, and his mind was clearer. He habitually glanced at his phone and received the news that his boss had given him a day off.Nan Qing was puzzled for a while, and replied thank you.Originally, she wanted to go back to sleep, but Nan Qing tossed and turned on the bed, unable to fall asleep, and finally got up.

The messy kitchen hadn't been tidied up yesterday, Nan Qing really didn't have the heart to make breakfast by himself, so he put on his coat and planned to go out to buy it, but when he opened the door, something fell down and hit Nan Qing's feet with a "boom", Nan Qing was so frightened that he took a step back instinctively and looked towards the ground.

There was a person lying on the board, and Nan Qing could tell who it was at a glance: "Zhang Chengyi?"

Zhang Chengyi was so thrown that his eyes were staring, his limbs were weak, he vaguely heard Nan Qing's voice, he raised his head with difficulty, Nan Qing was standing not far away, looking at him with a puzzled face.Zhang Chengyi felt that he must be sick, otherwise why did Nan Qing look so confused and why his ears kept humming.

Zhang Chengyi raised his head and didn't respond, as if he was stupid.

Nan Qing frowned and called him again, only then did Zhang Chengyi react, and he said, "No, it's okay, but this time, Zhang Chengyi realized that he couldn't make a sound at all, so he nodded, as a gift to Nan Qing." reaction.

"You stayed outside the door all night?"

Zhang Chengyi nodded.

Nan Qing looked at Zhang Chengyi with a face full of shock: "Zhang Chengyi, are you stupid to stay outside all night in winter?"

Zhang Chengyi really couldn't hear what Nan Qing was saying, so he stood up tremblingly, as if he could only do one movement, he nodded again, his footsteps were still soft, he finally stood up, he didn't dare to stay In Nanqing's house, he was afraid that Nanqing would get angry, so he moved his feet, wanting to walk, but suddenly lost the strength in his feet, and fell forward.

Nan Qing hated his own instincts, he almost rushed out when Zhang Chengyi fell down, and Zhang Chengyi fell firmly into Nan Qing's arms, with his head limply leaning on Nan Qing's shoulder.

This can be regarded as an active hug from Nanqing for a long time, although it was forced and out of desperation.

The moment Zhang Chengyi smelled Nanqing's scent, he was afraid that Nanqing would be angry, or that Nanqing would dislike him. These thoughts disappeared. He leaned motionless, trying to slow down his breathing, for fear that the sound of his breathing would make Nanqing react. .

Nan Qing was pushed back a step by Zhang Chengyi, who was nearly 1.9 meters tall. He raised his shoulders and called Zhang Chengyi's name a few times, trying to wake him up, but how could Nan Qing wake up someone who was pretending to be asleep? People, Zhang Chengyi wished that time would stand still, wished he could stick to Nan Qing's body, he seemed to be dead, without any movement.

After Nanqing called many times to no avail, he finally compromised. He supported Zhang Chengyi's body and threw him on the sofa impatiently. Nanqing's smell suddenly disappeared. Zhang Chengyi arched his nose in disappointment. A shadow fell, and Zhang Chengyi's whole body was stiff. He used all his concentration to make his closed eyes look like he was asleep. A few seconds later, a hand touched his face. .

"Are you masturbating yourself? As long as you have a brain, you won't act like sleeping outside in winter."

"That's fine, you took care of me yesterday, and I take care of you today, no one owes anyone else."

The shadow in front of Zhang Chengyi disappeared, and then he heard the sound of Nan Qing walking away. After a few seconds, there was a cold touch on his forehead, and a few minutes later, there was the sound of closing the door.

It took Zhang Chengyi a long time before he dared to open his eyes. He looked around, Nan Qing was not there, and he was really uncomfortable, but he hadn't fainted yet. He raised his hand and touched the fever-reducing patch on his forehead, thinking about it Feeling the touch of leaning against Nan Qing just now, he smiled with some self-satisfaction.

Nanqing hugged me today.

Zhang Chengyi thought on his own.This sweet fruit of self-hypnosis lasted until Nan Qing came back, but it didn't disappear.

Nan Qing looked at Zhang Chengyi who was sitting on the sofa, and put the things he bought on the table: "A bitter trick?"

Zhang Chengyi shook his head hastily, coughed hard a few times, opened his mouth, found that he could make a sound, and said, "No, I'm worried about you." What.

Nan Qing didn't say anything, turned around and poured him a glass of water, Zhang Chengyi happily took it immediately, drank it down, and then looked straight at Nan Qing with a very obedient appearance.Nan Qing couldn't stand Zhang Chengyi like this, so he turned around and went to the kitchen. He originally planned to go out to buy some breakfast, but thought that his health had just recovered, and there was an inexplicable patient at home, so he finally went to the vegetable market to buy some vegetables.

Nan Qing was busy in the kitchen, cleaned it roughly, and made two bowls of beef noodles. When they were served, Zhang Chengyi was still sitting on the sofa, and when he saw Nan Qing coming out, he immediately looked at him eagerly.

Nan Qing didn't speak until he sat down, "Come and eat."

In fact, Zhang Chengyi had a fever and really had no appetite to eat, but this bowl of beef noodles was made by Nan Qing, and he hadn't eaten a meal made by Nan Qing for a long, long time.

Zhang Chengyi carefully sat not far from Nan Qing, glanced at him quietly, saw Nan Qing eating with a calm expression, then lowered his head and took a sip of the soup, he didn't taste the taste, but his eyes were inexplicable The blurred, nose began to sore.

Nan Qing took a mouthful of noodles, and raised his head inadvertently. Out of the corner of his eye, he caught sight of Zhang Chengyi looking down at the noodles, not eating. Out of the mentality of wanting him to finish eating and leave quickly, he asked, "Why don't you eat?" ..."

Before the name "eat" was finished, Nan Qing was stunned. He saw Zhang Chengyi raised his head, his eyes were red, and there were tears on his face.

"Nanqing, you haven't cooked for me for a long time." Zhang Chengyi's voice was still hoarse, "I'm so happy, Nanqing."