your name

It would be a lie to say that it was not shocking, but it would also be a lie to say that it was not expected at all.

The first thought that popped up in Zuo Zhengyi's mind was "Sure enough", and the second reaction was "It's a bit disgusting".

Seeing him in a daze, Ji Jue kissed him a second time, sticking his tongue into his mouth.

Zuo Zhengyi finally came to his senses and began to struggle desperately, but Ji Jue might be addicted to kissing, uncharacteristically, he put aside his usual cautiousness in front of him, and pressed him against the wall with extreme force, using a method that would never allow him to The strength of resistance came to imprison him, kissing him forcefully.

Zuo Zhengyi trembled all over, he couldn't tell whether he was disgusted or angry.

His hands and feet were firmly held down, trying to bite Ji Jue with his teeth.But as soon as the jaw opened, the other party entered deeper, he was forced to raise his head, a trace of saliva flowed down his jaw, wet his fair neck, and embodied the wet stickiness of Xia Ye, Zuo Zhengyi was sweating all over.

With all his strength, he raised his knee and kicked Ji Jue.

This kick was so hard that it hit the abdomen, Ji Jue groaned in pain, bent down instinctively, but still hugged him and refused to let go.

Zuo Zhengyi tried to kick the second kick, but this time Ji Jue was prepared and blocked his leg ahead of time.While struggling, Zuo Zhengyi slid out of Ji Jue's arms, and the latter only had time to grab a piece of his clothes, followed him a few steps, and whispered, "Brother, I really like you."

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi paused.

The lips seemed to be swollen, and there was a subtle pain.The wrist also hurts, it was pinched by Ji Jue.

He took a deep breath, his stomach full of anger mixed with the mud in his head, and he said through gritted teeth: "Do you like me? I think you are a fucking sex maniac!"

"..." Ji Jue choked for a moment, and said without confidence, "I'm sorry, I couldn't hold back."

This sentence is a rare truth.

But Zuo Zhengyi was even angrier when he heard that. He just subconsciously wanted to push Ji Jue away and slip away, but walking away like this was too much of a sight to flee in panic, especially when Ji Jue was staring at him silently, as if he was aiming at him. a prey.

Really annoying.

Zuo Zhengyi didn't like this feeling at all.

"Don't stare at me." He hid his frightened heart, showed his composure when playing games, pretended not to care, and cast a cold glance at Ji Jue.

Ji Jue was warned by his glance, and he really restrained himself a little, staring down at the ground, and no longer looking at him.It took me a long time to say: "Actually, I have liked you for many years, brother, I have never lied to you maliciously."

Zuo Zhengyi didn't seem to hear.

But Ji Jue knew that he was listening, and said: "I know what you care about. You are so brooding about that incident four years ago, and I hurt your heart... At that time, I followed your advice, admitted my mistakes, and didn't explain anything. , actually because I dare not explain it.”

"..."

"I pretended to make you happy, cheated you to love me, how could it be to take advantage of you? I just want to keep you by my side, which is better than when you grow up and fall in love with someone else, go away and never want me again."

Zuo Zhengyi was slightly taken aback.

Ji Jue tried to approach him, but he immediately warned: "—Don't come over."

Ji Jue had no choice but to stop, stand where he was and said, "In those two years, I was actually very scared. I found out that I was gay, and I didn't dare to tell anyone—especially you, I was afraid that you would think I was disgusting."

"...I'm not that kind of person."

"I know that you have been kind since you were a child, you are kind to everyone, and you will not look down on me. But I am afraid, what if you want to avoid suspicion? You will never get close to me again, what should you do?"

"..."

"The day my uncle and I quarreled, you heard me." Ji Jue said, "The reason we quarreled was because he knew that I liked you. I was afraid that he would tell you the truth, so I said a few angry words in a daze... Sorry, I was really immature, outspoken, like a jerk."

"You're quite an asshole now." Zuo Zhengyi glanced at him, "Then my photo——"

"Yes, I did it on purpose."

Ji Jue raised his head and glanced at Zuo Zhengyi, then quickly turned his gaze away, not daring to look at him because of guilt: "I like you so much, I was so fascinated by you at that time—"

"Stop, stop, who asked you to explain the details?" Zuo Zhengyi recalled the shocking pile of nude photos back then, embarrassed and annoyed, "You are indeed a sex maniac, shameless when you are a teenager, shameless, pervert!"

"I'm sorry." Ji Jue touched his nose and said unexpectedly, "But I only have feelings for you... I don't have feelings for others."

Zuo Zhengyi immediately approached him and punched him: "You're quite proud? Do you want me to praise you?"

"No."

"Then don't make excuses."

"Okay, brother."

"..."

Ji Jue was slightly taller than Zuo Zhengyi, and now he lowered his head like a big obedient dog.Zuo Zhengyi stared at him for a few seconds, still calm on the surface, but in fact his heart was too messed up to figure it out.

——Ji Jue actually confessed to him.

By the way, he also confessed what happened four years ago.

It turned out that there was such a secret behind those outrageous nude photos and bad speeches, and the logic of the incident suddenly became smooth.

At that time Zuo Zhengyi couldn't figure it out, why did Ji Jue lie to him?Really don't care about him at all?Can only use his feelings?Treat him as a tool to make money and support the family?

He couldn't believe it, but he couldn't think of a second reason for cheating.

Every time he recalls it, he feels uneasy. It was the home he worked hard to maintain, but his family didn't love him.

Now Zuo Zhengyi understands that it's not that he doesn't love, but that the direction of love is skewed... Ji Jue is gay, and he not only wants his family, but also his love and his body.

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi shuddered, and was struck with goosebumps by this thought.

"I, I'm not gay." Zuo Zhengyi continued to maintain his superficial calm, suppressed his fur, and bluffed, "I don't know what you want to do by confessing to me suddenly, do you want me to agree? No, absolutely Impossible, I don't like men, but I'm not a heartless person either."

He paused, observed Ji Jue's expression, and saw that Ji Jue was cautiously bowing his head "waiting to be dealt with", he calmed down and continued: "I still have feelings for you, I am your brother, Ji Jue Do you know the saying that elder brother is like father? Now that the misunderstanding four years ago has been clarified, my temper is not that bad, I am easy to talk, and I am willing to tolerate your problems, as long as you don’t do it again, understand? "

"..."

Ji Jue didn't seem to understand, raised his head, and asked, "Then what should I do in the future?"

"What should I do?" Zuo Zhengyi glared at him, with an expression of "I have forgiven you so much, yet you dare to talk back", and said displeasedly, "I said I don't like men, can't you hear me?" Do you understand?"

This kind of rejection was still not strong enough, Zuo Zhengyi thought for a while and said, "Actually, it's not just about sexual orientation. I thought about it from another angle. If you were a girl, I wouldn't like your type either. We are not suitable."

Ji Jue was stunned for a moment, and tentatively said: "Then how about you change the angle? If you were a girl, would you like a boyfriend like me?"

Zuo Zhengyi glanced at him incredulously: "Does this assumption make sense? I am a man, not a woman."

"..."

There was no moon tonight, and the light from nowhere shone on Zuo Zhengyi's face, half-bright, as if a layer of water had been sprinkled on his face, and the light and shadow wobbled, confusing his gaze.

He didn't seem to be as angry as before, but the embarrassment hadn't faded away, his cold white skin was a little red, but he was still full of vigor, giving Ji Jue advice, as if a few words had arranged the rest of his life.

Ji Jue was silent for a while.

Can't help but look up at Zuo Zhengyi again.

The eyes of the two collided, and the silence of just a second was unexpectedly prolonged by embarrassment and unspeakable ambiguity, as long as a century.

A century later, Ji Jue asked: "Then what genre do you like?"

Zuo Zhengyi was stopped by questioning.

He never thought about it.

Does a swordsman who pursues the supreme sword intent need to worry about love?unnecessary.

Of course, he didn't make up his mind to die alone. He was only 19 years old, so he didn't think so much.

Wait until ten years later——ten years later, you will only be 29 years old. It won't be too late to think about relationship issues then, right?

"I don't know." Zuo Zhengyi said, "Not everyone has the same love brain as you. What's the point of being in love? Scorpion has lost two games in a row. I advise you to calm down and do something serious."

"..."

Ji Jue was scolded again, but this time he was a little bit dissatisfied: "It's not my problem to lose."

Zuo Zhengyi refused to comment, and changed the subject: "Your sword umbrella is very good, but cooperating with teammates is more important than a personal show. I can feel that your style is very similar to mine, but don't be too good. Learn to be bad."

Zuo Zhengyi maintained his composure, and finished speaking what he should say as a brother. At the end, he patted Ji Jue on the shoulder, showing his magnanimity: "You go back, don't think about those who have and don't, I really want to When you are in love, find a suitable person to talk to, and you are not allowed to find me, do you understand?"

No matter how Ji Jue answered, Zuo Zhengyi turned around and left.

But Ji Jue called behind him: "Brother."

"What's the matter?" Zuo Zhengyi turned his head impatiently.

"I only like you." Ji Jue said, "I don't have anyone suitable except you. Even if you don't agree, I will always like you."

"..."

"Okay, then you like it." Zuo Zhengyi grabbed a leaf and threw it on Ji Jue's face, as if using a leaf instead of a paw to scratch him, said gloomily, "As you like, it's annoying."