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It has to be said that Zuo Zhengyi admired Ji Jue a little.

Ji Jue has been chasing after him since the first time he took the initiative to call him "brother" when he was six years old, and never backed down no matter what difficulties he encountered.

Leaving aside whether some methods in this process are honorable or not, at least Ji Jue is a persevering person.

Zuo Zhengyi was also very strange. He was not moved by Yu Ji Jue's deep affection for him. What moved him was that Ji Jue suddenly inspired him—he should also persevere, not be afraid of surgery, and firmly move towards a new stage of life.

This thought appeared in his mind, it was almost comically out of place, Zuo Zhengyi unconsciously started to be dazed.

Ji Jue outside the door was also stunned for a moment, thinking that he was thinking of a new reason for refusing to stay overnight, and insisted: "If the sofa doesn't work, I can sleep on the floor as well."

Zuo Zhengyi: "..."

"Okay, you come in."

Now that we've talked about this, Zuo Zhengyi can't push people away.In fact, the house he rented was more than 90 square meters, and it was not without a second bedroom. He said that just to refuse Ji Jue.

But the bedding in the second bedroom was an old thing that the previous tenant hadn't taken away, so it wasn't very clean, so it wasn't convenient for Ji Jue to sleep on.

Zuo Zhengyi briefly explained the situation and let him decide where to sleep.

Ji Jue went to the second bedroom and turned around, returned to the living room, pointed to the sofa and said, "That's it, it's pretty good."

The backrest of the sofa can be folded down to form a small bed.Ji Jue lay down on the bed and measured it. He was tall and had long legs, nearly 1.9 meters tall. It was a pity that he was lying on the sofa bed, and he couldn't even stretch his legs.

But his expression was very satisfied, without any complaints.

Zuo Zhengyi stared at him, looking from his head to his feet, Nahan asked, "Have you grown taller?"

"Really?" Ji Jue didn't know it. Hearing this, he stood up and walked in front of Zuo Zhengyi. Using him as a ruler, he roughly measured their current heights with his hands at a very close distance. Poor, "It seems to be a little higher."

Ji Jue quickly came to a conclusion, but he did not back away after the test.His hand moved down from the top of Zuo Zhengyi's head, there was nowhere to put it, and somehow it fell on his waist.

"..."

The two people got close, and the sound of heartbeat and breathing suddenly amplified.Ji Jue's eyes were burning, and he couldn't hide the longing in his heart.

He wanted to kiss Zuo Zhengyi, wanted to push him onto the sofa behind him, into his arms, and do something hearty and intimate.

But no.If he was still as presumptuous as before, Zuo Zhengyi would be angry.

After breaking up for more than three months, the smell he had left in Zuo Zhengyi's body for countless days and nights disappeared.The lovers turned back into brothers, like putting human skin on a beast again. His hands clenched on the back of Zuo Zhengyi's waist, and he endured and endured.

Ji determined to think that he seemed to be tamed, and he was willing to lock his hands and feet and hand over the key to Zuo Zhengyi.

But his master didn't seem to understand, so he just walked away as if nothing had happened, and said as if entertaining a guest: "I'll go get you a pillow, do you want a quilt? It seems that there is no extra..."

"It's okay, I'll just make it right." Ji Jue answered obediently, sat down at the coffee table, and suddenly asked, "Brother, do you have a pen and paper?"

Zuo Zhengyi was puzzled: "What do you need a pen and paper for?"

Ji Jue said: "Write the review, didn't you say you need to write more copies?"

Zuo Zhengyi: "..."

The two pairs of eyes looked at each other silently, Zuo Zhengyi's eyelashes flickered, as if he was pleased, he suddenly smiled, then curled up the corners of his mouth, and said seriously: "There is no pen and paper, you can write on your mobile phone, and send it when the time comes." My electronic version."

"it is good."

After hearing what he said, Ji Jue tapped on the notepad on his mobile phone, fiddled all night, and wrote a lot of words.

Zuo Zhengyi was playing games on the side. At first he paid attention to Ji Jue from the corner of his eye, but then he couldn't help but start to feel sleepy. The background music of "Cat Manor" continued to play, but the phone slipped from his palm. He unknowingly leaned on the sofa fell asleep.

Half asleep and half awake, Zuo Zhengyi felt himself being picked up and put on the bed in the bedroom.

The other party kissed his forehead, itching.Realizing that it was Ji Jue, he subconsciously slapped him and muttered, "You are so annoying."

But Ji Jue gently held his arm, stuffed it back into the quilt, and said softly, "Good night."

"……Good night."

Zuo Zhengyi answered in his heart, his consciousness sank, and he fell into a deeper dream.

He hasn't had a good dream for a long time.

The seagulls and corals that he loved when he was young suddenly appeared, and the warm sea water of Tanzhou Island enveloped him.He suddenly seemed to be back in the arms of his mother. She hummed a lullaby and sang softly: Sleep, my dear... baby...

Although Zuo Zhengyi didn't remember his mother's voice for a long time, her gentleness was so real, healed the wounds on his body and heart, melted love into the sound of "baby", and coaxed him to sleep.

This dream made Zuo Zhengyi feel relieved and a little embarrassed when he woke up the next day. He didn't expect that he was a "mother boy" in his bones.

What was even more embarrassing was that the moment he opened his eyes, the person sitting by the bed and calling him "baby" was Ji Jue.

Ji Jue didn't know when he woke up, and now he stared at him refreshed, stretched out his hand to brush his forehead hair, and said, "Baby brother, if you don't get up again, breakfast will be cold."

Zuo Zhengyi: "..."

Today is the last day of August, Wednesday.

While eating breakfast together, Ji Jue told Zuo Zhengyi that he had already made an appointment with the doctor, and he could go to the hospital for an examination in the afternoon.

The doctor, surnamed Zhang, has rich experience and is said to have operated on other professional players.

Theoretically speaking, tenosynovitis surgery is not difficult to do. Generally, there are two methods, minimally invasive without surgery, and there is a risk of tendon damage.The other is open surgery, in which a scalpel is used to cut the tendon sheath, which is still risky, but the treatment effect is relatively good, and the operation is also done quickly, and the stitches can be removed two weeks after the operation.

If it is an ordinary patient, it can be cured without any suspense at this point.

But for pros, there is rest, rehabilitation, and resignation after stitches are removed.

Ji Jue told him all the information he knew in detail.After listening, Zuo Zhengyi asked, "Who is that professional player? What happened after he finished?"

Ji Jue replied: "It's UG's former jungler. He did it after he retired. Now he's working as an anchor. I heard it's pretty good."

"..."

Anchor, Zuo Zhengyi thought to himself, what kind of state do you need to be a game anchor?It is not at the same level as playing professionally.

But things have come to this point, he can only take this as a success story to encourage himself.

Zuo Zhengyi wasn't as depressed as he was a few days ago.

Ji Jue's company made him feel much better. When he went to the hospital in the afternoon, Ji Jue helped him with all the procedures.Like a primary school student, he followed Ji Jue obediently, as if he didn't understand anything, he couldn't even tell the difference between east, west, north and south, and was led away by his "parents".

It was Ji Jue who answered the doctor's question, and he only nodded when confirming the operation time.

——September 9, that is, surgery on Friday.

When leaving the hospital, Zuo Zhengyi, who had been silent for a long time, finally spoke. He said, "Tomorrow I want to travel far away."

Ji Jue glanced at him and said, "I know where you are going."

"you know?"

"Well, to see grandma, shall I?"

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi acquiesced.He booked the plane ticket on the way home, and booked two tickets at Ji Jue's request.

Whenever grandma was mentioned, Zuo Zhengyi inevitably felt a little disappointed.

There are too many regrets in his heart, and he can't fill them anymore.The day after tomorrow, the scalpel is about to cut off his life, forcing him to move towards a brand new future. No matter what the result is, there is no chance to start over.

What cannot be repeated is the relatives lying in the cemetery, and the boyhood that has gone away.

Maybe because he sensed that he was not in a good mood, Ji Jue started to be a man with his tail clamped from the moment Zuo Zhengyi booked the plane ticket. If it was not necessary, he didn't say a word. He picked up this bag of trash that made a mistake, and then threw it away.

Ji Jue's reticence persisted until Zuo Zhengyi's grandma's grave.

They got off the plane at noon and didn't have time to eat, so they bought the sacrifices and came to the cemetery.

Zuo Zhengyi made a special trip here, one is to pay homage, and the other is to seek peace of mind.Ji Jue came to apologize, so that before Zuo Zhengyi said anything, he knelt down first.

The granite tombstone stands tall, and the old man in the black and white photo is smiling, as kind as when he was alive.

Ji Jue's eyes were rarely red, and he said sorry, when he was 11 years old, when he changed his phone number and threw away the letter, he was more timid than bold.He was too afraid that Zuo Zhengyi would be taken away.

How many things can a person fear to the bone in his life?

For Ji Jue, being separated from Zuo Zhengyi was the first thing, even death came after him.

Comparing his heart to his heart, he wanted to be with Zuo Zhengyi, so why not the old man?

Ji Jue murmured: "At that time, I thought, maybe in my brother's heart, I am more important. But what grandma can give him is a better family and future. In this comparison, I am insignificant."

Zuo Zhengyi glanced at him.

Ji Jue lowered his head and knelt on the hot bricks and stones: "But recently I realized that compared with getting Zuo Zhengyi, I actually still hope that he can have a better future."

"..."

Ji Jue's voice was stagnant, and he said softly, "I was wrong, I'm sorry."

Zuo Zhengyi placed flowers in front of the tombstone, and knelt down too.

He didn't speak for a long time, the wind in the cemetery blew past him, as if someone was caressing his face.Zuo Zhengyi was taken aback for a moment, feeling something in his heart, and couldn't hold it back for a moment, the tears he had accumulated from the World Championship until today finally came out of his eyes.

"Grandma." Zuo Zhengyi kowtowed heavily, "I know, no matter what you say now, you can't hear it. So these words are actually for me. Over the years, I have always hoped that someone would give me a Maybe it's not because of family love, but because I want to find a place to hide from the rain when I am defeated by the wind and rain."

Ji Jue stared at him blankly.

Zuo Zhengyi said: "But the rain won't stop. Even if I can escape for a few days, I will eventually come out. I am... not afraid anymore. I will have surgery tomorrow, no matter what the final result is, I will accept it. "

Zuo Zhengyi wiped away his tears and stood up.He swept away the haze, and stood up straight again like a reborn, as if the storm could not break it.

He looked down at Ji Jue.

Ji Jue still knelt in front of the tomb, begging for forgiveness with his bent spine.Chi Chi looked up at him and asked, "Can I still have... the chance to hold an umbrella for you?"

Zuo Zhengyi was silent for a while, and finally nodded.

"Do it again."

When the personnel and affairs are dispersed, the previous dust is overturned, at least he and Ji Jue can choose to return to the correct starting point and start again.