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May 5th is a festival for lovers. Although it does not have a long history like Qixi Festival and Valentine's Day, it is a "Internet Festival" that has only emerged in recent years, but it is still a happy day.

Zuo Zhengyi and Ji Jue broke up on 520.

On the first night of the breakup, Zuo Zhengyi couldn't sleep well and had nightmares for half the night.

These nightmares are not scary, but they are all unfortunate events, piecemeal, illogical, happening one after another like fast-moving movie plots, until Zuo Zhengyi woke up with a start.

When he opened his eyes, those images disappeared, and he couldn't even remember what he had dreamed of, only the heavy emotions remained, lingering in the dark bedroom.

Before dawn.

Zuo Zhengyi couldn't sleep anymore.

He sat on the bed in a daze, thinking nothing, just stayed there for 10 minutes.Then get out of bed, push the door out in pajamas and slippers, there is a refrigerator in a corner of the corridor, which stores drinks and snacks.

Zuo Zhengyi took out a can of Coke, and when he came back, he found a light leaking from the crack of Ji Jue's door.

——At four o'clock in the morning, some people are still awake.

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi clutched the Coke can and frowned, feeling so annoyed.

The irritability is even more than the pain, reminding him of his helplessness for all the bad developments in life, the happiness he got will be lost, and the people who accompany him will leave.Is it his fault?

He just didn't want to endure it, and he didn't want to compromise on anything.

But if there is no grievance, there will be another kind of grievance, which is not happy at all.

Is Ji Jue happy?

Zuo Zhengyi thought belatedly, when he tampered with the phone number, would Ji Jue's writing hand shake?

Did he have any apprehensions and consciences when he received those letters and threw them away?

After they started dating, would he have nightmares, worrying about leaking his words and revealing things?

Probably not, Ji Jue is a heartless person, he is happy when he gets what he wants, and he is not afraid of anything.

Zuo Zhengyi hated him and envied him at the same time. If he lived like him alone, he would really die happily. He would not be tortured in his heart, and all the pain would be borne by others.

——Ji Jue, you are really amazing.

Zuo Zhengyi almost deformed the can, and the entanglements in his heart caused by deleting the photos immediately dissipated.

He regretted not looking at Ji Jue a few more times after deleting, so that he could clearly remember Ji Jue's expression at that time, dull and pale, which is really rare.

Forget it.

Zuo Zhengyi opened the Coke and drank it all, and threw the empty can into the trash can.

He should stop thinking about it.

In order to divert attention, Zuo Zhengyi closed the door tightly and lay on the bed searching for information about the World Championship.

After searching, he fell asleep, and fell asleep until the alarm clock rang the next morning. Zuo Zhengyi got up exhausted, checked the time, and went to wash up.

……

Breaking up is not a catastrophe, the earth turns as usual, and the sun still rises high.

The word "World Championship" is the most important thing on everyone's head.After a simple breakfast, at ten o'clock, the whole team gathered in the conference room to start the plan for the first day of pre-match special training.

The meeting room of Scorpion is very large. In order to reduce the hard work of replaying, many different types of seats are set up in the room. There are chairs and sofas, which are scattered and arranged for everyone to sit at will.

When Zuo Zhengyi entered, Ji Jue was already there.

Ji Jue doesn't look very energetic today, probably because he didn't sleep well last night.Zuo Zhengyi only glanced at it from the corner of his eye, then looked away.He chose a seat far away and sat down, and he didn't take a second look at Ji Jue the whole time after that.

But Zuo Zhengyi could feel that Ji Jue's eyes fell on him from time to time.

The more Ji Jue looked at him, the more he had to relax his posture, keep his eyes on the coach, devote himself to his work, and not be distracted by personal affairs.

From today until the end of the World Championship, Scorpion will no longer have a holiday.

The special training lasted until the end of June, but the so-called special training did not go anywhere in particular. It was to study solutions and develop new styles of play for foreign strong teams. It also gave targeted training to individual players to increase the training intensity of the whole team. Similar to the sprint stage before the college entrance examination.

It is a great advantage to be able to invite Park Yecheng during this period. He is very familiar with the strong teams in South Korea and has a certain understanding of European and American teams. He can improve the overall level of Scorpion by more than 01:30 points.

The task on the first day is not heavy, mainly the communication between the head coach and the players.

Coach Park has a kind personality, but he pointed out the problems without ambiguity.He specially watched the previous game of Scorpion, and he came prepared today.He sent each player a document in which he wrote his evaluation of them and suggestions.

In addition to this, there were some inquiries. For example, he asked Zuo Zhengyi: Why did you do this in the XX minute of the XX game?

He even asked some questions that surprised Zuo Zhengyi: Why do you like playing AP big core?What advantages do you think this system has over other genres?Is there an irreplaceable necessity?

This kind of question is simply the most basic score-giving question. You can find a bunch of standard answers if you search the Internet casually.But Pu Yecheng used it to ask him, what do you want to hear from him?

The reason why Pu Yecheng wrote all these contents on paper and sent them to the players was because the on-site communication required translation, and it was too time-consuming to translate every sentence into Chinese.

He translated in advance, let them think and communicate in the conference room, and then speak their answers.

Zuo Zhengyi glanced at the copy in Yan Qingyun's hand, and saw the sentence "Talk about your understanding of offensive support".Yan Qingyun also stared at this sentence, feeling that this question is a bit redundant, Scorpion seldom uses offensive support, this was the case before, and it should be the same in the future.

But they are very cooperative, Zuo Zhengyi first said: "From the first day I came into contact with this game, I like playing mages. The AP big core flow can bring the advantages of traditional mages to the extreme, explosive, AOE output, this point It’s different from the ADC that is biased towards single output. But I don’t actually prefer AP big cores, I—”

There were a lot of people in the meeting room, all looking at him, Zuo Zhengyi paused, and said something that surprised everyone except Ji Jue: "I insist on using the big nuclear mage because I am not confident in other styles of play." Come carry."

The surrounding was quiet for a moment, only the interpreter was speaking in a low voice, faithfully conveying every word he said to the coach.

Zuo Zhengyi's frankness shattered his aura of omnipotence. He was a genius, but he exposed his mortal side.

——It turns out that End would also be unconfident.

Zhang Zili, Song Xianfeng and Yan Qingyun all looked at him blankly.

But everyone is not a fool. The reason why Zuo Zhengyi is not confident about other styles of play is that he doesn't trust himself, and the other reason is obvious, he doesn't trust his teammates and coaches.

When his team cannot provide him with stable and reliable support, he tends to rely more and more on himself, weakening the role of others, and going to the extreme of "one-man game".

What is most needed at this time is to have a good coach to mediate and lead the team back to the right path.

Fortunately, Scorpion invited Pu Yecheng.

It was also because of this that Zuo Zhengyi was able to say the phrase "not confident" without any scruples.

The "halo" is tired after wearing it for a long time, he is indeed just a mortal.

When it was Yan Qingyun's turn, Yan Qingyun truthfully explained his understanding of offensive support. The coach also asked him which kind he prefers to play. Looks interesting."

Pu Yecheng recorded their answers one by one, Zhang Zili and Song Xianfeng were next, and Ji Jue was the last to speak.

Because he was sitting far away, Zuo Zhengyi couldn't see what was written on Ji Jue's piece of paper.

The coach seemed to ask him why he switched from ADC to jungler, because his answer was: "I have always practiced as a jungler, and ADC is a side job."

Ji Jue said concisely. After the translation, Pu Yecheng asked him, "Can you tell me why you like playing jungle?"

"..."

Ji Jue was silent on this question, and Zuo Zhengyi was also silent.

It can be seen that office romance does have its dangers.

——Ji Jue first played jungle because Zuo Zhengyi liked to play mid laner since he was a child, and he wanted to make a pair.

But how can you tell the coach this kind of thing?It doesn't make sense to say it. The coach asked these questions today to find out their psychological play preferences and gain a deeper understanding of them.

Zuo Zhengyi lowered his head, feeling suffocated.

He didn't look up at Ji Jue, but he could hear Ji Jue's breathing.For some reason, the voice seemed to be amplified, noisy, and drilled into his ears specifically, disturbing him.

It took a long time for Ji Jue to open his mouth, and what he said was: "Because it's cooler to play wild."

There was a burst of laughter in the conference room.

Ji Jue always likes to put on a bad face, so his mood is not obvious, everyone thinks he is joking.Ji Jue didn't explain, and he glanced at Zuo Zhengyi again, not knowing what to expect, his eyes were so scorching that Zuo Zhengyi's side face seemed to be roasted, but he still didn't turn his head to look at him.

The meeting lasted for several hours. At the beginning, it was about understanding and communication, and then began to talk about the training plan.

Around one o'clock, the logistics team brought the lunch upstairs, and everyone ate while working. The atmosphere on the first day was quite good.

——Except for Zuo Zhengyi and Ji Jue.

With great patience, Zuo Zhengyi stayed up until night to finish work.Whenever he had free time during the trip, Ji Jue wanted to come and talk to him, but Zuo Zhengyi avoided them all. He didn't want to talk and had nothing to say.

When returning to the room after work, Ji Jue wanted to follow him in again.

Zuo Zhengyi pretended not to see anyone behind him, and closed the door neatly. With a bang, Ji Jue's breathing finally stopped, and that annoying gaze was no longer there.Zuo Zhengyi laid down on the bed exhausted, thinking, how could he survive a day after feeling tired for several years?

He rolled over and stared at the ceiling.

While in a daze, the phone suddenly vibrated, and there was a WeChat message.

Decision: "Am I still on your friend list?"

Decision: "Okay, here."

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi didn't think about deleting friends at all. Thanks for the reminder, he clicked on delete.

A sentence popped up on the screen:

Deleting a contact with "decision" will delete the chat history with the contact at the same time.

The following two options, "Cancel" and "Delete", Zuo Zhengyi wandered around with his fingers, and a belated question suddenly popped up in his heart.

Does he want to have nothing to do with Ji Jue forever?

He met Ji Jue when he was three years old, and when he was six years old, Ji Jue took the initiative to call him brother for the first time.They grew up together, and thought they would grow old together, buried in a cemetery after death, and become a family in the underworld.

But 17 years later, they broke up.

Zuo Zhengyi's life is empty, and there is no second relative, close friend or lover with whom he has been in love for 17 years.

Does Ji Jue feel confident because of this?

The more Zuo Zhengyi thought about it, the more resentful he became, and he returned to the chat interface.

Jue: "I'm sorry, brother, I want to apologize to you. How do you want me to apologize and what compensation do you want me to make? Tell me, I will definitely carry it out."

End: "It is impossible for me to reconcile with you."

These two messages were sent out at the same time, they had an amazing tacit understanding, and the questions and answers were right.

After a while, there is new news.

Decision: "Okay, I have one last question."

End: "You ask."

Jue: "Do you still like me?"

End: "I don't like it."

End: "You're right, I've never liked you. It was because you were kind to me before, and I mistook dependence for liking, and got together with you in a daze. In fact, I don't like you at all, not at all, not at all. loved."

Decision: "..."

Judgment: "Yes."

Decision: "Okay."

Jue: "You really hate me to death, Zuo Zhengyi, you'd be willing if my life would be worse than death."

End: "Stop talking about this, it's boring."

End: "Train well, if this incident affects your performance in the World Championship, you should really apologize with death."

After posting, Zuo Zhengyi deleted Ji Jue.

In the following month, the special training schedule was busy, and he and Ji Jue met every day, but they never spoke a single word again.