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The shopping mall where Zuo Zhengyi and Ji Jue ate was not far from the base, so they took a taxi back.Zuo Zhengyi recalled the past while eating popcorn in the car, accusing his biological father of being nothing.

Ji Jue remembered it as clearly as his memory.

Zuo Zhengyi's father is Zuo Yi. As a married man, he traveled to Tanzhou Island, met a local woman, cheated on him and gave birth to Zuo Zhengyi, and then left without caring about their mother and child.

Later, Zuo Zhengyi's mother died of illness, and Zuo Zhengyi grew up in Ji's family. Zuo Yi came to look for him, but he didn't intend to take him home. He only left some money, and Zuo Zhengyi threw him to the ground on the spot.

For 20 years, Zuo Zhengyi only saw Zuo Yi once, and never called him "Dad".

Having the surname "Zuo" with him is a disgrace to Zuo Zhengyi.

But the name was chosen by my mother. I don't know what kind of mood the woman was in back then, and whether she had any regrets when she was dying.

Zuo Zhengyi chewed the popcorn loudly, turned to Ji Jue and said, "Hey, did he come to ask me to borrow money? Isn't it usually like this? A classmate or relative who hasn't been in touch for many years suddenly Come out, nothing else but to borrow money..."

Ji Jue said: "It's possible. Would you like to borrow it?"

"I'll lend him a hammer." Zuo Zhengyi snorted coldly, "For grandma's sake at most, give him 250 yuan and throw him in the face."

Ji Jue: "..."

Zuo Zhengyi wasn't speaking out of anger, he didn't have any feelings for his father, nor did he have any expectations, and he didn't expect him to suddenly realize his conscience and recognize him, and have a happy family reunion ending.

That's something that can only be found in dog-blood family ethics dramas, and he doesn't want it.

But borrowing money is just speculation, in fact, it is unlikely.The reason is simple, no one should be so thick-skinned, right?Borrowing money from the son he abandoned for many years?

Not sure though.

Zuo Zhengyi sneered in his heart, not afraid to speculate about his father with the worst malice, but this did not make him happy, on the contrary, he felt a bit inexplicably sad.

"It's so annoying." Zuo Zhengyi muttered, "Why didn't I jump out of a crack in the rock? Why do I have to have a father?"

"..."

Ji Jue pressed his hand and comforted him: "Don't be angry, just treat him as a passerby, meet him casually, and send him away."

Ji Jue's selfishness was obvious, but Zuo Zhengyi didn't hear it, and he didn't care.They finally arrived at the gate of the base and threw the finished popcorn and empty Coke cups into the trash can. Zuo Zhengyi entered the door and told Ji Jue to wait for him in the training room, then went straight to the reception room and saw the "passers-by" .

To be honest, Zuo Zhengyi had long forgotten what Zuo Yi looked like.

But memory is a strange thing. It was a face that he could not remember clearly, but when it appeared in front of him again, Zuo Zhengyi felt familiar and recognized him immediately.

Zuo Yi is quite tall, wearing a suit, leather shoes, and his hair is neatly combed, very decent.

But he is not young anymore, with a few strands of inconspicuous white in his temple hair, wrinkles on his face, a not too straight waist, and a little thin, which makes his aura a bit shorter than the arrogant and ruthless father in Zuo Zhengyi's memory. , It really is old.

——Old, but also kind.

As soon as he saw Zuo Zhengyi, he immediately stood up from the sofa, turned his head and smiled, and called, "Zhengyi."

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi sized him up, but didn't respond.

The team leader, surnamed Zhao, was in charge of the reception. Seeing Zuo Zhengyi's expression, he thought he had received the wrong person. He was a little strange for a while, but before he could ask, he heard Zuo Zhengyi say "Thank you Brother Zhao", and said to His father said, "Let's talk in another place."

Zuo Zhengyi turned around and left, Zuo Yi had no choice but to follow.The father and son, one behind the other, walked through the corridor to Zuo Zhengyi's room.

Zuo Zhengyi closed the door and opened the chair in front of the computer desk for his father to sit on. His tone was more polite than Team Leader Zhao, and at the same time, he showed a bit of appropriate indifference, which made him unapproachable.

Some people get old and some people grow up.

Zuo Zhengyi is like a towering white poplar in time, straight and flourishing, it is the time to grow.

Zuo Yi looked at him, his eyes turned red, and said, "You are very similar to me when I was young."

Zuo Zhengyi almost rolled his eyes, and said bluntly, "I'm not like you. I won't cheat, and I won't abandon my wife and son after the Dongchuang incident and be a coward."

"..."

Zuo Yi choked up and stopped talking.

He didn't sit down either, he just stood at the door and scanned the interior furnishings with his eyes. He seemed to be eight-point distressed and two-point shrinking, pretending to be a human being.Zuo Zhengyi wanted to scold him even more after seeing it, but he held back and only asked, "How did you get in?"

Zuo Yi said: "I have an ID card and a photo of you when you were a child."

Zuo Zhengyi was surprised: "Where did you get the photo?"

"Your grandma left it behind." Zuo Yi said, "She has been worried about you, and she couldn't get in touch. Before she died, she begged me to bring you back."

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi was stunned for a moment, and didn't understand what "can't get in touch" meant for a moment. Back then, his grandma left a mobile phone number, and he also left a number, which was the landline at home.

Later, he called his grandma, but couldn't get through, thinking that her mobile phone was broken and lost, or she was forced to repent and simply didn't want to contact him.He understood and sympathized with her difficulties.

So it wasn't her repentance, was it because she couldn't contact him?

Zuo Yi glanced at Zuo Zhengyi, seeing that his expression had softened when he heard the word "grandma", so he began to focus on the emotional card, and said, "She also wrote you a letter, I wonder if you received those letters? Alas, it happened many years ago, and I feel a little ashamed to mention it now."

"Ashamed?" Zuo Zhengyi sneered, "She is an old lady, too old and weak to go out, are you too? If you are really ashamed, please contact me for her. Did you help? Afraid that I will come to your door and affect your family harmony, right? ?”

"..."

Zuo Yi turned his face away and said in a low voice: "I have my difficulties, you are still young, you don't understand."

"Why don't I understand? Your wife and children don't agree. They are all victims and can't be hurt again, right?" Zuo Zhengyi said very understandingly, "Your good intentions are in vain. You are such a good husband." , good father. It would be better if he didn't cheat and cause so many troubles."

Zuo Yi's face turned red and then pale, but since he dared to come, he was obviously mentally prepared, and he was not afraid of Zuo Zhengyi's sarcasm.

He pondered for a few seconds, and said, "Today I—"

Zuo Zhengyi reminded: "Say something straight, I don't want to hear your tricks."

"..."

Zuo Yi paused, cut out all the provocative words, and said directly: "I have stomach cancer, the same disease as your grandma, in the terminal stage, the doctor said there is still half a year left."

Zuo Zhengyi finally took a good look at him, but there was only surprise on his face, without any sadness or sympathy: "So?"

"So I... want to see you before I leave, and make amends to you. For so many years, it's my father who has been sorry for you and failed to fulfill his responsibilities as a father, leaving you alone—"

"No need!" Zuo Zhengyi interrupted him, "I'm living a good life, happier than you, richer, and more loved than you. Don't come to trouble me, it's the best compensation for me .”

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi's temper was stronger than he expected.

In fact, before coming here, Zuo Yi saw the news about Zuo Zhengyi on the Internet.It is very rare to know that he is young and promising, with extraordinary achievements. Although he was not raised by his parents, he is not crooked.

Zuo Yi didn't understand e-sports, and couldn't understand what those games were. He only knew that Zuo Zhengyi had an important event that ended recently, and he might have time to sit down and have a good talk with him, so he came to him at this time.

But it seemed that Zuo Zhengyi didn't want to have a good talk with him, every sentence was thorny, his eyes were not kind, and he wished that he would go away quickly.

It's really unnecessary to be self-defeating like this.To say how deep the father-son relationship is between them is to deceive oneself and others.But Zuo Zhengyi is his own son after all, he shed the same kind of blood as him, broken bones and tendons.

If it was said that he had any regrets that he could not repay before he died, Zuo Zhengyi was one of them.

Thinking of this, Zuo Yi endured it, and said with a bitter face: "These years, I have actually had a hard time, because thinking of you always makes me suffer..."

Before he finished speaking, Zuo Zhengyi sneered: "Don't be hypocritical, why do you really think I came today? Is it because I am afraid of dying and going to hell, so I suddenly come to repent? That's embarrassing, I don't know. May reconcile with you."

Zuo Zhengyi opened the door and asked him to go out: "I don't want to say more ugly things, you can go. Go back and send me grandma's belongings, keep those photos, other things - I don't want to have anything to do with your family, Your wife and children are victims, and so am I, I don't owe them anything, let alone you."

Zuo Yi stood still, Zuo Zhengyi asked, "Is there anything else?"

"Zhengyi." The man, who has lost weight due to cancer, and whose face is more vicissitudes than his peers, said with tears in his eyes, "Dad has never taken care of you, so he is not qualified to say that. But you have to sleep on time and eat well. ...I heard that gastric cancer tends to occur frequently in families, your grandma is, and so am I, don't just rely on your youth and not care about your body, you know?"

Zuo Zhengyi couldn't take it anymore: "Stop cursing me, get out of here."

Zuo Zhengyi was not guilty at all when his son scolded Lao Tzu.Zuo Yi was kicked out of the door by him, walked outside the gate, and looked back at him again, crying.

Zuo Zhengyi didn't want to cry, and he didn't.

But there seemed to be a hole in his heart, and the cold wind poured in, making his whole body chill, and his heart and liver were also dried up, turning into thin paper, which was scraped and rattled.

His mother is dead, grandma is dead, and this damned father is finally going to die.

He was not happy or sad, he just felt unlucky.

This unlucky fate, let him suffer.In the future, if he wanted to scold him, he wouldn't know who to scold. He would rather Zuo Yi came to him to borrow money. Ji Jue complained, and said disdainfully, "My father, a vampire, is really rubbish."

Every time I am unhappy, I can scold like this.

But no chance.

No one will come to suck his blood, and the only blood connection he has with this world is also broken.

Zuo Zhengyi didn't feel sad for this worthless blood, but felt lonely again.

Alone, alone.

Until his old age, too, would die—probably also of stomach cancer.

really interesting.

Zuo Zhengyi squeezed out a barely audible laugh from between his teeth, turned around, entered the door, and returned to the room.

He sent Ji Jue a WeChat message: "Come with me, I miss you."

After thinking about it, I sent the second message: "I have something to ask you. When we were in Tanzhou Island a few years ago, did our family receive a letter?"