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Fang Shizhuo didn't feel much easier after Xu Yin was not given tutoring after class.

The biggest difference between the third year of senior high school and the previous ones is that the time is tight and the tasks are heavy. There are at least three rounds of total review. Exams have become normal. In addition to monthly exams, there are also weekly exams, topic exams, and midterm exams. Not only students are under great pressure, but teachers are also under great pressure.

The local education bureau issued a new regulation last year, which prohibits the use of students' physical education classes. In order to squeeze out more time, the teachers can only try their best to occupy self-study.

Under such a rhythm, Fang Shizhuo also had to get nervous.

When he gave Xu Yin tutoring, he didn't think it was a burden. Compared with taking self-study lessons to teach the papers to the whole class, it was much easier to give Xu Yin tutoring alone.

But he can't just take care of Xu Yin as a student, and he can't always keep his eyes on him.

Xu Yin would still listen to the class very seriously, frowning when he didn't understand something, sometimes frowning for half a class.It's just that he no longer runs to the office as often as before, and he no longer asks Fang Shizhuo questions.

Fang Shizhuo thought that Xu Yin might have misunderstood him. He didn't mean that he couldn't ask him any more questions, but that he couldn't be made an exception.

After going through two weekly tests, Fang Shizhuo found that his grades were stagnant.

In fact, it can be seen from the usual homework that Xu Yin writes very seriously, unlike other students with poor grades who directly copy other people's assignments, but because of poor foundation, he will always make mistakes in some questions.

Some are wrong thinking, some are careless.

He will correct the wrong questions by himself, and hand them to the class representative together with the next homework, unlike before, he will hand it to Fang Shizhuo by himself.

This day was Fang Shizhuo's evening self-study again. He gave two math problems while mourning, and left the rest of the time for students to study by themselves.

Xu Yin wasn't listening very carefully, he was staring at the podium, but his mind wasn't on the two questions.

It was like meeting Fang Shizhuo for the first time in this classroom, and I couldn't help myself.

The leaves of the sycamore tree outside the classroom are fluttering and falling, and the cicadas have been driven away by a few autumn rains. The three-digit countdown hanging beside the podium is decreasing day by day, just like the number of times he can still see Fang Shizhuo.

Xu Yin would sometimes stare at that number for a few seconds in a daze.

His math scores are still not good, both weekly tests are around [-] points, and sometimes he makes several wrong choices in succession.

But he no longer went to Fang Shizhuo.

When he encountered a problem that he couldn't solve, he went to look for tutorial books, search for questions on the Internet, and even asked his classmates, but he didn't bother Fang Shizhuo anymore.

There are always more or less students in Fang Shizhuo's office asking questions, and he is no longer the special one.

He is no longer an exception to Fang Shizhuo.

Besides, he didn't want to add any extra burden to Fang Shizhuo.

The relationship between the two returned to the original point, as if nothing had happened.

This is the relationship Fang Shizhuo wanted at the beginning, just a teacher and a student, but when Xu Yinzhen was like the other more than 40 students, he was a little bit disappointed.

After all, he has experienced much more with Xu Yin than with other people.

Apart from attending classes, the other students may not be able to speak a few words for three years. Besides, he teaches a devil subject, mathematics. I don't know how many students have secretly complained about him behind his back. Seeing him is faster than a mouse seeing a cat.

As for him and Xu Yin, he considered them friends.

Although Xu Yin might not think so.

But soon he didn't have the extra energy to think about it. The work alone was enough to make him burnt out, and the unstable math scores of the students in the class made him even more troubled.

But at this time, the school arranged for him to participate in the selection of outstanding young teachers in the district.

Fang Shizhuo did not want to participate. One of the criteria for selection was that he was under 35 years old. This alone eliminated most of the teachers in the math group.

The team leader came to talk to him twice, saying that this award would be good for future promotion, but Fang Shizhuo couldn't push it, so he agreed.

So these days he is even busier, and Xu Yin is like other students, except for class, he is rarely seen.

On a certain Sunday a few days before the selection, Xu Yin suddenly sent him a message asking for the solution to a certain problem.

Fang Shizhuo was preparing the courseware, and was a little surprised. Their last chat record was still twenty days ago, the day Xu Yin and Ding Mengyu had a fight.

He looked at it, and there were two solutions to this problem.

But it was too troublesome to type the mathematical symbols on the keyboard, so he deleted it after typing two lines: [Wait a minute, I'll write to you. 】

Looking for draft paper, Xu Yin said: [I have the answer, but I can't understand the process. 】

Fang Shizhuo was about to send him a voice call, but Xu Yin said again: [Teacher, can I make a voice call? 】

For Fang Shizhuo, there was not much difference between the two, so he took the initiative to call Xu Yin.

"There are two solutions to this question. Let's look at the first one first..." He took a pen and wrote on the scratch paper, "The answers to these two solutions are the same, but the second one needs to be rounded, and it is easy to make mistakes. Sometimes you can use the first one.”

Xu Yin didn't speak on the phone, maybe he was still digesting.

Fang Shizhuo took a picture of his problem-solving process and sent it to him: "Do you understand?"

Xu Yin said "hmm".

"You calculate the answer yourself first, and then ask me if you don't understand."

He didn't hang up the phone, and continued to read the courseware, Xu Yin didn't speak, only the rustling of paper and pen rubbing against each other.

In fact, Xu Yin didn't know how to answer this question.

He was a little confused at first, but the tutorial book that Fang Shizhuo chose for him explained the answers very clearly, even a math idiot like him could understand it.

He just wanted to find a reason to listen to Fang Shizhuo's voice.

Even though he hadn't seen him for a day, he felt uneasy, as if something was scratching his heart and lungs, making him unable to calm down, let alone continue to study.

Fang Shizhuo didn't know his little thoughts, and looked at the time: "Have you solved it yet?"

"Ah."

"Are there any other questions that you don't know?"

Xu Yin cautiously asked, "Can you ask me?"

"Of course." Fang Shizhuo was very happy to give him a lecture, "I said, if you have any questions you don't know, you can ask them."

But Xu Yin said: "No more. Teacher, homework is so boring, can you chat with me?"

Fang Shizhuo was taken aback for a moment, obviously he didn't expect him to make such a request, which was much more difficult than the lecture topic.

He is not good at socializing, let alone actively finding topics.

But in front of Xu Yin, he could only bite the bullet and pretend to be mature: "Have you encountered any troubles?"

Xu Yin did not deny it.

It's just that he can tell anyone about his troubles, except Fang Shizhuo.

After a while, he asked, "Teacher, how did you get here in the third year of high school?"

Fang Shizhuo recalled: "It's almost the same as you are now, morning reading, evening self-study, mountain of homework, endless exams."

Xu Yin asked: "Then did you have someone you liked at the time?"

Fang Shizhuo's typing fingers froze.

His emotional enlightenment was very late. When everyone had a favorite girl in middle school, he didn't.Seeing his classmate's puppy love, he was also indifferent, and didn't think about it at all.

It wasn't until the second year of high school that the person who made his heart flutter for the first time appeared.

What he didn't expect was that it was a boy.

Fang Shizhuo went through a long period of psychological struggle from the panic and fear at the beginning to the secret love and calmness later.

It is also such a sexual orientation that makes it impossible for his relationship to see the light of day.

He went through a long crush on the whole second year of high school. The boy was one year older than him. After the college entrance examination, Fang Shizhuo never saw him again.

Even if they had never known each other before, and hadn't said a word, the boy didn't know his existence.

"Is there, teacher?"

Fang Shizhuo pulled himself back from the long memory, and did not admit it: "Now is not the time to think about these things, grades are the most important thing."

Xu Yin seemed to expect him to say that, and let out a sigh of relief.

"Just chatting, it doesn't matter if the teacher doesn't want to say it." He asked again, "Then teacher, what should you do if you miss him?"

How to do it?

Secret love is a tragedy directed and acted on by oneself, love between the same sex, and there is not even a chance to confide in friends.

Fang Shizhuo suddenly realized that Xu Yin was very much like himself back then.

Maybe it's because most of the feelings when I was young are similar, and they are all beautiful things that can't be told when they are young.

But Xu Yin is different from himself, he will express his love frankly, passionately and sincerely, making people wonder how to refuse.

like now.

Fang Shizhuo is not a fool, of course he knows who "he" Xu Yin is talking about.

"I can do the questions to divert my attention." He told Xu Yin, "Put all your attention on your studies, and you won't think about other things."

Unexpectedly, Xu Yin said: "Teacher, you are lying."

"I tried." He said, "When I miss someone, I can't do anything."

I would want to run to see him, I would like to call him, I would like to chat with him, I would recall everything he said to me and everything I did, I would write his name on the draft paper, I would I want to break through all barriers and tell him that I love you so much.

"Xu Yin..."

The words of refusal have been said thousands of times, and Fang Shizhuo didn't know what to say.

"Teacher, don't give me a response."

Before hanging up the phone, Xu Yin said, "That's enough for you to know."