I don't want to be a human being, the protagonist of the otome game

It is also difficult for Chihiro to tell what kind of mood she is in now. In any case, it is not yet sad or sad, but it is certainly not too clear.After finding that this matter was difficult to explain from the beginning to the end, and it was not suitable for talking, the dog just dawdled in place and whined for a while, but did not reply.

When Chihiro shook her head and signaled that they could go on, Tokuta Tara stopped where she was, "Don't be so anxious, since it's not to catch up with special dates like birthdays or anniversaries, you can wait until later." Take your time to choose a gift for Anna, I think it's okay for us to stay here for a while longer."

After observing the surrounding environment, Shishu Tara led her into a small park by the roadside.At this time, the children who came out to play had already been taken home. The park was very empty. Chihiro was attracted by the swing in the distance. She ran over to sit on it, and made a hasty whining sound to urge Tatara to come. push her.

"Miss Dog, you seem to be a little heavier than when you first came to Baru Wuluo..." Duo Duoliang said helplessly after pushing a few times.No one who had held her before took her weight seriously, so no one ever said so.When he first came here, he never hugged her at all, how could he say such nonsense!

Although the weight of a dog has no reference value, Chihiro is still not happy when people say that he is fat.Hitting his arm lightly with her tail, Chihiro jumped off the swing again, ran to the sandy area of ​​the park for children to play, and used her paws to dig out small holes, trying to relieve her chaotic emotions.

After finally waking up from the restless mood, Chihiro was immediately discouraged and did not dare to talk to him when she remembered the series of behaviors she had left Tatara aside just now.

The relaxation when getting along with the other party, and the confidence gradually cultivated in the other party's attitude that she is sure that the other party will regard herself as a companion, this makes her always unconsciously show a waywardness that is rarely seen in front of Duo Liang that side.When she suddenly realized it, she realized that she had slapped too many times.

Duo Liang didn't care about this at all, and generally no one would notice this little thing and get angry because of it. He didn't know that some dogs had already started to dig into the horns.Seeing Chihiro stop, he smiled and asked, "Are you feeling better now?"

She lowered her head as if doing something wrong, peeking at Tatara from time to time, sullenly smoothed the pitted sand with her front paws, and wrote on it—"Are you angry?"

"Huh? The sandpit and swings in the park can be used casually. If you want to play for a while, I'm not angry. But there are sand in the cracks between the claws, and walking back to the bar like this, Kusanagi might be furious. "

"It's not the park. I didn't talk to you just now."

Tokuta Tara first thought about what she said just now in confusion for a while, and after several eliminations, he matched the "just now" with "a few minutes ago", and then his expression began to change.

He covered his mouth as if trying to hold back some emotion, and when Chihiro thought the other party was going to start accusing her, he let out a burst of laughter.Neither angry nor not angry, Chihiro looked at him in a daze, not knowing what kind of reaction this was.

"I'm sorry - I accidentally laughed because it was so cute. Why do you apologize for this?" He squatted down and flicked Chihiro's forehead, "Don't over-empathize, it will be very hard. You didn't What did you do wrong?"

"Except for today, I also did a lot of willful things in bars."

Seeing that Chihiro was still looking uneasy, Tatara said briskly, "The guys in Barbara are all more exaggerated than you. I heard Hatta said that you met each other on Academy Island before. This time was also his unauthorized action. No matter how you think about it, all the actions that make others unhappy are more serious than what you are worried about? Of course, Kusanagi has criticized him after that."

"Don't worry, I promise as a cadre, absolutely no one thinks that way. And how could they not like you? No matter how you look at the performance of that group of people, they like you so much that they want to take you home secretly. You have something for yourself What misunderstanding?"

In Duo Liang's comforting words, Chihiro's mood has calmed down a lot, but she still wants to wrap herself in the awkward thinking she has used for a long time.After holding back for a long time, she wrote, "It's just because they think small animals are cute, and it's the same with other cats and dogs."

"So you care about this?" The fact that Chihiro is very concerned seems to be even more trivial in Tatara's view, "Just like what we met just now - you can see being led by people everywhere. They also wag their tails, but they don’t want to work and save money to prepare gifts for others, nor do they worry about whether other clan members are Samoyeds who are still depressed?”

Squatting in front of her, Tatara rubbed Chihiro's pretty puppy face, the puppy couldn't see the loneliness in his eyes, maybe she didn't realize that she was actually afraid of being alone.

Then he touched the spot on the dog's forehead that he had just flicked by himself not long ago, and Tokuta Tara said, "King should have told you too. You can belong here at any time, just like Anna, you too Our precious lady."

... She would not be easily coaxed by such nasty words, Chihiro felt a little ashamed, after all, she is not a little girl anymore.Even if she admits that she actually appreciates what he said, it's not because she really likes the treatment of the eldest lady who is full of stars, so she wrote her name on the sand.

That was her player name when she entered the game, and it was also her real name.She wrote "Chihiro" and nothing else, but Tatara guessed the meaning of the word before she explained it.

"Next, tell me why you're unhappy, Chihiro?" Changing her address in a polite manner, Tokuta Tara intentionally bit the accent when mentioning her name.Qian Xun hasn't heard her real name called out for a long time, and she was in a daze for a while.

She began to write slowly on the sandy ground of the park with her paws again, but when she realized that what she was about to mention was what she had avoided, Chihiro's writing speed slowed down. She hesitated for a long time halfway, and then wiped the written words with her paws Went there several times.

Tatara didn't urge her, he silently waited for the puppy to tell her secret.He is always so patient, like an experienced fisherman fishing by a pond, he will not go after it deliberately, but just wait for the answer to bite the bait by himself.

In the end, Chihiro still couldn't tell the truth, she just asked, "What should I do if I do something bad to my friend and get hated, and then avoid it in front of him?"

"It's really quite a complicated experience. Did you hurt the other party if you did something bad?"

"Maybe, it doesn't count?" She didn't have much confidence.

"Why are you sure that you are hated?" Considering the other party's personality that tends to think too much and is often stubborn in unnecessary places, Duo Liang asked after thinking about it, "That friend cut off contact with you, or said What bad words?"

"No, they didn't say anything." When Chihiro replied, she also found that the answer sounded like unreasonable trouble. She stopped her paws while writing, and quickly wrote again, "I didn't listen to what they said. The place is gone."

"They?... So there's more than one, but this way of handling it is too much for friends."

The dog accepts the criticism dejectedly, but Duo Liang is still on her side no matter what, and he is not willing to criticize him too harshly.He quickly and euphemistically said, "Escaping may not be completely ineffective. This just allows both parties to calm down and think about how to deal with this relationship."

After hesitating for a few minutes, Chihiro finally made up his mind to tell the whole story and the result of his own reflection, "Actually, I disregarded my friends' personal wishes and decided to pay a certain price to protect them. This probably brought them a lot of trouble. big burden."

This sentence made Tokuta Tara pause for a moment, he thought about it for a while, and then said with a smile, "If it were me, I might do the same thing as you, everyone is very important to me. "

...?Chihiro, who thought she would get sharp comments again, froze, the feeling of something wrong that had appeared before but was gradually ignored by her resurfaced.

Only then did she realize what she had been thinking.Shishu Tatara is obviously different from her in everything, from preferences to background to personal experience, they have almost no similarities.But in a place that is not often excavated, there are similar qualities in them.And the subtle feeling hidden in her heart finally reached its peak at this moment.

"Of course, you, Chihiro, are the same to me. You are more important than other things, so I don't need to pay too much attention to other things. There is no way to pay a little. If one day, I am out of Some unavoidable reasons left, and those strong people must also..."

This tone is not the tone of paying a little at all. What is contained in the so-called one point?Chihiro speculated about the other person in her heart, she hadn't speculated on a person so carefully for a long time, but this time she couldn't help but do it again.

The ten bundles of Tatara are like kites in mid-air, they are bound by the barbara thread so that they will not float around. Even so, if there is an external force that cuts the thread, the kite itself will not care.He attaches great importance to the fetters here, and is full of curiosity about many things, but he is not afraid of losing anything.

Does this point also include his own death?He clearly has a lot of affection for Barbara, but he doesn't seem to notice any need to stay, so even taking his own life is something that is not cherished or cared about, and can be given casually. This kind of recklessness His attitude made her uncomfortable.

Since she cares about her companions, why doesn't she care about the impact she will have on her companions? What is it... Chihiro didn't speak for a long time before she came to her senses. She herself seemed to have been doing this before.

Even if she thinks she has fully adapted to the life in the game, whether she chooses to stand up for the first time or decides to escape alone for the second time, it is because she regards reopening as a bargaining chip, a special retreat.She didn't cherish her life as a real life, so the most important thing she cared about was whether it would hurt or not.

In the final analysis, the focus of the entanglement is not whether they are willing to sacrifice their lives to protect their companions, but whether they care about their own lives during the whole process.She would feel uncomfortable facing ten bundles of tatara who were in a similar situation, and it was reasonable for Fukui Hui, who was facing her at the time, to be annoyed by her attitude.

But then again, if she behaves like this because she can restart in the game, Tadara is different from her, she doesn't think there will be a restart button after the opponent dies—so this Isn't the problem more serious than her?

Chihiro raised her head and stared at the other party, not giving the other party a chance to escape at all, as if she didn't intend to leave any room for herself, and wanted to take the opportunity to prepare herself to face this fact.She finished the sentence slowly with the tip of her claws.

"...If it's too much, you're the same, right?"

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The author has something to say:

Recently, I always have a feeling of lack of sleep. The hotter the day, the more I want to sleep in the air-conditioned room...

In short, I would like to thank the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of Say-Bye; 1 bottle of South; thank you everyone!