I became a substitute for my brother

Tao Zhuo stayed in the hospital for a week, and Qin Wenyuan visited him once, the day he first entered the hospital.

At noon that day, Qin Wenyuan came in a hurry, stood beside his bed in a very bad mood, stared at him, and said, "If it happens again, I'll send you to a drug rehabilitation center. I believe the people there will be more capable than me."

Of course, Tao Zhuo didn't want to go to the drug rehabilitation center. He was a person who couldn't bear hardships and was afraid of death. The self-mutilation was just to attract Qin Wenyuan's attention, and he didn't really want to die.

He wanted to get Qin Wenyuan's attention, and it would be even better if he could see a little pity on his face, but he underestimated his position in Qin Wenyuan's heart.

It was at this moment that he was truly sure that Qin Wenyuan no longer loved him.

He laughed miserably, but the long tossing has exhausted his energy and spirit, and even deprived him of his beauty. He knows how ugly he is now, but he still laughs wantonly.

After laughing, he started coughing so loudly that the needle tube on the back of his hand went astray.The subordinates called the doctor to reinsert the needle for him. Before leaving, the doctor reminded them: "Patients should not be excited, you should leave as soon as possible."

After the doctor went out, Tao Zhuo said: "Qin Wenyuan, I'm really in a bad mood, please let me go, won't you let me fend for myself?"

"Not good," Qin Wenyuan said, "You can't stay where I can't see, I'm worried."

Of course Tao Zhuo would not naively think that Qin Wenyuan's "worries" were because he cared about him, "I'm already like this, how can I harm you?"

"That's not the case. I wouldn't bet on a junkie."

Junkie, what a junkie, in Qin Wenyuan’s mind, he is just a junkie, Tao Zhuo can’t even laugh, but Qin Wenyuan’s blow to him is not over yet, “I’ll send you off when you quit drug addiction.” Go abroad, go to a place where you can't buy drugs, and I will find someone to watch you, and you will spend the rest of your life in peace, without going back to your country."

"Why!" he yelled, "Why can your heart be so hard?"

"I have been soft to you because you don't need it. Since then, I have put away all my softness towards you, Tao Zhuo." Qin Wenyuan looked at him indifferently, "You choose the road yourself. Now that you are an adult, you can walk on your knees on the path you choose, so you can take care of yourself.”

Qin Wenyuan left Tao Zhuo's ward, and never went there again. He was busy with company affairs, but his heart became more and more desolate. When he was free or in the dead of night, he began to think about his past years.

Losing Tao Zhuo, meeting Tao Heng, wandering wantonly between being loved and hated, what did he gain?It's like getting nothing.

No, he got it, he got Tao Heng's love, but he didn't cherish it, he threw it away, and then he never had it again.

He thought he didn't care, but it wasn't like that, he cared, how much he wanted to make Tao Heng love him again, let Tao Heng snuggle up to him in a healthy way, but Tao Heng didn't even want to look at him again, How ironic, how sad, and, well, deserved.

Qin Wenyuan flew to France, which is a beautiful country. When he stood by the Seine River and looked at the Eiffel Tower, he thought that he must bring Tao Heng here again in the future. They will get married again in the church by the Seine River. Put the rings on each other again.

After returning to China, he went to see Xie Ran and started treatment.

"We have been together for ten years. He may have really loved me, but he also lied to me." In Xie Ran's clinic, Qin Wenyuan opened the festering wound hidden in the deepest part of his heart to her for the first time, "I loved He also hated him, when he loved him, he could die for him, when he hated him, he wanted to kill him, but I admit, my love is cheap."

"Tao Zhuo once said something right. He said that people who live with me are very tired, because I can't give people a sense of security. I admit that I am selfish. I selfishly think that a mother should treat all her children. Well, I think my father's premature death is a betrayal of this family, I think Tao Zhuo's betrayal is dissatisfaction, and I think Tao Heng shouldn't have fantasies and complaints about me."

"I didn't realize until now that I've always lived in my own world. I was selfish, selfish, and blindly confident, so they all left me. They were not wrong. It was me who was wrong, and I deserved it."

Xie Ran listened quietly without interrupting him. The posture of listening maximized Qin Wenyuan's desire to confide, but the statement was still confusing.

"I saw Tao Heng at the beginning of the month, in the hospital." He leaned on the comfortable sofa in Xie Ran's consultation room, his thoughts sank in with his body, "he was injured, but he was a little fatter than when he was in the hospital. So good-looking, he has always been good-looking, I know....I used to think he looked like Tao Zhuo, but I kept imagining him as Tao Zhuo like a fool, and I told myself that he was Tao Zhuo , I finally believed it myself. Actually, I knew he was Tao Heng, but I didn't want to admit it. Now I find that the two of them actually look alike, um...maybe they do, but I I don't think they're the same."

"He has a person by his side, that person saved his life, and me, I almost killed him, what qualifications do you think I have to let him come back to me again? But I want him to come back even in my dreams By my side." Qin Wenyuan smiled self-deprecatingly, "Even I think it's ridiculous, but I'm not reconciled. I've thought a lot these days, and I think I should chase him back again, but how can I keep him from chasing him?" Resentment? Do you have any good methods?"

As his doctor in charge, Xie Ran was unwilling to hit him, but he couldn't say anything against his will. After much deliberation, he decided to turn around: "You have been with Tao Heng for so long, do you know that he has severe insomnia symptoms?" ?”

Qin Wenyuan was stunned, "What?"

Xie Ran brushed his hair, "Tao Heng has been suffering from insomnia, you have lived with him for so long, and you really don't know anything about it?"

Qin Wenyuan was stunned for a long time before he said, "I don't know."

He paused, fearing that Xie Ran would not believe him, he said in a tone of trying to make the other party believe him: "I really don't know."

He really didn't know. In his impression, Tao Heng didn't have any other problems during that time except for his emotional instability. Waking up in the middle of the night with no one around, such as why Tao Heng's expression is always tired... All kinds of evidences were strung together in his mind, which made him start to feel panic.

How long has Tao Heng passed such days?