I became a substitute for my brother

Qin Wenyuan stayed in the county for two days, relying on local contacts to solve the media's problems, and left the manager of the public relations department to deal with the follow-up treatment of the patients, and took Sun Lang back to city A.

On the second day after returning to City A, he went to eat at the revolving restaurant on the 48th floor where he had been with Tao Heng. There, he met Xie Ran who also ate alone.

"Let's go together." Qin Wenyuan invited Xie Ran to sit at the same table, at least it won't be too lonely.

The two had a silent dinner face to face. After the plate was taken away, Xie Ran took the initiative to invite him, "Let's stay and chat."

So the two ordered coffee again, and sat face to face to chat about the next topic.

"Did I never tell you?" Xie Ran picked up a pen on the table that the waiter forgot to take away and twirled it with his fingertips.

"what?"

Qin Wenyuan stared at the pen in her hand, and suddenly remembered that Tao Heng used to like to turn his pen like this. At that time, they were just married, and Tao Heng was attached to him. Once, he ran into the study with a stack of his own writing and real photos. He said that he wanted to sign it for the audience, and asked Qin Wenyuan how to write his name to look good. Qin Wenyuan said perfunctorily, "It looks good no matter how you write it." It fell on the table and made a "click" sound, and he was annoyed impatiently, but he didn't say anything because he didn't care.

"Your mental state is not healthy," Xie Ran said, "Even Tao Heng has discovered this problem, but you haven't noticed it at all?"

"Tao Heng?" Qin Wenyuan took a breath, his eyes finally focused, "What did he find?"

Xie Ran sighed, and just about to speak, Qin Wenyuan was the first to react, "Does he think I have a mental problem?"

Xie Ran gently stirred the coffee in front of him and nodded.

"Why did you just tell me now?"

"Because I don't want to get involved in your affairs, I'm just a psychiatrist." Xie Ran shrugged, "President Qin, do you really not realize it at all?"

Qin Wenyuan was silent.

Didn't realize it?Of course not, he was sick a long time ago, like a beast in deep pain, struggling alone, every day is cloudy, every day can smell the blood on his body, he hates turning him into Such a person, who allowed himself to stink and rot in the mud, hated himself now.

It was he who selfishly pulled Tao Heng into the quagmire, and maintained his life by absorbing the heat from Tao Heng's body. Time is doomed to future tragedies, and when he suddenly wakes up, the person he hurt has already been scarred and his heart is ashamed.

"How can I get it back?" Qin Wenyuan asked suddenly, "If I get cured, will he forgive me?"

Mr. Qin, who used to be majestic and majestic in the past, has become humble. Even Xie Ran, a psychiatrist who is used to seeing different weird personalities, can't help being surprised.

She knows a thing or two about the relationship between Qin Wenyuan and Tao Heng, and she has no say in what Qin Wenyuan did to Tao Heng, but she can't help but want to ask: "Do you think you became like this because of you?" disease?"

Qin Wenyuan shook his head. He is not a fool. He may not know what the problem is, but it must not be because of his illness, and he must not cowardly attribute the cause to his illness. Belittled.

"I'm still thinking about it," he said, "but I can't think of it. You all say I'm sick. I just want to be cured now."

Xie Ran looked at him sympathetically. Such a man standing at the top of the pyramid in the eyes of outsiders is actually very pitiful.

That day, they made an appointment for the time and place of their next meeting. Before leaving, Qin Wenyuan asked her: "What else did you say in the hospital? Except that I was sick."

Xie Ran replied to him: "This is my patient's privacy, I'm afraid it's inconvenient to tell you."

"Now I am also your patient." Qin Wenyuan did not give up.

"So our conversations will also be kept private."

Qin Wenyuan decided to go home tonight.

Chen Bo heard the sound of a long-lost car coming from the door, and ran out happily to greet him. The first thing Qin Wenyuan said when he got out of the car was: "How is he?"

Uncle Chen knew who he was asking, and replied, "It's not very good, but don't worry too much, he will be fine."

"I'm not worried about him." Qin Wenyuan said coldly. He looked directly at Uncle Chen, patted his chest, and said almost persistently, "He has been expelled from me long ago."

Uncle Chen lowered his eyes, "Yes, I understand."

Qin Wenyuan walked straight in after entering the door, and stopped at the door of an inconspicuous room in the innermost part of the ground floor.A bodyguard stood at the door and saw him nodding respectfully: "Master Qin."

"Open the door."

"Yes."

The door opened, Qin Wenyuan walked in, and stopped in the turbid air.

The light was not turned on in the room, and Qin Wenyuan groped for a while on the wall before finding the switch.The moment the light came on, his pupils shrank suddenly, and he was shocked by Tao Zhuo's appearance at this time.

Tao Zhuo was lying on the bed, his complexion was sallow, his lips were white, his clothes were wrinkled like dried pickles, his sweat-soaked hair was stuck to his forehead, and his whole body exuded a faint breath of death.His eyes were slightly closed, the sudden bright light made his thin eyelids tremble, and then slowly opened.

It took a long time for his godless eyes to focus, and the moment he saw Qin Wenyuan, he almost cried, "Wenyuan, you can't do this to me."

"How did I treat you?" Qin Wenyuan didn't even want to take a step closer, "I'm helping you detoxify, do you think I'm hurting you?"

Tao Zhuo's voice was so hoarse that he could hardly speak. He looked at Qin Wenyuan expectantly and said, "You never know what I want, you only use your own standards to measure me, Qin Wenyuan, you have never loved at all. I."

Qin Wenyuan laughed wearily, "Tao Zhuo, do you think it's right for your own conscience?"

Tao Zhuo burst into tears, "Yes, I have no conscience, but anyone has the right to accuse me, but you don't. Back then, in order to be with you, I gave up everything at home and went abroad with you. Have you forgotten how hard it is? Don’t you remember how much I suffered for you? "

"Are you suffering alone?" Qin Wenyuan's voice was very soft, and seemed a little ethereal in the small room, "Are you paying for the feelings alone? You are wronged, you are in pain, and you live wantonly in your own world Doubt me, you think I don't love you, you feel that you have sacrificed too much, you have been living with your eyes closed, right?"

Qin Wenyuan might feel aggrieved when he said these words more than two years ago, but now, he just wants to quickly end this topic, "Tao Zhuo, if you still want to live, give me a good drug addiction, otherwise I don't mind sending you to rehab."