I became a substitute for my brother

The night before Qin Wenyuan's operation, Xie Ran came to see him and met Tao Heng.

Tao Heng hadn't seen Xie Ran for many years, and he was a little dazed when he first met. He stood face to face for a while before nodding, "Doctor Xie."

Xie Ran smiled at him, "Long time no see."

"haven't seen you for a long time."

Tao Heng held the cat in his arms, Xie Ran reached out and touched the cat's head, and said, "I didn't expect you to be raising it now."

Tao Heng glanced at Qin Wenyuan on the bed, "I'll take it out for a walk, you can talk to him."

Tao Heng put a leash on the fat cat, and led him to the garden downstairs. It was very cold and the snow on the ground had not melted. Legs jumped onto him and burrowed into his arms, Tao Heng unzipped the down jacket and put it in, letting it absorb the warmth of his body.

When he went upstairs, Xie Ran sat in the chair outside the ward and waited for him.Tao Heng walked over, sat down beside her, and said, "Shall I have someone take you back?"

"No, I drove here by myself." Xie Ran said, "What time will he have surgery tomorrow?"

"09:30 in the morning," Tao Heng said, "are you coming?"

Xie Ran shook his head, "I don't have time."

After finishing speaking, he was silent for a while, and said, "Did Qin Wenyuan tell you?"

"what?"

"His bipolar disorder."

Tao Heng froze for a moment, "No, I don't know, when did it happen?"

"Many years," Xie Ran recalled, and said, "It should be earlier than you."

Tao Heng was a little dazed, and sat for a long time before asking, "You mean, he suffered from bipolar disorder before he married me?"

Xie Ran didn't answer yes or no, but said: "Do you remember that you once asked me if Qin Wenyuan had mental problems? At that time, I told you that I didn't know.",

Tao Heng nodded, "I remember, he was diagnosed later, right? Bipolar disorder?"

Because he had been ill before, Tao Heng had consulted many books related to mental illness, and had some understanding of this illness. Looking back carefully, Qin Wenyuan's symptoms were indeed consistent. If he had been ill earlier than him, then Tao Zhuo's departure would have been a good thing. His blow was really not small.

Thinking of Tao Zhuo, Tao Heng couldn't help but feel bitter.

"His bipolar disorder has been suffered for many years, and he has been treated intermittently in the past few years, but the effect is not great. Every time he attacks, he is very painful." Xie Ran glanced into the ward and said sympathetically, "Just now He had an attack not long ago, and it was especially difficult to treat this time."

Tao Heng didn't speak.

Xie Ran said again: "Do you know that he has committed self-harm?"

Tao Heng glanced at her, and Xie Ran said: "He has been self-harming for the past few years. He injured himself all over but never went to the hospital for treatment. He has been living in pain."

Tao Heng's throat was dry, "I didn't cause these."

"I know." Xie Ran said, "You finally came out, I shouldn't have told you this, maybe it's my selfishness, we have known each other for so many years, I just can't bear to see him continue to suffer like this, you have experienced it, You should know how hopeless it feels to look up every day and see the sky is gray."

Tao Heng knew that he had experienced, endured, struggled, wanted to escape, and wanted to die, but he survived.After surviving, the pain of that year seems to be worthless, but has he forgotten it?

He did not.

What he has experienced will never be forgotten. Sometimes he feels that he has forgotten, not really, but just does not want to remember. In fact, he remembers everything and every detail from his marriage with Qin Wenyuan to now. Clearly, every word Qin Wenyuan said to him, sweet or biting, every time he thought about it, the wound he thought he had healed would be torn open again until it was dripping with blood.

All the memories are mixed with fishy sweetness, how could he forget it so easily?

"How did he treat it? Take medicine?"

Xie Ran was silent for a moment, then said, "Take medicine, electric shock."

Tao Heng's heart felt like being hit by an electric shock, and the pain spread densely from the heart to his limbs. He lowered his head to look at his slightly trembling fingers, and slowly clenched his fists.

Qin Wenyuan's operation lasted from morning to night, and the operation was successful. Dr. Zhang walked out with a tired smile, "The situation is better than expected."

Tao Heng breathed a sigh of relief, the strings that had been tense for the past few days relaxed at this moment, his brain was groggy, and he almost fainted.Sun Lang sent him back to the ward and asked him to cover him with a quilt and sleep. The moment he lay on the bed, he fell asleep.

Qin Wenyuan woke up more than ten hours after the operation. After being in a coma for so many days, he went through a major operation and lost a lot of weight. I couldn't help but the corners of my eyes were red.

Tao Heng asked Sun Lang to call the doctor. He stood by the bed and looked down at the person on the bed, "How are you?"

Qin Wenyuan's reaction was very slow, and it took a long time for his eyes to look at Tao Heng, his dry lips parted, as if he wanted to say something, Tao Heng bent down, put his ear on his lips, and heard him say: "Ji Muqiao ..."

"He's fine, don't worry." Tao Heng reassured him.

Qin Wenyuan closed his eyes slightly, then hooked the corners of his mouth, then opened his eyes and stared at him, Tao Heng also smiled slightly, and said: "You have been sleeping for so many days, and the first thing you said when you woke up is Not to me, but to Ji Muqiao."

Qin Wenyuan opened his mouth again, and Tao Heng put his ear close to him, and heard him say: "I paid back what I owed him, thank him for saving you back then."

Tao Heng's eyes were sour, and tears flowed down without warning.

"Don't cry," Qin Wenyuan tried with difficulty to raise his hand to wipe his tears, but failed, so he could only laugh at himself, "Can you wipe it yourself?"

Tao Heng buried his face on his shoulder, crying desperately, pouring out little by little.

Qin Wenyuan was in good health and recovered very quickly, but after all, he had injured his head, and his thinking and mobility could not recover for a while, but Tao Heng was not in a hurry. He knew it was only a matter of time, and Qin Wenyuan would still be the same Qin Wenyuan in a short time. He is also Master Qin who is respected by everyone in the upper class of City A, and the leader of the Qin Group with top-notch skills in the shopping mall.

"Do you want to hug it?" Tao Heng put the fat cat on Qin Wenyuan's lap, "I just gave it a bath, it's very clean."

Qin Wenyuan leaned on the bed. He took the cat and stroked its back slowly. The fat cat squinted its eyes to enjoy its master's caress very comfortably, and after a while even started to snore.

Tao Heng looked funny, "If you don't sleep at night, you won't wake up during the day."

Qin Wenyuan looked up at him, "Do you like it?"

Tao Heng smiled, "I like it."

Qin Wenyuan also laughed, "I like it too."

Tao Heng nodded between Fat Cat's eyebrows, "Then you should get well quickly and take it home to raise it yourself."