goodbye my sweetheart

In short, I love you.

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★Katherine's Diary★

I, lost, Damon.

My sweet and innocent Damon.

He even took me for Elena and kissed her.

His kiss was so intoxicating, but my heart was so hurt.

He really fell in love with her.

I wanted to break Elena's neck like a twig.

Am I jealous?

Yes, I am not only jealous, my heart is very painful, sour, bitter, astringent, numb and depressed.

Turns out, that's how Damon used to feel.

Sorry Damon, I made you so sad.

Now, Your Turn.

In the evening, I went to Salvatore's house and made a break with Damon.

I owe him a farewell.

Farewell 145 years late.

He was still angry and kept talking to me.

He was so gentle with "Elena", just now.

But so fierce to me, now.

I kissed him and he kissed me.

But I always feel that something is different.

The love he gave me has been shared with Elena.

Yeah.

I screwed up.

Since you no longer love me, then I will set you free.

Go ahead and go after the one you love.

If Damon wants to ask me, of course I know the answer.

But I cut him off, and I said, "I never loved you, I always loved Stefan."

This sentence, gave Damon freedom, freed him completely, freed him from 145 years of longing and love.

Damon, I love you.

I love you more than you can imagine.

Even more than I know myself.

How difficult is it to say the three words "I love you" to you?

It is because I love you that I never say anything about my love for you.

For 145 years, you have suffered.

Since I can't give you all my love, let me give you back your freedom.

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★Katherine's Diary★

Finally officially meet Stefan again.

I was so nervous in front of Stefan.

I pretended to be Elena and threw myself into his arms.

He spotted it right away and he pushed me away.

I'm kind of happy.

He recognized me so quickly, does it mean that my imprint is deeper than Elena's in his heart?

Stefan, Stefan, Stefan, I've lost Damon, I can't lose you.

However, this seems to be out of my control.

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★Katherine's Diary★

In the tomb, Stefan, you have to prove what I say is true.

I asked myself, Stefan, how do I know I love you?

I can't write a thesis to justify my love for you.

To love is to love.

Just like a coffee machine just knows that the coffee is ready.

Just like the electric baking pan just knows that the waffles are done.

They say it's a program setting.

In romantic terms, it's like a flower knows when to bloom, a seed knows when to germinate, and a wild goose knows when to fly south.

I love you like it was meant to be.

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★Katherine's Diary★

Elena, Elena, Elena.

She is the center of the world.

I lost you all.

My Stefan.

My Damon.

I am not reconciled, but must forgive.

If you don't pay, you don't get anything. I have ignored you for 145 years. It is understandable that you fall in love with others.

You all have a change of heart.

I don't.

I still love you guys more and more.

Heck!

It turned out that I was the most infatuated among us.

It's good that I can still love after all the mess;

It's really bad, this time I'm about to lose love.

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★Katherine's Diary★

Damon is dying, he was bitten by a werewolf.

When Stefan saw Klaus hand me the antidote, he screamed in despair, "She will never give the antidote to Damon!"

Although I had already run far away, Stefan's words made me feel cold.

Now, I really don't see hope.

I can't see the hope that we can still be together.

Stefan thinks too bad of me.

He thinks too low of me.

How can we be together again like this?

Damon said to Elena, "I deserve what I deserve. It's my series of wrong choices that caused today's bad results. But, if I didn't make the wrong choices, I wouldn't know you, Elena."

Elena is an angel; and I am a devil.

I don't think I'm that bad yet.

But they have such a low opinion of me.

I fed the antidote to Damon, and he looked at me with wide eyes and asked, "Since you are free, why did you come to give me the antidote?"

I had to tell him, "I owe you."

In fact, as early as 145 years ago, when I made the decision to fake death, I lost them.

But I don't want to believe that love will disappear one day.

It's me who has been unwilling.

It's me who has been unwilling to let go.

Until today, I really feel: lost.

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★Katherine's Diary★

Today, I was very agitated, like a handful of sand stuck in my throat.

Damon and Stefan are going to kill Klaus.

Assisted by Mikael.

As soon as Klaus is dead, I'm free.

Escaped for 500 years.

at last.

But... Klaus' Hybirds have recognized their ancestors, even if Damon kills Klaus, those damned Hybirds will always help Klaus avenge him until Damon dies.

I struggled until my head was about to split in two.

I can't let Damon die.

A Damon who doesn't love me is better than a dead Damon.

I was crazy, I went to wake up Stefan, told him to stop Damon's assassination.

Klaus survived, and so did Damon.

As for me... Anyway, I'm already used to running away, so let's continue running until I can't run away or don't want to run away.

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★Katherine's Diary★

Sometimes, I think Stefan still loves me.

Otherwise why would he choose Elena?

If you only look at it from the perspective of kindness, Caroline or Bonnie are also good choices.

Why did Stefan choose Elena who looks like me?

This is the unforgettable old love.

I used to think so.

But Stefan's behavior shattered my self-righteousness.

He keeps distorting and denying the love between us, he thinks his love for me is because I used hypnotism to force him.

He also firmly refused to admit that I loved him, he said it was my lie.

He overturned everything that could be overturned or denied between us.

Not because he has a bad memory, but because he is ashamed of me.

Stefan, shame on me.

He tried his best to wash away this shameful relationship.

He desperately wants to rebuild a beautiful relationship, with Elena.

Elena is Katherine of genuine Angel.

Elena is bright, kind, simple, and faithful...

Stefan wants to use this "right relationship" to overwrite the past and my "wrong relationship".

This discovery really called me...

Time to go.

In fact, I did pack my things and get ready to leave.

Yes, if I were smart, I should have gone long ago.

On Klaus' turf, I actually let myself drink up the verbena juice.I'm really crazy.

The verbena is really gone, so let's use this reason to see Stefan again.

Wandering around Klaus' territory without verbena juice.

I'm really looking for death.

I'm more afraid of Stefan not loving me than of dying.

However, no matter how afraid I am, he no longer loves me.

This time we are about to meet, let's say goodbye.

Farewell, my sweetheart.

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Three years have passed.

Three years and eight months, to be exact.

The small white oak tree that could have killed the original vampire