After I divorced from chaos step

"Dazai, you must know what happened." I said with certainty.

When they were separated from Zhongyuan Zhongye, everyone was still normal.It's just that after stepping out of the elevator with Dazai, the whole world is different.

Not only is there no trace of Luanbu and Tuosi's life, but even my life status has completely changed.

"Could it be that your supernatural power has evolved out of place?"

"Oh? Then why hasn't your memory been modified, Qingxi sauce?"

Dazai is preparing dinner, and this is my first visit to his house.

Unlike what I imagined, he lives in a very ordinary apartment, the house is neat and clean, and there is nothing abnormal about it.

The only difference from other families is that Dazai's house does not have any pets or plants.Ordinary people, even if they don't keep pets, will put two pots of flowers and plants to add a bit of greenery to the room.

I was even more surprised that Dazai could cook. I thought he would just eat around or eat casually outside.

I stared at the cutting board in his hand and said, "If I knew, I wouldn't have come to ask you."

"……Um."

He was cutting tofu, cutting the tofu into fine shreds, the cleaned vegetables and mushrooms were in the sink, the pot was bubbling, and the whole kitchen was filled with the smell of chicken soup.

"Does 'um' mean admitting?" I watched Dazai put the ingredients into the pot, "But it's surprising that you can cook."

"Of course, I'm a healthy and cheerful person after all." Dazai put the lid on the pot and said with a smile, "'um' is a modal particle."

It’s okay not to mention the word healthy and cheerful, but when I mention it, I think of the black history of treating him as a three-good youth.

"You are far from healthy and cheerful."

"Whether it's far or not, isn't it all according to Qingxi Jiang's wishes?"

Dazai squeezed the hand sanitizer and rubbed a lot of fine foam on his hands, "It was you who said I was healthy and cheerful before, and you were the one who said I was dark and muddy later on."

He turned on the faucet, and the foam disappeared under the washing of clean water. He rinsed every slender finger clean, "Before I did anything, you would find excuses for me. Now no matter what happens, you will It was on my head the first time."

"That's because you grew up doing too much."

"Oh? Is it too much when you grow up?" Dazai raised his hand and looked at me from between his fingers, his eyes were gentle and innocent, "But I pushed your crush down the stairs when I was 12 years old. "

"...Then you have really been a bad boy since you were a child."

Even though I said this, I still didn't think from the bottom of my heart that he was a bad boy... "When you were a child, you burned the suicide note I wrote. Since then, I have given up the idea of ​​suicide."

And never thought about it again.

"That's right." Dazai turned his body sideways, picked up bottles and cans and poured them into the pot, "I just think you can't understand the words in your writing, and I'm still waiting to read the second letter, but unfortunately, you didn't Write."

"..."

"Qingxi sauce, from the beginning to the end, I haven't changed in any way. But from you, I have received a huge difference in evaluation." Dazai lowered his eyes and said softly, "What you are obsessed with is just the person in your heart. You Where do you think the problem is?"

"..."

Dazai's question left me speechless.

But he was actually right, I was clinging to the persona I had in mind.

When I think he is a good person, any bad thing he does, casually inviting girls to die in love, not paying back the coffee debt... I will find excuses for him.

And when I discovered his true face, any bad thing, I could easily associate it with him and Tuosi.

When I found out that the world had been changed, I was also the first to suspect him.

Although it is really interesting that he has not been modified in memory.

only he...

Only he is fine and still remembers all the events of the original world...

etc!Dazai's ability is a disqualification in the world. Doesn't that mean that the other party's modification ability is invalid for him?

Who the hell changed all the memories of people around me about Ranbu and Tosi.

If it's just a simple memory erasure, it doesn't make sense that even Ranpo's name can't be found on the Internet, and his house has completely disappeared.

"Ah, my Vitality Chicken Pot is done! Qingxi sauce, what do you think?"

Dazai turned off the fire and poured the contents of the soup pot into the soup bowl with satisfaction.

"...I'm not in the mood to judge your pot right now."

Objectively speaking, his cooking pot is quite good, at least in terms of appearance and aroma, it has reached the average level.

Just don't know how it tastes.

"Qingxi sauce, do you want to stay and have dinner together?" He bent down and opened the cupboard, "I've made quite a few."

"No need." It's better not to try what Dazai made, "I did an analysis just now, please listen to it for me."

"Okay, let's chat while eating."

He had already taken out two sets of cutlery, so I had no choice but to nod in agreement: "Thank you."

I didn't have any hopes for Dazai's cooking skills. Even though he did cook this pot, and I even watched him cook it with my own eyes, I still feel uneasy.

His coat was taken off and put aside, his sleeves were rolled casually, he was wearing casual slippers, his fluffy hair was a little messy, and he looked like a man who knew how to live at home.

"I started eating~"

The hearty voice also sounds full of expectations for cooking and love for life—or maybe all of them are fake.

"Dazai, do you find life interesting?"

Dazai picked up a piece of chicken, "There should be some."

"should?"

"The vast majority of people are always repeating the same things, as well as the same troubles and joys. Well, it probably depends on the length to win." Dazai's food is much more elegant than that of Ranpo, "The taste is very good, clear Quickly try the brook sauce."

He pushed the dip dish over to me too.

"What's in here?"

"Oh, this one, sodium hydroxide and hydrochloric acid, and a little MSG."

"..." I immediately withdrew my chopsticks, "Are you kidding me?"

"No." Dazai shrugged, "Because the family just ran out of salt, wouldn't you be able to get them by pouring them together?"

It was the first time I heard that there was no salt at home, so I prepared it directly with chemical reagents.

"What if the ratio is wrong? Wait, you don't know if there is any excess hydrochloric acid and sodium hydroxide in it, and even if it is all sodium chloride, it must be purified before eating. What if there are chemical reagents left what to do?"

Dazai ate his food nonchalantly: "Then I will succeed in committing suicide, and it's not a loss."

"..."

I am speechless, but I am also determined not to eat what he made. The dipping sauce is made with hydrochloric acid and sodium hydroxide. Who knows what is in the pot?

Is this chicken and mushroom really okay?

"The color of your mushroom is a bit bright, did you buy it in the supermarket?"

"I picked it myself. It's very beautiful." Dazai said with a smile, "Look at your luck. If you're lucky, it's a poisonous mushroom. Speaking of which, the frozen tofu in it was originally intended to be used for suicide, but it tastes good. , Frozen tofu is indeed the greatest invention of mankind!"

"..."

The phone vibrated twice at this moment, and my eyes moved from Dazai's plate to the screen.

Click to open, it is an email from Yukimura Seichi.

【Qingxi, where have you been?I'm a little worried.Is it convenient to take my call now? 】

"Wow, did you even send an email to ask if you could answer the phone? The Son of God is really considerate and doesn't look like an ordinary person. If it were me, I would probably have blown up the phone."

I looked at Dazai who was coming closer, and the corner of my mouth twitched: "Dazai, your sleeve is stained with soup."

"Oops! My soup!"

I pressed the enter button and replied to Yukimura Seichi.

[I'm a little busy right now, I'm sorry. 】

According to the development of the matter, "I" should go to dinner and watch a movie with Yukimura Seiichi today after get off work.Between male and female friends, the way of dating is always the same.

"You've got everything you want, why are you hesitating now?"

Dazai didn't look at my phone this time, but he guessed the content of my reply, so he sighed softly.

"Is everything I want?" I put down my phone and asked slowly, "Where did you see that?"

"Isn't it? How many times have I complained since I was a child-if only those things didn't happen, if I didn't meet them, if I didn't have supernatural powers, there are many complaints like this Time." Dazai continued to lower his head to eat his Vitality Chicken Pot, "Complaining about this thing, even if you close your mouth, it will come out of your eyes."

"Now Ranpo-san and Fyodor never existed, you don't have any abilities that bother you, you don't have any dark history to hide, and you are with the person you like. How can you be dissatisfied with such a life? Woolen cloth?"

He said it for granted, as if I have always been in this kind of life.

"How could I forget what happened? Even if everyone forgets Ranpo-san and them, I—"

Looking at Dazai's deep eyes, I suddenly seemed to realize something, and closed my mouth.

Everyone has forgotten about Ranpo, there is no trace of him in this world—gradually, I will forget him too.

Forget his appearance, forget his voice, forget all the experiences between him and me.

As for how long, I don't know.This is time-consuming, and it is time-consuming.

"You're right, there's nothing wrong with this..." I put down my chopsticks, "Excuse me, I'm leaving first."

Until I left, Dazai was still eating his chicken hot pot intently.

I walked back slowly, walking very slowly, asking myself over and over again—is this kind of life really what I want?

All the emails in the mobile phone are sent by Kazukimura and the others, most of them are trivial daily, plain and warm, without waves.

Only Chuya Nakahara's sentence "Who are you" is a little abrupt and lying alone on the mailing list.

Mr. Zhongye, he doesn't know me.Likewise, he didn't know Granny Hanamaru either.To us, he's just a strange mafia.

He never saved me, gave me a gun, bought me rabbit ice cream, took me to the hospital, drank with me, said stupid things when I was drunk, or watched Yokohama with me. sunrise and sunset.

We don't have any intersection.

……

"Mr. Zhongye."

When I saw the person across the road clearly, I opened my mouth and yelled.

It was too far away, he didn't hear it, he just turned his head slowly, and when he cast his eyes on me, he didn't stop for a moment.

I became the backdrop for the Harbor Bridge.

Surrounded by his subordinates.They should be here to deal with business.

[Isn't this the peaceful and stable life you want? 】

The peaceful and secure life I want.

"Isn't this the peaceful and stable life you want?"

Someone whispered behind me.It was Dazai's face, and it was also Dazai's voice.

But the coat on his shoulders was not dark khaki, but a black coat.

"It used to be."

"once?"

"After so many things, I can no longer pretend that nothing happened, and live the life I assumed before." I leaned on the bridge, looking at the coastline in the distance, "...in fact, not all of them are true. It was deceit and pain, and there were moments of joy."

"I can't figure out whether there are more happy days or more painful days. But I will face and deal with the rest of the things, and I won't complain about the past—"

I can't accept that Ranpo is forgotten by everyone, and I don't want Chuya Nakahara to have nothing to do with us.I hate the trouble the ability has brought me, and I have to admit that it has also brought me many irreplaceable things.In every short light and shadow, I believe that the world has a beautiful side.

Suddenly, an arm was held in front of his eyes, and there was only a hazy blackness left in his vision.

It was Dazai's bandage covering my eyes.

"After that, don't look back."