After I divorced from chaos step

Osamu Dazai has a bad relationship with Chuya Nakahara.

The first time I knew they were not compatible was at my wedding with Ranpo, the enthusiastic and cheerful Osamu Dazai drank Nakahara Nakaya a lot of wine, and then abandoned him by the pool.

When Nakahara Nakaya by the pool woke up drunk, he was cursing and calling Dazai Osamu.

But I don't have many opportunities to contact them, and I don't know what kind of grievances they have.Out of curiosity, I asked Luanpo, and Luanpo said that they knew each other before, and if I asked further, he told me to leave it alone.I'm not a particularly gossip person, so I didn't pay too much attention.

"You bastard, are you lying again?"

Nakahara Chuya's face was contorted, the veins on his forehead were twitching, and he seemed out of breath.

"Liar?"

I turned my head to look at Osamu Dazai, he leaned back behind me, shrinking his neck.

The voice became quieter, and the voice trembled.

"Qingxi sauce, he and I have a personal grudge..."

Zhong Yuanzhong is not deaf, of course he could hear it, and he immediately exploded: "What personal grievances? Do you mean that I have slandered you? You subsidize poor students to go to school? Then I will volunteer in the Heroes Association!"

"Zhongye, there is a height limit for volunteers in the Heroes' Association."

"What the hell do you mean?!"

My blank gaze swept back and forth between Dazai Osamu and Nakahara Chuya, one was full of grievances, the other was furious.

What the two of them said was completely contradictory, and one of them must be lying.

But these two people have helped me a lot.

... none of them are bad guys.right.

Finally my eyes fell on Osamu Dazai's face.

"Dazai-kun, let me ask you, is it true that you don't have money to spend and become a rascal because you subsidize all your wages to poor students?"

Before Dazai Osamu could answer, Nakahara Chuya had already answered for him: "How could he do such a thing? He didn't even go to school himself!"

After Zhongyuan Zhongya finished speaking, the alley fell into a long silence.

Only the crows flying over the roof made a few babbling calls.

"laugh."

It was Osamu Dazai's chuckle that broke the deadlock.

It was a laugh of acknowledgment.

I froze, and felt that the blood all over my body was slowly rushing to my brain.

Didn't he claim to have graduated from high school and was admitted to university, but was cheated by Tuosi to pay off the debt, so he failed to go to university?

He also said that he had excellent grades and had served as a cadre.

"Dazai, didn't you say that you have excellent grades?" I asked, "You were a cadre!"

"Well, I did become a cadre." Osamu Dazai said slowly, "But I'm not a class cadre, but a mafia cadre, and my grades are considered excellent. After all, I am called the youngest cadre in history."

He slowly raised his eyes, and the usual vigor and joy were swept away. These iris-colored eyes became extremely deep, which was a kind of deep indifference that was almost black, as if nothing could shine into them. bottomless abyss.

really weird.

In this way, he gradually overlapped with the expression of the child who was held in Mr. Jin's arms when he was a child.

The image of the young man with a hearty smile who passed through the long years was shattered one by one and disappeared one by one.

Only the original him and the present him are left.

As if only these two were real.

I couldn't help thinking of what Mr. Jin said to me, don't go to Dazai unless it is absolutely necessary.

... At first I thought he didn't want me to trouble others all the time.

Thinking about it now, Mr. Jin probably meant something else.

"Is what you said true?" I looked into Dazai's eyes and asked word by word.

He still had in his hand those oranges and cakes I had brought for him.He shook his hand, and the bag twirled leisurely under his fingertips.

"Well, it's true. This guy and I," he pointed at Chuya Nakahara, "we used to be partners. You can ask him if you don't believe me."

Seeing his casual attitude, I became even more angry: "Then why did you lie to me to go to school? You also said that you didn't go to college because you didn't have money! What will happen if you tell the truth? If you don't go to school, you don't go to school!"

I'm not discriminating against the Mafia.The Rats of the House of Death I am in are worse than the Mafia.

But he lied.

He said that he went to school, became a cadre, got excellent grades, and finally missed college because he had no money.He made up those experiences with twists and turns, bizarre and progressive.

He packaged himself as a cheerful and optimistic young man.The young man's only regret is that he didn't go to college, so he used his meager salary to support poor students-the lie he made up just a second ago has been exposed in the next second.

"It's just a lie, it depends on your own mood." Dazai raised the corners of his lips, his brows and eyes curved into a smile, "Qingxi sauce, you are so angry, didn't you tell a lie?"

I choked on his words, took a step back, and covered my mouth.

I was afraid that if I got angry, I would fight with him, and I was also afraid that I would swear at others.

I did tell a lie.

And more than once.

Dazai approached, his kite-colored pupils seemed to be able to see into the deepest part of people's hearts.

"Do you really just want the lives of ordinary people?"

Ever since I got the power, in order to avoid the fate of being supervised by the government, I have become timid.Jin took me to witness the scene where someone was ruthlessly obliterated after being runaway with supernatural powers. He asked me, do you want to control your own destiny?

I said yes.

Want to be an ordinary person, want to live an ordinary and stable life - in fact, that is my minimum love for life.

Because of a series of changes: my grandfather disappeared unexpectedly, my father lost his powers and part of his memory because of others, and the only two omnipotent people left me. Feared, for the most basic survival, I gradually forgot what I once wanted.

I was longing, sparkling.

I want to be a... big hero like All Might.Indomitable, invincible.

There is nothing he can't do.

[I'm fine now, I want to ask why.Because I am here! 】

That passionate line, I also want to say it very loudly in my lifetime.

——It’s all right now, I want to ask why.because i'm here...

"Qingxi!"

I didn't wake up until Yukimura's voice came, and I blushed silently for what I had just thought.

...I'm really too greedy.

I still want to be a person like All Might, I am lucky that I am not going to sit in the game now.

When Yukimura met Dazai, his expression was not so friendly.

"Ah, Qingxi sauce, do you want to rent the house on the first floor of my house? It's cheap." Dazai changed the topic in a blink of an eye, "You can move in with your bags, you can live first and pay later, the neighbor next door has super fast internet speed. Come on. !"

"No!" Nakahara Chuya and Yukimura Seichi said in unison.

The two were silent, and then looked at each other.Zhong Yuan Zhong also asked first: "Did you make a mistake? How can you rent his house?"

The defense against Dazai is like a scourge.

"Why can't I rent my house? The roof is not leaking and the facilities are complete. You have too much prejudice against me." Dazai kicked the stones under his feet dejectedly, "Chuya, do you think Qingxi sauce lives in Where is it more suitable for you? You are a mafia and will be discussed by your subordinates."

"Shut up!" Zhong Yuanzhong also yelled at him.

"I don't think you are suitable." Yukimura's tone was milder than Nakahara Chuya's, but his attitude was firm, "I will take care of Qingxi's matter, so I won't bother you two."

"Who are you?" Nakahara Chuya glanced at Yukimura angrily, "What does it matter to you whether I intervene or not?"

"Keep your voice down, Chuya. This is your leader's favorite tennis star, don't scare him." Dazai blinked his eyes, "However, if the Son of God lives with Qingxi-chan, I'm afraid it's not suitable , after all, the star halo on your body will bring troubles to ordinary people. In short, living with the two of you is not as safe as renting my house."

He held one hand in the shape of a microphone, pressed it to his lips, and said in an exaggerated tone, "The neighbor's internet speed is really super fast~ Qingxi sauce, where are you going?"

Three eyes fell on me at the same time, and I felt a headache.

In fact, I don't want to go to any of these three places.For Osamu Dazai, if he really wanted to earn tuition fees for poor students, then I would be extremely happy. I would pay him and have a place to live, which is a win-win situation.

But now it seems that he is just playing me.

Whether he has a house or not doesn't matter.

I've troubled Nakahara Chuya and Yukimura Seiichi many times. One of them is a mafia cadre and the other is a tennis star. Both of them will cause inconvenience to my life.

Zhong Yuanzhong also curled his lips: "I live in more than one place, you can choose one at random. I promise that Granny Hanamaru will help you find a place to live."

I smiled wryly and shook my head: "Grandma Hanamaru would never say something like that, she won't take me in herself."

"..."

"But she's right. I have hands and feet. I can support myself. You don't have to worry about a place to live. I can find it."

When I said this, I was very firm.I've always been dumb and didn't know how to express my determination.

But I don't want to blindly accept help from others.I don't want to owe too much favor, I will pay it back.

Compared with the black card that Chuya Nakahara lent me, I prefer the job opportunity that Marui Bunta gave me.

Yukimura, who had been silent for a long time, said, "Qingxi-chan, I have a friend who is looking for a roommate. She is about the same age as you, and she is a girl. It is more convenient to share a room. I contacted her just now, and Marui also said you It's time to get off work, would you like to go and have a look now?"

I looked at him, his brows and eyes were slightly bent, and under the orange sunset, there was a touch of tenderness.

I heard a soft "hmm" from myself.

He had already turned around, the radiance of the setting sun was on the coat on his shoulders, and his whole body was coated with brilliance, making him look glistening.

"Let's go."

……

How long has it been since I walked with Yukimura like this?

When I was young, I liked to follow Yukimura, stepping on his shadow with strides, repeatedly crushing the sunsets of countless streets.

He always looked ahead in silence, and looked back at me from time to time to make sure I hadn't gotten lost because of my naughtiness.

When we were teenagers, we fell in love, and he led me through the streets of Kamakura.When training is not busy, I will also take me to try those dim sum shops recommended by Marui Bunta.Holding his tennis racket, I stretched my neck at the door of the store, waiting for him to come out after buying Taiyaki.

By the way, there are also those members of Lihai University, they will play tracking from time to time, and gossip about us in good faith. At this time, Yukimura will always be naughty like a child, holding my hand and turning around in the alley Turned, and finally left the group of people far behind.

The air at that time exuded a fresh plant smell, mixed with the sweetness of Taiyaki, and stayed in my memory together.

"Qingxi."

Yukimura stopped suddenly and called my name.

I turned my head to look at him.

In front is an apartment building, not high-end, but a very ordinary apartment building. He pointed to one of them: "It's on the twentieth floor there. I sent her an email."

We came as two people. Osamu Dazai went to bed early and woke up early, and Chuya Nakahara went to work first. I promised him that I would let him know when he settled down.

"How have you been all these years?"

Yukimura is worthy of being Yukimura, he is always so gentle, unlike others, although he speaks with good intentions, but he can't avoid the word divorce.

I myself don't think divorce is so miserable, at most it is saying goodbye to a life and starting a new life.

But my mother felt that my world would collapse after divorce.

"It's okay..." I heard myself sigh softly in my heart, "It's not very good."

I don't want to say it again.

A good life will not be like this.

In the past, I always said yes in order not to worry others.

Say anything.

But now, I want to be honest.

"I'm not smart enough, I'm always being a donkey. My friends have also lost contact. People in Russia are not very friendly. Someone called me Little Japan. I thought it was friendly and called me Japanese sauce~ but I later realized that it was scolding." mine."

I was afraid that Yukimura would ask me why I had to go abroad, why I ran out without even saying hello.

But if Yukimura asked that, it wouldn't be him.

"Just come back. In our own country, no one will call you Japanese sauce."

"...Well." Actually, Japan Sauce sounds cute, if the tone can be better.

"If you have any questions, you can talk to Marui, or you can tell me. You are the cutest little manager in Lihai."

He laughed, and I laughed too, and suddenly remembered another question.

"Yukimura, when I entrusted Dazai to break up with you, what did he tell you?"

I originally thought that Dazai would discredit me for cheating, but now it seems that it is definitely not.

As soon as this question came out, Yukimura suddenly stopped in his tracks.

I suddenly had an ominous feeling.

"please tell me."